Chapter 50 Section 4

At noon, when I arrived at the coffee shop, Lu Licheng was already there, sitting in the seat where we first met. Seeing me limping, he smiled, "Your old injury hasn't healed yet, why did you get a new injury?" I sat across from him and said eagerly: "Please promise me one thing. Please help me change a department, I can go anywhere." He took a sip of his coffee and said lightly, "Okay, I'm just short of people at the end of the year." I was relieved, "Thank you! Thank you!" He was drinking coffee and eating a sandwich in silence. The waiter came over and asked me what I wanted. I pointed to what he ordered and said absently, "Same as him."

My eyes unconsciously turned out of the window, but I happened to see the figure of the person I was most familiar with, wearing a black coat, walking out of the glass door, with his head half down, looking preoccupied, his figure condensed with vague sadness . Although I feel heartache when I see him, I can't bear to look away.Never thought that one day even seeing him would become a luxury.But now, in this unknown corner, I can still gaze at him. Lu Licheng's voice suddenly rang out: "Did you come here last time to see him?" My heart was shocked, and I wanted to deny it subconsciously, "I don't understand what you are talking about..." But I immediately woke up again.He has seen too many of my scandals, and knows too many of my secrets, denying him is just superfluous.

The waiter brought my coffee and sandwich, and I started eating with my head down, avoiding the embarrassment of speaking. Lu Licheng looked at me silently, I looked up at him, but his eyes suddenly moved away, as if he was avoiding me.I was surprised that this was not his character, but he looked at me again and said with a bit of sarcasm in his eyes: "I will transfer you here as soon as possible." I know he is laughing at me for trying so hard to get close to Song Yi, but now I am trying so hard to stay away from him—it's really ironic. "thanks!" I called the waiter to check out, "I'll pay the bill!"

Lu Licheng didn't argue with me, and pointed to the waiter that I only took a few bites of the sandwich, "Pick it up." I wanted to object, but before I could speak, he said, "Just because you're not hungry now doesn't mean you won't be hungry later." Numerous practical experiences have proved that the result of my dispute with Lu Licheng is that I lose, so I decided to silently accept his decision. Lu Licheng was very efficient, and I was notified the next day that I was seconded to his department.When cleaning up the desk, Peter and the others came to help, said goodbye to me, and said happily, "See you tomorrow!" The New Year is coming, and everyone is in a very good mood.

From the time I packed my things to the time I left, Song Yi was in the office all the time, there was no usual farewell, no polite goodbye, from the beginning to the end, he didn't say a word about this matter. After I was seated at my new table, Young came over to talk to me.Thinking of a few months ago, as if in a dream, I went around in a big circle, and I went back to the same place.But at that time it was a longing full of hope, but now it is an escape full of despair. I was feeling sad when Helen came in and told us to go to a meeting. Lu Licheng said there was a shortage of manpower.Sure enough, there was a shortage of manpower, and when they came out of the conference room, everyone looked serious, and they had no intention of joking.If you don't go all out, I'm afraid this year's Spring Festival will be uncomfortable, so everyone would rather suffer a little bit now, and have a good rest in the new year.

The heavy workload leaves me no time to be sad, and I feel busy, busy, busy every day! In the evening, I often work overtime until late at night, but there is no one on the other side of the computer to accompany me. MSN has not been on for a long time, even I have deleted its shortcut from the desktop. On the weekend night, I finished the analysis form at hand, but it was still early, I stared at the display screen for a while, and for some reason, I clicked on MSN.Maybe it's because this kind of night is too lonely, the missing is like a shadow, there is nowhere to escape, it makes me want to read what he once said; maybe it's because it's only past ten o'clock, as a person with a girlfriend, it's impossible to appear in On the Internet, so I feel safe and bold to indulge my thoughts.

Unexpectedly, his avatar turned on, and a dialog box popped up, "I thought you would never log in again." It was as if I saw him suddenly in reality. I was at a loss and just wanted to run away, so I clicked on the fork immediately and closed MSN.But after a while, I couldn't control myself, and logged in to MSN again, but this time I chose to display as offline. He didn't send me any more messages, but his avatar was always on.I stared at his head, as if staring at his back.I always have to be behind him before I can look at him with confidence.In the future, we will inevitably continue to deal with each other. Should I just avoid him like this forever?

I turned my avatar back on, and it showed that I was online, "Sorry, just logged in, the computer suddenly crashed, and I was disconnected." "It doesn't matter." I smiled at the computer screen, what a polite conversation! He asked me: "How are you lately?" "Very good! Thanks to Lu Licheng, I don't even have time to connect to the phone, so I don't have much time to think too much." I knew what he was asking tactfully, so I also tactfully told him the answer he wanted to hear. After a long time, he said, "Sorry, I didn't know you and Lian Shuang were good friends."

"What does that have to do with whether we're friends?" "I didn't know how to face you, so I fled to Singapore." No!What I need is not an explanation!I bit my lip and typed on the keyboard: "If you really feel sorry, I want to ask you a question." "You ask." "Have you ever liked me?" There was a dead silence on the computer screen, and I continued to ask unwillingly: "Have you ever really liked me? Even just a little bit." Still no reply.I lay on the table with a wry smile and typed one letter at a time: "Don't be embarrassed, I think you have already told me the answer. Anyway, thank you, you gave me the most beautiful and happiest dream in the world , although I have nothing after waking up from the dream, but in the dream, I was extremely happy!"

I click close, exit MSN, and turn off the computer. I went to the window and opened the curtains. There were thousands of lights in front of my eyes, but I was alone.I picked up my phone and wanted to talk to someone, but I didn’t know who to call. I couldn’t confide my thoughts to the only friend I could talk to, so I had to fiddle with the phone and play the ringtone for myself. The wind blows fiercely in the field, ignoring people's pain, as if trying to empty everything out.Although the past is dusty, the old fireworks are like neon lights tonight.Maybe in a certain time and space, a certain fallen dream has been secretly left in my heart for several lifetimes.Waiting for a turn of the mind, waiting for a surge of love, and meeting you in another life.Who can be indifferent, like the unchanging sky... It's useless not to think about it, if the tide of emotion is surging, who can calmly let go of the trace of love easily.Like the turbulence of the waves, like the melting of ice and snow, the heart only cares about swaying secretly, but the past life is far away, and the next life has not been seen yet, if the love is deep, who can care about the pain...

Tonight, the neon lights of the city were shining, and I stood in front of the window, using my mobile phone to play songs to myself over and over again, until the battery ran out.