Chapter 52 Chapter Fifty-Two
The red lotus is only born to evil fire,
Bodhi casts a mirror heart.
Even if the hibiscus blooms day and night,
It's hard to find when Shen Yan wakes up from a dream.
"Fourth sister," someone took my hand with a cold hand, drew a word on the palm of my hand, and then pointed to the word and said, "These two words read hibiscus."
I opened my eyes, and the boy in the breeze was sitting beside me in a homely blue shirt.
Seeing that I was awake, he picked up a branch in one hand and scratched the two words that I was familiar with on the ground. His smile was like a bay of clear water flowing through my heart.
I admired it, then stretched my waist, and thought to myself: beauty is beauty, but unfortunately, this buddy is too much like my aunt who is a Chinese teacher in elementary school. If he catches me, he will teach me how to read .
I lazily replied: "Second brother, I know."
He stopped his hands, fixed his Sirius-like eyes, and smiled at me.
I suddenly realized that this was a dream, so I stared at him blankly.He...is the second brother named Ming Xuri.I was a little bit bewildered thinking that the waves of light were flowing on his clean and handsome face, and I called out in discomfort: "Second brother, how are you now?"
He was still smiling, warm and peaceful like a spring breeze.
"Light Qian," a cool figure on the other side of the creek vaguely emerged in the morning light, waving at Ming Xu Ri, vaguely discerning that it was Yuan Feiyan, she showed the sweetest smile to Ming Xu Ri, "Let's go."
He gradually let go of my hand, and said earnestly, "Jiulang will leave me to you."
I smiled and nodded, "Second brother, don't worry, Chongyang is a smart kid, he actually knows how to protect himself better than anyone else."
He nodded in relief, stood up slowly, patted the dust on the blue shirt, looked at me with melancholy eyes, "Don't look back."
I was stunned, but he touched my head helplessly and dotingly, and said with a smile: "Even if the hibiscus flowers are blooming day and night, it is hard to find Shen Yan once he wakes up from a dream." After he finished speaking, he walked towards Yuan Feiyan without looking back. go.
I couldn't help but follow him into the creek where I wash clothes all the year round, but I didn't want to step into darkness with one step.
A suffocating darkness and silence, with occasional strange sighs wafting from my ears.In front of my eyes, there were faintly a few shimmering bright reds floating towards me. I raised my hand and grabbed it, and it turned out to be a hibiscus petal!
There are more and more petals, and those sighs are getting sadder and heavier, and my heart is inexplicably sad.
I fumbled in the direction where the petals were coming from, but I saw a huge hibiscus tree standing not far away.I have never seen such a big hibiscus tree. It can't be hugged by several people. The branches and leaves are flourishing on the crown, green and green, with broken silver light. The flowers in the green leaves are three colors, red like rouge, white Like fine snow, rich purple, petals fall like rain, and the fragrance is elegant, just feel beautiful, like smoke and dream.
Under the tree, there was a man in white clothes, with his head on one hand, resting with his back to me.
By the way, I haven't dreamed of Zifu for a long time, and I was thinking about how to greet Duan Yuerong for his sake, and what kind of greeting I should say.
But having said that, since the change of Gongyue City, after placing Zishang on my heart in a dream, it seems that I haven't seen it much again.
I was thinking wildly, but the figure in white slowly turned over and turned towards me.I put on a smile and was about to say hello to him, but the smile just froze there.
I have dreamed of Zifu’s resting posture under the hibiscus tree countless times, and I have heard him smile softly and say to me countless times: “You are here.”
The person in front of him is of the same stature as Zifu, wearing the same style and color of white clothes as Zifu, and the same type of black hair hanging down, but this person is not Zifu.My heart hurts inexplicably.
The face of this person is exactly the same as the face of the gods and gods seen in the Ziling Palace, that is, the same as the current emperor and my husband, Yuan Feibai. However, the sacred and peaceful aura around him is more like the temperament of the gods and gods that day.
I made up my mind, and thought to myself, didn't the Emperor Taizu say before that, as a descendant of the protoss, the Yuan family still has some supernatural powers that can lull people into dreams. Could it be that my husband missed me, so he summoned me into dreams?
I felt a little ridiculous, so I walked over quietly.Hey, there was a pair of shiny armor at his feet, and on the armor was a shining giant sword, all of which were the bright armor and weapons of that day.
His sleeping face was slightly disturbed, and his beautiful sword eyebrows were slightly frowned.In the past few days, Feibai has been writing memorials every day until the fourth watch, and often falls asleep on the table, with such an uneasy sleeping appearance.I sighed secretly in my heart, and seeing a cloak next to me, I picked it up and covered it for him.
I noticed that the corner of this cloak was embroidered with a hibiscus pattern with sharp petals and flowers as bright as blood.
I thought to myself, I have never seen such a beautiful hibiscus pattern before, and I will really embroider a corner of Feibai's regular clothes later, but I don't know if I can embroider it as well as this one.
Suddenly, the man opened his eyes and stared at me with a pair of bloody eyes, full of anger and murderous intent, grumbling like a devil, and said, "What are you doing?"
I woke up completely startled.
A scar-faced man with a stiff expression in front of me was yelling in my ear: "What are you doing? What did you do last night? Why have you been so depressed all day?" He yelled at me: " Ben Gong finally got out, and you are so neglectful of me?"
I rubbed my ears and eyes, got up, and heard the shouts of construction workers on Fujun Street.
What a strange dream, what am I doing?By the way, today is the day when Sima Yun sneaked out of the dark palace to reconcile accounts with me, why did I fall asleep while watching?
The cold face on the opposite side threw a white scarf at my face unceremoniously.I took it dully and looked at him puzzled.He pointed at my mouth angrily, "Drool!"
I woke up completely, lowered my head in embarrassment, and wiped my lips quickly.
Just as he was about to return the white scarf and sincerely apologize to him, he snorted coldly: "It's no wonder that the Holy Majesty is now devoted to politics, and has not favored the empress for many days. Does the empress serve the emperor with this attitude?"
Hey, this brat can poke my pain point every time.I swallowed the words of apology, and I squinted my eyes at him, "No wonder the Sima family has been trapped until now. Is the palace master serving the dark palace master with this attitude?"
He looked up to the sky and laughed loudly, "Joke, I am the master of the dark palace, who are you?"
I raised my eyebrows and raised my right hand to show him the Hetian jade finger on my thumb, "This is a token of the Yuan clan's dark palace that has been handed down for nearly a thousand years. Seeing this token is like meeting the head of the Yuan clan."
The veins on Sima Yun's forehead twitched for a while, his ears turned red and his neck became thick for a while, and finally he squinted at me, "The late Emperor must have lost his mind when he was dying, so he gave such an important token to a woman like you."
"I don't know if the late emperor's brain was flooded, but if you offend your golden master, I think your brain will be flooded."
"Presumptuous." He slapped the Huanghuali table heavily.
I was shocked, my heart was a little uncomfortable when I just had a nightmare, I got angry from my heart for a moment, and I got angry, so I also stood up, imitated his example, slapped the table hard, and squinted at him. Yan shouted harshly: "You are presumptuous."
Oh!It hurts so much from clapping my hands... I decided to drop the cup next time.As I was thinking about it, I felt the wind blowing towards my ear, and the fingers of a girl with a cold face like a flower and jade green onion were already pointing towards my throat.Another handsome man beside me split the woman's palm horizontally, and the atmosphere in the air suddenly became solemn.
Xiao Zhong, who was dozing off under the table, slipped out and barked unhappily at the people on the other side of the dark palace.
Sima Yun squinted at Xiao Zhong, then looked at Qi Fang in front of him, and said disdainfully, "Good dogs don't get in the way."
Hey, it's too bad for you to swear.
"Nianyifang's buddy is getting more and more arrogant." Qi Fang didn't get angry, he just stood in front of me, and fought back and forth with the woman's eye knife for a while, "Since you have joined the Jun family, don't forget that everyone who joined the gang The Jun Clan Group must abide by the Jun Clan's laws, the first rule is not to be rude to the Jun Clan's patriarch, and the heroes of the Dark Palace please remember."
"Que'er is presumptuous." Sima Yun shouted at the beautiful girl from the iceberg, and killed me with cold eyes, "When did the Sima family join the Jun family?"
I pulled La Qifang and swallowed, "Xiao Fang said Jun's investment in Sima's Nianyifang. In business, it's not Sima's that counts as Jun's?" I pulled the collar again , wiped off the cold sweat, and waved my jade bone fan vigorously.People suffering from claustrophobia are really scary. This Sima family is more violent than Yuan's people.
He narrowed his eyes and looked at me for a long time, then said coldly: "Que'er, step back."
After retreating from the crowd, his veins twitched for a while, finally sat down, gritted his teeth and said, "You are getting more and more arrogant now."
In fact, he was right, what happened to me recently?
"I'm sorry, I don't know why I've become so popular recently." I made a bow to him, rubbed my temples vigorously, smiled dryly, and called out: "Xiaoyu, serve the most expensive tea, and my most expensive tea." The tea utensil I love, I will apologize to the uncle."
He suddenly shot like lightning and squeezed my wrist lightly.I couldn't move at once, and I moved it after a long while. I wanted to throw the teacup, but it happened that I let Xiaoyu put the best blue and white on it, so I had to slap the table hard again, and shouted: "What do you want to do?"
But he looked out of the bustling window and said coldly: "It's a pity, I'm still not pregnant."
I blushed all of a sudden, he definitely hurt me on purpose.
At this moment, Xiaoyu came in, served us tea with breathless voice, watched nervously the two of us sitting in the room, separated by a distance, with cold eyebrows.
When Xiaoyu went out, I snorted coldly, turned my head abruptly, and looked out the window.The paint of the new buildings on Fujun Street was mixed with the aroma of cherry blossoms. I stuck my head out of the window, and I heard the sound of workers working hard, and a bright red cherry blossom petal floated above my head.It is another season of vigorous spring, which confirms that the new dynasty in the Yuande period has entered the track.
Emperor Yuande made great efforts to bring order to justice, first of all to bring order out of chaos, and rehabilitated a series of major unjust, false and wrong cases in the Yuanchang period, including the largest flower marriage case and the Fujun Street fire case at that time. Scholars, change the extravagant style of Taizu in his later years, start from the harem, reduce the salary, release the maids in advance, order the palace people to open up the imperial vegetable garden, minimize the tribute paid by the common people, and seldom have banquets. Frugality.
At the same time, he was lenient to the political enemies of the year, and his tolerance and charm also eased the tense political atmosphere in Taizu's later years, and he was praised by historians in later generations, whether it was Qian Yijin of the Dongxian King's party, or Zhu Yingjiu, the concubine's party, was relieved and devoted his attention wholeheartedly to his hard-working work, rather than crony disputes.The lesson of blood told them that there is only one real master of the Dayuan Dynasty.
The young woman in the boudoir doesn't know how to worry, and she puts her makeup on the emerald building in spring.
Suddenly seeing the color of willows on the street, I regret to teach my husband and son-in-law to find a Marquis.
It's a pity that my great husband was too focused on his great career, and completely neglected our family life. He almost wrote memorials every night until the fourth watch, and when he arrived at the bedroom, he almost fell beside me and fell into a deep sleep , sleep in a hurry for a few hours, and then get up before the cock crows, let alone make a man now, sometimes I can’t even talk to him for a day, at night, I look at his tired sleeping profile, My heart is infinitely disappointed.
I began to worry about his health, so I asked Lin Biyan, who had been promoted to imperial physician, for help.
Lin Biyan looked very difficult and smiled reluctantly.He sighed to me, this is not a medical problem, the current Holy Majesty has not only fulfilled his promise to protect me, but also has the whole world in his hands, he can no longer control himself.
At first I felt that his answer was a bit irrelevant. After all, I hadn’t discussed the patient’s condition and symptoms with Dr. Lin in detail. I didn’t want Lin Biyan to look at me and hesitate for five seconds, and then said in a tactful manner with a little embarrassment, “From On the other hand, this is also good for His Majesty, originally with His Majesty's body, that, that married life should not be too much."
Is the old man a veteran and a genius doctor? He saw through me right away.I blushed and let out a long oh, turned around and walked out of the hospital.Qi Fang and Qing Mei were hiding in the corner holding hands, talking about something with a smile, when they saw me coming out, they immediately separated, Qing Mei rarely lowered her head shyly.
I looked at Qingmei's increasingly plump and beautiful face, squeezed out a smile, and said in a drawn out voice, "Doctor Lin said everything is fine."
I'm really embarrassed to tell them that our family doctor thinks my husband has ED, which is actually a good thing...
Later, I kept comforting myself, maybe this is fate, if there is no child, there will be no child!Anyway, there were more and more DINK families in my previous life. I myself was always busy with work, and Tong Changan couldn't conceive a child—maybe this was also a reason for his cheating.
Bad memories flooded my mind, and I later decided I shouldn't be greedy.Originally, when I was with Feibai, I lost Duan Yuerong and Xiyan who had been waiting for me for eight years, as well as many, many students, friends and associates. I gave up everything in exchange for staying with Feizi. Guarding Yuan Feibai, who was alive and kicking, was actually a blessing from the heavens.
So I also shifted the focus of my life to Jun's.
The post-war large-scale reconstruction projects across the country began to provide job opportunities for a large number of refugees, making the economy start to function normally and healthily.The reconstruction of Fujun Street is proceeding in an orderly manner, thanks to Sima's family-inspired skills.They are indeed the builders of the legendary Tiangong, and they restored more than half of Fujun Street in just a few months, which is comparable to the speed of China in my previous life. Not only that, but I also deeply suspect that it is branded with German quality, because I actually found out that they built a huge tunnel under Fujun Street. At first I thought it was the Sima family who secretly built the tunnel, but Sima Yun laughed at him, "This is a sewer built according to the specifications of the imperial city. Where do you want to go?"
ah?Such a large sewer!It is no wonder that Xingqing Palace and Ziqi Palace have never been flooded.
I am embarrassed to say yes.But he changed the subject, "Of course, if you want to change it into a secret passage for secret walking... that's fine too..."
I had a hair in my heart at the time.The members of Sima's family also like digging tunnels too much, just like moles, "Palace master... kindness, I appreciate it."
I knew in my heart that this was a well-intentioned act of Mrs. Sima, but it caused a serious overrun, so I had today's friendly meeting, but it seems that I messed it up.Alas, could it be that my endocrine disorder?
I withdrew my thoughts, turned back, and wiped the cherry blossom petals on my face. The Guantao Residence not far away was about to be completed. A thin, slender engineer was measuring the level with a white face, followed by a The little girl with sky braids, about four or five years old, was wearing a red dress and was running around laughing wildly.I recognize her, this is Sima Xiao and his only daughter, the chief of the twelve engineers recommended to me by Sima Yun.
I cheered up and decided to resume today's meeting with a professional spirit. I personally poured a cup of tea for Sima Yun, put on a smile, and mentioned this issue as tactfully as possible, hoping to reduce personnel expenses. The reconstruction project of Fujun Street is approaching. At the end, it is suggested that some engineers can be sent back first.
Sima Yun was obviously displeased and said: "The twelve skilled craftsmen here are the most powerful craftsmen of our Sima family. Since the queen has decided to gradually turn Fujun Street into a shelter for the next generation of Sima, please let them do more for Fujun Street. Do some. Most of them have a new generation, and they are for their children, and they can also take this opportunity to stay a little longer in this sunny place."
I think he is still angry at my rudeness just now, and he choked on the words of accusations that seriously exceeded the budget, so he swallowed and said, "Okay, let's talk about it later."
I got up and was about to say goodbye, but he was still reclining face to face, "I heard that the courtiers complained a lot about His Majesty's doting on the Empress."
It seemed that someone threw a throwing knife at my back, and I looked at him blankly.
He snorted lightly through his nose, "Isn't that why you can't eat and sleep well?"
I sneered at him and decided not to communicate with this demon.But he seemed to have found a good topic, and continued: "That Dou Ting is very opposed to the queen's secret control of the household department, and he strongly advises the youngest daughter of the Emperor Nachongnan Wang Xuanyuanke, Ruilan Princess Xuanyuan Rufen. That little girl I've seen it before, but the most commendable thing is that she is only thirteen years old this year, but she looks like an eighteen-year-old figure, with big breasts and wide buttocks, which is really suitable for a concubine."
It felt like someone had stabbed me in the back again.I grasped the cup in my hand and watched him joyfully gesticulating the girl's S-shaped figure.
He repeated his efforts: "Someone also recommends the Empress Dowager's cousin, Xingqing Wang Xiaomei, Princess Ruiguang of the former Dynasty, that is, Princess Xuanyuan Shuying of Ruiguang, who was originally married to the Minister of Rites of the former Dynasty. She was a new widow last year. Fifteen out of ten, she has a son and a daughter, but she is a first-class beauty in the Xuanyuan clan, and she was counted by Qiu Guoshi, and she is destined to have five sons."
I have a big ax on my back, so I wipe it.This group of people treats Feibai as a boar, even the widowed queen mother's cousin.
"Oh!" He seemed to think of it, "Also, even though King Dongxian did something bad, all the men involved in the case were beheaded for public display, and all the women and children in the family were enslaved by servants. Then Qiao Qianchan is the step-concubine of King Xixian, so But it is a famous beauty among the nobles. Everyone knows that the Niexian King is the like of Longyang. It is said that the beauty is still a virgin. No matter which family, the wife of any family is not safe, so they all encourage Dou Ting Send that beauty to the palace."
I couldn't help but secretly vomit blood for several liters, and said through gritted teeth: "That criminal woman, they also want to make up their minds?"
"You also understand that she is innocent and has always been secretly in love with the Holy Majesty in her heart." He grabbed a handful of melon seeds, put them in his mouth and began to nibble, "now she is so well guarded that the clouds can see the moon, and she can enter the palace to serve the Holy Majesty." .”
I asked Xiaoyu to put on the cloak for me, patted him on the shoulder and said, "Understood, I'll talk to Mr. Han later, and send Beauty Qiao to the dark palace for you."
His eyes lit up obviously, and he said excitedly: "Really?"
"You're so tall!" I pushed him away and left angrily.
So, the meeting ended badly.
Later, it turned out that fortunately, my questioning was choked up, and the money was arranged secretly by Mrs. Sima.Three days later, we met again at the newly built Taoju Branch of Fujun Street Pavilion. As usual, Sima Yun ordered the most expensive one very ungentlemanly. Admired from the bottom of his heart: "I never expected that your dark palace is so rich."
At first, he pretended to be cool and only smiled coldly.
I flattered myself on purpose: "I guess you don't always sleep on a bed, but it's actually all gold."
The flattery worked, he couldn't bear it any longer, he looked up to the sky and laughed arrogantly, "That's not true, it's just my private money."
I think we made up completely and had a pleasant exchange.With the opening of Nianyi Sauce Garden and Baicaoyuan Pharmacy during this period of time, and the reconciliation of the previous quarrel, Sima Yun and I became more and more familiar, so I was not afraid to ask, where did the private money come from? Life and death refused to say.
I was still thinking about the last time he intentionally angered me, so I provoked him maliciously. Could it be his dowry? He was furious and annoyed: "That's what I have saved up in my daily life."
"Ah!" Really!I couldn't help blurting out: "Could it be that there is your dowry in there?"
The expressionless face quickly turned towards me, only the phoenix eyes looked at me silently, but the roots of the ears turned red all of a sudden.My teasing mood suddenly turned into embarrassment and embarrassment, "Well, I'm sorry, I just said that casually."
Sima Yun snorted heavily at me, turned around and left.No matter how much I apologized later, he just ignored me.
The man was too moody.
This man's mental quality is too poor.
The man's nerves are too fragile.
This man's pain point is too low.
In short, the talks that day were a failure.I went back to Xifengyuan in a dull mood, thinking that tonight Feibai would discuss state affairs in Chongyuan Hall as usual, but I didn't want Feibai and Xiao Shangao's memorial to appear at the door tiredly during dinner.I piled up a smiley face, made four dishes and one soup for him myself, and ate together happily. I noticed that he ate very little, maybe I put less salt today.
He was wondering if he should ask someone to serve some pickles from Nianyifang, but Feibai took the initiative to mention, "I heard that the business of the Nianyi soy sauce garden newly opened by the Queen and Ah Yun is very good, why don't you let me try it too?"
I asked someone to serve some top-quality eight-treasure vegetables and crispy choy sum, made rice with Longjing tea, and handed them over as elegantly as possible.
Feibai was a little surprised, the frost between his eyebrows began to thaw, and he gradually ate with relish, and soon finished a bowl of Longjing rice, and sighed: "It's really delicious. When I was a child practicing martial arts in the dark palace, Mrs. Yaoji also gave me When I ate these pickles, I just thought they were delicious, but I never thought of linking them with the way of making money."
I didn't ask him how he knew about my joint venture with Ah Yun.Anyway, they could always find out more news in Yuan's territory.I'm worried that he came to share with me?Although the first emperor said before that the 50-50 share, this is considered to belong to the Sima family, but the Sima family is also considered to belong to the original family. Why do you want to share it with me?
Anyway, I didn't know how to eat this meal, and I laughed very embarrassingly.Soon, Weiwei and the others withdrew their seats.
We chatted lightly for a while, avoiding the topic of pickles as much as possible.I looked at Xiao Shangao's memorial, then looked at Fei Bai who was having a drink, and wondered why he didn't date the memorial today?
Just as he was about to mention the pile of memorials that looked particularly cute, Fei Bai suddenly sighed and said with a sigh: "Ah Yun is the same as Hibiscus in one thing. When he was young, he knew how to accumulate more. The New Year's money when he was a child, the late emperor's annual rewards and so on. , he asked me to help him take it outside the garden and exchange it for gold."
Hey, I really can't tell, this Sima Yun is quite good at saving money.In modern times, he is still an affordable man, and there really is his dowry in it!
I kept thinking stupidly.It's really good that people donated their dowry to help me rebuild Fujun Street. I was really impulsive today.
In the other room, Feibai smiled faintly, "Mu Jin and Ah Yun are more and more like a family."
I turned the corner slowly.He was obviously smiling, but the smile in his eyes was slightly condensed into frost flakes.
The situation is not good, the Persian cat is jealous.
Don't you think it's strange, this kid is so busy that he doesn't even have time to go to the toilet, even the married life is extinct, but he still has time to be jealous? !
I was about to speak, but with a sneer, he stood up gracefully, openly occupied my desk, opened the first memorial, and ignored me.
But I had no choice but to walk slowly to Concubine Xiang's couch, and read the account book seriously on the coffee table.
The house was very quiet, except for occasional chirping of weavers and frogs outside the window.
It's really like what I heard when Feibai and I took a walk at night when we were controlling the water in Yibin the year before last. Unfortunately, the situation at that time was much more romantic and warm than this one.
Now I just feel a little strangely lonely and weird.I sneaked a peek, and the person on the opposite side also put down the memorial, folded his hands gracefully, and said to me indifferently: "Mujin seems to be getting along very well with Ah Yun, what do you want to ask me?"
Come, come, obviously I don't want to say anything, but actually you want to say it.
"This plum soup is delicious. I heard that the imperial dining room stayed up all night." I took a sip and said casually. In fact, I thought this sour plum soup was far worse than Yao Ji's sour plum soup.
Suddenly remembered that the last time I went underground to see Yuan Fengding, there was also a cup of sour plum soup on his table.
Fengding was demoted as a commoner and should have been exiled to Cangzhou, but because of the royal blood, he was not pardoned for nothing, only cut off his title and put into the secret palace. In fact, he helped Yao Ji realize her long-cherished wish, and Yao Ji naturally wept with joy.However, since Fengding came to this underground world, he has been unhappy and has a loss of appetite. Yaoji often cooks for him, and in summer she makes sour plum soup to appetize him.According to Yaoji, both Sima Yun and Feibai love to drink the sour plums she pickled herself, and the sour plum soup made from sour plums, but Yuan Fengding didn't touch a drop of it. The hostility is very deep, and every day he just stares blankly at a broken gold finger cot.I think that should be a thought that Jinxiu entrusted to him.
While I was sighing, someone coughed lightly.Right and wrong!I retracted my thoughts in embarrassment, watching his eyes gradually turn cold, and realized that tonight might not be a peaceful night.
"Zunzhi!" I had no choice but to smile lightly and casually throw out a question, "May I ask your majesty, who is taller between A Yun and your majesty?"
"Oh!" He stroked his forehead lightly, picked up a memorial and looked at it: "He is your uncle."
Oh, sure enough, the uncles in the mansion are not easy to mess with.
I smiled at him extremely politely, "Understood."
I decided to change this slightly weird topic like Ah Yun himself, looked at a moon in the night sky, and said with a smile: "Actually, this sour plum soup is delicious with a bit of sweet and bitter lily cake. Why don't you ask someone to fetch it and share it with your majesty?" How about watching the moon together?"
"No need," he interrupted me quickly, "I don't like to accumulate food at night."
I looked at him and sighed slowly, and swallowed, "There's no need for that concubine, it's really not good to accumulate food." I lowered my head again, stopped looking at him, and was immersed in calculating how to drive the surrounding economy, and then It can make Jun's money.
After a while, an extremely elegant voice suddenly came from across the long table, "Fujun Street is almost restored, the twelve people should be able to go back."
Oh, sure enough, I found it.I raised my head, passed several piles of yellow books and ledgers piled up in the hills, and after several twists and turns, my sight reached the Emperor Tianren on the opposite side, and said with a smirk, "Your Majesty is indeed wise, and the little trick of my concubine has been discovered."
At this time, the "Flower Room" beside the emperor was emitting a pale yellow light, reflecting the face of heaven and man, and it felt as delicate and soft as an oil painting, but it was so beautiful that it was a bit unreal.
Since he came to the throne, Emperor Yuande swept away the extravagant style of Taizu's later years and practiced it personally. He only shared four dishes and one soup with me for each meal, and the candlelight was also halved.But I always feel that this is not good for Feibai's eyesight, so I designed a tall candlestick, and added a mercury surface behind the candle to increase the light by refraction, and made a desk lamp. He gave this desk lamp Name it "Huajian", and let people carry it with them.
He got up and blew out the "Flower Room", and walked over the heavy memorials and ledgers, and slowly came to me.I still kept smiling and lying on the table, looking at his heavenly and handsome face from far to near, my mood improved abnormally.There is no other reason, this is the first time I have been so close to him in the past two months.
Damn, I finally let you step down from the high throne, take care of your daily affairs, and settle down your tsundere brother me—your wife.
From another angle, I was secretly startled, am I obsessed with Yuan Fei to this extent?Even when he is near me, I feel happy.
"Mujin, I know that you have a sincere heart and always want to help the weak. Surely you should understand that the Dark Palace is not as weak as you imagined."
"You're talking about this," I gestured in handcuffs, referring to Sima He, "it's pretty scary, and it's not weak at all. I understand exactly what you mean. It's true that living under the sun all year It is inevitable that the spirit of the family will be depressed." I remembered that my uncle laughed pervertedly and chased me, and I couldn't help shivering, "But, I don't want my godson to live down there forever."
"Son?"
"Xiao Yu, it's your nephew, and my godson is also your godson."
Feibai smiled as before, "As expected of Hibiscus, I found out really clearly."
"Your Majesty is benevolent." I met non-white eyes and said ignorantly and fearlessly: "The Ming family has completely collapsed, and the Xuanyuan family has no decent heir at all. The people in the dark palace have paid a heavy price because of Sima Lian's betrayal." There are too many tragedies of the four major families, since the thirty-two-character mantra has already been fulfilled today when the Yuan clan enters the central palace, can't His Majesty end the tragedies of the four major families?"
Feibai's gaze was cold, as if we were meeting for the first time.I admit that I let the iced Persian cat freeze severely, and then I broke out of the ice like a penguin, shook the ice shards, and said boldly: "I checked the account books of the Ministry of Internal Affairs, and the Yuan family has to pay for the dark palace every year." The huge amount of internal money is used to maintain Sima’s living expenses and the annual maintenance cost of the dark palace. Now that the world is peaceful, we don’t care about these huge expenses.” I stood up and quickly opened a volume of books, all of which were rewards for nothing. The hero of the change of the Yuan Palace, the first one is Sima Yaoji, "Your Majesty, please see, the change of the Chongyuan Palace during the Yuanchang period was secretly assisted by Mrs. Yaoji of the Sima family, and Your Majesty resolved the change of the Chongyuan Palace; The density of people in the dark palace is already too high, which is really not conducive to management."
"Enough, the matter in the dark palace is not that simple." Yuan Feibai interrupted me abruptly, "I have been taught by Yin Zhongkui and Mrs. Yaoji since I was a child, and I was enforced family law in the dark palace for three years. I don’t know how difficult it is to live in the dark palace? The dark palace can’t be abandoned, absolutely not.” Yuan Feibai was full of the emperor’s coercion: “Some ancestral systems seem unreasonable and hurt human relations now. However, ancestors have their own reasons. Don't forget that Princess Pingning and Grandfather Ren are buried here. Their identities are extremely precious, and there are many valuable funerary artifacts in Ziling Palace, which require people with strong martial arts skills. The guardian, and Sima Shi is the one who knows the dark palace best and is the most powerful martial artist, so Sima Shi must not be liberated."
I don't believe that there is more money in the Ziling Palace than in your treasury, how many lifetimes do you need so many people to guard their families?
I got angry for a while, rectified in secret, and smiled, "At least some reliable people can be shifted to work at the same time, at least let them see the sunshine, at least some capable people can bathe in the grace of the Holy Spirit, For the benefit of the Holy One and the common people, we can start with these twelve people and their families."
"Ah Jun is not Duan Yuerong, so I will discipline him naturally, so you don't have to worry about it," Yuan Feibai snorted heavily, "Don't forget that you are my woman, and don't forget what Feijue learned back then."
This sentence deeply touched the hidden pain in my heart, and the taste of subordination was too strong.
I got up suddenly, looked at Feibai at a level, and said coldly: "Thank you for your advice, Your Majesty."
From this day on, I began to reject the useless dormitory, and moved to a new apartment on Fujun Street overnight. Xiaoyu naturally had nothing to do and had fun secretly, while Weiwei and Yanhua were worried.
Feibai didn't come to pick me up. I think he was too busy, so I just concentrated on the reconstruction project.
When Sima Yun came again, I stretched out my left palm to him and said, "It will take fifty years to liberate the Sima family."
He glared at me.
I said earnestly; "The revolution has a long way to go."
I put forward my plan to him: the last building on Fujun Street is almost finished, so I won’t see each other for a while, and half of the twelve people will return first. If they are willing, the children will stay here and join Hope Primary School first. At least it can make Fei Bai let go of his guard first - the iron fist of the new emperor is as indestructible as his tolerance.
I woke up suddenly.What's wrong with us?I was planning a conspiracy with my husband's younger brother. Maybe the original intention was good, but I set up a lot of defenses between Feibai and me.
Duan Yuerong's words on the Qixi Festival that year were reflected in my heart, and I felt cold.
Sima Yun stared at me intently. I guess I had a sad expression at the time. He looked at it for a long time, his eyes softened, and he sighed, "I understand."
I looked up in surprise, but I heard him say: "He doesn't want to share your attention with others, who told you to be with him after all, you can't sacrifice your relationship with Feibai for us." He patted me on the shoulder, "Maybe I overestimated your weight in his heart."
He succeeded in provoking me again. I was about to open my mouth, but he waved his hand slightly, "I remember you said to the late emperor that you don't like the life of intrigue, and you are not good at it. It's true."
He muttered something under his breath, but I heard it anyway, "I wish it was your sister."
I said displeased: "I'm sorry, I can't do what Jinxiu did, and I don't even bother to do that. I will use my own method to liberate Sima, just wait."
He chuckled softly, and sighed: "Forget it, your heart is softer than tofu... It's pretty good that you can survive in Yuan's house, let's be content."
Unconvinced, I said: "Today I will make an oath to you, I swear in the name of the patriarch of the Jun clan in Lanjun, one day I will change the status quo of the Sima clan, even if I can't do it, my students, my buddies, My descendants will definitely do it."
"Oh, then I'll wait for my next life." He teased me kindly, and then sighed sadly, "Anyway, I've always misjudged women in this life."
What's the mess?
“这十二个人的孩子就全都留在希望小学吧，其他的就交给我。”他从袖中掏出一个大金元宝，塞我手里。
平时他都很潇洒的，不带银子，特喜欢看我心痛地看着一桌佳肴就吃几口，然后被迫打包，可见这次是有备而来，可能是想同我庆祝，没想到变成了这样的结局。
他对我僵硬地笑道：“这回算我的，君大老板，也许这是我们最后一次见面了。”
我垂头丧气地回到西枫苑里，才发现苑子里早已点起璀璨的宫灯，可惜枕边人却仍不知在何处。我望着月色沉沉，开始对我曾经的负气出走感到后悔，但又对非白没有前来寻我感到伤心。
这两天里，我一直在西枫苑等着非白。按理非白应该对我的去向了如指掌，可为什么一点消息也没有呢？我便让青媚去请非白，青媚第一次面有难色地看着我，“其实早在娘娘回西枫苑时，卑职便告知陛下，可是陛下这几日夜夜通宵达旦地批奏折……”
我明白了，非白故意在躲着我。如果以前是我的错觉，那么这次非白是动真格地要疏远我了，这是为什么？
第二日，我听到青媚来密报，“昨夜皇上在崇南王府中……瑞兰郡主极擅箫，听说为陛下吹了一夜，现下群臣都暗议，陛下有意让瑞兰郡主入宫。”
我当时就觉得一阵天昏地暗的，手脚冰凉，便冷静地让姽婳去通知皇上，今天“申请”同皇上一起用饭，结果青媚兴冲冲地回来说道：“皇上说今夜要与太傅相商大事，不能过来了。”
我木然地看着她，不知她在乐什么。
不想她接着高兴地说道：“可是皇上说明晚会亲自前来同皇后赏月。”
青媚本就美艳，自从伤势好了，又有齐放的爱情滋润，她的双颊如燃玫瑰。
她的大嗓门把西枫苑上上下下全惊动了。女人陷入爱情，果然就完全不一样了。作为一个暗人，冷酷和专业二词一夜之间同青媚走得很远了。
不过我还是兴奋得一夜未眠，装扮一番，绾了时下的高髻，斜插一支琉璃镶金大风步摇，戴了一双水晶耳环，又换上月白对襟绫褙子，绣着红色梅花纹样，下配深青纱裙。
那天晚上大塬第二位天子如约亲临，他身着藕荷色九龙常服，双眉微皱地来到西枫苑。这夜一轮玉盘清照人间，只觉天地一片清明爽朗。
非白看了我一眼，对我淡淡一笑，“皇后可回来了。”
我一怔，没想到是这句话，条件反射道：“陛下也总算回来了。”
我正要传膳，非白却淡淡道：“不必了，今日朕宴请崇南王和瑞兰郡主，已于麟德殿用过膳了。”
我心中一紧，不由声音也冷了下来，“听说陛下最近常召瑞兰郡主进宫，陛下这是要纳郡主为妃吗？”
非白定定地注视着我许久，才慢慢开口道：“如果说是……不知皇后可有高见？”
我的喉间生生涌上一股血腥，我向非白走去，一字一句道：“求请陛下对臣妾再说一遍。”
“木槿，我……只是说笑的。”非白没有如我所愿，眼神闪过一丝慌乱，对我牵了牵嘴角，“今夜，朕本已传太傅和十八学士约在崇元殿进讲，今夜月色也不过如是，不如明日再来陪……”
我再也忍不住，大声打断他，“你为什么要这样折磨我？”
“你说什么？”非白捂着额头站了起来，剑眉紧皱，对于我的发飙仿佛十分无奈和隐忍。
“我是你什么人？”我强忍怒气，“我不稀罕什么大塬朝的狗屁皇后，可我是你的妻子，你为什么……要这样对我冷暴力？”
“何谓冷暴力？”
我根本不知道该说什么。我难道可以对他大吼，你他妈的为什么要这样对我？就算国事再忙，就算没有夫妻生活，难道你就不能对我好一点，对我说说话，对我展颜一笑？就算你要找别的女人，为什么不直接告诉我？
我噎在那里，万般委屈到了极点，我一时没忍住，哇地哭出声来，泪流满面，“我、我不求什么，只是想天天看到你高高兴兴的样子，想同你说说话，可是你……却跟我说这种混账话。”
他皱着眉向我快步走来，轻轻抱住了我。
我反手环抱上他后背，侧过脸来，深深吻住他，他一下子把我推开，凤目冒火地盯着我，好像充满了复杂的挣扎。
我的心落到了大海深处，抓着他袖子的手慢慢松了下来，悲凄道：“我现在全明白了，你没有开玩笑。如果我没有猜错的话，是因为我没法怀上你的孩子，所以你想娶别的女子为你生儿育女吧。”
他的凤目没有任何温度，一片灰暗，“如果是……你当如何？”
那年七夕，段月容的预言一下子变成了噩梦，活生生地展现在面前，还是这样残忍地由我的丈夫来一手表演。
我没有办法回答，泪水再一次流下来的同时，就想猛地推开他，然后永远地离开这座充满各种回忆的紫栖山庄，永远地离开这里所有的一切，永远地离开这个令我意乱情迷的同时把我的心剖成几万片的男人。
就在我放手转身的同时，他一下子把我拉了回来，双手抚上我的脸，擦着我的眼泪，用一种很奇怪的语气道：“去哪儿？去找谁？阿遽？还是段月容？”
什么乱七八糟的？
我恨恨地抽泣着，负气道：“我爱找谁就找谁，你管得着吗？”
他忽然面容扭曲起来，抓着我的手往死里用劲，恶狠狠道：“你敢？”
“你这个神经病！”我使劲推开他，退后一步，大声道：“我什么都不要，只是想陪在你身边，可是你要么就瞎疑心，要么召别的女人吹一夜狗屁箫，连话都不肯跟我说。你以为我花木槿是什么人？被你伤了心就一定要到段月容、到小叔子那里鬼混泄恨吗？在你心里我就是这样的女人？原非白，如果你真这么想我，我算白认得你，我们就算白爱一场了，我对你所有的情意也全都错付了。”
“段月容说过我早晚会死在你的手上，现在我还真信了，”我冲上前去，揪着他的衣领子，看着他的凤目，放声大吼，“你这个浑蛋，这一生，我除了孤独地心碎而死以外，还能做什么？”说到后来，早已泣不成声，哭花了所有的妆容。我使劲把他甩开，可能用力太大了，他被推倒退好几步，我自己也被甩在地上，撞痛了自己的肩膀，可是那时已经没有任何感觉，只觉心如凌迟，胜过一切，只能坐在地上掩面伤心痛哭着。
他一下子动了容，跑过来，蹲下来，紧拥我入怀。
我一边推着他、打着他，可是他的力气甚大，一下子抱紧我了，他吻着我的眼睛，笨拙地为我止着泪。
他的嘴唇轻拂着我的额头，埋在我的颈边，我听到他深深地叹息，“也罢，该来的就来吧。”
What's the meaning?
不容我多想，他开始吮吸着我的脖颈，急切地寻找着我的嘴唇，热烈而狠狠地吻上来。我一下子给吻蒙了。他急切地呢喃着我的名字，然后一下子把我压倒在冰冷的金砖上。
他开始撕扯着我的衣衫，我既惊且怒，奋力挣扎，可是他的眼神含着无限柔情，又带着男人无疑的坚定，当他进入我的身体时，我痛苦地叫出声来。他停下来，细细含着我的耳垂，轻抚我的身体敏感部分，缓解我的痛苦，渐渐引燃我的欲望。
我拒绝这样的羞辱，将头侧到一边。
非白却在我耳边用只有我才能听到的声音动情道：“原非白爱花木槿一万零一年。”
我愣住了，转过脸来。昏暗烛火，柔和地洒在非白赤裸的肩头上，他绝世的容颜对我柔和地笑着，他的凤目在上方深深凝注我，他的鼻子轻轻蹭了我的，再一次温柔地吻去我的泪水，“对不起、对不起，我再也不放开你了。”
他狠狠地吻上我的唇，揽起我的腰肢承受他的欲望。
炽热的欲望袭来，肌肤紧贴着肌肤，彼此的气息融成一体，一切情恨爱怨都化为原始的律动和呻吟，汗液变成了身体之间互相摩擦的润滑剂，眼神中的隔阂慢慢变成甜腻的诱惑，快意无边无际地散发到身体的每一个角落，渗透到每一个细胞，仿佛连灵魂也折了腰。
当我清醒过来时，非白正赤着身子抱起我来到大床上。
我抱着他的脖颈，这才发现他背后一道新愈合的深深伤疤，正挣出血来，流了一背。
“你？”我又气又悔，“你为什么不告诉我？”
非白淡淡一笑，轻吻了一下我的额头，将我放下，取了药箱过来递给我，然后背过身去，低低地微叹道：“你也许听说过，原氏的传说。我们是天神之祖，万俗之始，可是我们的敌人对我们下了残酷的诅咒：我们一生都得不到心爱的人……”
I froze there.原家的老祖宗传了一代又一代绝顶聪明但又绝对变态的高智商帅哥，难道还真会相信这所谓的诅咒，我慢吞吞道：“那个只是传说罢了。”
非白的凤目却露出一丝迷茫，“好像有人曾经在梦中对我说过，我将登上皇帝之位，却不能同相爱之人长相厮守。而且，流光散的确可怕，我这些年明显气力不济，精神恍惚，身后这道疤是崇元殿之变时被叛军偷袭的。林大夫不准我再服用那劳什子流光散，只用了另一味药材，这味药材很怪，连名字也怪，叫什么冷彻鸳鸯浦，会使我、使我，”非白的脸红了，咳了一下，背对着我略带尴尬道，“反正……就是同你在一起时，会力不从心。”
我恍然大悟，睁大了眼睛望着他的背影，噎了半天才醒过来。我披了件衣衫，打开了药箱，给他细细敷药。
“我知道你是放弃一切才回到我身边，林御医也说不准，这种药的药性何时能消去。”非白艰涩地低下了头，“我……说实话……我也……不知道该怎么办。”
“方才……不是已经消了吗？”我流泪道。
他一下子抬起头，愣愣地看着我，眼中闪着一种我所不明白的激动和领悟。
我又忍不住望着他哭出声来，心中郁愤。这人真是典型的政治天才，感情白痴。
非白手忙脚乱地为我拂着眼泪。
我轻抚上他的脸颊，对他诚挚地说道：“感情是两个人的事，无论发生任何问题，都是需要两个人一起去面对，这跟我们当中谁更聪明、谁更坚强无关，只有这样才代表在彼此心中，我们是真正的夫妻，是真正的一体。你真是个大傻子。”
在那个神话故事中，段月容说是那个天使般的恶魔害死了他的妻子，毁灭了他的种族，还对他下了可怕的悲咒。无独有偶，在原氏也有这样的传说，不过正好相反，成了紫瞳魔族诅咒他们得不到心爱的人。
哪一个才是真相，我当时的头有点疼，而非白的表情有些茫然，似是在细细回味我所说的话。
“以后无论任何事，我们都一起面对好吗？”当时，我轻打了他一下。他微抽气弓了弓背，我立马后悔了，为他傻乎乎地吹了半天伤口，涩涩道：“我们在一起有多不容易，你别赶我走了。”
“再也不了，”非白也涩涩说道，如水的风目熠熠生辉，“除非是你要离开我。”
我恨恨道：“不准纳妾，不准包二奶。”
“若我负你，”非白再次笑了起来，直笑得凤目星光璀璨，“我便不得好死。”
我正要骂他，好端端地发这种可怕的咒做什么，偏他含笑凑上唇来，缠绵而吻。
意乱情迷之际，姽婳在帘外启奏，“启禀圣上、皇后，太傅有突厥急报。”
非白对我抱歉地笑了一下，低声道：“今夜先不要走，等我回来。”
我点了点头，赧然地对他笑了。
他也笑了，轻啄了一下我的脸颊。
我笑嗔道：“真是个傻瓜。”
他刮了一下我的鼻尖，对我抿嘴笑了一下，“你也不怎么聪明。”说罢便笑眯眯地头也不回地走了。
我便坐在香妃榻里等他。等着等着，便睡着了。醒来时，已是鸡鸣时分，赏心阁冰冷而空旷，只有打着盹的薇薇。
我回到西枫苑，屁股还没有坐热，却听齐放来报，说是于大将军求见。我听着觉得稀奇：于飞燕这么急着见我为甚？
我略作打扮，不想于飞燕走进来时，满眼血丝，把我吓了一跳。
这时齐放的暗人也进来了，在帘外对我跪启道：“回禀皇后，大突厥的阿芬公主急病殁了，没有及时禀报宫医，阿芬公主的哥哥木尹太子一怒之下，带着几个侍卫闯入宫殿，杀了轩辕皇后并几个可汗宠妃，可汗大怒。”
我一下子站了起来，“如今木尹太子如何？热伊汗古丽大妃如何？”
那暗人不及答话，于飞燕已对我答来：“可汗十分震怒，已诏告帝国废了木尹太子之位，已着人向十大部落下了信符缉拿木尹，碧莹得到消息便病倒了。”他焦急道：“皇子可能……走投无路，只带着几个随从逃入了吐蕃。”
我心中焦虑，便决定先把我同非白的问题放一放，着暗人开始打听木尹的下落，并令小玉密信段月容，如果木尹真去了大理地界，千万要好好收留。
几天后段月容传来消息，木尹太子根本没有前往大理，实际上他外祖父的旧部掩护着他逃入乌兰巴托，然后翻过乔巴山进入突厥的死对头辽国境内。
我们所有人都傻了眼，谁也没有想到木尹敢逃到他老子最恨的竞争对手那边。
总之，木尹彻底激怒他老子了。撒鲁尔毫不犹豫地带兵进入赤塔，陈兵石勒喀河，同萧世宗狠狠地干了一仗。这场战争的结局是辽国威名远震的大将可丹被突厥可汗撒鲁尔击杀。撒鲁尔一向憎可丹嚣张，当年常欺辱突厥，便残酷地将其剖心，以战车碾尸泄恨，如同当年可丹对待轩辕名将李实一般。而所有辽兵皆尸埋大漠，撒鲁尔又将可丹的头颅缝上女子之服送还上京。传说萧世宗看到可丹的首级，便口吐鲜血，失声恸哭，随即病倒。
突厥看穿了辽兵人心惶惶，便继续一路东进，沿河进军，眼看要打到上京了，萧世宗急命妥彦修书大理盟友以求救，如果不是段月容在吐蕃的牵制，突厥极有可能攻入辽都上京。
这一役惊动了大塬朝和西域诸国，所有人皆为突厥可怕的战斗力和残酷所震慑。此一役在大辽被称作“石勒喀河之难”，在汉家和大理史上又被称“太子役”，至此，突厥的野心开始极大地膨胀起来。
曾经在草原叱咤风云、不可一世的萧世宗被迫议和，割出最肥美的呼伦河一带的草原，以及交出木尹，可惜木尹在被押回弓月城的途中，在忠心的随从帮助下再一次出逃。
这回，这个孩子带着两个侍卫，千辛万苦地竟然一下子逃到了多玛，大理的边界内，但严格意义上说却正是大塬、突厥和大理的交界之地。
突厥的家暴渐渐升了级，终于演变成了国际性事件，大理武帝便风雅地诚邀各国首脑前来多玛赏月，顺道“共商国事”。大理是辽国的盟友，而且突厥曾在多玛重创大理，突厥自然不愿前往，但逆子又成了大理的座上宾，欲磨刀霍霍，偏大理同大辽形成上下南北夹击攻势，撒鲁尔便同时修书给元德帝、萧世宗和大理武帝，给出了—个所有人都意想不到的提议：愿与君于长安相见，共讨逆子。
四国政要一下子沉默了下来。大理与大辽都同汉家有过摩擦，甚至是血海深仇，但在元昌年间都被太祖皇帝无与伦比的智慧各个击破，一个个变成了新生帝国的盟友。突厥又同大塬有血缘之亲，故而在目前为止，前来代表中立的大塬都城长安商谈议和之事，竟然是最合适之举。
首先是辽国派了本国有名的权臣兼说客妥彦，亲自来到长安，表示愿意代表萧世宗来同狂暴的突厥国议和。我猜接下来应该是突厥的宠臣阿米尔叶护，大理的权臣蒙诏久赞前来，因缘际会，这两位名臣都对汉家文化甚是了解，且又极精各种外语。
五月里，后山的樱花又到了全盛怒放的时节。我悠悠漫步在缤纷灿烂的樱花雨中，忽然惊觉前方嫣红处有一个魁伟的人影坐在那棵最大的樱花树下。我走近前去，却见那人一身黑底金狼的突厥吉服，左襟微开，一头飞扬的红发被结成无数细发辫，用金穗子绾了，静披双肩，一手撑着下巴，似陷入深深的沉思，正是非珏。
彼时我只听非白提及突厥有人前来，一直以为是阿米尔来了，可能非白顾忌以前那些不好的回忆便没有跟我说。前阵子因同非白的隔阂，也确实有些累了，于是我一直没有去关心来人是谁，这一下我可全明白了，为什么非白全程陪同。
于是，当时的反应首先就是脑子一片空白……
然后我望着晴空万里，自我催眠：啊呀，这天怎么下雨了，我还是快回去吧。
于是我慢慢转身，极轻极慢地踮着脚往回走。
“既然来了，又何必走呢？”身后有个声音说道。他的声音恢复了原来的醇厚雍容，好像一只猫爪在挠我的心，又好像有人在我耳边沉重地叹息。我闭上眼睛，深吸一口气，慢慢地转过身来。
我还是像以前一样，根本看不清他是怎么样移动，他已然闪到我的面前。三步之遥，我退无可退，只得静下心来，迎着阳光鼓起勇气，看着他在落英缤纷中向我慢慢走来。
他终于来到我的面前，离我一步之遥，站定下来。
清晨的阳光透过碧叶花雨，静静地洒在他轮廓分明的俊容上，平静的酒瞳如红宝石一般熠熠生辉，看了我许久，似直直地看进了我的灵魂。
往事在脑海里翻涌，少年时代的非珏对我转身而望，满头细辫乱摇，耳边回荡着久已不曾出现的那声声痴笑。
“你想听实话吗？”他终于收回目光，轻叹一声道：“木丫头。”
就这一声木丫头，我的眼泪唰地一下子流了下来，哽咽了半天，叹道：“请陛下明言吧。”
他微歪头诚实道：“你长得比我想象中的还要难看。”
就这一句话，我又忍不住扑哧笑了起来，点头道：“陛下比我想象中的还要坦白。”
他的唇边渐渐浮出一丝微笑，“但你比我想象中的要可爱。”
我也笑道：“陛下的身体比我想象中的还要恢复得快，可喜可贺。”
“你比我想象中的要……”他一时没接上，然后被自己逗乐了，终于朗笑出声。我也跟着笑了起来。
他好一会儿才止了笑，怔怔地看着我。
毫无预兆地，他忽地上前一步，轻轻将我揽进怀中，抱住了我。他身上特有的淡淡的奶香冲进我的鼻间，我恍惚间，仿佛一瞬间回到了少年时代，非珏欢笑着拥上我，嚷嚷着：“木丫头，你可想死我啦。”
然而如今的他已然平静如深潭，少年时代的狂热和激情一去不返。
这是一个不带任何情欲的拥抱，仿佛是在平静地同往事拥抱。
非珏终于醒来了吗？
我百感交集中，却偏偏一句也说不出来。
不想他却再我耳边哑声道：“你……现在过得好吗？”
我们看不见彼此的表情，我微笑着点了点头