The days are as brisk as the night wind in the desert, thousands of miles away in an instant, but it is just a rest after an injury. The grass on the grassland has withered three times, and the leaves of the Populus euphratica forest have turned yellow three times.For more than three years, more than a thousand days and nights, following the pack of wolves, wandered from Mobei to Monan, and from Monan back to Mobei.Playing and playing, I seem to have never left the wolves, and the six years with my father seem to have been lost under the yellow sand, but unfortunately... it just seems. In the dark night, everything is silent, beside the bonfire, brother wolf and I sit and lie down, he is sound asleep, but I don't feel sleepy at all.During the day, I saw the Hun army again—for the first time in three years.Unprepared, the sound of rumbling horseshoes woke up the past that had been dusty for many years.

Nine years ago, the Western Regions, the desert. A person is lying on the yellow sand. I stared into his eyes and he stared at me.A lizard crawled across his face, but he didn't move. I patted his cheek with my paw curiously, but he still didn't move, but pulled the corners of his mouth invisibly, as if he was smiling. I studied from the middle of the sun to the sunset, and finally understood why he lay still, he was dying of thirst! Until now, I still don't understand why I saved him.Why did you give him the little hanging sheep that you had worked so hard to catch?Why inexplicably found a father for himself?Is it just because there are some feelings in his eyes that I seem to be familiar with but not familiar with?

After drinking the blood and regaining his strength, he did what people are said to do-repay kindness with revenge.He tied me with a rope and took me away from the Gobi desert where wolves lived and into a tent where humans lived. He drank the blood of the little Xuan sheep, but he forbade me to drink the blood and eat raw meat.He forced me to walk upright like him, forced me to talk like him, and insisted that I call him "Daddy". For this reason, I fought with him a lot, but he was fearless. Every time I fought, I ran away. He took me back again. Torture, suffering, torment, I don't understand why he treats me like this, why does he insist on me being a human being?Is it bad to be a wolf?He told me that I am a human being, not a wolf, so I can only be human.

When I started to learn to write, I wanted to understand a little about my own life experience: I was an abandoned or lost child. The wolves adopted me and turned me into a little wolf, but he wanted to turn me back into a wolf. people. "No more combing!" I yelled and threw away the comb, looking for something to vent my anger.My arms were sore from all the tossing, and I hadn’t braided my hair yet. I was excited to see how beautiful my braids were by the lake, but unexpectedly, the braids became more and more messy, and now I only feel angry. The sky was high and the clouds were clear, the wind was sunny and sunny, and only a half-sized cow was drinking water by the lake.I puffed my cheeks and looked at the black cow for a while, then sneaked up behind it, kicked its ass, and tried to drive it into the lake.The cow "mooed" and remained motionless.Reluctantly, I jumped up and kicked it again. It flicked its tail and turned around to stare at me.I suddenly realized that something was wrong and I had found the wrong person to vent my anger on.You should bully the weak and not the strong, the cow is a rock, and I am the egg.

I decided to strike the bull first, bowed my waist and let out a wolf howl, hoping to scare it away with the power of the wolf.Usually when I do this, I hear horses and sheep run away with limp legs, but it turned its horns on me with a long cry of "moo".The moment it spouted hot air and scratched its hooves, I turned around and started running with a scream of "Aww".I finally understand why I use "bull temper" when scolding stubborn and stupid people. Who runs faster, a wolf or an ox?I yelled "Ahhh" while thinking about this problem. When my buttocks slipped over the horns, I touched my sore buttocks. I didn't have time to think about it, and I focused on running to save my life.

Left, sharp turn, right, sharp turn, left... "Brother Niu, I was wrong. Stop chasing me. I won't dare to kick you anymore. I will only bully sheep from now on." I was so tired that I was about to fall to the ground, but the cow ran wildly without changing its hooves. Trying to kill me. "Stinky cow, I warn you, don't look at me as a wolf right now, I have many companions, and when I find companions, we will eat you." The sound of the hoofbeats remained the same, the threat did not work, and I could only cry with a sad face keep running. Panting heavily, I said intermittently: "You hurt...me, I...I...my father will cook you up and eat you, stop chasing...chasing...me."

As soon as the words were finished, it seemed that it really worked. The two people walking side by side in the distance, one of them was Father.I yelled and ran over, it was probably the first time my dad saw me being so enthusiastic about him, he flung himself into his arms with wide open arms from a long distance, his brain got hot, he didn't even know the reason, he just hurried away a few minutes He stepped forward, half-bent and hugged me, and when he noticed the cow behind me, he was eager to dodge but it was a bit late.At this time, the man next to Father stepped in front of him and stood facing the cow.

I stared wide-eyed, watching the bull rushing straight at him, seeing that the horns of the bull were about to touch him, in a blink of an eye, he reached out with both hands, holding the two horns of the bull, and the black bull moved forward angrily Arrived, the hoof trampled the grass and dust on the ground, but he remained motionless.I was dumbfounded, and the only thing that came to my mind was: If he is a wolf, he must be our wolf king. Father hugged me to avoid a few steps, and said with a smile: "It is often heard that the prince is the number one warrior among the Huns, and he really deserves his reputation." The boy tilted his head and smiled, "It's just a little brute force, what can be subdued It's just a little ox, how can it compare with the master's knowledge?"

Father saw that I was struggling to get off the ground, and let me go: "What I understand is just the dead truth in the book, the prince has already understood it from the world." I walked up to the young man and kicked him on the calf: "Let you chase me! Do you want to chase me? Do you want to chase me? I kicked you twice, you dared to chase me so that I almost ran to my death." The bull, which had already been tamed by the boy, suddenly regained its strength, shaking its head and wagging its tail.Father dragged me back and said sorry to the young man: "This is a little girl with a bit of a savage personality, she has caused trouble for the prince, hurry up and salute the prince."

I stood still, looking at him without blinking.At that time, I didn't know how to appreciate people's beauty and ugliness, but that kind of handsomeness was deeply rooted in people's hearts at a glance.I stared at him obsessively for a while, and then shouted: "You look so good-looking, are you the most beautiful man among the Huns? But Yu Shan is also very good-looking, I don't know if he will be as tall as you when he is as tall as you." You look good." He coughed twice, looked at Dad with a half smile, turned his head and concentrated on taming the calf.Dad covered my mouth with embarrassment: "Forgive me, my lord, it's all because of improper discipline."

Hei Niu's hostility gradually subsided, he cautiously let go of Hei Niu's hand, and let Hei Niu go.Turning around, I saw Dad covering my mouth with one hand and twisting my arms with the other, and I was kicking and kicking Dad. He looked at Father sympathetically and said, "This is more painstaking than taming a bull." Comparing me to a bull?I still took time out of my busy schedule to stare at him.He was startled for a moment, shook his head and laughed, and said to Father: "Since the Taifu is involved in something, this king will go ahead." As soon as he left, my dad held me under his arm and forced me back to the tent.I have seen herdsmen on the prairie beat their disobedient children with whips. Will Dad do the same?When I was about to have a big fight with Dad, Dad just took out the comb and told me to sit down. "My hair is disheveled! Lord Zuo Guli may not be the most handsome man in the Huns, but you must be the ugliest woman on the grassland." I immediately calmed down, grabbed the bronze mirror, and looked at myself carefully: "Is it uglier than the old woman who lost all her teeth we saw the day before?" "Ok." "Is it uglier than that aunt who is so fat that she can't walk?" "Ok." I pouted and looked at myself in the mirror. My hair was disheveled, with a few grasses in between, and some black mud stained on the tip of my nose and cheeks. Dad wiped my face clean for me, carefully picked out the grass, and straightened out the messy hair little by little with a comb: "Let's braid two braids, I will braid one first, and you will learn to braid the other by yourself. Now braid, you must be the prettiest little girl I have ever seen." Dad braided my hair and said with a smile... The dead branches in the bonfire exploded, and a few sparks flew up, which awakened my memory. The wolf brother next to me stretched lazily and then lay back on the ground.I patted Brother Wolf on the back, and my thoughts slipped back to the past. I was seven or eight years old that year and had just been with Dad for a year.That was the first time I braided my hair by myself, and it was also the first time I saw Yi Zhixie—father's good friend, prince Yu Dan's younger uncle, military minister Shan Yu's younger brother, and King Zuo Guli of the Xiongnu.Because he often came to see Dad, we got to know each other well, whenever he went hunting he would take me with him. inside the tent. "Yu Jin, if you can't recite the "National Policy", even if you have your hair shaved off, you will not be allowed to attend the dinner party tonight." The annoying father said with his head down while writing, without raising his head. I remembered that Yi Zhixie once said that my hair was like a sheep that had just been sheared. I gave up pulling my hair, stared at the bamboo slips in front of me, and began to gnaw my fingers: "Why don't you teach Yu Shan? Yu Shan is Your student, or you can ask Yi Zhi to memorize it obliquely, he will definitely be happy, he likes reading Han books the most, I only like to go hunting with Yi Zhi obliquely." As soon as he finished speaking, he saw Father's sharp eyes tightened Staring at me, I said unconvinced: "Yu Dan didn't ask me to call him prince, and Yi Zhixie also said that I don't need to call him prince. Since they can call me by my name, why can't I?" Dad seemed to sigh slightly, walked up to me, knelt down and said, "Because this is the rule in the world, they can call you by your name directly, but you must use honorifics for them. Among wolves, inexperienced Will the cubs also respect adult wolves? Not mentioning their status, but only their ages, it is estimated that Prince Yu Shan is four or five years older than you, and Prince Zuo Guli is seven or eight years older than you, you should respect them." I thought for a while, and felt that what Father said made some sense, so I nodded: "Okay then! Next time I will be called Prince Yu Shan, and I will also be called Prince Yizhixie Zuoguli. But tonight I want to eat roast Mutton, I don’t want to recite “National Policy” if I want to attend the dinner party. Yu Shan is your student, so let him recite it.” Dad pulled my hand out of his mouth, took a handkerchief and wiped it for me: "You are almost ten years old, how can you still not grow up? Lord Zuo Guli has already been on the battlefield at your age." With my head held high, I snorted triumphantly: "When we were chasing the rabbit, he couldn't compare to me." Suddenly remembering the agreement I made with Yi Zhixie, I quickly covered my mouth with regret, and said in a muffled voice: "I promised the prince Don't tell others, otherwise he won't take me out to play in the future, so don't let him know." Father smiled and asked, "National Policy?" I beat the table vigorously in frustration, stared at Dad and said, "Little man, you are the villain in the book, I will recite it now." Shan Yu sent someone to call Dad. Although he repeatedly told me to recite the book carefully before leaving the house, I knew, and he knew even more, that what he said was destined to be the wind blowing in my ears.Dad looked at me helplessly for a while, then shook his head and left.As soon as he went out, I immediately jumped out of the house happily and went to have fun! On a secluded hillside, Yizhixie was lying quietly in the grass, I tiptoed to his side, just about to startle him, but unexpectedly he got up suddenly and caught me, instead startled me.I laughed and put my arms around his neck: "Yi... my lord, why are you here?" Yi Zhi leaned her arms around me and sat on his lap: "Have you been scolded by your father again? I have told him hundreds of times, we Huns don't care about these things, but he is always cautious and polite." I stuck out my tongue and asked with a smile: "I heard that you are going to marry the princess, and today's dinner is specially held for you." "I'm going to marry the princess." I looked at his face: "Are you unhappy? Is the princess not good-looking? I heard that Yu Shan is the only daughter of the general, and many people want to marry her! If Yu Shan was not young, Shan Yu would definitely want to marry her." She married Yu Shan." He smiled and said, "Silly Yujin, looking good is not everything. I'm not unhappy, but there's nothing to be particularly happy about." I laughed and said, "Daddy said, a husband and a wife are people who have to be together for a lifetime, and they have to look at each other every day for a lifetime, so how can it be unattractive? When I look for a husband, I want to find the best-looking person, eh ..." I looked at his sharp-edged face and said hesitantly, "At least I can't be worse than you." Yi Zhi smiled obliquely and slapped my face twice: "How old are you? Are you so eager to get rid of your father?" My smile froze on my face, and I asked sullenly, "Do you and Yu Dan both know how old we are?" He nodded his head lightly.I sighed and said, "But I don't know! Daddy doesn't know how old I am either. He just said that I am about nine or ten years old now. When people ask me how old I am, I won't be able to answer." He smiled and took my hand: "This is the best thing in the world, how could you be unhappy? Think about it, when people ask our age, we can only honestly say that we all have only one choice, but you You can choose yourself, isn't it good?" My eyes lit up, and I said excitedly: "Yes! Yes! I can decide how old I am! Should I be nine or ten years old? Well... I want to be ten years old, and I can let Mu Daduo call me My sister." He patted my head with a smile and looked into the distance.I tugged at his arm: "Let's go catch rabbits!" He didn't agree to me as readily as in the past, but looked to the southeast, silently lost in thought.I stretched my neck and looked into the distance. There were only cattle and sheep, and the occasional eagle gliding across the sky. Nothing was different from usual: "What are you looking at?" Yi Zhixie asked without answering, "What's the point of going southeast?" I frowned and thought for a while: "I will meet cattle and sheep, and then there will be mountains, grasslands, and deserts. Gobi, and then I will go back to the Han Dynasty, Dad's hometown. I heard that it is very beautiful." A trace of surprise flashed in Yi Zhi's squinting eyes: "Did your father tell you?" I nod.The corners of his mouth were slightly raised, and his smile was a little cold: "Our grasslands, lakes, and mountains and rivers are also beautiful." I nodded in agreement and said loudly, "Our Yanzhi Mountain is the most beautiful, and our Qilian Mountain is the richest." Yizhi smirked and said, "That's a good point. Going all the way to the southeast is the Han Dynasty. The Han Dynasty is no big deal, but the current emperor of the Han Dynasty is very unusual." "Is he prettier than you?" I looked to the southeast curiously. "It's a pity that I was born many years late, and I can only watch the Han Dynasty grow stronger. Wei Qing has already given us a headache. If there are a few more generals in the future, with the temper of the current emperor of the Han Dynasty, we are afraid that sooner or later we will fight for us. We will not be able to sit here and look at the land under our feet when we fight against the Yanzhi Mountain and Qilian Mountain. I hate the people in the tribe who are attracted by the prosperity and wealth of the Han Dynasty and the kindness of the Han Dynasty emperor. In front of him, he is still wholeheartedly loving the man." He stared at the front, and said slowly, seemingly indifferently and sadly. I looked at the distance, then at him, and subconsciously put my hand into my mouth again, biting my finger and staring at him blinking.He lightly touched my eyes, touched my lips with his finger, shook his head and laughed: "I hope that in a few years, you can understand my words, and you will still be willing to sit by my side and listen to me." He pulled out my hand, wiped it clean with his sleeve, and dragged me to stand up: "I'm going back, today's dinner is held for me, I have to dress up, although it's a show, but this look If you don’t do it, there will be many unhappy people. What about you?” I looked around and said boredly: "I'm going to find Yu Dan. There is a riding and shooting competition in the afternoon. I'm going to watch the excitement. I just hope I don't run into Dad." Prairie, dinner party. The atmosphere was originally relaxed and cheerful, but because of me, it fell into dead silence. Holding the tray with the sheep's head in both hands, I knelt in front of Yi Zhi, and looked at Shan Yu who was smiling forcefully, at Father with a helpless face, then at Yu Dan who was pouting, and finally looked at Yi Zhixie.His brows were slightly furrowed for a moment, and then slowly opened. There was no expression on his face, but there seemed to be warmth in his eyes, which made my trembling hands slowly calm down under the eyes of everyone. Yizhi leaned up and saluted Shanyu: "Our king, Yujin has never seen Shanyu's eagle-like figure, but saw a wild goose as a goshawk. I think that the hero in the hearts of all the people present today must be Prince Yu Shan, the prince is very good at shooting in the afternoon, and his immediate skills are even more extraordinary, and he will definitely be another wolf on the grassland in the future." When he leaned over to take the tray from my hand, he smiled and blinked at me quickly, and turned around. Walking in front of Yu Dan, he bent one leg and knelt in front of Shan, lowered his head, and offered the sheep's head with both hands. Everyone laughed and applauded, praised Yu Shanda for his demeanor when he was young, and each stepped forward to toast Yu Dan. Standing in front of Yi Zhixie who was kneeling on the ground, Yu Shan took the silver knife provided by the slave, cut off a piece of meat from the top of the sheep's head in the tray, and threw it into his mouth. From the beginning to the end, Yi Zhixie kept his posture Kneeling humbly and motionless. A satisfied smile finally appeared on the corner of Shan Yu's mouth, he held up the wine glass and stepped forward to help Yi Zhi up, Yi Zhi smiled and drank a glass of wine with Shan Yu. I was probably the only one in the audience who didn't smile. I leaned against my father in discomfort and watched the scene that I half understood.If it wasn't for my reckless impulsiveness, Yi Zhixie wouldn't have bent his knees and lowered his head in front of so many people, kneeling Yu Dan who was younger, lower in seniority, and not taller than him. Dad smiled and patted my cheek, and said in a low voice: "Daughter, don't make a sad face, just smile. If you have time to worry, why don't you look at the mistakes you made and prevent them from making them again. Think carefully about what you did wrong , Let’s think about why the prince did this. With the strategy of the "National Policy" behind his back, but still make such a move, it seems that I have really failed in teaching my daughter, and I have to examine myself." After the dinner, I was grounded by my father, and he asked me to reflect. I can't ride a horse, and I can't play far away.The two people who can ignore my father's restraint and are willing to take me out to play, one is afraid to see him because I got into trouble, the other is angry with me and won't come to see me, I can only stay in the camp alone Hang around. When I turned to the lake, I saw Yu Dan drinking horses by the lake. I snorted and went to the other side of the lake to play in the water.Yu Dan stared at me for a while, but I just pretended not to see it.Yu Dan shouted: "You can't swim, don't get so close to the lake, be careful of falling in." I took two or three steps forward, carefully testing the depth of the water, whether I could continue walking.Yu Dan rushed over, grabbed my collar, and dragged me away from the lake.I said angrily, "You don't know how to swim, you're timid, I'm not afraid." Yu Dan laughed angrily: "Obviously I should be angry, but you have a really big temper." When I think about what happened that day, I feel a little bit embarrassed.Yu Dan chose me to offer the sheep's head, but I didn't give it to Shan Yu, but to Yi Zhixie.As a result, he not only offended Shan Yu, but also caused trouble for Yi Zhixie.I lowered my head and didn't speak. Yu Danxiao took my hand and said, "If you don't get angry anymore, let's find a place to play." I pursed my lips and nodded with a smile, and the two of them ran hand in hand.Facing the wind, I said loudly, "Why don't you like Yizhixie? Otherwise, we can go catch rabbits together." Yu Dan sneered and said, "As long as he doesn't want to eat the sheep's head, I can naturally play with him." I was just about to say that Yi Zhixie doesn't have to eat sheep's head meat, but suddenly I remembered that after the wolves capture their prey, they always let the wolf king eat the first bite. Isn't it true that only human kings can eat sheep's head?Does Yi Zhixie really don't want to eat the piece of meat on top of the sheep's head?I swallowed the words that had already reached my lips... That year, I was ten years old.Because of a sheep head, I began to seriously think about the articles my father asked me to recite every day for the first time, and also looked at Shan Yu, Yi Zhixie, and Yu Dan for the first time, and began to understand that although they were the closest relatives, they also had It is very likely that they will become the fratricide enemies described in Han Chinese books. I walked to the tent with a heavy heart, and I heard what Yu Dan said in my ears, so I hesitated and didn't go in. After Yi Zhixie's concubine combed her hair, she tilted her head and asked Yi Zhixie with a smile: "My lord, this bun is a new learning from Yan's. How do I comb it well?" Yi Zhixie, who was reading a book, looked up at Wang Hao's bun with no expression on her face. The smile on Wang Hao's face faded away. While feeling uneasy, Yi Zhixie casually folded a flower on the desk, got up and walked to the side of Wang Hao, Putting the flower hairpin on the side of her hair, putting her hands on Wangfei's shoulders, she said with a smile: "This way I can live up to your delicate face." Juvenile leans on the body. I frowned and breathed a sigh of relief, turned around and left, and a scolding voice came from behind: "Who is peeking outside?" Yi Zhi raised her voice obliquely: "Yu Jin, come in." I stood outside the tent for a while, pulled my cheeks, and forced myself to smile sweetly before entering the tent and saluting the princess.A trace of astonishment flashed across Yizhi's squinting eyes, and then she just smiled and watched me and the princess ask and answer. The princess smiled and asked, "How does the prince know that Yu Jin is outside?" "It's just that she is used to going in and out of the tents, and the soldiers don't care when they see her. Besides her, who else can peek outside quietly?" Yi Zhi walked sideways to the desk and sat down, and took another Pick up the bamboo book. The princess stood up and said, "Yujin, come with me to see Yan Shi! She is Han, and she knows a lot of interesting things. Let's learn how to play and give you a nice bun, okay?" I smiled and shook my head: "Those buns need skillful and smart hands to learn. I'm too stupid to learn. I just like chasing rabbits." The concubine laughed, bent over and kissed me on the face: "What a cute mouth, why did you hear people say you have a bad temper before? But the more I watched, the more I liked it. Since you didn't go, I had no choice but to go by myself , but the lord may not have time to ride horses and hunt with you today!" The princess leaned slightly obliquely towards Yi Zhi, and left behind the curtain.I just lifted up my sleeve and wiped vigorously the place where the concubine kissed just now, Yizhi looked at me sideways, pointed at me with her hand, shook her head and smiled.I sighed softly, turned around to leave, Yi Zhi leaned up and said, "Wait for me." I turned my head to look at him, he walked a few steps quickly, and took my hand: "There is still time to go for a walk." He dragged me along the hillside, straight to the high place: "I haven't seen you for a long time, and I didn't see you when I went to see your father. Are you reconciled with Yu Dan?" I just nodded , and immediately shook his head. "Are you guys quarreling again? If you're willing to spend a little bit of confrontation with the hypocritical effort just now, you will definitely be able to make Yu Dan happy." Yi Zhixie said jokingly. Ever since you got married, the whole grassland knows how much you love the princess. Because I don't want to embarrass you, I deliberately please the princess, but why are you?Is it true that as Yu Shan said, you love the princess in every possible way only because the princess' father is in control?Or because you just want to make her happy, so it doesn't matter if it's your bun or not?I stared gloomyly at the front, and said without energy: "You are also pretending. You obviously don't like the princess wearing a Chinese bun, but you say you like it." Yi Zhi tilted his robe and sat on the ground, dragging me to sit beside him.He looked at me for a while, then sighed softly: "Yujin, you're starting to grow up." I hugged my knees and sighed: "Did you feel uncomfortable that night? It was all my fault. I have listened to my father and reflected carefully." Yizhi looked sideways into the distance and smiled lightly, neither saying she felt uncomfortable nor not saying she wasn't uncomfortable.I fixedly stared at his side face, trying to see whether he was happy or unhappy now. "Why are you arguing with Yu Dan again this time?" He asked casually. I pouted, frowned, and didn't speak for a long while.He turned around in surprise, and asked with a smile, "When did you become so coy?" I bit my lip: "Yu Dan said, you are willing to take me out to play because of daddy, you approached me with a conspiracy, is it true?" Yizhi lowered his head and laughed, I looked at him anxiously, anxiously waiting for the answer, but he just smiled and laughed.I glared at him angrily, he coughed softly, stopped smiling, stared into my eyes for a long time, then suddenly leaned over my ear and whispered: "Because of your eyes." When he stared at me, he was extremely focused, It was as if some things hidden in his heart slowly seeped out and gathered in his eyes, too thick to dissolve, but I couldn't understand it. my eyes?I touched my eyes in doubt, and thought about it for a while, but I still didn't understand at all, but a big stone that was pressing on my heart has fallen, and I grinned and laughed.As long as it's not because of Dad, I just want others to treat me well because of me. I felt sore in my heart, leaned my face on my knees and sighed softly.Silly Yujin, why didn't I understand until after the fact, since Yi Zhixie was able to make the princess happy that day, why couldn't she make you a little girl?Maybe all of Yu Dan's words were right, but I didn't listen to them, and Father also mistrusted Yi Zhixie.It turned out that Yu Shan who looked impulsive was the most sober person among us.Yu Dan, Yu Dan... the moon is about to fall, and the bonfire is fading, emitting a dazzling red light, but there is no heat, just like the sunset on the day Yu Shan took me to dig out the bird's nest. "Shangshu", "Spring and Autumn", "National Policy", "Sun Tzu's Art of War"... I thought in horror, do I have to memorize it all my life?How many books does Dad want me to memorize?Why do I have to memorize how these countries fight and how their courtiers play tricks all day long? "Yu Jin." Yu Dan waved to me from outside the tent.I threw the bamboo book on the ground and jumped out of the tent: "Where are we going to play?" After asking, I realized that I forgot to salute him again, so I hurriedly made up the salute perfunctorily. Yu Dan knocked me on the head: "We don't have as many etiquettes as the Han people, don't follow the teacher and become a stupid woman." I punched him back: "Your mother is Han, is she also a stupid woman?" Yu Dan took my hand and said as he ran, "Since she married the father, she has long been a Hun." Yu Dan pulled me onto the horse, and the two of them shared the same horse: "Why doesn't your master let you learn how to ride a horse?" "I kept running away for the first two years. How could you let me learn to ride a horse? You even helped Dad chase me! Now I probably don't care if I don't know how to do it. Why don't you read more books when you have that time." Yu Dan said with a smile: "Father said that I can marry a wife next year, and asked me how the daughter of King Youxian is. I want to tell my father that I will let you be my princess." I shook my head and said: "No, when I grow taller and my kung fu is better, I will go to visit the world and play everywhere. Besides, neither Shan Yu nor my father will promise you to marry me. It is the crown prince, and you will be Shan Yu in the future, so the daughter of King Youxian is a good match for you." Yu Dan reined in his horse, half-embracing me and dismounted: "I can intercede with my father. If you marry me, you will be the future Yan family of the Huns. You can play wherever you want. No one will care about you, and no one will dare to force you. You endorse." I smiled and asked back: "But your mother didn't play around! I saw that she rarely smiled, and she didn't seem very happy. It was written in the books of the Han people that even if you are a king, you still can't do whatever you want." Yu Dan said disdainfully: "That's because they are stupid, I won't be controlled by others." I shook my head and said with a smile: "Is Lord Zuo Guli stupid? But he also told me that the word forbearance is inevitable in life, and it makes sense to praise the Han people!" Yu Dan glared at me angrily, walked quickly with his head down: "Yi Zhixie, Yi Zhixie, hum!" I made a grimace towards his back, and followed him in a bouncing manner: "He is your little uncle. Even if you are a prince, you can't call him by his name directly. If my father hears it, you should call him by his name." I told you." Yu Dan asked angrily, "Why do you all praise him? King Zuoguli is brave and good at fighting, King Zuoguli is sincere and forthright, King Zuoguli is smart and studious..." I clapped my hands, laughed and said, "Someone's eyes are going to turn red." Yu Dan sneered a few times and said, "Why am I jealous? I am the prince, and sooner or later he will kneel down and worship me as soon as he sees me." My heart trembled suddenly, and I quickly held his hand and said, "Don't be angry, I didn't say that he is better than you. Although he has his advantages, you naturally have yours. Now you are not worse than him at all. In the future Definitely better than him." Yu Dan turned his anger into a smile: "Don't mention him, I brought you to watch the birds, not about the prince." The two bent over and lurked in the bushes, trying not to make any noise.After walking quietly for a while, we heard a slight noise from the side, we exchanged glances, and quietly covered it, but what we saw made Yu Dan and I dare not move. Yu Dan's mother and my father sat side by side, both of them were pale, Yu Dan's mother burst into tears, and suddenly leaned on my father's shoulder, weeping with her voice suppressed. I was wondering who bullied her, why didn't I go to Shan Yu and complain, but Yu Shan shook my hand and dragged me to leave.Father jumped up when he heard the sound, and asked, "Who?" I was so scared that I wanted to run away, but Yu Dan was strangely unwilling to leave at this time, dragged me out of the bush, and stood quietly between Father and Yan with a livid face. before. Father looked at Yu Dan and me with a bit of pain in his eyes.Yan's expression was calm, he looked at it indifferently for a while, and then walked past us without looking back. I looked at Father and then at Yu Dan. The inexplicable fear at first was gone, but now I was impatient and stomped my feet and said, "What are you looking at? It's not fighting crickets. You stare at me and I stare at you." You. Yu Dan, you can ask anything you want to know, Dad, you can explain anything you want to explain." Father opened his mouth and was about to speak, when Yu Dan suddenly shook off my hand, and he disappeared in a hurry.Father sighed softly, stood silently for a while, and led me to the layman: "I told you to recite the book well, why did you run out again?" I took his arm, half hung on his body, and walked with only one foot hopping: "I am impatient to memorize the book, the crown prince just asked me to play, so I came. Why did you just now?" Shi wants to lean on you and cry? Why is the prince so angry?" Dad smiled wryly: "You can't understand these things about men and women even if I talk about them now." "If you don't tell me, it's even more impossible for me to understand. Don't you always say that I'm unreasonable? Now is your chance to show up and teach me!" Father rubbed my hair, pulled me to the lake and sat down, his eyes were fixed on the lake, but his eyes were empty and desolate: "I and Yanshi have known each other since we were young. I'm not a princess, just the daughter of an ordinary official family, and I'm not who I am now, I'm a young man who only wants to make contributions, me and her... me and her..." I whispered for him: "'Weishi and the girl, Yiqi joked with each other, and gave her a peony.' You and her gave each other a peony." Dad patted me on the back and said, "I still understand. Although what we give each other is not peonies, the meaning is the same." "Then why is she now Shan Yu's wife? Why not your wife? Isn't it supposed to 'work together with Fei' if you give me peony?" Dad laughed softly: "Why? Should I talk about it in a big way, or in a small way?" Although he was laughing, I was a little scared when I heard it, and leaned against him, burying my head on his knee. "From the perspective of national justice, because the Han Dynasty could not defeat the Xiongnu, for the sake of the peace of the people and fewer deaths, the royal family wanted to make peace with the Huns, but they were reluctant to part with their own daughters, so they selected the daughters of the courtiers who were beautiful and talented. She was made a princess and married to the Huns. Speaking from our own perspective, I was timid and cowardly, and I dared not resist the decree and take her into exile, and she could not abandon her parents, so she could only be Shan Yu's wife. Yu treats her well, even if the Huns are barbaric and backward, and don't know etiquette, that's fine, but Shan Yu is a person who doesn't know how to appreciate flowers. She cried because she was helpless about her own fate. The prince was angry because he thought too much, because after all he We are Huns, so we cannot understand many things, and we cannot understand her mother’s pain.” My father sighed softly, “If we were born a few years later and caught up with the current emperor’s personal rule, maybe everything would be different.” I thought these words sounded familiar to me. After thinking for a while, I remembered the day Yi Zhixie got married two years ago. The Han Dynasty expanded westward.An emperor of the Han Dynasty actually made Father and Yi Zhixie want to have a late birth, and the other wanted to have an early birth. Dad saw me contemplating, and asked, "Do you understand?" "Half and half, I understand what you said about the emperor, Shan Yu, the big man, and the Huns, but I still don't understand why Yu Shan is so angry. I will think about it later, and I will persuade Yu Shan not to be angry. Dad , you asked me to recite those books, do you not want me to be just flowers?" "Well, I didn't find someone to teach you spinning and weaving, tailoring and embroidery, and I didn't teach you cooking and cleaning. I don't know if it's right. She knows all these things, but she is being bullied. I can try my best to help Yu Shan fight for his interests, but I am powerless about the harem." I shook my father's arm, looked up at him and said, "I will not be a delicate flower, but a tall tree that will not be bullied." Father rubbed my hair: "You really don't have the same temper, but it is because of your temper that I want you to be quick-witted, to understand people's hearts, and to be able to make good decisions, otherwise you will just be stubborn and can't stand other people's anger , but you can’t protect yourself, then it’s really better to throw you back among the wolves.” I muttered in a low voice: "Who wants to be a human again?" Dad laughed and said, "You're slandering me again, you are a human being now, if you can't go back to the past, just work hard to be a human being with peace of mind!" I thought about it silently for a while, and suddenly I was overjoyed: "It's like being Shan Yu alone, can the Yan family marry you?" Father stared at the lake, and slowly shook his head: "It's like being Shan Yu alone, and I will take you back to the Central Plains. Since you are my daughter, you are a Han Chinese, so naturally you can't stay with the Xiongnu. I only teach you to write Chinese characters." This is the reason why you are not allowed to learn the writing of the Huns when you read Hanshu. She...she will be the queen mother, and Yu Dan is a kind and filial child, and she will live well." I wondered, "Why didn't you marry the Yan clan? Don't you want to marry her? The Xiongnu don't have as many rules as the Han people. The Huns' Yan clan can marry again!" "A momentary miss is a lifetime miss. There are many things in life that have no chance of turning back." Dad almost said to himself, and I shook his arm: "Why can't I turn back?" "When we get back to the Central Plains, come and ask me when you grow up." My father led me to stand up, "Go back! Don't miss any of the homework you have to do today, otherwise you won't be able to eat." After that, less than a year later, the military official Shan Yu died unexpectedly, and Yi Zhixie staged a coup... I stood up suddenly, took a deep breath, stared at the rising sun in the east, held it until my chest hurt, and then slowly let it out. It turns out that I still can't calmly recall everything that has passed, and I will still be stung. The past is like a burnt bonfire on the ground, leaving only black ashes, but if you try to sweep away the ashes immediately, you will accidentally burn your hands, but there will always be a cold day. Father's words before committing suicide echoed in my ears again: "Yujin, father is sorry for you, I thought I could keep watching you get married and have children, but now... now father can't accompany you back to the Central Plains, you go back by yourself. This time You are a rabbit and others are wolves. If you want to escape, run as hard as you can, and you will be safe if you escape back to the Central Plains. You must live, promise Dad, no matter what you encounter, you must work hard to live and live happily, Dad My only wish is that you live well." The sun jumped up to the earth happily, and I said softly against the bright sunshine: "Father, I will live a very good and happy life, and you and Yanshi will also be happy, Yu Dan, and you too." Dad always doesn't want me to be a wolf, and always wants me to go back to the Han Dynasty. In fact, I don't need to escape to the Central Plains to be safe.In the Western Regions, no one can catch me today, not even Yi Zhixie, the current Shanyu of the Hun Empire.