Chapter 2 Chapter Two

The locust tree in the courtyard still provides shade to block out the sun. In the kitchen, there were still unused seasonings in the clay pots neatly placed one by one. The books on the desk are half open. There are still half of the candles beside the couch. It's just that the person who laughed and said that he likes the lush shade of locust trees, the person who likes to cook, and the person who searched books for him to find good recipes, is no longer there. The first half of the candle accompanies their playfulness under the lamp, its bright warmth rippling with their warmth. And the second half, at this time, is reflecting a lonely shadow on the wall, its brightness and warmth seem to be just to satirize the quietness and desolation of the room.

"Brother Meng, is there still no news about Yunge?" Xu Pingjun stood timidly at the door. Meng Jue stared at the dancing candlelight without speaking. Xu Pingjun held the door with his hands, and stood quietly for a long time, "Brother Meng, I'm sorry, I should keep Yun Ge." Meng Jue sighed softly, and finally looked sideways at Xu Pingjun: "Pingjun, you are pregnant, go back and rest!" Xu Pingjun didn't leave, but instead walked into the room, his lips parted, trying to say something, but he couldn't say it.Tears gradually appeared in his eyes.

Meng Jue looked at her, the coldness in his eyes gradually mixed with pity, he pointed to the couch, and beckoned her to sit down. "Mr. Ping, although I don't have any news about Yun Ge, I'm not worried that I won't be able to find her. Maybe it's because she's sad, she's still outside to relax, and she definitely doesn't want to see me again, so she hid her whereabouts, but she will go home sooner or later. .As long as she comes home, I will be able to find her." Xu Pingjun felt relieved: "So Brother Meng knows about Yun Ge's family and relatives? That's great."

Meng Jue looked at Xu Pingjun: "Ping Jun, you and Yun Ge have known each other for a long time, but why are you still so confused?" "At that time... At that time, I just thought that maybe Yunge could be less sad after returning home." Xu Pingjun bit his lip. The corners of Meng Jue's lips were slightly raised, as if he was smiling, but there was no smile at all: "I know you are nervous about Liu Bingji, and since Yun Ge knew Bingji, he has treated him differently. Follow your advice. But since Yunge didn't argue with you back then, even if I broke her heart, why would she share Liu's illness with you again? You underestimated Yunge, and you underestimated yourself even more, Yunge in vain Treat you like a sister."

Xu Pingjun's thoughts and fears hidden in the dark were revealed by Meng Jue, and tears welled up all at once. These few days, Meng Jue and Bing Ji were busy looking for Yun Ge.Bing Ji was as considerate to her as before, but Meng Jue was very indifferent to her.But she was not afraid of Meng Jue's indifference. Although she didn't know why, she could intuitively feel that Meng Jue might blame her, but he was absolutely not mad at her, and even he could understand her.On the contrary, she was uneasy about the thoughtfulness of her illness. The man in front of him has elegant and noble manners, wealth that can rival a country, but his gentleness hides arrogance and arrogance. Neither the prince nor Huo Guang can make him bow down.

But a person who is supposed to be aloof, but strangely has the same soul as her, a kind of darkness and selfishness from the bottom of society, and struggles for humble wishes. She knew her feelings were ridiculous, how could Meng Jue be like her?But that's how she felt, even from the first day she knew him. The selfishness and dark thoughts she hid in the dark seemed to be nothing wrong in front of him, and they were all very normal wishes and actions. "Brother Meng, I... I'm just afraid. Yun Ge is smart, beautiful, and kind, but the better she is, the more afraid I am. I don't know the characters written by Bing Ji, but Yun Ge knows; I don't understand the poems and prose, but Yunge can understand; I don't understand the Go game played by Bingji, but Yunge knows how to respond to Bingji's ridicule. I laughed out loud with palms clapped. But I’m already sick... I’ve never been able to guess his thoughts, before we got married, and now. Sometimes, I can’t even tell whether he is happy or not. Just take these few days Said, I would rather he lose his temper with me, blame me why I knew Yun Ge was leaving, neither told him, nor did I try my best to keep Yun Ge. But he didn't say anything, not even a harsh word, and he still treated me as usual Good. Afraid that I am tired, he does the cooking, washing, and laundry every day, and is afraid that I will be bored at home, so he takes me out for a walk, and even says that I don’t laugh too much recently, telling jokes to make me laugh, like our life In the story, Yunge never existed at all, and her departure has no effect on us in the slightest. Brother Meng, I really don’t understand Bingji’s thoughts. The more I don’t understand, the more I have no idea, the more afraid I am. People, there is not much difference between whether my father has or not, and my mother doesn't like me at all. In this world, all I have is my illness... I know I shouldn't, but I... I must guard the only thing I have. Brother Meng...I'm sorry...I have to guard..."

Xu Pingjun cried while talking, and afterward, he was wronged and sorry, and relieved to confide in his thoughts, so he simply started to cry regardless, and the tears fell quickly and densely. Meng Jue took a silk handkerchief from the couch and handed it to Xu Pingjun, with a gentle voice: "I understand. There is nothing wrong with what you did. Everyone has rights and should try their best to protect their own happiness." Xu Pingjun did not expect that the person who should blame her for Yunge the most would not complain to her at all: "Brother Meng, I..." Feeling more and more uncomfortable, holding the veil in my hand, the tears fell faster.

"Mr. Ping, although you are smart, you lack a little understanding of people, your vision is limited to the market, and your mind is not open enough, so your intelligence has finally fallen behind. It is just a small cleverness. If you are an ordinary man, your ability Enough to deal with, but the disease is no longer an ordinary man, your self-righteousness may kill you one day." Xu Pingjun slowly stopped crying, stared at Meng Jue blankly, and suddenly remembered the words Yun Ge said to her before leaving: "Brother Meng, Yun Ge said something to me before leaving, she said that she has feelings for you. It’s like holding water with my hands. If I squeeze too hard, the tighter I clenched, there won’t be a single drop of water left in my clenched fist. I thought she was talking about herself, but it turned out that she was talking about me?! "

Meng Jue's expression darkened. Xu Pingjun slowly understood the meaning of Izuyunge's words and worried about her. In an instant, full of regret and sadness, tears welled up again: "Brother Meng, Yun Ge, Yun Ge, like you, has already seen through my thoughts. Of course she left in such a hurry because she was angry with Big Brother. But it's also because of... because of me." Meng Jue smiled lightly, but did not speak, apparently not denying Xu Pingjun's words. For Yun Ge, all things in the world, no matter how precious they are, are just fleeting, and only love is the treasure in her heart, and can keep her.

In just one day, she found that she had lost her love, and then found that the friendship she had was crumbling amid suspicion.So what is there to miss in Chang'an City? Turning around and leaving resolutely is not only to escape the disappointed love, but also to preserve the remaining two friendships as much as possible. How would Yun Ge's heart ache that night? It is no longer possible for that extraterrestrial elf who was not stained with dust to dance lightly... Perhaps it was a mistake for her to choose to fly into Chang'an. Under the shadow of the locust tree in the courtyard, Liu Bingji, who had stood quietly for a long time, turned around gently and disappeared into the night outside the courtyard.

Although he only heard a small part of the conversation in the room, he already roughly guessed what they were talking about. Unexpectedly, Jun Ping is so close to Meng Jue? Since when did the two of them have this speculation? Xu Pingjun still lowered his head and wept. Meng Jue's anger towards her has long dissipated, and now only pity is left, "Mr. Ping, you want to protect your happiness, but is your way of protecting it right? What you met now is Yun Ge, she will let you, but if One day, Bingji met a woman who was also smart and beautiful, who knew everything Yun Ge knew, but she refused to let you, what should you do?" Xu Pingjun's lips moved: "I...I...she...wouldn't..." But there was no complete sentence.She wanted to say that such a good woman does not belong to her and Bing Ji's world, but how did Yun Ge enter their world?How did Meng Jue know them?She wanted to say that Bing Ji would not abandon her, but would Bing Ji abandon her because of Yun Ge?And why does she feel so uncomfortable every time she sees Yun Ge and Bing Ji saying something she can't understand? After a while, Xu Pingjun wiped away his tears, looked up at Meng Jue, and asked softly, "Brother Meng, what do you think I should do?" Meng Jue smiled appreciatively: "You always want to grab things that are far away with your hands, why don't you try to get closer before reaching out?" Xu Pingjun frowned and thought: "Go closer?" "You said that Yunge could understand Bingji's writing, but you couldn't. Can't you learn to read and understand? You can ask Bingji, you can ask Yunge, and you only learn ten characters a day, three years a year. There are six hundred and fifty characters. You said you couldn’t understand what Bing Ji said, but Yun Ge could. Why didn’t you understand? If you don’t understand, you can ask Yun Ge, if you don’t understand this time, If you understand it, you can understand it next time. If you want to read the books on Yunge’s bookshelf, she will be happy to explain them to you. You couldn’t learn piano, chess, calligraphy and painting when you were young because you didn’t have money to teach them. But now you are surrounded by Mr. Free, if you really have low self-esteem because of these, why can't you try to erase your low self-esteem?" Xu Pingjun's heart shook.She never thought of it that way! She only cared about being envious of what Yunge possessed, only thinking about Liu Bingji's thoughts, but never thought about herself, she always secretly complained about Yunge and Bingji, but she didn't know everything, she was the one who made the most mistakes one of. "Brother Meng, I understand. If I feel that I am no longer a person in the same world as the disease because of these, then what I should do is try to let myself enter the world of the disease, instead of trying to drag him into my world, or Prevent others from entering his world." Xu Pingjun only felt that his eyes suddenly opened up. It turned out that he seemed to be trapped in a well, knowing that there was another world outside, but his own sky was only as big as the mouth of the well. Envious of the outside world, dissatisfied with his own dark world, but don't know what to do.As time passed, I felt that my world was getting darker, the well was getting deeper, and people who were originally bright also gradually became darker. Why hasn't she hated herself for being responsible for Yunge's affection for her?How could she not miss the frankness and brightness when she first met Yun Ge? She squatted at the bottom of the well, trying to catch her own light, but every time she struggled and jumped, she didn't jump out of the well, but fell again and again, sinking deeper into the mud. Now, she already knows how to climb up to the mouth of the well and walk to the world outside. Although it will be slow, she is not afraid. She will work hard and slowly follow the ladder Meng Jue pointed out to her, and walk out of her darkness. Meng Jue said: "If you want to learn anything, you can come to me. Although I don't have time, they will be happy to teach you in March." Xu Pingjun got up and saluted Meng Jue: "Brother, thank you." Meng Jue wanted to help her, but when Xu Pingjun dropped the word "Meng" and called him "Big Brother", his heart felt warm inexplicably, and his hands shrank again. When he came back, he allowed Xu Pingjun to salute. After Xu Pingjun left, he was the only one left in the house.Meng Jue casually picked up a volume of books to distract himself, but saw Yun Ge's annotations beside him.Her comment is very strange, it's just a pattern, if you like it, it's a smiling sun, if you don't like it, it's a drooping flower. Meng Jue looked at the sun in high spirits, the fire and smoke flashed in front of his eyes, Yun Ge's eyes were mournful, and he suddenly closed the book with all his strength. Yun Ge, where are you now? Chang'an City, Da Sima Mansion. Huo has already controlled the guards of Weiyang Palace, but the guards are only responsible for guarding the palace gates, and cannot move around in the palace at will, so Huo can't grasp the emperor's daily every move in time.In order to get all the news from the emperor in time, eunuchs and court ladies must be arranged to serve in front of the imperial court, but Yu An, the head of the court, was appointed by the late emperor, with a deep foundation in the palace and loyal to Liu Fuling, so there is no one from the Huo family in the imperial court . Huo Yu's temptations and persecutions were all resolved by Yu An without leaving a trace. Annoyed, he decided to have a head-on confrontation to see how capable this eunuch is. While the emperor was not in Chang'an but in Lishan, Huo Yu ordered Huo Shan to carefully select a group of assassins to assassinate Yu'an.As long as Yu An is killed, everything in the palace will be easy in the future.Arranging eunuchs and court ladies will also follow their wishes. Unexpectedly, the master sent never came back, and even the body could not be found.And when he saw Yu An in Lishan, Yu An didn't shed a single hair, and his smile was still so sad. Only then did he understand why even his father had always been a little jealous of this eunuch, and he couldn't help it. Only then did I truly understand what my father said repeatedly: "The former emperor would not have picked a mediocre person to such an important position." Under the protection of his father, Huo Yu has been smooth sailing since he was a child, how many times has he suffered such a dark loss?He was so angry that his lungs were going to explode, but he could only curse in front of Huo Shan and Huo Yun. Huo Yun persuaded: "Brother, we acted on our own initiative without discussing it with uncle, so let's expose it and don't mention it again. Otherwise, if uncle finds out, it may be a light punishment for us to kneel in the ancestral hall." Huo Shan refused to accept: "Should we let this eunuch continue to be proud there? Among the people we sent into the palace, except for the Shangguan girl's Jiaofang Palace, he didn't interfere much, and who was not tricked by him? How many good hands have I lost this time? ? Was it damaged in vain?” Huo Yun glared at Huo Shan: "Second brother, you don't need to cause trouble for big brother! These good players are not in vain. At least we know the strength of Yu An and the eunuchs. Only by knowing ourselves and the enemy can we win every battle. Wait until the future When you want to get rid of them, you have the bottom line in your heart." Then he persuaded Huo Yu, "Brother, it's not too late for a gentleman to take revenge for ten years, how many years has uncle endured in order to punish Shangguan Jie?" Huo Yu understood that Huo Yun's words were all right, and if his father knew about this, he might be even more unlucky, so he could only swallow his breath for the time being, and nodded: "Brother Yun is right, so let's just pretend it never happened. No one is allowed to mention it in the future. Yu An..." Huo Yu snorted heavily, "You must never fall into my hands in the future!" For the first time, Yu An really understood why the word "suffering" is in the shape of fire underneath. In the past few days, isn't the emperor just like slowly roasting on the fire?Every moment is suffering. The unconscious person was the fire that turned the emperor's pain and self-blame into soup, which became hotter and thicker. If that person never wakes up, what will happen to the emperor when the pot of the most bitter soup in the world boils? Yu An shivered, didn't dare to think anymore, and murmured to himself: "I will wake up. We have the best doctor and the best medicine in the big man, and we will definitely wake up." Seeing Imperial Physician Zhang coming out, Yu An immediately went up to meet him: "Doctor Zhang?" Imperial Physician Zhang greeted Yu An first, Imperial Physician Zhang's father used to work in the Imperial Hospital, both father and son had a straightforward temper, and often offended the powerful with their words, but Liu Fuling admired Imperial Physician Zhang's temper in every sentence.Yu Anzi didn't dare to be disrespectful, and hurriedly reached out to help Dr. Zhang up. Grand Physician Zhang said: "The injury is too serious, and the time for treatment has been delayed. My medical skills are limited, and the effectiveness of the medicine stone has reached the extreme. Now I can only resign myself to fate." After hearing this, Yu An knew that Doctor Zhang must have said the same thing to the emperor just now, and his heart sank. He couldn't help sighing, and waved his hand to the sad-looking Doctor Zhang: "Doctor Zhang has a long history in his family, and his medical skills are already from the Imperial Hospital. Qiao Chu, this matter... Sigh! It's not your fault, it's mine." Doctor Zhang also sighed heavily: "Everyone thinks that the most skilled people in the world are the doctors of the Imperial Hospital, but they are not at all. There are many people who hide dragons and crouching tigers in the world. I heard my father mention that many years ago, there was a man in Chang'an City. His medical skills can be said to be 'Bian Que's regeneration', and we are nothing compared to this person. If he can treat Miss Yun, the situation may be very different." Yu An's eyes lit up: "Where is that person now? I'll send someone to invite him." Physician Zhang shook his head: "If I knew where he was, I would have begged the emperor to send someone to invite him. As a doctor, but I can't save people, that feeling of powerlessness... Sigh! According to my father, that person died many years ago. After leaving Chang'an, he has long disappeared. I only hope that he can take in a talented apprentice, and don't let his medical skills be lost. Otherwise, it will not only be a loss for the medical profession, but also a loss for the people of the world." Yu An's disappointment was evident.Doctor Zhang made a salute and left with heavy steps. Yu An wanted to go into the house to relieve the emperor, but as soon as he reached the door, he heard the sound of a flute coming from the house. Looking through the bead curtain, the woman on the couch has black hair and beautiful face, and the man beside the couch has clear features.At this time, the man was sitting beside the woman, blowing the flute for her. The sound of the emperor's flute is just like his own, indifferent and indifferent. It's just that this time the sound of the Xiao is slightly different from the past, and the feeling of longing for many years is flowing in the coldness. Yu An turned and exited the house. The world inside the bead curtain belongs only to them, and it is the reunion that the emperor has been waiting for for nine years. Seeing Yun Ge's frowning, Liu Fuling felt a little relieved by the sound of his flute, feeling a little better. At the end of the song, he leaned into Yun Ge's ear and said softly, "Yun Ge, I know you are not ignorant. You can definitely wake up, and I will always be here waiting for you. You promised to come see me, You can't break your word..." "Ling... Brother..." Liu Fuling's heart beat suddenly, his heart was ecstatic, and he immediately turned his head to look at Yun Ge, but then realized that it was just a nonsense in Yun Ge's coma, and he was still in a coma. After a moment of disappointment, joy gradually revealed in my heart, as well as traces of sadness. Yun Ge still remembered him and missed him. Knowing that Yun Ge couldn't hear him, he didn't call him "Brother Ling" on purpose, but he still held Yun Ge's hand very solemnly, and agreed: "Yun Ge, I'm here." Yun Ge frowned again, as if in pain. Liu Fuling quickly checked her wound, "Is the wound hurting again?" There seemed to be a lot of discomfort in Yun Ge's eyebrows, her lips were moving slightly, Liu Fuling hurriedly leaned over her lips to listen. "Meng...Meng..." "Tomb..." "Bad... stone... head..." "Meng..." There were murmurs that were almost inaudible, but they didn't seem to have any meaning. But Liu Fuling murmured again and again, his heart gradually turned cold, and he sank into an abyss without light.