Chapter 21 Chapter 21 Where Does the Phoenix Return?

[Huo Chengjun: Chang'e should regret stealing the elixir] The weeds in the Yunlin Pavilion are as high as a person's knee, and Huo Chengjun often sits on the threshold with disheveled hair, staring at the weeds in a daze.The eunuchs and palace maids who guarded her had all had He Xiaoqi to hint that for their own benefit, no one dared to make a lie to Huo Chengjun. Only Mother Xia did not avoid anyone's eyes and ears, and completely ignored He Xiaoqi's soft words and warnings, and insisted on following Huo Chengjun to Zhaotai Palace, and then followed her to Yunlin Pavilion, taking good care of Huo Chengjun's daily life .He Xiaoqi was annoyed, and wanted to move Nanny Xia. Before she acted, she checked, but found that Nanny Xia appeared to be Huo Chengjun who rescued the cold palace, but in fact, it was the emperor's secret words. After breaking out in a cold sweat, she quickly dismissed her thoughts .

But even with the care of Nanny Xia, Huo Chengjun's three meals a day are all wild vegetables and coarse bran, and there is often a meal and a meal.Huo Chengjun didn't pick anything, no matter how unpalatable the food was, she always finished it calmly, and after finishing eating, she still sat on the threshold in a daze. Madam Xia wanted to help her pull up her hair, but she didn't want it, and let her hair hang on her shoulders. "What are you thinking, ma'am?" Mother Xia thought that she would remain silent like before, but she seemed to be in a good mood today, so she replied, "I'm thinking about some things from the past."

Huo Chengjun lowered her head and fiddled with her dress. There were two small holes on the hem of the skirt. She seemed to find it very interesting to poke her fingers in and out of the small holes. Madam Xia felt sad when she saw it, and said softly: "This is my second The first time I entered the Leng Palace, when I came in for the first time, I kept looking forward to getting out until I was desperate, but when I came in this time, I didn't want to go out anymore, although it is poor here, it is very quiet, although the body is a little bit bitter, the heart is not bitter."

Huo Chengjun smiled with his head tilted, a bunch of black hair slanting down, hanging down his face.Ufa without makeup is still a rare beauty in the world. "Zhaotai Palace is already the worst among the cold palaces, but Liu Xun relegated me to Yunlin Pavilion. He Xiaoqi came here every three days to check how I was doing, lest people around me give me a good look. What do you think here? Can you be quiet?" Madam Xia couldn't answer. Huo Chengjun stared at the weeds again and started to be in a daze, like a lifeless clay sculpture. An eunuch came in from the outside, Huo Chengjun seemed to be a different person, jumped up, walked forward a few steps, stared at the eunuch closely, the eunuch glanced around, and motioned for Nanny Xia to step back, and Nanny Xia walked towards Huo Chengjun With a salute, he backed out.

The eunuch said arrogantly: "Recently, there have been many important events in the palace, and I have no time to come here. I have brought your words to Mr. Meng a few days ago. He just smiled and listened to me. After thanking me politely, He left without saying anything." Huo Chengjun stared blankly at the weeds on his knees, disappointed?maybe not!He is still the same him, still indifferent and cruel, and he is stingy with giving any mercy. The eunuch coughed twice, and said slowly, "I have some important news about Mr. Meng." Huo Chengjun was stunned for a while before he realized what the eunuch meant, and said, "I don't have any gold or silver jewelry around me anymore, and the jade hairpin I gave you last time is my last possession. Oh! By the way, over there There is also a lantern hanging, which is exquisitely crafted and should be able to exchange for some money."

lantern?The eunuch snorted coldly, turned around and left impatiently, saying casually as he walked, "Meng Jue is dead, Xiao Wangzhi will take over as the crown prince." Huo Chengjun's body trembled, and he grabbed the eunuch's arm, "What did you say? Impossible!" The eunuch unceremoniously pushed Huo Chengjun to the ground, flicked his sleeves, and wiped away the bad luck, "The Huo family who can cover the sky with one hand can all die, why can't Meng Jue die? But..." He His expression was also very confused, and while walking outside, he said to himself: "I really don't know what's going on. When the emperor announced the decree to appoint Xiao Wangzhi as the grand tutor, he and all the officials said Meng As a foreigner, Jue, despite the great kindness of the emperor, still had different intentions, and even secretly had contacts with the Qiang people. After the incident was revealed, he escaped from Chang'an, but the eunuchs in the palace secretly said that he was pierced by thousands of arrows and died prematurely. Already!"

Huo Chengjun sat blankly in the cold wild grass, the setting sun in the distance was like blood, and the lonely bird was crying, everything in front of her eyes was hazy.How could Liu Xun let him live?She should have thought of it earlier!But why didn't Liu Xun kill her for so long?Liu Xun's anger and resentment towards her could not be resolved even in death, perhaps only the daily living crimes could satisfy him a little. She stood up and walked into the hall. She was wrapped in a plain robe, her hair was long, and there was only a calm look on her pale face. The breeze blew, and the octagonal palace lantern in front of the window swayed with the wind. One after another, lifelike pictures flashed in front of her eyes. The one facing her was a picture of Chang'e living alone in the bleak Guanghan Palace, peeping at the world with tears. .

She smiled faintly, father, daughter is wrong!Even if it is underground, I have no face to see you! She took out an old satin, stood on the footrest, raised her hand vigorously, and threw the long satin to the roof beam. The setting sun slanted into the cold hall, everything in the house was covered with an orange halo. The wind was suddenly strong, the windows were blown open and closed, and there was a crackling sound. The lantern was blown to the ground, spun a few times, and stopped in front of an overturned pedal. 【Little Sister Shangguan: A person's land will last forever】 When Cheng'er combed Shangguan's younger sister's hair, the younger sister saw the white hair in the mirror, she gently picked up the white hair, and twirled it between her fingers.

Cheng'er was so sad that she wanted to cry. In fact, the empress is not old, she is not much different from the concubines in the palace, but the empress... Liu Shun came in to report, and said that all the ladies came to pay her respects.She waved her hand lightly, and Liu Shun turned around and went out, without any reason, and directly ordered all the ladies in the palace to go back.She thought with a smile, Liu Shun is also getting old, and when she speaks, she no longer has the bright enthusiasm before. Because of the emperor's respect and the prince's filial piety, her position in the harem is unshakable. Whether it is a favored concubine or an unfavored concubine, they all want to be favored by her, but there are very few who can really see her. The concubine didn't know what the empress dowager looked like until she gave birth to the prince. "The old woman in Changle Palace" gradually became a legend whispered in the dark night of Weiyang Palace.Some people say that she is physically disabled, so even if the first emperor had no concubine and only favored the empress, she was unable to bear children. They also said vividly that Huo Chengjun, the empress dowager, was also like this, maybe it was a disease in the blood of the Huo family; some people said that she was a stone girl, I can't accept the emperor Yulu at all; some people say that she is actually a virgin, the former emperor had a secret woman back then, but he was afraid of Shangguan Jie and Huo Guang, so he didn't dare to make that woman his concubine; She will cry submissively; some people say that she is cold and ruthless, and all the people in her family are dead, but she never shed a single tear...

She always wanted to laugh when she heard these rumors.Time is such a terrible thing, it makes girls' black hair turn white, men's straight waists become bent, and it distorts and changes everything.However, time cannot erase her memory, and she can slowly recall the quiet and long years of Changle Palace: She was six years old when she stepped into Weiyang Palace for the first time. I still remember that the heavy phoenix crown on her head made her stagger when she walked, and happy music was everywhere, but she was so scared that she just wanted to cry, hoping that after everything was over, her mother would come and pick her up.She heard everyone yelling "The Emperor", but she couldn't see anyone coming. She couldn't help but secretly lifted the red hijab on her head, and looked for the emperor everywhere, only seeing a figure in the distance who was holding back her sorrow and anger. Dumbfounded, as if he had done something wrong, he quickly put down his hijab, hiding his fear and uneasiness under the phoenix crown.

In the lyrics of the praiser, she kowtowed awkwardly while thinking about what her mother had said. "Mother, what is a queen?" Her mother pushed the swing and sent her to a high place. She laughed, and in her own laughter, she heard her mother say: "The queen is the wife of the emperor, and the emperor is the husband of the queen." "What is that wife?" "A wife is someone who wants to be with her husband for the rest of her life." "What is a husband?" "A husband is someone who wants to be with his wife for the rest of his life." She said unhappily: "Does that mean I want to be with the emperor forever? That's not okay, mother, I want to be with you forever." The mother didn't speak for a while, but just pushed the swing to send her off. She turned her head and saw tears in her mother's eyes. ... She pondered under the phoenix crown, is this the person who wants to be with me forever?He doesn't seem happy!But I'm not happy either!I want to go home! Her mother never came to pick her up, and she stayed in Jiaofangdian alone. When he was seven years old, on the stage of the gods, he picked her up for the first time, and accompanied her to search for her home. She leaned in his arms, trying to find her parents, while thinking vaguely, mother said he Want to be with me forever?together forever... He was so silent that he didn't say a word, just hugged her quietly, but her fear and fear seemed to fade away. Later, she found that he liked to go to Shenming Terrace, but he looked west, while she looked north. When she occasionally bumped into him, he would still pick her up so that she could look north, although Both he and she knew that no matter whether it was west or north, nothing could be seen. When she was eight years old, she heard the palace servants sing for the first time: "Huang Hu flew to build a chapter, and Yu Su staggered. Gold is the clothes and chrysanthemums are the clothes, and the lotus is used to go in and out of the reeds. Self-care meager, shame Er Jiaxiang. " The maid next to her told her that this was a poem written by the emperor at the request of his ministers. She didn't fully understand the poetry, but she knew that the song was not about auspiciousness, but about the emperor himself.Because she has also stood by the Taiye Pool countless times, looking at the free-spirited birds, and fantasizing that she is a bird and can fly out of Weiyang Palace freely.In the maid's singing, she suddenly understood the pity hidden in his eyes, so he understood her. Although he was silent and distant, he understood everything in her heart. She gradually grew taller, but he became more and more indifferent to her.Occasionally, she would deliberately meet him at the Shenmingtai, but when he saw her, he would immediately turn around and leave. His indifferent back could not hide his tiredness. She knew that the Shenmingtai was the only one in the entire Weiyang Palace that really belonged to him. world.Stop because you understand.She no longer goes to the Shenming Terrace, but only takes a walk in the distance on starry nights, listening to the melodious flute sound, lingering among the red corridors and jade fences. ... How could she leave here? All the happiness and memories of her life are here.Her parents, brothers, and relatives are also in this city.During the Qingming Festival, she would go to worship her parents first, and then her grandfather, maternal grandfather, uncle, and uncle. She would burn the horse drawn by herself in front of her younger brother's tomb, and she would also burn silk flowers in front of Aunt Lan's tomb. , Burning Ropa in front of Aunt Chengjun's tomb. More importantly, there is him here.She can sit on the platform of the gods for a day, go to Taiye Pool to see Huang Hu, and go to Pingling to watch the sunrise. In this palace, his figure is everywhere, and these memories belong to her only, even if that Qingsi A woman who is like a cloud and smiles like a song will never be possible to have.If possession is a kind of happiness, then she who has memories is also happy. "Niang Niang?" Cheng'er whispered worriedly, and the empress was in a daze again. The little girl smiled apologetically, waved her hand to let Cheng'er go down, let down the white hair between her fingers indifferently, got up and walked to the window, opened the window, and the wild geese lined up in the blue sky were moving south.What was it like where the birds flew to?Brother Emperor must know now. Brother, I know that you are finally free, you have already flown out with that cloudy woman, she will travel all over the world, and do everything you want to do.But you, mine, are everywhere in this palace. By the Taiye Pool, on the gods platform, and in the corridors of the palace, it seems that you can see you walking towards me in the blink of an eye; in the middle of the night, as long as I If you listen carefully, you can still hear your flute. I am afraid that your will will never be used. I know that the world outside is very big, but no matter how big the world is, without your figure, what does it matter to me?No matter how beautiful those flowers are, no matter how beautiful those trees are, no matter how miraculous those views are, no matter how good those men are, they are not what I want. I just want to stay here, guarding the memories of you and me, alone forever.