Chapter 7 Section VI

I ran out of the dormitory building and was blown by the night wind. I woke up a little bit, thinking vaguely in my mind, what would they think if I just ran out like this? Guilty?Or absconded in fear of crime? I don't know about other people, but according to Zhuang Xu's opinion of me, nine out of ten people would think so. It's ridiculous. Before today, I would have wishful thinking that even if Zhuang Xu didn't like me, even if he couldn't understand that I didn't seek to improve, he would at least appreciate me and think that I was a good person.After all, I helped him, didn't I?

Turns out I'm an idiot once again. Ever since I met Zhuang Xu, I seem to keep equating with idiots.The initial backtracking was like a farce, I played the ignorant but self-satisfied clown, then figured it out, calmed down and quit, and even sent a text message to explain to him—"I'm sorry, I didn't know you were with Rong Rong, Otherwise I wouldn't have told you that. I hope it didn't bother you." Explaining because of my own liking, it is ridiculous to think about it. But I don't want him to misunderstand that I am deliberately trying to win love. That text message was the same as most of the text messages sent to him before. Now that I think about it, maybe he didn't believe it at all.

Yeah, how could he believe it. How could he believe that Rong Rong and I are in the same dormitory, but he doesn't know the ambiguity between them.How could he believe that I even asked Rong Rong at that time, but the answer he got was "Although we are neighbors, we don't know much about it". The eyes became more and more sour, and I raised my hand to wipe them twice to stop the tears, but in the end there were more and more tears, and the soreness in my chest made me want to cry.I have always felt that liking someone should be a kind of joyful mood like a flower blooming, why is it so uncomfortable.

I sat in the secluded grove of the school until late at night, and I didn't stand up until I was so hungry.Looking up, it was already dark. I don’t know what time it is. My mobile phone and wallet were thrown in the dormitory and I didn’t bring them out. Fortunately, there were dozens of dollars stuffed in my trouser pocket. Otherwise, I would not only be wronged but also Starving is too miserable. Putting my hands in my pockets, I walked out of the school slowly. The night market outside the north gate was bustling with pop songs mixed with loud human voices rushing towards my face, instantly diluting the boredom in my heart a lot. I took a deep breath and felt emotional It seemed to have calmed down a bit, but the eyes were stinging from the lights of the night market.I walked into a beef noodle restaurant that I usually go to next to the night market, sat down and ordered a bowl of noodles, then turned my chopsticks and continued to stare at me.

Turning pens and chopsticks is a bad habit I developed in high school. I quit it for several years, and I started playing it again without knowing it. However, when I saw two people walking into the noodle shop, my fingers froze, the chopsticks flew out, and hit the girl who was eating opposite with a "snap". It's Zhuang Xu and Rong Rong.Rong Rong took Zhuang Xu's hand and walked in with a smile. Probably this is the so-called encounter on a narrow road. It is not uncommon for them to come to this restaurant. The students of University A often eat noodles here. The beef noodles in this restaurant are a must, and Nanjing is very famous.But why this time?

Rong Rong pulled Zhuang Xu and sat down in another corner of the noodle shop, she didn't seem to see me, she kept talking to Zhuang Xu with a smile on her face, I could feel her good mood from so far away, and My bad mood was completely inversely proportional. This is the first time I've seen them being so intimate in public, Rong Rong has always been extremely reserved, telling everyone that she and Zhuang Xu are just friends.It can't be my credit for being so intimate now.So I'm quite the catalyst. I laughed at myself, and the sourness I had just suppressed in my heart began to stir again.

I said sorry to the girl opposite, and took the chopsticks back.The waiter just brought my noodles, and I ate my noodles with my head down, just wanting to leave before they saw me. It's a pity that the sky fails to fulfill people's wishes.The girl on the opposite side finished eating, but she couldn't find her wallet to pay the bill.The attitude of the waiter is not bad, but the voice is too loud.The sentence "Didn't bring any money?" made many people look over. Although Zhuang Xu and the others hadn't looked this way yet, if the waiter spoke loudly, it was hard to guarantee that they wouldn't look back.I didn't feel like eating any more. Before the waiter could speak again, I took out a piece of 20 yuan from my trouser pocket and handed it to the waiter: "Check out, I'll go with her."

I thought the waiter would leave after taking the money, but he started chattering enthusiastically, saying that the girl who didn't bring any money was lucky or something.I was overwhelmed by what he said, so I got up and walked out without waiting for him to change the money. Rongrong still saw me, and when she got up, she happened to meet her eyes, she snorted and turned her eyes away, as if she didn't want to look at me more. I clenched my fists, suppressing the urge to quarrel with her, and walked out of the noodle shop stiffly. The mood is getting worse and worse. In any case, I don't want to go back to the dormitory today. I walked towards the bus station and planned to spend the night at my uncle's house.

When I arrived at my uncle's house, my cousin had already finished his evening self-study and was sitting on the sofa eating supper and watching TV. When he saw me, he hugged the plate in his arms. "Sister, why did you come back today? I'm starving to death, don't rob me." "You can eat it yourself." I didn't want to talk to him, and ran upstairs after saying something hastily. After lying on the bed for a few minutes, my cousin knocked on the door. "Hey, Nie Xiguang, I can't eat it. Do you want to eat it? Auntie Zhang made small buns with meat."

I ignored him. The cousin kept knocking outside, "Sister, you won't be broken in love again, right?" Why is everyone so annoying today?I got out of bed, opened the door, and said blankly, "So what?" "Missed again?" The cousin opened his mouth wide, and then began to snicker, "I'm still Brother Zhuang, right? Didn't you give up a long time ago?" In the end, under my glaring eyes, he comforted me insincerely: "Okay, sister, it's fine if you don't lose your virginity." "..." I looked at him for two seconds and kicked the door shut in front of him.

After working as a turtle at my uncle's house for two days, I still had to go back. My laptop is still in the dormitory, and the draft paper is in it. I don't know if it's a psychological effect, but walking on the school road, I always feel that there are a few half-acquainted students from the same department glaring at me. I feel depressed, but I can't go forward and grab others to ask questions.Later, things changed, and Ah Fen told me that many people in the department knew about the incident very quickly. They all called the dormitory to comfort Rongrong. I originally thought that no one would choose to go to the dormitory after three o'clock in the afternoon.As a result, I pushed open the dormitory door, and found that there were several unlucky dorm residents there. Rongrong was standing in the middle of the dormitory, smiling and in a good mood. Seeing my expression froze, he smiled again. "Nie Xiguang, let's forget about that, let's all be classmates." I didn't want to argue anymore, I just looked at her blankly. She played with the mobile phone in her hand: "This is an early birthday gift from Zhuang Xu yesterday. There are gains and losses in everything. The words of the ancients really make sense. Sometimes, why bother to be too clever." She meant something, and everyone else in the dormitory was silent. I looked at the glaringly colored phone and said lightly, "There's nothing to show off with such an ordinary phone." She blushed, and then returned to normal: "Yes, the mobile phone is ordinary and only costs more than a thousand yuan. Miss Nie naturally doesn't like it, but haven't you heard of it?" She said heavily: "Yiqiu is a priceless treasure, It’s rare to have a lover.” I was stunned, and then slowly said: "Yes, it's rare to have a lover, then congratulations." I couldn't live in the dormitory anymore, so I tidied up and ran to my uncle's house. Maybe I shouldn't have moved back in the first place.