Chapter 41 Chapter Forty Actually I Really Don’t Want to Believe You

Luo Zhi finished two books, a total of eight sets of Cambridge real papers in one day, and was dizzy. In the evening, she got dressed and planned to go to the library to return the books. Before walking out of the dormitory, Belle called her from behind, "Put on more clothes, the sun is setting and you still have a fever, it's cold outside." Luo Zhi smiled, "Is the sun setting? You really sound like a village woman." Belle also smiled and said, "Hurry up and look in the mirror, yo, this smile is... pale and morbid, and a little forced, so pitiful." Luo Zhi followed her advice and looked in the mirror.In fact, she saw it when she woke up and washed her face. She had lost a lot of weight in a week, and her face was unbelievably pale.

I am really worthless.She waved to Belle and opened the dormitory door. "By the way, if you can go downstairs, you can go downstairs to pick up Zhang Mingrui tonight. I think he must be very happy to see you!" "I texted him to tell him that I was sick and went to eat by myself, and he won't be here today." "What?" Belle curled her lips, and suddenly asked cautiously, "Luo Zhi...you and that Sheng Huainan...are you sick because of him?" Luo Zhi looked back at her, looked up at the ceiling, and thought about it seriously, "I think...the main reason is the temperature and the virus..."

The moment I went out, I heard Belle say quietly that the feng shui in our dormitory is too bad. After swiping the card and pushing open the door, she unexpectedly saw Sheng Huainan.Luo Zhi smiled peacefully, nodded to him, and continued walking. "Luo Zhi, are you... have you recovered from your illness?" "It's almost ready." She stopped and replied, but her voice was still hoarse. Sheng Huainan looked at her with forbearable guilt and tenderness, Luo Zhi was puzzled, and lowered his head without thinking about it. "It's cold outside, it's better to go out less, and heal your illness completely."

"I'm going to the library to return the book," she waved the real Cambridge exam in her hand, "Got it, thank you." "Are you about to take the IELTS exam?" "Well, this Saturday, in Beiyu." "With such a voice, what should I do in the speaking test?" "Anyway, it's not an announcer exam. As long as the pronunciation is clear, it doesn't matter." "Then... work hard." Sheng Huainan smiled, looking a little helpless. "Oh, by the way, are you waiting for someone here? Can you wait for me for a minute, I'll just give you something." Luo Zhi suddenly remembered that she happened to meet him today, so she simply settled the matter.

"what?" "Raincoat. Return it to you." Luo Zhi's tone didn't have any special meaning.Sheng Huainan raised his eyebrows and looked at her deeply, and she also looked up, "Wait a minute, I'll come down right away." "Put the book here for me to help you hold it, so you don't have to hold it and toss it again, run slowly, and be careful of the wind and cough." Luo Zhi frowned unabashedly and glanced at him, nodded to say thank you, put the book in Sheng Huainan's hand, and swiped the card again to enter the door. Flipping through the books in his hand, Sheng Huainan remembered that many people signed up for TOEFL or GRE during the holidays. A thick stack of textbooks and OE were piled up on the bookshelves. Most people didn’t have time to finish reading those books, but they didn’t buy them all at the beginning. I also feel that there is no bottom.

There is no Luo Zhi's handwriting on the book.There are some crooked ink pen handwriting on a few pages, and it looks like a boy's handwriting.It's a library book after all. But when I turned to the last page, it felt uneven, as if it was written on the pad of the owner, and the strokes were too hard to be printed on the book.He was free, so he used his index finger to try to identify the words on it, but he gave up after trying for a long time. Luo Zhi walked down and handed him a translucent bag, from which a pink raincoat could be vaguely seen. "Wash and dry." "Thank you."

"I'm leaving." "I asked you the other night about whether you liked me..." She had already walked some distance away, but when she heard that, she turned around and looked at him clearly. I want to ask him, what are you going to do.She just felt that it was cold outside, so cold that her forehead was hot, and she didn't want to pester her. "Well, I like you, what's the matter?" she said impatiently. Sheng Huainan looked at her deeply, and said slowly for a long time, "Maybe I was wrong, I'm sorry." "I really can't take it anymore," Luo Zhi smiled, "You apologized for the first time that Zhang Mingrui liked me, the second time for not knowing me in high school, and the third time for the fact that I liked you—your sense of right and wrong is really special. .”

Sheng Huainan did not fight back. Luo Zhi shook her head, and tried to speak to him in a calm tone, "I don't know if there was a reason for what you did to me before, or it was purely because of your psychopathy. If there was a reason for what happened, I wanted to ask you why, but you You didn't even ask me a word, just..." She paused, then laughed again, "Hehe, speaking of it, you didn't do anything to me, did you, you didn't say anything too much, you didn't hit me You didn’t scold me, it just made me feel uncomfortable and hurt, it’s just a feeling.” After Luo Zhi finished speaking, she put away her smile and looked at him seriously, "Love is just a feeling."

Sheng Huainan moved his lips, trying to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything. After being silent for a while, Luo Zhi felt that the fingertips holding the book were getting a little cold, so she said, "You don't seem to be going to tell me why, so I won't ask. But I just want to say, I may have lied, but These lies are just to help me maintain an illusion and balance, I have never, never, done anything morally ashamed of others, not a single thing." She said one sentence at a time, like the defendant's concluding statement . When I left, I vaguely heard Sheng Huainan say softly, I really don't want to believe you.

After returning the book, she felt hungry and rushed into the third canteen near six o'clock. She found that she missed the bread and cakes very much, but she had already missed that pot. They only baked one pot at night, and there was no one left.She only bought a bowl of porridge. After thinking about it, she bought boiled beef, spicy chicken and Malatang in a fit of anger. Although her throat was still not good and her nose was blocked, her mouth still had no taste. She needed stimulation. Not long after she sat down, she looked up and saw Zhang Mingrui happily running to her with a plate and sitting down beside her.

"How do you..." "Didn't you say you're going to eat by yourself at night? I think you'll come to buy bread and cakes. I didn't see you when I was queuing up. Then I sat near the window and waited for a long time. I don't think it will be sold out. I'm afraid you won't be able to eat it." , I went back and bought two more, but now they are cold.” Luo Zhi opened her mouth, her nose became sore before she could say anything. "Thank you." She buried her head in the white mist of the hot porridge, not wanting him to see her embarrassed expression.Unexpectedly, in the next second, Zhang Mingrui stretched out his index finger tremblingly and shouted: "No way, Luo Zhi, how did you become so virtuous? You are thinner than Huang Hua, tsk tsk, haven't you showered in a week?" She raised her head and gouged him viciously, took a mouthful of boiled beef and stuffed it into her mouth. Unexpectedly, she bit the peppercorns, and her tongue was so numb that she couldn't taste anything. "Master Zhang Mingrui." She said vaguely.