Chapter 17 Chapter 16 The Unspeakable Secret

In the afternoon at Tiffany's house, Luo Zhi politely explained to Tiffany's mother that Sheng Huainan was very busy, but he treated the two children as his own younger siblings and often played with them. She saw Tiffany's disappointed face, and Jake walked into his room angrily and ignored her.Suddenly, the body and mind are full of fatigue. She accompanied them for half a year, and he only shared Happy Valley with them for one day. That's how he frustrates her.Use superiority, affinity, use his excellence and busyness, use his indifference. And she is not only inferior in every way, but also loves him.He shook her hand, but she didn't even refuse.

The situation was simply dire. Luo Zhi finally couldn't laugh, and didn't hide her exhaustion, she just sat at the table and didn't speak. really tired. "Let's drink some tea. The old Pu'er brought back from Yunnan by a friend I met in Hong Kong. I was afraid that I would not know how to make tea, so I specially brought a purple sand pot with a big belly for me. I soaked it in boiling water first to wash off the dust. Pour it out, add honey and ice it. Although it’s autumn, I still prefer cold things, don’t you mind?” They talked for a long time before Luo Zhi came back to life. "Huh? Oh, don't mind. Thanks."

She took the glass, the sorrel tea soup was a bit black, she tasted it, it was bitter but not astringent, unexpectedly delicious. "Do you like tea?" "I don't know." Luo Zhi shrugged. "Do you like coffee?" "do not know either." Seeing that the other party was looking at her with raised eyebrows and a slight smile, Luo Zhi felt a little embarrassed. "That's right. If I drink tea, I use Lipton tea bags to heat water; as for coffee, I always make Nescafe casually when I stay up late for K study, so I don't know if I make tea and coffee every day like you, I will not Would love to drink tea and coffee."

Tiffany's mother laughed. "You always look worried and don't like to talk, but sometimes you are so frank, I can't accept it." Luo Zhi didn't know when she let others see so many secrets, they didn't seem to see each other often, and they rarely chatted. After all, it is not easy for a woman who has lived more than ten years longer than herself to see herself through at a glance. "I have something on my mind?" Luo Zhi held the cup in both hands and took small sips. "It looks like you have a secret that you can't tell." Later, when Jay Chou's new film "The Unspeakable Secret" was released, Luo Zhi once again remembered the things she had told her.Although my own secrets are not as beautiful as those described in Jay Chou's narcissistic movie.

"It should be...well, it's not impossible to say." She didn't refute. "what is that?" "No one asked, so I didn't say it." After Luo Zhi finished speaking, she remembered that someone had actually asked.It's just that the person who asked the question looked like a witch holding a wine bottle with red eyes, how could she speak. She finished her drink, and the other party asked if she wanted another drink. "Well, another cup. I can answer your question now, I like tea." Tiffany's mother smiled, and the sunlight came in through the floor-to-ceiling windows and dyed her smile golden. Luo Zhi suddenly remembered the photo on the coast again, the short-haired woman in the soft sunlight.Even though her hair is very long now, she still looks like a pure and lovely girl.

"By the way... can I not call you aunt in the future?" "Yep?" "Feeling a little guilty. You look only a few years older than me." "Really?" She blinked, looking younger. "Thank you. Then let's discuss the matter of seniority. The two of them call your sister, and you can call me sister too." "Okay." Luo Zhi felt that if he were a man, he would have fallen in love with her by now. "But do you know my name and what I do?" Luo Zhi shook her head. "You were in Happy Valley, you made the kids happy, but you didn't ask them what happened, did you?"

"I didn't ask, but Tiffany said something, she kept crying, and I didn't understand much." "Then how did you coax Jake?" "It's not me coaxing. It's the brother he told you about." "Interesting. The boy never asked what was going on, you two really reassured me." She put down the teapot, "Everyone will think that I am a single woman living in such a big house and raising two children. Know who I am, why I am so rich, and where is my husband. Even if you don’t ask in the open, you will ask behind the scenes. Do you believe me when I tell you that I’m divorced? You don’t seem to be interested at all.”

Luo Zhi smiled frankly, "It's not that I'm not interested at all. If you want to talk, I'm naturally willing to listen. But the interest is not strong enough to ask." "Only interested in wages?" She continued to nod frankly. "However... I know something about your family. I asked someone to ask a few questions." "It's okay, my family's background is not shady either." Luo Zhi smiled. "If I was as clear-headed as you were when I was young, many things probably wouldn't have happened." Luo Zhi didn't speak, just laughed.

"Ever wonder why I told you this?" Luo Zhi thought for a while, "Maybe it was because I saw that I was in a bad mood and helped me resolve it, or maybe it was because I was going to be fired, or because you... have nothing to do right now." She didn't know why she was so unscrupulous today, maybe she was really stimulated by Sheng Huainan, so she had no scruples. "Except for the second point, you have guessed everything right. Why should I fire you? And, needless to say so implicitly, just say that I am boring." The other party was amused. "Then are you really bored?" Luo Zhi grinned after speaking, she became more and more presumptuous.

"Yeah, I also have secrets, and I have no friends." Her voice lowered, "People who have secrets are lonely, it's normal." Luo Zhi was taken aback for a moment, but when she looked up, she saw that she was still smiling calmly, winking playfully at herself. "Luo Zhi, let's be friends." Luo Zhi stared blankly at the perfect interplay of light and shadow around her, feeling a little dreamy, "Ah? Why?" "I'm just asking if you want to." This time she didn't hesitate. "willing." "Then... Let's exchange secrets, shall we? Tell your secrets honestly."

Luo Zhi was convinced that the person in front of her must not be a mortal, because she felt that she had been bewitched. "Okay," she said As if to show her sincerity, Tiffany's mother told the story first.She concealed all the names, place names and time, and spoke calmly and lowly.Luo Zhi felt as if she was at the beginning of a beautiful literary film, and time was like a wide and unhurried river, slowly rinsing through her heart. When it was her turn, the moment she spoke, she felt as if a roller coaster was diving down from a high altitude, and she tried to say a few words, using the logical relationship of "although but even though" all over, but it was still confusing. The person opposite smiled: "You can come in chronological order and say one by one," She scratched the back of her head in embarrassment.Nod. "My father died when I was five years old," she said. If her life is really a symphony of destiny, then the gong that symbolizes a sudden turnaround is not a big persimmon that fell from the sky at all, but the news brought by the sharp ringing of the phone at grandma's house. When Tiffany went downstairs in the evening, she saw her mother and Juno sitting face to face in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, each holding a cup of maroon Puer, silent for some reason. Luo Zhi was left for dinner, Jake still didn't know what was awkward, she didn't point it out, she just told him, don't worry, I will definitely bring your big brother over again. As for how this big brother views her work, she still feels a little tingling when she thinks about it, but this tingling makes her sober up a lot. She offered to formulate strict and systematic teaching content in the future. As for the time spent playing with children, it should not be included in wages.She will spend more time each time playing with them. "It's not that I'm aloof, and it's not that I'm afraid of being despised. I just think that when I get along with my children, I can relax." Luo Zhi explained. "It's because I didn't think about it properly. You must have felt uncomfortable before. You felt like pleasing children to make money. I'm sorry." Luo Zhi found that it was hard for her not to like and trust this ice-snow-smart and beautiful woman. Of course, she finally knew her name, although it was the changed name she was using now. "Goodbye, Zhu Yan, thank you." Before Luo Zhi got into the car, she said goodbye to her standing under the wall of roses that opened at the gate. The carved railings and jade masonry should still be there, but Zhu Yan has changed. At night, Luo Zhi lay on the bed, her mood calmed down a lot.It turns out that telling the secret is such an important thing. In her memory, it seems that only in the tail of the third year of high school did she have such an impulse. She climbed up to the sixth floor, rushed to the door of Sheng Huainan's class, stood still, panting, completely ignoring the students coming and going around her Whether they were looking at her, they all suddenly became the background, and there was only the white lighted doorway in their field of vision.Her breathing slowed down, but so did her courage.Turning around calmly, I walked to the women's toilet at the corner of the sixth floor, and as soon as I entered the door, I met Ye Zhanyan in line.Ye Zhanyan smiled and said to her, are you here too?The water leakage on our fourth floor was scary, and there were so many people on the fifth floor. Damn, you have to climb stairs to go to the bathroom.She smiled and said, yes. Those words were still left unsaid.The women's restroom on the sixth floor gently contained her secret.As the years passed, she became more and more silent and calm, as if she didn't even have the courage for that moment. It takes courage to speak up, a courage to take responsibility. Because if you don't say it is regret, if you say it, you will only regret it.