Chapter 4 Chapter Three

In the afternoon of the next day, Luo Zhi picked up the transparent document bag containing the application form and a copy of the transcript, and went out to the law office building to apply for a double degree. Walking forward along the path, always being careful of the persimmon tree on top of her head, she finally arrived at a sunny and open area. There were many bicycles coming and going on the road. She heard the exclamation of the girl beside her, and followed everyone's gaze - — A boy didn’t hold on to the handlebars with both hands, but held Master Kang’s noodle bucket in one hand and a fork in the other, riding while eating, walking leisurely and steadily in front of Luo Zhi at a constant speed. The slow speed made Luo Zhi sure that he was not too late to eat , just showoff.

Just unconsciously chasing the bicycle, when I looked up, I found that I had deviated from the direction of the law school and walked to the small supermarket in front of the East Gate office building.She felt a little thirsty, so she went in to buy water. That's how he saw Sheng Huainan. At that moment, Luo Zhi even looked up at the imaginary persimmon tree in fear. A person who was rarely seen was suddenly bumped into frequently for a period of time, and she knew that it must be God who hooked his little finger and started to cause trouble—whether it was a blessing or a curse, and it was a disaster that could not be avoided.

It was the third time I saw him in the whole year of college. They grabbed the same bottle of afternoon black tea—in fact, Luo Zhi did it on purpose. She didn't know where the courage came from, but she reached out before she could figure it out.However, Sheng Huainan just apologized and let go, grabbing another bottle.When she smiled nervously and said it was okay, he had already turned around and walked towards the payment counter. She didn't even hear his apology clearly, but judged logically that it should be an apology. It turned out that he didn't know her.Really do not know.

When she was in high school, she pondered in her mind for three years, guessing how the other party thought of her. After all, she always thought that she was not a big or small celebrity—today she finally got the answer to the mystery . I am just a name.She grinned at the freezer, couldn't open it, then grinned again, and finally burst out laughing. But this may be a milestone day.She greeted him for the first time.Even facing the back. The cashier waved her finger in front of her eyes before she regained her senses and quickly handed out the black tea in her hand. That bottle of black tea was the closest contact between her and him in their lives.However, there was no such experience as "his fingers were slightly cool, and he felt a dry touch when he brushed the back of my hand" and so on--the brain was blank, and I couldn't recall anything.

I couldn't unscrew the iced black tea in my hand for a long time, and I walked to the front of the law school building, my left and right palms were red, and the tiger's mouth of my right hand was printed with the fine vertical stripes of the bottle cap, but I still couldn't take a sip. It was past four o'clock when the law school came out after finishing the formalities. She liked this time very much, the sun was bright but not dazzling. Staring in a daze at the row of bicycles in front of the building, he felt someone looking at him out of the corner of his eye.A girl is smiling at her.The girl wore gold wire-rimmed eyes, and the two eyes looked a little weird because they were too close together.He was wearing slightly whitish jeans and a light purple long-sleeved T-shirt. He was a little fat, and the thighs of the pants were stretched.

Luo Zhi remembered that her name was Zheng Wenrui. "Why are you in a daze?" Zheng Wenrui asked. "No, I just think about it...and then I have to do something." The other party's familiar tone made her a little surprised. "Have you got a meal yet?" "Just going back to the dormitory to clean up and go eat." "Let's go together then." Luo Zhi subconsciously nodded and said, OK. She went back to the dormitory, stepped on the chair and put the bottle of death-rather-than-yielding iced tea high on the top of the cabinet, then went out to the bathroom to take a shower, change clothes, and head to the agreed place.

Luo Zhi didn't know Zheng Wenrui, but any student in Zhenhua High School would remember the girl in class 3 in the third year of high school who came out to do exercises between classes wearing a short-sleeved T-shirt, cropped pants and sandals. It was a cold March day. Everyone turned their heads and looked in her direction as if they had cervical spondylosis.From Luo Zhi's impression, she only knows that this girl has always had good grades, and she is now studying in the Department of Computer Science at P University.As for her behavior that time, maybe it was due to the eccentricities of top students, and she herself has eccentricities.

Zheng Wenrui and himself have never even spoken to each other, and this invitation seems particularly strange. However, as soon as Zheng Wenrui took a seat at the barbecue restaurant, he asked her softly, "You don't mind if you want to drink some wine?" Luo Zhi's heart sank.She felt that the other party just grabbed someone at random to drink away his sorrows with him.Thinking of this, Luo Zhi relaxed a lot. Zheng Wenrui did not speak, and neither did she.Occasionally, she raised her head and saw Zheng Wenrui smiling cautiously at her. The roast was served and so was the beer.So the two began to eat in silence, and Zheng Wenrui drank wine cup after cup.

Weird quiet atmosphere, until Zheng Wenrui got a little too drunk. "I used to be very ordinary." The opening chapter was as inexplicable as this meal, Luo Zhi quickly recovered from the daze, nodded, showing that she was listening. "In order to get close to him and study hard, I got into the top five in the class. But what about being in the top five? I guess I've already been laughed at by others, right? I'm almost at the level of Sister Furong. I despise myself Whether I am perverted or masochistic, I have done a lot of embarrassing things to punish myself. I read while eating with chopsticks in my left hand and a pen in my right hand. During breaks, I used a fake Swiss Army knife to play aerial toss. The girl at the desk yelled, and questioned the teacher's teaching methods loudly in class, so that the Chinese teacher slapped the table and left... completely ruined his image in his heart—if there was an image. Looking back, I also I don't know why I did this, why I hurt my image and reputation like this."

Luo Zhi looked at Zheng Wenrui in bewilderment, but she just raised her head and her gaze was unfocused, grinning miserably, without any intention of explaining. "If you become excellent, there is no way to get close, so it's better to completely destroy all ways to get close, maybe you will give up." Zheng Wenrui laughed, drank the remaining wine in the glass, and continued. "But I still don't give up. It's all like this, I still don't give up." "I know he can't like me, so what? If you have such a perfect person next to you, just across the aisle from you, you can see him sitting upright every day reading a book and solving problems, or attending class When I was playing NDS secretly, I could still answer all the questions when I was called up by the teacher. You could smell the fragrance of the fabric softener when he moved a little. Courage handed over the tissue, and he could hear his very nice voice saying thank you, and his crooked eyes when he smiled—how could I not like it? Yes, I’m ugly, I don’t deserve him, but God is not fair , Do I have to give up myself? Why should I like those who are not as good as him, just because people who are worse than him are more worthy of me? Why should I want to be more open, and why should I settle for second best?!"

The more Zheng Wenrui spoke, the more excited he became, tears streaming down his face, and he stared at the plate of barbecue in front of him as if struggling, his tense body trembling slightly.When Luo Zhi originally heard her nonsensical lyrical narration, she held back and didn't dare to laugh, thinking that she was acting like a play.However, when I heard this, I felt a little sad. Yeah, why give up.God tortures people because it shows you what is beautiful with evil intentions, and then sees you salivating so much that you look down on everything else, and then takes it back and tells you, stop dreaming, in fact, it has nothing to do with you. That's why Zheng Wenrui didn't give up.God is blatantly unfair.But mortals reserve the right to be paranoid. As Luo Zhi thought about it, she felt a little bitter unconsciously. Luo Zhi now knows that the "he" Zheng Wenrui is talking about is Sheng Huainan.Although she never mentioned his name from beginning to end. She loves him, but he doesn't love her.It's a boring topic, and one that lasts a long time.Zheng Wenrui liked him when he was a freshman in high school, confessed to him, but was rejected.Later he had a girlfriend, and she swore to give up.Later, when he broke up with his girlfriend when he was in college, she mustered up the courage to confess again, but she was rejected by a "very gentle smile". What Luo Zhi did was to smile or sigh at the right time, accompanied by movements such as shaking her head and nodding, as well as caring and quiet eyes. Zheng Wenrui said that the crush was too painful. When she found out that he had a girlfriend, she let the teachers and students in the school watch her dressed coolly doing intercourse exercises. Being laughed at like this made her feel that she deserved it.Masochism is fun. That was the last time she was stupid in high school. But not for the last time in this life. She said that she thought she had forgotten and put it down, but the university still unconsciously studied the characteristics of the girl he loved deeply and shaped herself into a lively and pungent girl. "I don't have any ideals. My family doesn't have much expectations for me. The expectations are all on my younger brother. My admission to such a good university is regarded as a surprise in my family. People around me, including my parents and younger brother, are so mediocre. The kind who would gossip about the price of eggs and the neighbors' family affairs. I saw them as if they were hiding away. But, he is the most beautiful person I have ever met in my life. Everyone I met in my life before high school was different. Many people advised me to give up and told me to let it go, but I couldn’t let it go. I just liked it. Why should I let go? Why should I let it go? What are you kidding me about?" Luo Zhi didn't know whether to laugh or cry, but there was a very gentle emotion in her heart. This strange girl seemed to have no strategy to win others' favor, but she was unwilling to laugh at the other's stupid tricks. The sisters Tao often get together to discuss how to help their girlfriends tie or trick a boy's heart, but Luo Zhi appreciates this stupid boy who is fighting alone.With a lonely heart, I don't know if that's what I mean. Of course, she has to admit that she likes to watch tragic heroes, and it cannot be said that there is no dark psychology of gloating at others' misfortune. Later, Zheng Wenrui got completely drunk, and stopped saying secretive things like "Actually, I've woken up, and I don't care about him very much now", etc. to save face, and stopped looking at her, but leaned on the table and whispered sobbing.Luo Zhi finally breathed a sigh of relief, and turned her gaze to the glass on the right, with a relaxed and indifferent expression.Autumn nights in Beijing are still very cold, and the barbecue restaurant is very hot, and the windows are covered with water vapor. Luo Zhi tentatively picked up a glass of wine and downed it in one gulp. Everyone is an unloved person, and they are not so tough and brave, so they can only drink to show their respect. There is always such a kind of people in the world, for mediocre ordinary people, their existence is simply a kind of irony. For example, Sheng Huainan. "By the way, you and his ex-girlfriend are classmates, right?" Luo Zhi thought that the person opposite had already fallen asleep, but what she said just now gave her a big jump. "yes." "Is the relationship good?" "Unfamiliar." "Then is there still contact now?" "No." Zheng Wenrui suddenly giggled, "Liar."