Chapter 19 18

On the two-year anniversary of the crash of National Airlines Flight 353, Joe Carpenter sat in the shade of a palm tree by the Florida coast, gazing out to sea.The waves lapping the sand here are much gentler than California beaches.The laziness of the sea with a tropical atmosphere no longer looks like a machine. He was a very different man from the man who escaped the mountain fire.His hair was longer now, faded from the chemicals and sun, and he had grown a mustache as a simple cover.His physical condition has improved greatly compared to a year ago, and he himself knows the changes these days: relaxed, comfortable, not nervous, and no grudges and anger about the past.

He has an identity with a new name: birth certificate, social security card, three credit cards, driver's license. Infinity Interface's forgery experts, are not actually forging documents, they are using their computers to access these systems and create real IDs for these people that don't actually exist. He has undergone a change of heart, and Joe credits Nina for it all—though he refuses to accept the greatest gift she has to offer him.She didn't change him by contact, but she influenced him by her sweetness and kindness, her trust and love for him, and her confidence in treating all things equally.She was only six years old, but she was mature in some ways.For if she is really what everyone believes she is, then she is the eternal light.

They stayed with the non-robed, hair-covered members of the Infinity Interface.That mansion was some distance away from the sea, and it was filled with the sound of computer keyboards ticking from morning till night.For the first week or two, Joe and Nina had to move to another group to bring them what the little girl had revealed. They are constantly traveling, spreading this silent language.A few years later, when her supernormal abilities have reached the point where she cannot be easily harmed, that is when it will be made public. On the anniversary of the loss of a loved one, Nina came to the beach and sat in the shade of a palm tree beside Joe.She has brown hair now and wears a pair of pink shorts and a white jumper with a winking Donald Duck on it, like any six-year-old girl on the planet.She crossed her legs with her hands and said nothing.

They watched as a large long-legged crab traversed the sand, looking for a nesting site, before quickly disappearing in the sand. Finally she said, "Why don't you open your heart?" "I will, when the time comes." "When will it be called time?" "Wait until I learn not to hate." "Who do you hate?" "Hate you, for a long time." "Because I'm not your Nina?" "I don't hate you anymore." "I know." "I hate myself." "why?" "Because of fear." "You're not afraid of anything," she said.

Joe smiled. "I'm terrified of what you can show me." "why?" "This world is so cruel, so hard. If there is a God, it tortured my father with illness and caused him to die young. It took Michelle, Chrissy, and Nina. It also made Rose is dead." "It's just a process." "A fucking evil process." Nina was silent. The sea is whispering to the sand, and the sand crab sticks out one eye, surveys the world, then decides to get up and move.Nina stood up and walked towards the sand crab.When she approaches, the little creature usually sprints away shyly.But this one didn't run away. When Nina ran down to study it, it stared at her. Nina stroked its shell and touched its pincers, but the sand crab didn't pinch her.

Joe watched curiously. Finally the girl came back and sat down beside him, and the sand crab disappeared into the sand. She said: "If the world is cruel... you can help me transform it. If that's what God wants us to do, then it's not cruel. " Joe didn't respond to her high profile. The sea is iridescent blue, and the blue sky blends seamlessly with it in the distance. "Please," she said, "please hold my hand, Daddy." She never called him Daddy, and when Joe heard the word, his chest seemed to be blocked by something. Jo looked into her purple-blue eyes and wished they were gray like her own, but they were not.She had lived and died with him, escaped from the fire pit together, escaped from darkness and fear.Joe thought he could be her father as well as Sheloth had been her mother.

He takes her hand. For a moment, he wasn't on a Florida beach.It's a bright blue space with Michelle, Chris and Nina. He didn't know what kind of world was waiting for him after death, but he knew that they still existed without a doubt.Their strangeness shocked him, but it also lifted his heart. He learns that immortality is not a superficial article of faith, but a cosmic law as real as the laws of physics. The universe is a creation of a causal cycle: matter transforms into energy, energy into matter; one form of energy transforms into another; the balance is constantly changing, but the entire universe is a closed system without any matter Waves of particles or energy were lost.

Nature not only abhors waste, it forbids it. The human mind and spirit, brought to the extreme, can make the material world better.We, too, can change the human condition, elevating ourselves from the fears of primitive cave dwellers to the anticipation of immortality.And want to understand God's work for us. Light cannot penetrate stone by willpower alone, and stone cannot build temples by itself.Only the human spirit, under will and conscious action, can change it. It is the only one among all God's creations that is not affected by external forces, so it is the most powerful and precious energy in the universe.Sometimes the spirit turns into flesh, but when the period of its existence is over, it turns into spirit without form.

When Joe came back from the blue space, he sat there, trembling all over and closing his eyes.Like a crab sorting itself into the sand, caught up in the revealed truth. Joe opened his eyes, and his daughter greeted him with a smile. Her eyes are purple blue instead of gray.Her appearance was not the same as that of Nina, whom Jo had loved so much.But she is not the faint fire light when I first saw her.Jo wondered why she was being obscured by anger. She is a dazzling light, and everyone can't see other things clearly under her dazzling light.Just as Nina had been in Joe's mind before, it made him ignore the existence of others-in fact, we all did.