Chapter 56 6. Who are they?

As soon as Chen Jingqiang spoke, he immediately asked me to be honest. Regarding Chen Jingqiang, the chief, whoever does not listen to him is a counter-revolutionary.So I sat on the bed nervously and didn't dare to look at Chen Jingqiang. Chen Jingqiang saw that I had become honest all of a sudden, laughed twice, sat on the chair in the ward, and then said to the female nurse: "Sun Li, you go out first. Tell Xiao Wang that without my consent, anyone No one is allowed to come in." The nurse named Sun Li responded timidly, took a look at me, turned around and left, and closed the door.

When Chen Jingqiang heard the door closed, he said to me earnestly: "Your name is Zhao Yajun, why are you so desperate to commit suicide?" I raised my head and looked at Chen Jingqiang, he looked at me kindly, which made me feel a little warm, so I said: "Chief, I really, oh..." Chen Jingqiang said: "I know you have been wronged, but you still have to believe in the party and the masses. If you die like this, don't you feel sorry for the organization's training for you?" I said, "Chief, I was really wronged." Chen Jingqiang said: "I know you were wronged. During the time you were in a coma, I also got a general understanding."

I said, "Ah, how long have I been asleep." Chen Jingqiang said: "It has been a day and a night since you were rescued by us." I looked out the window, and it was dark night, it seemed that I was really in a coma for a day and a night. I said: "Chief, I'm sorry to trouble you, I'm fine now, I'll go back right away." Chen Jingqiang laughed twice, and said, "Don't worry! Do you want to go back on the charge of using suicide to escape the people's trial?" I have nothing to say, since I didn't die, I will be punished more when I go back.

Seeing that I was speechless, Chen Jingqiang stood up and walked towards me, sat on the bed opposite me and said, "Zhao Yajun, do you believe me?" I was a little surprised when I heard this. How dare I not believe Chen Jingqiang, so I hurriedly said: "Chief, of course I believe you." Chen Jingqiang said: "Okay, then let me ask you. Is there something strange about your body recently? Tell me honestly." I let out a groan. Anyway, it was Director Chen Jingqiang who saved me, so let me tell the truth. I coughed and said, "Chief, yes. I think there is something wrong with me."

Chen Jingqiang pressed, "Tell me." I continued: "I feel that someone is always looking at me, and I always feel that there are many of my kind in this city, but I don't know who they are, and they always attract them. But as soon as I get close, I look for them. I don’t know who it is. Well, yesterday, oh, no, the day before yesterday, I felt like someone else was thinking. The other person didn’t speak, but I heard what was thinking in his head. Chief, maybe I have a mental problem , don't be offended." Chen Jingqiang laughed: "Do you feel who is thinking about something?"

I said: "Zhao, Zhao Demin... He is thinking that he is going to marry a lesbian I used to date during the Spring Festival." Chen Jingqiang said: "Hehe, Zhao Yajun, you are actually a very honest comrade. You are right. This Zhao Demin is indeed going to marry the lesbian you mentioned during the Spring Festival." I raised my head and looked at Chen Jingqiang. There seemed to be an indescribable light in his eyes, and he seemed very happy. I groaned and didn't speak. Chen Jingqiang continued: "Is it because of this reason that you want to commit suicide?"

I said, "Well, I don't think I'm normal." Chen Jingqiang said: "Now, I ask you to live a good life. Can you carry out the order?" Without even thinking about it, I said: "I can carry out the orders of the chief!" After I finished speaking, I regretted a little. Can I really stop looking for death? Chen Jingqiang smiled again: "Don't talk big, I know that you may jump into the reservoir again in two days in this state." Embarrassed, I said, "No. No." Chen Jingqiang stood up, sat back on the chair, seemed to be thinking about something, and then said, "Did you see anything?"

I said, "See what?" Chen Jingqiang said, "You are in the reservoir water." I remembered those huge yellow duck eggs I saw in the water, and the feeling of the strange film sticking to my face, but I dare not say that these things may be hallucinations that appeared after I jumped into the water and choked on the water. I said, "I passed out after jumping in, and I didn't see anything." Chen Jingqiang said, "Are you telling the truth?" I was taken aback for a moment, and my ears immediately felt hot, and I hesitated to speak: "Yes, yes, it's the truth."

Chen Jingqiang laughed loudly: "Okay, okay, you didn't see anything. Remember?" I said, "Yes, yes, remember." Chen Jingqiang said again: "I don't want to know how we saved you?" I said, "No, I don't want to." Chen Jingqiang said: "Very good." Then he stood up, walked to the door, opened the door, and waved outside. Boom, boom, boom, a few people ran over with hurried footsteps, and stood respectfully behind Chen Jingqiang. Chen Jingqiang ordered: "Call Wang Zhixing from the advance brigade and all the instructors to come to the third hospital. I want to have a meeting with them. Go and come back quickly. Xiao Sun, watch the patient and don't let him go out."

The nurse Sun Li stayed and watched me, and Chen Jingqiang sat for a while and watched me eat something, then went out and never came back.Sun Li pulled me to chat and smiled sweetly, which gradually warmed my heart.This nurse named Sun Li is still very understanding. She didn't ask me why I wanted to die, which I felt uncomfortable. Instead, she told me jokes and things about my childhood. I didn't know until later that Sun Li was very kind. The poor girl has been an orphan since she was a child, and she doesn't even know what her parents look like. This made me feel in love with Sun Li, maybe it was the relationship between Pang Yiqiao and Zhao Demin that made me decide to completely forget about Pang Yiqiao, so Sun Li's voice and smile were deeply imprinted on her face. in my heart.After being born after the catastrophe, seeing Chen Jingqiang and being accompanied by Sun Li made me feel as if there was hope in life again.

It should be around 12 o'clock in the evening, the door of the ward was pushed open, and the people who came in were Captain Wang, Instructor Qian, and Instructor Zhang.I was nervous when they came in, but they were very polite to me, and even Instructor Zhang looked at me with gentle eyes. They also brought me a set of clothes and asked me to change them before taking me out of the hospital. Sun Li seemed a bit reluctant, and I also felt that I hadn't talked enough with her, but I had to leave.After I changed into my clothes, I greeted Sun Li at the door, and I left the hospital accompanied by Captain Wang and the others.On the way back, I found out that Chen Jingqiang talked to them, assured me that I was not a spy, asked the advance brigade to treat me well, and did not let me fall behind, and criticized Captain Wang.It seemed honorable to say these words from Captain Wang and the others.Instructor Zhang also made friends with me all the way, saying that he always felt that I must not be an enemy agent because I showed the good qualities of a communist. Instructor Qian also laughed and complained why I didn't talk to them anymore. I can only smile, anyone knows how to comfort me after the fact. I rejoined the team, and my place of residence was changed to a standard single dormitory. This is a treatment that many unmarried youths of my age can't even imagine.The team also held a special meeting to rehabilitate me. I read the reasons for rehabilitating for an entire hour, and even I blushed when I heard it.I also ask everyone to pay more attention to me, and ask those who have disrespected me to take the initiative to apologize. So in the next few days, the people who beat me and scolded me lined up to please me, telling me how good their relationship was with me and how bad they were when they attacked me. I can't bear it, how I can't sleep, how excited and happy I am to hear the news of my rehabilitation, and so on.I can hear cocoons in my ears. I know that they all know that I am guaranteed by Chen Jingqiang, that is to say, I have a relationship with Director Chen Jingqiang, although they may not know that I first contacted Chen Jingqiang because of suicide.But the more they don't know, the more they feel that I have a special status, and they are afraid that I will report to the organization and let them go around. All of a sudden from hell to heaven, I really don't know what happened.Lying on the bed and quietly recalling the hypocritical faces of those people during the day, I feel deeply disgusted. Is human nature so ugly?A mouth full of selflessness, throwing his head and blood for the revolutionary idea, in the face of power and interests, it is just a pile of shit, which is more disgusting than buckets of excrement. However, why Chen Jingqiang wanted to save me and why he wanted to guarantee me is a mystery to me. No matter how I think about it, I can't figure it out.I repeatedly recalled my conversations with Chen Jingqiang. Is it because of my body's particularity that Chen Jingqiang treats me like this?Does my existence have any special meaning to Chen Jingqiang? This made me pay more attention to the specialness of my body. Before, I thought it was a burden, but now I feel that these special feelings have become my amulet.I started researching what was going on with my body and even documenting the sensations.However, I never write these things down, but rely on my brain to memorize them, because these things written down are likely to be discovered by others and become conclusive evidence of espionage activities.Don't look at a group of people nodding and bowing to me to admit their mistakes, they will scold my ancestors for eighteen generations as soon as they turn around.My existence is a great threat to them. However, after a period of brain memory, I found that my induction of "similar" is a chaotic order, not the closer to my "similar" I can sense, that is to say, the "similar" I sense may be Not around, not even necessarily in my sight.Therefore, when there is an obvious "similar" induction, I will not search everywhere as before, but label the "similar" with a stronger induction, and finally I can accurately identify eight "similar" , I marked Zhao, Qian, Sun, Li, Zhou, Wu, and Zheng Wang in the hundred surnames. The "similar" can't be sensed all the time. Taking the eight "similar" as an example, they can be sensed intermittently. Sometimes they will appear suddenly but last for a short time, and sometimes they will be able to sense them all day long. Feel this "kind". Moreover, I also found that when I get close to the crowd, the feeling will suddenly disappear or become blurred, as if being cut off by something.This sense of isolation actually allowed me to determine which group of people contained my "same kind".If I feel the existence of 20 "similar" people, and when I approach a group of people, suddenly one or two "similar" feelings disappear, then there may be "similar" in this group of people. However, the eight signals are strong, and I marked Zhao Qiansun, Li Zhou, Wu Zhengwang's "similar" and became the focus of my discovery. I will track one of these eight all day long, looking for that sense of isolation. Of course, the feeling of being watched has never disappeared, but I also classify this feeling of being watched as a "similar" feeling.Carefully recording the sense of surveillance, I also found that there are about five or six "similar" who are watching me.But I can't actively sense my "similar" who monitor me, but I can sense them when they start monitoring, which belongs to the passive mode.Moreover, there is no separation in the sense of being monitored, which is different from the "similar" that I actively sensed. Finally, there is finally a "similar" that I am basically sure of, that is, the "similar" that I label as "Zhou".This kind is none other than Zhao Demin. And let me confirm that Zhao Demin is the same kind labeled "Zhou", it was at the wedding of Zhao Demin and Pang Yiqiao.