Chapter 50 Twenty-seven, is it the end or the beginning

When I opened my eyes, I found that I was firmly fixed on my back on a hard bed, and there was a strange machine above my head shining a faint yellow light on me. I twisted vigorously, but I couldn't move at all. All the joints in my body were covered with hard metal rings, including a metal ring around my mouth, which prevented me from closing my mouth. It seems that the only thing that can move in my whole body is my eyeball. I yelled and couldn't say anything. Countless thoughts flooded my mind, what's wrong with me?Why is it so similar to the scene described by Li Shengli before?I am doomed?I'm Zhao Yajun?I'm not Zhao Cheng?But I am Zhao Cheng now?Li Shengli is me now?What exactly does that mean?My love for Yuqiao is my illusion?So why am I here?Now Li Shengli doesn't love Yuqiao anymore?Is what he said true or false?All of it, tied in a knot in my head, ended up in a knot that I couldn't untie.

I struggled hard a few more times, roaring in my throat, but it didn't work. There is no sound around, so quiet that I can hear the sound of my own blood flowing and the beating of my heart. This feels bad, maddeningly bad. I remembered what Li Shengli once said, he was always fixed in one place, but he was even more pitiful, he couldn't even see it. I stayed in this state for several hours, and finally I was completely desperate. If no one came to rescue me, I saw that I could only stay like this for the rest of my life, and I couldn’t die even if I wanted to. I only regret why I didn't jump off a building or crash into a car and die when I left Heigou.A person regrets why he didn't die in the first place, I don't think many people would think about it this way.However, my mind is still constantly filled with Yuqiao Yuqiao Yuqiao, I hope she will come down from the sky and save me, a poor person.

My consciousness began to be a little trance, and this kind of torture made it difficult for people to stay awake. However, not long after I lost consciousness, I heard footsteps.This made me excited all of a sudden, regardless of whether he was an enemy or a friend, I just wanted to beg them to kill me and let me die. Three people should have approached me, I couldn't see their faces, I could only see that they were all wearing white uniforms. One person said: "Segments 1, 2, 3, and 4 have been sealed, and the X-waves of segment 5 are normal and can be taken out." Another person said: "Okay, convert his original record."

Another person said: "Be careful, let's do wave decomposition first, and convert according to CDG sequence." The person who spoke first said: "Is it completely isolated?" The last one who spoke said, "Quietly." A man looked down at me, and I was still smiling when I looked at him.So I frantically moved around again. The man put something cool on my forehead and said, "Mr. Zhao, please be patient. There will be some pain, but it will be fine in a while." After finishing speaking, this person and another person started fiddling with the machine on my head.

Then one said, "Let's go." As soon as he finished speaking, a middle-aged man's voice I was familiar with came: "Wait a minute." Then I heard the sound of a person getting up from the chair and walking towards me steadily. The three of them took a step back respectfully. This person seemed to have been sitting in this room all the time, and it wasn't the three people who came in from the outside. The man walked up to me and looked down at me. His face froze in my mind all of a sudden, he, he is actually my damn father!I will never forget this face. Since he disappeared, this face has been engraved in my brain. I will never admit it wrong. He is my father!

My eyes immediately widened, and the eyeballs almost rushed out of my eye sockets. The muscles on my face trembled violently, making a loud humming sound.This bastard, if I can move, I will strangle him first! My father saw my expression and smiled faintly, but couldn't tell what it meant. A chair seemed to rise up next to my bed, and my father was sitting on this chair, and I could just see his face. Father said: "Zhao Yajun, do you really hate me?" I murmured a few times, yes, I hate him, my life is ruined in his hands. However, even though I thought so, I admit that when I saw him, I was also very excited. After cursing countless times that I was going to kill him, I was actually happy in my heart.Twenty-five years, I actually think about this damn father day and night, how much I loved him, how much I admired him, but he left me and my mother.Today, he appeared here.

As soon as the muscles on my face softened and my eyes closed, I couldn't speak, but I knew that tears would flow out from the corners of my eyes. I hate him, but I think I still love him, because I love him so I hate him so much. The father said: "After a while, you will truly return to Zhao Yajun. I have been waiting for this day for a long time. However, I still treat you as my son and say a few words." I opened my eyes and squinted at him. I can't see my father's expression clearly, only hear his tone is low and dull. The father said: "Yes, I am sorry for you and your mother. At this moment, please forgive me. Zhao Yajun, I know that you will forgive me when you recover, but now, I ask for your forgiveness. I am sorry. This world has long since given up. Originally, you were my last attachment, but after your self-awareness was taken out and Zhao Yajun’s self-awareness was imported, I have nothing to miss anymore. You should understand that at that time I’m the same as you before you came here. The only thing you had nostalgia for in this world was Yuqiao. But poor child, your love for Yuqiao is just an illusion, it’s just the illusion of the love that Li Shengli left you. You are just a substitute for Li Shengli's love. If you don't realize it, Wang Taisui in your body will continue to magnify your illusion, and finally make you unable to extricate yourself, making an extreme change from love to hate. So much so that you will kill Yuqiao in the end, and even kill everyone who you suspect loves Yuqiao. Therefore, you must restore Zhao Yajun's original memory and eliminate your illusions. Do you understand?"

I nodded, although I didn't quite understand why this happened, but I think I forgave my father first, and second, I didn't want to kill Yuqiao myself. Father stood up and said in a different tone: "Zhao Yajun, when you come back, you can choose whether you want to personalize this memory. In addition, Shenshan has activated the final control in advance, in order not to let us as the new world balance. composition." Then, my father took a few steps back and disappeared from my sight. Immediately, the machine on my head shot out a milky white light, hitting the middle of my forehead, and quickly penetrated into my brain.

The muscles in my whole body immediately tensed up, and all thoughts in my brain disappeared, and my whole brain was milky white. This uncomfortable feeling is as uncomfortable as my brain was suddenly smashed into a slurry by a chopstick. I murmured twice, and then I couldn't even murmur. The nerves in my whole body seemed to be tense, and I began to feel that there were strands of energy converging from these nerves to my brain, and a golden spot of light slowly gushed out from the white paste-like brain, getting bigger and bigger. In the end it seemed to fill my entire brain. This thing will enlarge and shrink for a while, it will look like a real object for a while, and it will look like a nothingness for a while, and finally it will condense again, drawn by the milky white light, and appear to emerge from my forehead.It seemed to be an illusion, but my eyes could see that something the size of a golden egg really rose from my forehead.

The golden egg detached from my forehead, and under the guidance of the light, it rose into the air and began to slowly rotate. My mind is still blank, as if everything has been taken from me by this egg. The machine above the head emitted another light blue light, which gradually merged into the milky white light and turned into dark blue. The blue light was injected into the egg, and as soon as the blue light entered the egg, it was immediately melted by the light in the golden egg, and as the egg turned, it just shook for a while and then disappeared. I just stared blankly at this egg, knowing nothing and forgetting the time.

The blue light disappeared, replaced by green light, and the same thing happened. The light changed several times, until at last, the golden egg turned over strangely in the air, then lowered to my forehead again, and slowly penetrated into my head. After the egg entered, the process of enlarging, shrinking, real, and nothingness was repeated. Then my whole brain was stirred into a white paste, but it slowly solidified. The white light faded. Everything is back, so natural, something that should belong to me, and I seem to have lost it for many, many years. All the rings on my body loosened and snapped open. I slowly sat up from the bed, looked at the father not far away, and said, "Zhao Erlin, thank you for your hard work, I feel good now." Zhao Erlin came over and said, "How to deal with the memory of Zhao Cheng?" I pointed to my head and said, "Keep it for now, I want to study this memory first." My name is Zhao Yajun.I'm finally back.