Chapter 25 fourth quarter

When he woke up, Ion was lying alone.At first he thought it was a rumored prison for minors, but judging from the voice and the smell of medicine, it should be a hospital.People's voices come and go.Ion wanted to see what was wrong with him, but his throat and hands were tied with something, and he couldn't move. He remembered Mogami taking care of him when he got a bad flu a few years ago.But compared to the flu that caused a high fever, it was much more uncomfortable now.His consciousness was hazy, and he couldn't feel the passage of time.Occasionally when I wake up, I hear someone whispering or crying in my ear.

From the movements around him, he noticed that Tie was always by his side.I wanted to say something, but there was a foreign object stuck in my throat, and I couldn't make a sound at all, nor could I move my body. "Ion, I shouldn't have said that to you, I'm sorry, get well soon." It was Kemiko who was murmuring and crying by the pillow.A small hand touched Ian's hand and held it.Is it Phantom's hand?For some reason, only the fingertips of the left hand have sensation. "The doctor said you might be able to hear me, so I'm talking to you. I'm sorry if you're noisy. After the monk shot you, he wanted to kill himself. But Iron snatched his gun and didn't let him succeed. Iron also suffered He was hurt a little, but he’s fine, he’s fine, don’t worry. The monk has gone to the Dark People’s Country over at Adachi.”

Kemike cried for a while, and after a while it seemed that he went back with a phantom.The ward fell silent. Ian thought it would be great if his eyes could see, but for some reason, everything was extremely heavy and he couldn't use his strength.I couldn't open my eyelids, and I couldn't breathe well.It was like being alone in real darkness, and it was terrifying.Help, someone will get me out of here. "Ion, I'm here, don't be afraid. You are my only brother, and I will protect you." The sound of iron was nearby.Ah, great, iron will protect me.Ion relieved himself and fell asleep in the real darkness.

How long has it been?When he woke up again, Ion heard the voices of several people talking.It seems to be iron and kemiko. "Ion, are you awake? The auntie from the locker shop is here to see you." The hoarse voice of the old woman in the locker came from behind Kemiko: "Ion, you are not allowed to die before me. I have forgiven you for the gun matter, so you don't have to worry about it. It doesn't matter about my husband. That's probably the ending he wanted. He must be very thankful that you made it happen." Not long after, the wheels creaked and the old woman went back.The whispers on the pillow lasted for a while and then disappeared.

At this moment, Ian found himself in a serious state of so-called vegetative state.He heard the doctor talking to Camiko.The doctor said that Ion's nerves were paralyzed, and unless a miracle happened, it would be impossible to even stand or walk, let alone breathing.Ion listened as if it had nothing to do with him.He also felt horrified at the thought that he might have to be like this all his life, but Tie was always by his side, making him feel reliable.And all kinds of people came to see him all the time. One day, Ian dreamed that he was locked in a tunnel.A person is in a dark and narrow tunnel.He was so frightened that he wanted to scream, but he couldn't make a sound, which made him even more frightened.At this time someone called his name: "Ion?"

Someone wrapped his only feeling left hand with a warm hand. "Ion, long time no see. I've been looking for you, and I finally saw you." It is the best voice.On top of that, Ion thought he was showing joy, but in fact there was no change.Ion moved his fingers desperately. "Did you move your finger just now?" Ahhh, I can feel it most.Ion felt very happy, and moved his fingers again.It was really an extremely subtle expression of will, but Mogami seemed to sense it. "Great. I'm so glad you're alive. It's great to see you." (I want to see you too.)

Ion moved his fingers.But he couldn't even take the last look.Tears welled up, but only in my heart.It hurts not being able to express my feelings.But Mogami seemed to understand everything, he gently wrapped Ion's fingers in his palm, and said to Tie: "Tie, touch Ion's left hand lightly to see. Ion can hear us talking." The big and soft iron hand touched Ian's fingers tremblingly.Ion made a slight move, and Tie Bian exclaimed: "Really! Ion can hear us!" Tie would only repeat what someone he trusted said, so he would agree with Mogami at a glance.Ion breathed a sigh of relief.

"Yes. If you have something to say, just touch Ion's left finger and say it. Ion will give us a signal that he heard." "Just feel it and say it?" Tie Fa said happily from the bottom of his heart. "Ion, I heard that you brought the letter I wrote to you, and the letter was stained with blood at the end. Maybe you haven't read it, but I will tell you the content now. I probably remember what I wrote to you. I Rewrote it again and read it to you now, listen." Mogami said quietly.Ion felt relieved and gestured with his finger. (I really want to read it.)

Mogami read the letter slowly. To Ion: I am very worried about you.I was wrong last time.I don't care about the photo album at all, but I blame you.You suspect me of stealing from your locker, and I'm in a tizzy.I am so lazy sometimes, I will reflect on it.More importantly, please forgive me for breaking your heart and making me fidgety. You don't forgive people who lie, cheat, take advantage of others.You once angrily told me that Jincheng used children, so I was very worried, worried that if you knew my true face, you might never forgive me again.While I didn't lie or take advantage of anyone, I didn't confess the truth to anyone either.

I was so angry because I panicked and worried that you might find out my real purpose.I'm older than you, and it's really outrageous, but I'll tell you the truth. I am studying family sociology at the graduate school, and I also joined the NGO organization "Street Children Support Association". I strongly want to help children in trouble.But it cannot be denied that I acted with the mentality that street children should be helpful to my research. My research topic is "attachment".I told you before, do you remember?I said, "Ion has no attachments to other people".You are very perceptive, and I was taken aback when I heard this sentence, and I panicked too.I feel very ashamed, how could I say such rude words?

I don't mean to be superior to others, but being in the field of research and being in contact with people who are regarded as objects of care may make me arrogant.I reflect.real. Ion, let me elaborate a bit more on the subject of my research.My research topic is "An Investigation of Attachment in 'Zhao Ye's House'". Do you remember "The House of the Leaves," Ion? "Zhaoye House" is the institution where you grew up. "Zhaoye House" conducts an experiment that has never been seen in the world. It allows multiple parents and children to live together with strangers, thoroughly implements joint childcare, and observes what happens to children who grow up in such an environment. "Zhaoye House" has nearly 30 adults and children living together.Parents are forbidden to tell their children who their biological parents are, because they must raise their own children the same way as other people's children.That is to say, it is such an experiment to deprive the parents of their children's affection for their children, the children's right to know their biological parents, and the affection that should be obtained from their parents, and raise them as a community. This is a brutal and cruel experiment using live children.Ian, you must feel angry, how can these grown-ups be so selfish?I think so. However, I am not defending the "Zhaoye Family", but they did not design this experiment with evil intentions: the "Zhaoye House" is dominated by some avant-garde women's group, and they have been eradicating for many years. An experiment of mother's selfish consciousness, seriously explores a new parent-child relationship. The lovers of children are different. They think that if the mouth (dilutes and disperses it to all, it can reduce the differential treatment of family affection among children. Is it too complicated? Take me as an example. Our family is a family of four. My father is an office worker, my mother is a teacher, and my sister is two years younger than me. It is a very ordinary family. I naturally grew up bathed in the love of my parents. Saying that this is "very common" and "natural" is a kind of discrimination in itself-this kind of thinking is the concept of "Zhao Ye".Do you understand?That is complete equality.Yes, I don't know if you know it, but the idea is similar to the group of "rich people" who live underground. It is indeed too idealistic.But I don't think that's a wrong idea either.Talking about "common" and "taken for granted" will hurt people who are not like that, and it may also cause discrimination.So in a way, the idea of ​​"Zhaoye House" and Anren is correct. "Zhaoye Family" advocated loudly that the hotbed of discrimination among children should be removed.Then they found the mother and father who gave birth to the child, as well as people who were not parents but wanted to live with the child, and started living together.This may be similar to the group organizations that were popular in the United States in the past.Everyone is a parent, everyone is a child, mutual help and symbiosis. The adults follow the concept and give birth to their children in the "Zhaoye House", or bring the children to the "Zhaoye House".The children are named mechanically by the cadres of "Zhaoye Family" in order to prohibit parents from paying special affection for the children. You have said before that your names are "chosen at will".The kids must have talked about it. It is said that there are actually ten children in "Zhaoye House".But according to my follow-up investigation, only half of the five people were found.That is, you, Tie, and five people, Selene, Phosphorus, and Kemiko.Steel, gold, aluminum, Minera, potassium, the whereabouts of these children are unknown. You must be surprised when you hear Kemiko.In fact, Kemiko's mother was one of the people who took Kemiko and escaped from "Zhaoye House" when Kemiko was still a toddler.Kemiko's mother seems to have been criticized, saying that she only wants to love Kemiko alone and indulge in self-interested love. When I heard the news that Ke Mi Ke dominates the mothers, I always wondered if she was the Ke Mi Ke of "Zhao Ye Family".But Kemiko himself didn't know about it.You and Camike are actually "siblings". Selene, who stayed in the child care center with you, responded to my missing person notice on the Internet after you disappeared, and met me.She is now in Korea.I heard that she, like me, works to help street children.She is now writing a book about her memories of "The House of the Shining Leaves". Do you remember phosphorus?The "sister" who is two years younger than you.Phosphorus is now in a child care center in Kochi.She's doing well, but doesn't seem to remember much about you. It is said that every mother in "Zhaoye Family" does not recognize her own child.There are also many avant-garde feminists and homosexuals who advocate the disintegration of the family system.They were almost scattered during the mandatory raids about eight years ago.It's supposed to include your real parents as well, but no one talks about anything and the truth is still murky.If they knew you were alive, maybe your parents would come to you. Do you know why "Zhaoye House" was forcibly searched? In fact, it was suspected of child abuse.But it is questionable whether there was really abuse.Because their concept is very outstanding, full of great love for people who have been excluded and abandoned by the family system.They want to free all people from unnecessary discrimination at birth, and to set everyone free.Ion, your parents are wonderful people. But did "Zhaoye House" still make mistakes?Because there is deprived of the child's attachment to the parents, and the parent's attachment to the child.Is there any absolute difference between children who grew up in "Zhaoye House" and children who were raised by their parents? This is my hypothesis, my research topic.But Ion, maybe I'm wrong.When I met you, I realized my mistakes. It was a complete coincidence that I met you.I heard your name when I was talking to the homeless in Park Village.At that time, I guessed that you might be "Ion" in "The House of Zhaoye".But I will treat you well, not because you are my research subject, but because you are a charming and bright child.I want to make friends with you and love you as my younger brother. You are a special person in my heart. But I was too young, too immature.I have trampled on your heart again and again, there is no way to treat you well.Sometimes I also get angry because you won't listen to me.But after that quarrel in Yoyogi Park, I was really shocked to hear that you were missing.I think you will choose the path of suffering because I forced you to do so. After meeting you, I learned deeply that my hypotheses were all on paper. The children of "Zhaoye Family" do not lack attachment.Their passion for love is deeper than anyone else.The bond between your "brothers and sisters" is deep and tender than anyone else. Indeed, parenting attitudes of adults can affect children.But the child will grow further.I haven't found this out for a long time. Ion, I'm going to do it all over again, go back to college and study again.I will come to see you, please continue to treat me as a friend. After reading the letter, Mogami sighed deeply, and said, "That's the content, Ion. Can you understand? Also, I hope you forgive me." (I understand, Mogami.) Mogami gently held Ion's finger.Then he said to Tie: "Tie, thanks to you and Ian being able to meet again." "Well, it was Ian who came to find me. That's why we can meet again." "Cami can praise you for taking care of Ian with all your heart." "Cami can praise me?" Tie repeated happily. Tie, you may have forgotten, you are the one who taught us how to tell the difference between adults!Ian said to Tie in his heart.Good-hearted adults, bad-hearted adults, neither-so-bad adults.Our kids must be playing games.Good-hearted adults are real parents; bad-hearted adults are indifferent adults who don’t even bother to pretend to be parents; neither-so-bad adults are adults who choose sides according to their mood at the moment.Iron, now I finally understand.Ion smiled.Good lord, is it the woman who was kind to me when I was sick?A woman like Mizumori. "Ah, Ion laughed." Tie seemed to glance at him, but immediately said in a low voice as if frustrated: "An illusion?" "Tie, wait patiently. Ion will wake up one day." "Well, one day I will wake up again." "Goodbye, Ian, I will come again. You must be tired, take a good rest." Mogami lightly touched the fingers of Ion's left hand and went back. "He's such a nice guy, I like that guy." Iron whispered in Ion's ear.Then he suddenly touched Ion's finger as if remembering something. "Answer me too, Ion." (Mogami is a truly kind-hearted adult.) Ion didn't know how time passed.He is not awake every day.Sometimes when I wake up, I find that the time has passed bit by bit. Most came to the ward. "Ian, I have graduated from graduate school. From now on, I plan to officially join the Street Support Association. Do you remember? It is the 'Street Children Support Association'. Tie will also come to help." (Congratulations.) Ion best wishes.But the strength of the fingers seems to be getting weaker and weaker, and the number of cases that cannot be conveyed begins to increase. Kemike also cried and murmured beside his pillow. "Ion, I want to report a sad thing to you. The aunt in the locker shop died. She finally said that she could go one step ahead of you, which made her relieved. Very heroic, right? She also said this I’m so happy to be able to find my husband at last. Don’t you think her life is admirable? Also, your aunt paid for your hospitalization expenses. Although my aunt is terrible, she is a good person.” After Kemiko finished speaking, he scolded Gen who came with him and said, "Gen, say hello to Ian." When Gen held Ion's left fingers, Ion was startled by the strong force.That was no longer the finger of a two-year-old.How many days have you been in a coma?Ion felt as if he had turned into a tree, and human beings were constantly growing and growing old, gathering around him and reporting their various stories. Even so, Tie still came over every day to help take care of Ian's affairs.But before he knew it, Tie came to the ward only at night.What does iron live on?Ion was terribly worried.But one day he said so: "Ion, the aunt of Cross House gave you and me the shop." Auntie, thank you.The day Ion snatched the gun seemed like yesterday, he remembered it vividly.He couldn't forget the touch when he kicked the chair away.Ion felt that his body could no longer move, which was retribution. It seems that another day has passed.Kemiko and Mogami came over together, and they held Ion's hand together. "Ion, Kemi and I are getting married, please bless us." "Ian, we will take care of Tie for the rest of his life, you don't have to worry. That kid is very serious about his work, so it doesn't matter." (congratulations.) Ion gestured with his finger.Kemiko, who was originally one of the "brothers and sisters", is actually getting married to Mogami, and there is no better news than this.Ion really wanted to see the two of them.He imagined in his mind that the tall Mogami hugged the lovely Kemiko in a white wedding dress, what a beautiful couple.Ion was so happy, if he could laugh heartily, he would be so happy. The days passed again.One day, Tie rushed into the ward. "Ion, I encountered a wonderful thing today!" Ion put his left hand, which was about to lose strength, on Tie's hand, listening to Tie's excited voice. "When I walked up Dogenzaka just now, I saw a man singing. He was singing Ion's song. That's how the song was sung. I stood and listened and remembered it." Ion, good lord, call me by name: Ion, Ion, Ion. It's Dad, it's Mom, calling my name. I really want to see you last time, my kind adults.One day I will definitely go to see you, wait for me. "I said to him, ah, this is Ion's song, and the man seemed blind, but he was happy to say he knew me. He was the man Ion had told me was called Tin. I happened to be carrying I'll give him the shrapnel, he's startled." Great.It turned out that Tin was released from prison and is now in Shibuya.The whereabouts of Tie's friend Xi is unknown, this is what Ian cares most about, and now he feels relieved from the bottom of his heart. That night, Ion woke up suddenly.He heard the door open and felt the room light up suddenly.I feel the light?Ion tried to open his eyes gently.Eyes opened. A woman stood in the beautiful light of the morning sun. She smiled kindly and stretched out her hand to Ian. "mom?" The artificial respirator disappeared from Ion's throat at some point.He has not spoken for a long time.I'm so happy to be able to talk.Is the man standing in the back daddy?Ion wanted to see the faces of the two clearly and propped up his body.My body has also become lighter and I can sit up on the bed.How happy, Ian smiled to his parents when he saw him for the first time.