Chapter 25 2. Could it be my split personality?

Yumen Temple is the most famous temple in Nanhai City.I was desperate ten years ago and almost wanted to become a monk here.But I gritted my teeth and survived, my Aiki will become more and more successful, and wiped out all the gangs in Nanhai City who could fight me, and I became the well-deserved boss of the underworld in Nanhai City. In recent years, I have also started to take some upper-level routes, intentionally whitewashing myself, so I was able to get in touch with such figures as Master Kuzhen, the abbot of Yumen Temple.For Master Kuzhen, he is one of the few people I admire in my life. When I am in distress, I will use the early morning time, when there are no pilgrims in Yumen Temple, to visit Master Kuzhen and let him Answer my questions.Naturally, I am also one of the biggest pilgrims of Yumen Temple, and I donate a lot of money to Yumen Temple every month.

When the car was approaching Yumen Temple, the sky was already showing white teeth, and the bell of Yumen Temple's morning classes could be heard.Heigou parked the car in the parking lot not far away. As usual, Heigou was waiting for me in the car, and I walked into Yumen Temple by myself. The monk sweeping the floor at the door saw me and gave me a ten very politely. He should know me. Many people who came to the temple so early had the same status as me.I walked a few more steps inside, and before I reached the meditation hall, I saw Master Kuzhen dressed neatly under the temple in front of me, clasped his hands together and bowed slightly to me.It's hard for me to imagine why Master Kuzhen can greet me accurately every time. This may be the induction of the Buddhist family.

Master Kuzhen made a gesture of invitation, and I naturally followed him quickly, and followed him into the familiar meditation room where he chatted with Master Kuzhen every time.When I came here, the vicious spirit on my body dissipated without a trace. For Buddhism, which has thousands of years of cultural heritage, I am just a devout student. I was very smart since I was a child, and then I became smarter and smarter. I was one of the child prodigies in Nanhai City at that time.However, after my father disappeared for no reason, my mother lost her source of income and began to struggle independently. When I was in junior high school, I began to hate this society. This society is for me and my mother. Very unfair.I started fighting. At that time, the social atmosphere was not good, and there were many idlers. Because I was smart, I was able to deal with the bosses in several streets at that time, so I was still very popular with them.

When I was fifteen, I finally dropped out of school, expelled to be precise, and my mother beat me up and kicked me out of the house.But I don't blame my mother at all, I want to use my own way to retaliate against the society and make some achievements.I am ruthless in fighting, and I am willing to analyze how to control and knock down the opponent as soon as possible, and to intimidate the opponent psychologically.Therefore, the few fights I participated in and organized were won by my side, and soon when I was 18 years old, I became a very famous gangster in the Heping District of Nanhai City.At first people called me Brother Cheng.I can finally honor my mother, until my mother passed away three years ago, which made me feel extremely sad, which made me believe in the power of religion even more.

I seem to be much smarter than those gangsters who can only fight. I know how to run my own small group. Extortion, extortion and petty theft are naturally indispensable, but I will not spend the money on eating, drinking and having fun. Some sold pornographic novels, small cards and blackmailed some small stores to ask them to buy and sell tobacco and alcohol provided by us. When I was 20 years old, I independently established the semi-triad organization Juqitang, the predecessor of Aikikai, and personally designed a series of management regulations, because my Juqitang has a way to make money, There are more and more punks following me.

But being too conspicuous is also troublesome. Not only other gangs started to focus on us, but people from the Public Security Bureau also started to pay attention to our emerging semi-triad organization.The Qiqi Hall was besieged before, and I also had the experience of being hunted down several streets many times, and my body was also covered with large and small knife wounds and other scars. I am able to achieve today's results, I believe in miracles, and several times I felt that I had nowhere to go, and I might be hacked to death or killed in a dead end.I always escaped at the most dangerous moment, either the wall suddenly collapsed, or some inexplicable kind-hearted people told me how to escape.Maybe this is God's will, I always feel that I have been favored by God.

Therefore, when I came to Yumen Temple, I was always respectful. I was afraid of offending the Buddha and gods, so I took my good luck back.In the past, Master Kuzhen once said that I was protected by the Vajra, that I had a karma in the previous life, and I will be rewarded in this life.I just know that according to what Master Kuzhen said, there is a mysterious power protecting me in secret, making me believe that there are gods in this world. Master Kuzhen poured me a cup of tea and asked, "Benefactor Zhao came so early, there must be some confusion." My real name is Zhao Yajun, this name is too gentle, so I later gave myself an alias Zhao Cheng, so everyone calls me Brother Cheng.Only a small number of people in South China Sea know that my real name is Zhao Yajun.Most people don't even know whether my surname is Zhao.

I put my palms together piously, and said, "Master Kuzhen, this disciple is stupid. Recently, I feel that dangers are everywhere around me. Is there a disaster coming?" Master Kuzhen said lightly: "Where do disasters come from? Most of them come from yourself. If you are not greedy for all kinds of temptations in the world of mortals, how can there be disasters?" I said, "But I can't avoid it. I thought the overall situation was settled, but who knows, some weird things will happen again." Master Kuzhen said: "How deep is the well, unless you throw a stone into it or ask the person who dug the well, how can we people judge it by how we feel when we draw water?"

I said, "What if it's a deep well, so deep that no one can throw stones into it?" Master Kuzhen recited the Buddha's name: "Amitabha, since it is a well, someone has to dig it out. If benefactor Zhao wants to get rid of depression, he must either find the person who dug the well, or stay away from it. Only then can he be relieved. " My thoughts were racing. The person who dug the well is probably Secretary Tian and Director Zhao. These two old bastards know that I have too many handles on them. Second, you can continue to climb up the chain by taking advantage of my achievements in defeating me, the largest gangster in the South China Sea.I can indeed throw away all my achievements in the South China Sea, take the money and go to a foreign country to enjoy the rest of my life and forget it.But how can I be willing!I am really not reconciled!Now that they are going to attack, I can only kill them first, hum, I want to see how deep the well they dug for me is.

Master Kuzhen probably also saw the gloomy face on my face, and sighed: "Everything is not that simple, benefactor Zhao must not make judgments easily based on the surface of things." I smiled: "Thank you, Master Kuzhen, the disciple understands." Master Kuzhen recited a Buddhist name and said: "Although the old man can't help Master Zhao to eliminate disasters and doubts, Lao Na knows that all of these are caused by Master Zhao himself. If Master Zhao can understand himself, everything will be fine." It will be clear." Master Kuzhen is right, I didn't work in the underworld, and I didn't want to become the largest gang in Nanhai City, so how could there be such troubles?Up to now, I have seen myself very clearly.

I smiled and clasped my hands together: "I will bear in mind my master's teachings, so I will take my leave first." Master Kuzhen also clasped his hands together, and closed his eyes: "It's so good, benefactor Zhao, please take care of yourself. Lao Na has already pointed out the crux of the matter, whether you can understand it or not depends entirely on Benefactor Zhao himself." I got up to leave, Master Kuzhen sent me off for a while, and then left.I think Master Kuzhen is still a little strange today, he is still talking about me, am I not the leader of the underworld?It's as if I still have some shocking secrets that I don't even know.What kind of secret can I have, isn't it just that I killed a few people, and no one else knows that I killed them!Sometimes these religious people are pedantic enough, why do things have to be so mysterious.Ugh…… When I was about to walk out of the Yumen Temple, I turned around and saw Master Kuzhen still standing under the temple in the distance and watching me, as if praying for something.My heart tightened, is there really something that I don't understand myself? I think so, but I know that today will be a showdown day for me. 1 million is definitely just a trivial matter, but asking me for this 1 million seems not to be a solution to the problem, but to deliberately create a problem for me. The black dog took me back to my villa. Xiaomei, a slob, was still sleeping deeply. She was very relieved. Anyway, she was just my little bitch. I don't want her anymore. She will naturally fall into the arms of others.She doesn't need to think about it for me at all, even if I die, she won't shed a single tear, at most she feels like I'm missing a god of wealth. I told the black dog: "You will call Secretary Tian's secretary later, and tell him that I asked Secretary Tian to have dinner at VIP888 Mingxiang Building at noon, and please be kind to him. You go first, I'm a little sleepy." The black dog agreed and was about to go out when I continued, "Tell Zeng Sanshao and them to squat next to my villa with 20 people. No one is allowed to approach. Also, you take my gun with you." The black dog agreed and went out. If you make a decision about some things, you will feel more relaxed.There must be an answer to this matter today.I leaned back on the sofa, covered myself with the blanket on the sofa cushion, and fell asleep after a while. My dream actually started again, and it was still the darkness, and what was haunting me in the darkness.I feel that I have become very small, I slipped through the gaps of these things, and kept slipping through the gaps, until I saw those bright spots again, I tried my best to run towards the brightest point, and I was almost entangled several times in the middle , but gradually approaching this bright spot.I jumped into this bright spot, and actually saw a person, and that person... was myself. I woke up again with a cry, grandma, this dream is terrible!I touched my head, my head was sweating profusely, and my head started to hurt a little, a few tendons seemed to be bouncing in my brain.The nerves that pulled me were very painful, as if my brain was sore after memorizing books for a long time when I was a child, but the pain was more severe than before. I stood up, feeling dizzy, tried to stand up straight several times but fell down on the sofa again, so I had to call out: "Black dog, black dog." Xiaomei." After a while, I heard Xiaomei running over, this time it was okay, she was wearing a pajamas, but she was still not wearing underwear. "Honey, what's wrong with you." Xiaomei approached me and supported me. "Can't you hear me?" I said irritably. "I heard it. You should have fallen asleep just now, and I didn't dare to wake you up. As soon as you called me, I ran over." Xiaomei said aggrieved. "Okay, okay, Xiaomei, pour me a glass of water, and bring me the medicine in the blue box in my drawer." I pressed my head and ordered Xiaomei. Xiaomei rushed to prepare for me. After a while, it was all brought.I was so angry when I saw it: "Damn it, I was talking about the blue medicine box, not this blue box!" Xiaomei ran away again. This stupid pig, can you do something a little more authentic! Xiaomei ran back again, and finally got it right this time.The blue box contained a very expensive stabilizer drug from abroad. There was no way to buy it on the market. I bought it from the Japanese gangster at a high price, saying it was a stabilizer drug for their president. The Japanese also warned me that I could only take it myself, and that I must not let other people know what this medicine was, otherwise it would be very troublesome.Gangsters don't usually make jokes like that, so I'm the only one who knows what it's for.Sometimes I'm highly nervous and just need this drug to ease it.I think my headache should be caused by my nervousness and nightmares. I took one tablet and lay down slowly. The medicine worked quickly, and my headache soon subsided.Xiaomei still didn't forget to ask with concern, is it better?I nodded and said, "What time is it?" Xiaomei said, "It's 10:30." I nodded, I should have slept for 3 hours, but the dream felt like it lasted more than ten hours , that feels so real. "Go and stay, I'm going out to have a meal with someone at noon, you dress up." I said. Xiaomei asked: "Honey, are you alright?" "It's okay, I haven't slept well recently, and I'm nervous." Xiaomei left, I calmed myself down, stood up and wanted to go to the balcony to see if Zeng Sanshao and the others were outside. As soon as I stood up, I heard someone whispering in my ear: "Can you hear me?" I was terrified, it was the voice of a strange man, how could there be a strange man talking to me here, I was stunned for a while, and immediately turned around to look around the whole room, but there was no one. I rushed to the bedroom, Xiaomei was putting on makeup, and I yelled, "Did you hear anything?" Xiaomei said in surprise, "No." "A man's voice!" "No, no." Xiaomei became scared when she saw me. At this time, the strange man's voice came out again: "Can you hear me?" I immediately shouted: "Xiaomei, did you hear that, it's a man!" Xiaomei stood up in fear: "No, I didn't hear any other voices. I can't have other men here." Then she started crying.The slut must have thought I thought she was stealing men behind my back, so she cried. Damn, am I hallucinating?Is it because the drug just now has an anesthetic effect?I have smoked white powder and know that it may cause visual and auditory hallucinations.But I'm sure my brain is clear, very, very clear! I had no choice but to rush out of Xiaomei's room again, took out the knife hanging on the wall, held it in my hand, and gestured everywhere: "Who the hell are you, get out of here! Damn, you know who I am Is it? You don't want to live anymore?" There was no response for a long time.Just as I was about to put down the knife, suddenly the strange man's voice sounded again: "Please calm down, I am here." "Well, where." I raised the knife again and gestured around. "In your head." "Hmm! Where?" I didn't realize it for a while, and it took me a while to realize that he was talking about him in my head. "Fart! Get out of here, believe it or not, I'll kill you!" I yelled. "I'm really in your head, now you are me, and I am you. It should be possible to say that." The strange man said. "You are me? I am you?" N thoughts immediately popped up in my fucking head, am I crazy?I have a split personality?I'm fucking talking to myself? "You're normal. You couldn't hear me talking to you just now, but after you took the medicine, you started to hear me talking." The strange man said. I didn't say anything. I thought it might be my split personality. I've watched movies, TV series, and some novels. A person's personality can split into two people.Am I really split personality? "You're not a split personality," the voice said again. I didn't speak, and cursed in my brain: "Bastard, then who are you!" "Calm down first, and I'll tell you who I am." This grandson can know what I'm thinking, and I'm sure this is my second personality. "I'm really not your second personality." In my mind, I said to him: "Okay, let me calm down, and you tell me again." I put the knife down, went to the sofa, drank the water in the glass in one gulp, then sat down on the sofa, thinking: "Okay, I'm fine, please tell me who you are." The strange man's voice was silent for a while, and said, "I'm Li Shengli."