Chapter 10 10. I am a beggar

Until the next time I stopped, I never dared to look back, I just kept running along the path.It was like following a huge shadow behind me, always under my feet. I knew that I had to cut off all electronic contact with the outside world, that is to say, I could not make phone calls, surf the Internet, or appear in conspicuous public places. Even my appearance had better not be seen clearly. So, I took out the phone number I had recorded and tore it up to sever my luck. I became a beggar, a beggar who withdrew his head and tail, because in the days of fleeing, the places I walked were covered with dirt.I don't even have the energy to clean myself up.

I was smelly and dirty, with a beard, tangled hair, and grime all over my clothes.Only my eyes are still clear and firm. I must find a place where I can survive. Where is this place, I have no answer for quite a long time, I just know that I can live every day. With my head down, I was wearing the shabby clothes, rotten shoes, broken pots and bowls I picked up along the way. Clinking through one village after another, towns and cities. I didn't ask anyone to beg for food. I lowered my head and competed with hungry cats and dogs for food in the alley behind the restaurant. It was my greatest happiness to find a bottle of pure water that I hadn't finished.

At first, I was not used to it, and even thought I was terrible, but after a few times of hunger torture, I began to accept my life.As long as human dignity is lost once, it will always be lost, and I have no choice but to do this in order to survive. I have technology and knowledge, as long as I dress up well, with my ability, I absolutely believe that I can easily work in some technology companies in small cities. Definitely also decent work on the mix.However, I can't do this, as long as I show up in public, I will be discovered by Blue Uniform and the others. When I completely believed that I was a beggar, many times I suddenly felt very happy. If there were no things about those trackers, I would lie quietly in the bridge hole, look at the stars in the sky, and often see shooting stars.I was able to sleep in the sun in a grass pit after a leftover meal.A little clean and delicious food, I can be happy for a very long time.

I feel that I have changed and become more cheerful and optimistic than before. In the past, I was always depressed for several days because of why the performance salary in my salary was not fully paid.Now, I don't think about these at all, but at some point, I think of my parents, relatives and friends, how are they doing? Of course, I have also been bullied a lot. Beggars in every city seem to be organized. Some beggars see me like this and don’t even bother to talk to me, while some real beggars are either mentally ill or outright. Totally insane.I have been beaten by other beggars and driven out.Firstly, I will not fight back, and secondly, I will not argue. I will go wherever you ask me to go, because these places are not places for me to stay in the first place, and there is no need to cause unnecessary troubles.

Counting the time, it has been a month since I escaped from that town. During this month, I became a real beggar, and I never found anyone watching me and following me. Who would pay attention to this? I don't know if it's a beggar who is crazy or stupid? However, my body did not collapse due to the torture of this cruel environment. On the contrary, the original fat on my body disappeared, and my body became stronger and stronger. No fever or cold.If there is no one around, I will jump to the tree like a monkey, and swing from this branch to another branch sensitively.I also run a few laps like crazy at night. I once ran around a clock like an electronic watch and found that if it is accurate, my 100-meter speed is quite amazing, less than 11 seconds, and it is not a straight-line speed.

I joked to myself, if I went to some sports school and showed my hands, the coach would probably be excited and support me like an emperor.Have you ever seen a beggar who runs so fast?They certainly haven't seen it. I stayed in a big city, this city is Taiyuan.I basically hide in some caves or inconspicuous ditches during the day, until at night, like a sparrow flying, I happily run on the deserted streets, rummaging through trash cans, and looking for food in the back kitchen of restaurants.If there is something like meat, I will put it in a tin bucket that I call a golden lunch box, and wait for it to be savored during the day.

Why I didn't leave this city soon is because I don't know where I should go.I plan to stay in this city with slightly richer material conditions for a while, think about what I should do in the future, and then act, because even if I leave, I don’t know where to go, so I might as well stay here and think about it , There are a lot of waste newspapers in this city, and I can still pick up the newspaper of the day to see what is happening in the country now, so as not to let myself become a person isolated from time. Moreover, I have a strong feeling that there seem to be my friends in this city.

Let me just say that since I was stalked, I have never had a dream again, and for some reason, the previous kind of dream was interrupted.It's just that I occasionally feel some low insect-like sounds in my dreams, which will stop after a short time. I met her on a rainy day. Due to the heavy rain during the day and the recent "harvest" was not very good, I had to go out to find food under the heavy rain at night, otherwise I would be severely tortured by hunger. In an alley that I am not very familiar with, I found a treasure, which seemed to be expired food eliminated by the supermarket. When I was frantically flipping through it, I felt a pair of terrified eyes staring at it in the corner next to it. I.

I was a little vigilant, but soon relaxed, it was another beggar.I also gave this beggar a vicious look, because since this kind of beggar didn't dare to rush over, he must be a beggar who was bullied more than me. I rummaged in that big trash can for a long time, and found a lot of good things, as well as thick ham sausages.The bag was full, and just as I was about to leave, I found a cardboard box behind the trash can. I went to open it, picked it up, and saw chocolates and candies, as well as beautiful little toys.Being able to touch chocolate is enough to make me happy for two or three days. I was about to put the chocolate in my pocket when I heard a scream, and the figure in the corner rushed over.Catch me tightly.

I shook my body, and the thin man was thrown away immediately, and fell into the rain with a plop, but he stood up immediately and rushed towards me again.Hugging me in front of me, holding my hand desperately with one hand, yelling vaguely: "Give it back to me, give it back to me." It was the voice of a woman who sounded very young and immature, but very hoarse, as if she had a cold.I didn't care about this, and shouted at her: "What are you paying me back?" Then I threw her away again. She rushed towards me for the third time, as if she had exhausted all her strength, so that her body was trembling. "Please, give it back to me. Please."

I raised my hand high, and she raised her hand high, and I saw that what I was holding in my hand was a very cute bear rubber. "Do you want this?" I squeezed the eraser out of my hand. "Yes, give it back to me." "Here you are." I stretched out my hand, and she snatched it away. Then let go of me and went to grab the cardboard box again. I was not polite either, and grabbed her clothes, making her unable to move forward.She began to whimper and cry: "Let go of me, let me go, you rascal. Rascal." Badass, am I a badass?As soon as I let go, she rushed up and hugged the cardboard box in her arms, then hid in the corner beside her, staring at me with her eyes. I stay there, stand with my head down, am I a badass?As if I was indeed a badass.A bunch of bad guys are chasing me and wanting my life, but now it seems like I'm really a bad guy too.I take out my canned chocolates and put them in the back of the trash can. Look at the figure in that corner.Turn around and leave. The little beggar suddenly called me in a low voice: "Hey... you." I turned around, and this little guy poked his head out from the shadows, his eyes were very clear under the light. I didn't know what was going on, so I walked back, sat down beside her, didn't say anything, just stared blankly at the ground. After a long time, she poked me with her hand: "Brother." I turned around and she handed me a piece of chocolate she was holding.I didn't take it.Still silent, I felt that I was suddenly very sad.For some reason, I felt safe with her next to me, a sense of companionship. Suddenly the rain turned around and rushed towards me. The little girl said, "Aren't you cold?" I cried.Buried his head between his legs and cried.This is the first time I have cried aloud since I have been in exile for so long, and my emotions have been vented without reservation. This girl just stayed beside me quietly, covering my head with a piece of her plastic cloth.For a long time, neither of us said anything. Until the rain lightened down. I don't know if it was tears or rain on my face, but I wiped my face anyway.I am very embarrassed and said to this girl: "Thank you." The girl's voice was very crisp: "Brother, I think you look familiar, but I haven't seen you before." "Oh, yes." I think beggars probably look the same. "Brother, you are not crazy, are you?" "Yes, I'm normal." I turned to look at this girl, the girl's eyes were bright. "What about you? Alone?" I asked her. "Yes, I am alone. I have been in this city for about three months." "I haven't been here for long." "Brother, don't laugh at me when I talk, I think you are a good person." "Yeah, yeah." I smiled through tears. "Are you from Beijing?" "Yes, and you." "I forgot. I forgot where I am from." The girl fell silent after finishing speaking. I looked at her and thought she was cute, but why is she a beggar like me? "What's your name?" I asked her. "I forgot too. Everyone calls me hello, you smelly beggar." "Hehe. Haha. Hahaha." I reached out and patted her on the head. She laughed along with me. This is the romance between two beggars on a rainy night.Although it is an inconspicuous corner of the city, it is full of warmth.As if a warm orange light was shining on this small corner, two strangers in ragged clothes, although it was raining heavily outside, but as long as they huddled together like this, they were warm and happy enough.