Chapter 19 Chapter Eighteen

Welfare Supermarket is still booming. It is only one stop away from Xu Youyou's house.Every time Xu Youyou passed by this place, he couldn't help slowing down and glanced at the door a few more times.Just at the entrance of this supermarket, she paranoidly believed that a very thin middle-aged woman was the doctor who delivered her baby, and then she was hit by a motorcycle, and then had the first intimate contact with Gao Xuan... …every time she recalls it, she has mixed feelings. On this day, Xu Youyou passed by Fulifu Supermarket again. When he was thinking wildly, he saw a girl who was about her age, very thin, wearing a black dress that didn't fit very well, carrying a few shopping bags, struggling to get out of the supermarket. step out.

Xu Youyou found that this girl looked very familiar, very similar to the Auntie Tian whom she had mistaken.Could she be Aunt Tian's daughter?No, rather than saying that she is Aunt Tian's daughter, it is better to say that she is Aunt Tian when she was a child!At that moment, Xu Youyou suspected that he had traveled through time and space and returned to many years ago... The girl loaded her shopping bags into the basket of her bicycle and was leaving.The pair of eyes on the head seemed to be staring at Xu Youyou closely, hoping that she would run over and stop the little girl to ask for clarification.

Xu Youyou didn't do that.She was worried that if she ran over to ask, she would be knocked down by the motorcycle again when she turned around, and Gao Xuan, a sophomore in high school, would appear again and carry her to the hospital... The girl was about to get on her bicycle, when she looked up and saw Xu Youyou, and walked towards her directly. Xu Youyou froze in place. The girl stopped in front of Xu Youyou: "I met you again." Xu Youyou said: "Hello, you are..." The girl smiled lovingly: "You forgot me? I'm Aunt Tian. Two years ago, you met me here, and you insisted that I was the doctor who delivered your baby. Do you remember?"

Xu Youyou's hair went numb, and he said in a low voice, "Why... have you become younger?" The girl froze for a moment, and immediately asked, "How old do you think I am?" Xu Youyou hesitated for a moment, and said, "A girl in the blooming and rainy seasons like me!" The girl smiled and shook her head: "Impossible." Xu Youyou took a step back: "Then how old are you?" The girl looked around and said, "Come on, let's go to the side and talk..." Xu Youyou walked away with her as if in a fog.The two came to a bench next to the supermarket. The girl put the shopping bag on the ground, sat down, and said to Xu Youyou, "Come, sit here."

Xu Youyou said: "I always like to stand up. Tell me, how old are you?" The girl said mysteriously: "Let me tell you something first - I had a dream last night... I told you not to be afraid!" Xu Youyou looked at her without speaking. The girl said, "I won't hurt you, you really don't have to be afraid." The more she said that Xu Youyou became more frightened. The girl lowered her voice a bit, and continued: "I dreamed that I was pregnant eighteen years ago, and nine months later, I gave birth to myself. Hehe, I gave birth to myself!" Xu Youyou shivered for a moment, she felt that she had fallen into a dirty nightmare and never woke up.

The girl stared into Xu Youyou's eyes, and continued: "As a result, I woke up this morning and looked in the mirror, and I was shocked! I found that I had really turned into an 18-year-old! ——Are you scared? Actually, I was quite scared at first, but I figured it out quickly, which woman doesn’t want to become younger! However, I asked a few neighbors today, and no one thinks that my appearance has changed. I suspect that I have appeared I have hallucinations, so I dare not mention this matter again. Unexpectedly, I have been confirmed by you, and I am indeed rejuvenated!" As she said that, the girl opened the shopping bag: "I just bought some clothes, all of which are suitable for my age. Look, how beautiful this short skirt is! Oh, this is..." She accidentally shook it off. A pack of sanitary napkins, a little embarrassed: "Although I haven't used it for many years, I think I will use it again soon."

Xu Youyou began to suspect that the girl in front of her was mentally abnormal. At this time, a tall girl in her 20s hurried over, stopped in front of them, and said to the girl, "Auntie, please, do you know how to get to the 'Yishuiqinglai' community?" Xu Youyou smelled a strange smell, and quickly said: "I live in 'Yishuiqinglai', I will take you there." The tall girl immediately said, "Thank you, sister." Xu Youyou hurried away. After walking a long distance, she looked back, and the girl who looked like Aunt Tian had disappeared, only the tall girl followed her closely.

Xu Youyou stopped and asked the tall girl, "How old do you think the girl was just now?" The tall girl said, "Which one?" Xu Youyou said, "The one you call Auntie." The tall girl said, "Maybe in your 50s." Xu Youyou has experienced too many weird things, and she has developed a habit of forgetting about it immediately after it has passed.Every time she encounters a weird situation or has a weird idea, she will try to hint to herself in her heart-in fact, all these are caused by the eyes in the sky. She's been in a tug of war with that mysterious thing.Every moment, she dreams of restoring the world that originally belonged to her, which is clear, objective, and infinitely beautiful.

Two days later, Xu Youyou received a call from V. He wanted to come back to Acropolis and asked Xu Youyou to meet. Xu Youyou readily agreed. After entering university, Xu Youyou only met V once during the winter vacation.Although V does not admit that he met her that time. Xu Youyou saw V from a distance at the entrance of the amusement park, and was stunned—V had long hair, a purple hairpin pinned to it, and was wearing a small black vest, a floral yellow dress, and a pair of black high-heeled shoes.How did he become a girl? V saw Xu Youyou, walked over with a smile, wanted to pull Xu Youyou's hand, hesitated for a moment, then retracted his hand again, as in the past, timidly.

Xu Youyou forced a smile and said, "Why did you change your old look into a new one?" V whispered, "I've changed my gender." Xu Youyou asked: "When?" V said: "I did it not long after I arrived in Beijing." Xu Youyou said: "During the winter vacation last year, you already became...a girl?" V said: "Yes." Xu Youyou immediately realized that she was wrong, V had never been to her house during the winter vacation! She was confused: "Why do you want to do this?" V said: "I am a transsexual, and now I am free."

Xu Youyou said: "I heard that this kind of surgery requires a lot of proof, how did you do it?" V said: "I found a private hospital and it was done without much trouble." Speaking of this, V looked at Xu Youyou very sensitively: "It's really a girl's 18th transformation, you are getting more and more beautiful." Xu Youyou faintly felt a kind of jealousy between the same sex from her eyes, she was very uncomfortable, and said lightly: "What about you? It's like nineteen changes." V said: "However, I am definitely not as beautiful as you. I envied you very much in high school." Then, she asked seriously: "You said you met me last time, what happened?" Xu Youyou didn't want to mention that matter again, so he said lightly: "It's not you, I made a mistake at the time." V said: "That's good." Xu Youyou said, "Are you asking me to go to the amusement park?" V said: "Let's go to the movies, my treat." Xu Youyou was not in the mood to watch movies, but his attention was still on V's gender.She clearly remembers V's appearance in high school, white, weak, rarely going out to play, his biggest hobby is reading, his face turns red when he talks to girls... How did he suddenly become a sister?This happened so suddenly. Xu Youyou looked at this familiar yet unfamiliar person and asked, "What movie?" V said: "4D." In fact, Xu Youyou was a little afraid of watching movies that were too three-dimensional. V said: "It's a landscape film." Xu Youyou said, "Then... okay." The two walked into the amusement park while chatting about the school.Until this time, Xu Youyou didn't believe that the V in front of him was real.She quietly observed V's hand, and found that she seemed to have lost the knuckle problem. The amusement park has just built a vaulted cinema dedicated to showing 4D movies.Wan Sui'er came with Langma a few days ago, she told Xu Youyou. The two came to the entrance of the cinema, V ran to buy tickets and some fruit, then took Xu Youyou's arm and walked in.Xu Youyou felt awkward being with V. Since it had just opened for business, the audience was full. V looked for the seat while looking at the number on the ticket, but the seats of the two were not together. In normal times, Xu Youyou would definitely not watch this kind of movie alone, but fortunately it is a landscape movie. In fact, V was sitting behind Xu Youyou, and the two of them were talking one after the other, and the movie started. Some people love donkeys, some people love horses, and some people love Fang Jiewa.Everyone has the freedom to choose their lifestyle, Xu Youyou no longer thinks about V's gender issue. The movie shows the scenery of Dali - backed by Cangshan Mountain, facing Erhai Lake, old streets and alleys, clouds rolling and relaxing, flowers as beautiful and peaceful as lyrics, butterflies flying like musical notes.Here, the most worthless thing is time... Xu Youyou became excited. She thought that only such an environment was qualified to accommodate her pristine life. Suddenly, Xu Youyou's mind was withdrawn from the movie and jumped to many years ago - when she was a sophomore in high school, V was sitting in the front row of her, and she was sitting in the back row of V. She gently opened the pencil case and picked up the folding pencil sharpener , slowly stretched forward, trying to cut off V's throat... Today, many years later, as if arranged by fate, at this time in the dark movie theater, she is sitting in the front row of V, and V is sitting in the back row of her.Xu Youyou turned around suddenly, and almost jumped up——V's face was illuminated by the light of the screen, and its color was extremely strange. She was holding a fruit knife in her hand, slowly stretching towards her neck... Seeing Xu Youyou looking back at him, she trembled all over, and quickly said, "You, do you want to borrow a fruit knife?" Xu Youyou kept twisting his neck, staring at her blankly. She slowly retracted her hand, folded the fruit knife, and put it in her pocket: "Excuse me..." Xu Youyou didn't dare to continue reading, got up and left the seat. V followed, with a guilty expression on her face, she seemed very disturbed, and began to press her knuckles again and again: "Crack, click, click..." Xu Youyou stopped and said suddenly: "V, can you throw away your fruit knife?" V froze for a moment, then said "oh", quickly took out the fruit knife from his pocket, and threw it into the trash can next to him. Xu Youyou said: "Actually, I know what you think." V looked at Xu Youyou: "What did you say?" Xu Youyou said: "I mean... I know exactly what you think." V said: "Really?" Xu Youyou nodded. V turned his head and looked into the distance, his eyes were a little empty: "I don't know why, I suddenly wanted to kill you today. I asked you out, took you to watch a 4D movie, and bought two tickets for the front and back row. It's all to fulfill this wish. I never hated you. After I went to college, I seldom even thought of you, but today I suddenly thought you were bad, and I must kill you! Until I raised the knife , It seems that I suddenly woke up. What happened to me?" Xu Youyou pulled V to sit on the bench by the side of the road, and said: "V, you are so frank and lenient to me, I am both happy and sad. The happy thing is that I am no longer alone in the world, and the sad thing is that you are also Involved in this sleepless nightmare..." V asked suspiciously: "Do you know what's going on?" Xu Youyou told her experience exactly. V's eyes widened and his body began to tremble. Xu Youyou said: "I always thought that I was about to go crazy. After listening to your words today, I knew for the first time that besides me, there are other people who are also experiencing my painful feelings! From this I Got it, there must be something wrong with the outside world, not something inside me." V said: "Outside? What do you mean?" Xu Youyou said: "I can't tell, I just vaguely feel that we are unlucky, we were condescendingly selected by something." After a pause, she suddenly asked V: "Are you sure you are the one who did the sex reassignment surgery?" A willing thought?" V frowned and thought for a while, then said, "I've always been normal since I was a child, but after entering university, I suddenly hated my gender. I always felt like I was a girl, but I was born with a boy's body..." Xu Youyou said: "I think it is very likely that that thing controls your thoughts with ease." V was about to cry: "What the hell is that?" Xu Youyou said: "Occasionally, I feel that it is very far away, and it will never show a glimpse of it; sometimes it seems very close, staring at me from the top of my head for all to see..." V added: "But why did it choose me?" Xu Youyou said: "And me. Maybe it's because we all have a unique heart!" V stared into the distance and was silent for a while, then suddenly said: "Could our high school class be some kind of 'experimental field'?" Xu Youyou said: "I didn't find any other students showing this sign." V said: "If not, it means that many people have been selected. You see, there are two people in our class. The probability is too high..." Xu Youyou said sadly: "I hope it's not like this..." V asked Xu Youyou again: "Have you told your family about this?" Xu Youyou said: "No. They are helpless, and they must be more anxious. I chose to bear it alone." V said: "We can't tell our parents, we can't tell our teachers, we can't see a doctor, let alone the police... what should we do!" Xu Youyou said: "This thing is too powerful, we can't fight it." V lowered his head, twisting the corners of his skirt with both hands, tears streaming down his face. Xu Youyou felt that V was more pitiful, so he comforted her and said, "Since you have had the operation and have no regrets so far, then be a girl from beginning to end! Isn't it good now?" V stood up, wiped away his tears, and said dejectedly: "Youyou, you don't need to say anything, I'm leaving. If I ask you out next time, you...don't come out." Xu Youyou's nose was sore, and he said, "I understand what you mean. The mountains are high and the roads are far away. Take care of yourself in the future." The sky is high and blue. Tear it open to see those eyes. This summer vacation, Xu Youyou has an extra person in his life—Gao Xuan, who brings the seed of love to Xu Youyou's lonely world, which is hope.There is another friend in trouble——V, this unfortunate person brought confidence to Xu Youyou. On this day, after his parents went to work, Xu Youyou went downstairs, wanting to go out to bask in the sun. A few elderly people pushed baby carriages and gathered under the shade of a tree to chat.Several children were racing on bicycles, yelling and sweating.One of the youngest children rode too fast and fell and gnawed on the mud. The other children didn't care and continued to run. Xu Youyou has never had such a carefree childhood. There are too many things in her head, she hopes that the bamboo tube will pour beans, empty it, and become a happy girl like Wan Sui'er. That very thin Auntie Tian became smaller, just like in a fairy tale, she suddenly became a little girl.Fairy tales are beautiful, but any plot in fairy tales that appears in reality is terrifying. V appeared, as if fate arranged some kind of justice, she premeditated to kill herself.Xu Youyou believes that V is a cowardly person in life, but she has murderous intentions towards Xu Youyou... What's next?Xu Youyou sat on the lawn, thinking about the future. A girl appeared on the corridor, and she walked towards Xu Youyou with a smile. Xu Youyou's body tensed up—isn't that Li Xiaohui, a high school classmate? Xu Youyou stared at her, thinking quickly why she suddenly appeared in Yishuiqinglai community. Li Xiaohui is a carefree girl with a sense of righteousness. In high school, in order to complain about a student from out of town, she even got into a fight with the class teacher, which shocked the whole class.Xu Youyou likes her toughness. This is Li Xiaohui, who dropped out of high school and returned to her hometown. When they parted, she left Xu Youyou's phone number, but it seemed to be a scam.One year later, on this sunny day, Li Xiaohui reappeared like a dream!Xu Youyou immediately realized that that mysterious thing had started to direct absurd plays in front of her again. Li Xiaohui raised his hand towards Xu Youyou: "Hi, Youyou!" Xu Youyou asked alertly: "Why are you here?" Li Xiaohui said: "Didn't I tell you that my aunt's family lives in this community." While talking, he sat down next to Xu Youyou and said excitedly, "We haven't seen each other for more than a year, right?" Xu Youyou said, "Yes." Li Xiaohui said: "I heard that you have been admitted to a normal school?" Xu Youyou said, "Yes." Li Xiaohui said: "It's really good..." Xu Youyou said suddenly: "You left me a phone number, it may be wrong." Li Xiaohui said: "No way!" Xu Youyou said: "I called you, but I called a kindergarten in the opposite direction. They said there was a Li Xiaohui, but he died of helping others eighteen years ago!" Li Xiaohui's reaction was far beyond Xu Youyou's expectations. She lowered her head and stared at the grass under her feet, and suddenly fell silent. Xu Youyou stared at her and said, "This is...why?" Li Xiaohui raised her head and said softly, "Youyou, I am actually her." Xu Youyou shook, and looked to the side. Those old people were still chatting under the shade of the tree, and those children stopped riding bicycles and climbed onto the tree. Her eyes returned to Li Xiaohui's face: "What are you talking about!" Li Xiaohui said: "In the third year of high school, I went back to Changyu for the winter vacation, and occasionally saw an old newspaper with a story about Li Xiaohui. She went to a kindergarten as a kindergarten teacher in her third year of high school, and later died. There was a portrait of her in the newspaper, and I was stunned when I saw it. Isn’t that my picture! Then, the scene of an earthquake appeared in my mind, and several little girls huddled in a corner of the classroom, crying loudly. No matter how I shouted, they were all motionless, and I had to hug them one by one. When I rushed into the classroom to save the last girl, the house collapsed, and I heard a bang, and then I didn’t know anything. Yuyou, you know Well, the day Li Xiaohui passed away was the day I was born! There is no doubt that I am her! I returned to this world. Not long after I saw that old newspaper, I dropped out of school and returned to Changyu. I have applied for a preschool teacher in a kindergarten—I am going back to my job. When you called me, I hadn't reported for duty. Next time, if you call again, you will definitely find me. " Xu Youyou suddenly realized that this Li Xiaohui was probably also a friend in trouble! This world is going to be abnormal! Li Xiaohui looked at Xu Youyou with sparkling eyes: "Youyou, do you believe me?" Xu Youyou said without hesitation: "I believe it. I also believe that next time no matter what disaster happens, you will still be a hero!" Li Xiaohui's eyes became wet immediately, and she grabbed Xu Youyou's hand vigorously. At night, Xu Youyou couldn't sleep, and kept thinking about this encounter between her and Li Xiaohui. She suddenly thought of a possibility - it wasn't that Li Xiaohui fell into that weird hallucinatory world like her, in fact, the Li Xiaohui who suddenly appeared today was Xu Youyou's illusion... She tried hard to recall the clothes Li Xiaohui wore today: pink T-shirt, black jeans, blue sneakers. It has been more than a year since we separated, why is Li Xiaohui still wearing the clothes she used to wear in high school?In other words, she is probably not the Li Xiaohui in more than a year, but the Li Xiaohui in Xu Youyou's memory... For a few days, Xu Youyou went downstairs for a walk, hoping to meet Li Xiaohui again. Li Xiaohui never appeared again. This afternoon, Xu Youyou called the kindergarten again, and a middle-aged woman answered it.Xu Youyou tentatively asked, "Excuse me, is Teacher Li Xiaohui in?" The other party said: "She is in class, do I need to call you?" Xu Youyou said: "No need to trouble, thank you from the bottom of my heart."