Chapter 6 Chapter 5 Xu Youyou's Lonely World
At the beginning, Xu Youyou didn't notice the existence of those eyes in the sky, she just felt that her life was a bit abnormal.
Where did it start?
Sleepless nights, Xu Youyou repeatedly recalled, it should be the summer of the sophomore year of high school...
That day, she took the bus home after school.There is still a distance from the station to her home, passing a Fulifu supermarket, which is very big, with motor vehicles and bicycles parked in disorder at the entrance, many people go in and many people come out.Xu Youyou is a quiet girl who never looks around when walking.That day, for some reason, she looked towards the door of the supermarket in a strange way, and a very thin woman just came out. She looked like she was in her 50s, wearing a black dress that didn't fit very well, and she was carrying a few shopping bags. Very strenuous.
Xu Youyou slowly stopped.
Seeing this woman's face, a very distant memory suddenly flashed in her mind. She seemed to be in the deepest part of the sea, very warm, without a ray of light, and she fell asleep day after day.At some point, a powerful force appeared in that world, enveloping her in all directions, entering a narrow, dark, and long passage, moving forward with difficulty, and the feeling of being reborn was extremely painful.Finally, her internal vision world turned bright red, her body was supported by a pair of hands, and she came from the sea to the land.She was very unaccustomed to the light, air, and noise of this world, and cried "Wow".Finally, she struggled to open her eyes, and saw a woman in a white coat, she looked at herself with a smile, and said something...
She was the first person Xu Youyou saw when he came to this world, and Xu Youyou actually remembered her appearance!Moreover, Xu Youyou can be sure that she is the very thin woman in front of her.
The woman walked up to a bicycle, put those shopping bags into the basket, and was about to ride away when Xu Youyou suddenly ran up and called out: "Auntie..."
The woman looked back at her and said, "What's wrong with you?"
Xu Youyou said, "Auntie, are you a doctor?"
The woman looked down at the black dress on her body and smiled: "Do you think I look like a doctor?"
Xu Youyou thought for a while and said, "When I was born, you were the one who took care of me."
The woman was surprised: "You have admitted the wrong person!"
Xu Youyou looked carefully at the woman's facial features again, and said, "No." Then, she said abruptly, "Thank you." Then she turned and left.
Cars were coming and going at the entrance of Fulifu Supermarket, and the speed was very slow, but suddenly a motorcycle appeared, the speed was very fast, the driver seemed to be unable to drive, and it ran straight towards Xu Youyou...
She was knocked several meters away and could not stand up.
The very thin woman ran over immediately, and the passers-by took her to a nearby hospital.
Xu Youyou's father was on a business trip, and when his mother got the news, she rushed into the hospital like crazy, and asked as soon as she entered the ward, "Youyouyouyou, how are you?"
Xu Youyou was infusion, she said quietly: "I saw the doctor who delivered me at the entrance of the supermarket."
The mother checked her daughter's body up and down, and confirmed that it was only a slight injury to her thigh. Then she was relieved, and suddenly came back to her senses: "What did you say?"
Xu Youyou said: "I met the doctor who delivered my baby on the road, he was very thin."
The mother was stunned, and reached out to touch her daughter's forehead: "Baby! Did you hit your head?"
Xu Youyou took away her mother's hand and said, "I'm fine."
Mom said: "Then let me ask you, do you know which doctor delivered your baby?"
Xu Youyou said, "I don't know her last name."
Mom said: "Her surname is Wang, Dr. Wang. After you were born, you never went back to that hospital. How could you recognize her!"
Xu Youyou turned his head away and stopped talking.
After leaving the hospital, one weekend, Xu Youyou went to the Maternal and Child Health Hospital and looked at the doctor's notice board. There was only one surnamed Wang, and she was not the woman Xu Youyou met at the entrance of the supermarket.
It would be a strange thing if Xu Youyou really recognized the doctor who delivered her.But she was wrong, and that's right.
Later, Xu Youyou's mother found the very thin woman and went to the door to express her gratitude.Xu Youyou finally knew that the woman's surname was Tian, not Wang at all.
After this incident passed, Xu Youyou left a huge knot in her heart—why did she think that Aunt Tian was Dr. Wang who delivered her baby?Her brain didn't store the images before and after birth, never since she was a child, but the moment she saw Aunt Tian, that distant memory suddenly popped up, it felt so familiar...
There is another thing that also happened in the sophomore year of high school.
In front of Xu Youyou was a boy (call him V for now). V looks weak and white, and he doesn't like to move. He seldom goes out to play. His biggest hobby is reading, and his grades have always been very good.He has a bad habit of breaking his knuckles. During class, Xu Youyou often heard the sound of "click, click, click".
Although Xu Youyou worked very hard, his grades have not improved, and he is at the middle level.V often helps Xu Youyou with homework. V lost everything, either forgot to bring a pen or a book, and Xu Youyou often helped him solve "hardware" problems.The relationship between the two is very good.
One day in physics class, Xu Youyou stared at the back of V's head, and suddenly felt that he was evil, or that he would eventually become a heinous person who endangered the world, and she had to kill him now, otherwise she would have no chance.What was that feeling like?It was as if someone told her in her head that the voice was extremely loud and could not be violated.
The physics teacher is lecturing loudly on the podium: "How does sound propagate? It needs gases, liquids, and solids. These substances are called media..."
Xu Youyou didn't know where the voice in her brain came from, she only focused on the back of her head in front of her.She felt that she was just, and she and the back of her head were either fighting to the death or fighting to the death.
She gently opened the pencil case, picked up the folding pencil sharpener, and planned to reach through V's back and make a hard cut on V's throat, and the task was completed.
She gripped the pencil sharpener tightly and slowly stretched it forward. At this moment, the back of her head suddenly turned around and glanced at Xu Youyou.Xu Youyou shivered for a moment, and quickly asked, "You...do you borrow a pencil sharpener?"
V didn't speak, just glanced at her quietly, and then slowly turned his head back.
Xu Youyou suddenly returned to normal - the person in front was her classmate, an honest student with excellent grades.She didn't understand why she was paranoid about killing him just now.She is a well-behaved girl with no violent tendencies, and she has never killed an ant since she was a child.Even if V is a heinous villain, Xu Youyou doesn't have the courage to kill someone.She quietly stuffed the pencil sharpener into the desk, stretched out her palm and looked at it, dripping with cold sweat.She suspected that she was going crazy.
After many years, every time I think of that scene in physics class, Xu Youyou is afraid.She has been worried that one day she will suddenly become abnormal again and become a murderous maniac.
Also in the third year of high school, Xu Youyou dreamed that there was an earthquake in a certain place, the sky was full of thunderbolts, flashing red lightning, the earth shook like epilepsy, many buildings collapsed "rumbling", and smoke and dust were everywhere. Dazed.
Waking up in a jerk, Xu Youyou's heart was beating wildly with fright.
Recalling the scene in the dream, the place where the earthquake occurred was Changyu. Xu Youyou had a classmate named Li Xiaohui. Her family lived in Changyu. A few days ago, Li Xiaohui suddenly dropped out of school and went back to her hometown. phone number.
After dawn, Xu Youyou found the number from the phone book, and quickly called Li Xiaohui, wanting to tell her that an earthquake was about to occur in Changyu, so she should be careful.
A young woman answered the phone, she said impatiently: "You made a mistake, Li Xiaohui is not there!" Then she hung up the phone.
Xu Youyou looked in the phone book, the phone number was correct.
The next night, Xu Youyou dreamed of an earthquake again, and the whole process was basically the same as the dream of the previous day.When she woke up in the morning, she continued to dial that phone number, hoping to find Li Xiaohui.
This time it was an old lady who answered the phone with a very gentle attitude. She said, "Son, we don't have Li Xiaohui here."
Xu Youyou said, "Auntie, where is your phone number?"
The old lady said: "Changyu County Party Committee Kindergarten."
After hanging up the phone, Xu Youyou was puzzled.She suspected that Li Xiaohui wrote the wrong number.
On the third night, Xu Youyou dreamed of an earthquake again.Having the same dream for three nights cannot be a coincidence.
In the morning, she dialed the long-distance number again. Even if Li Xiaohui couldn't be found, she still had to remind them that there might be an earthquake in Changyu.
This time it was a middle-aged woman who answered the call.
Xu Youyou said: "Excuse me, do you know a person named Li Xiaohui?"
The other party said: "I know. I heard that you called her twice to look for her. I want to know why you are looking for her?"
Li Xiaohui found it!
Xu Youyou didn't know how to explain it for a while, so he said, "There may be an earthquake in your place..."
The other party was silent for a while, and said: "Li Xiaohui used to be a teacher in our unit. Today, 16 years ago, a 7.6-magnitude earthquake occurred in Changyu. She died in that earthquake to save her children..."
Xu Youyou's scalp exploded, and he hesitated and said, "I may have found the wrong person...I'm sorry."
After hanging up the phone, Xu Youyou became more and more afraid as he thought about it, feeling that he might be possessed by a ghost.
When my mother came home from get off work, she saw Xu Youyou's face was very bad, so she asked her what was wrong.
Xu Youyou told her mother about it.Mother held her in her arms and said, "It's just a coincidence, don't think too much about it."
After Dad got off work, Mom gave him a wink, and the two went to the study together.
After a long time, Gao Da's father came over, touched Xu Youyou's forehead, and said, "Dad is a policeman, let me analyze it for you, maybe it's like this—Li Xiaohui gave her home phone number wrong Yes, or you wrote it wrong. There are two Li Xiaohui in Changyu. One is a teacher in kindergarten and has passed away; Maybe, the person answering the phone in the kindergarten was impatient and made up a story to scare you."
Xu Youyou said: "But why do I keep having that dream?"
Dad said: "I guess, you may have read the old news about the Changyu earthquake on the Internet, but you don't remember it, so you always have that dream. Are you under too much study pressure during this time?"
Xu Youyou said, "It's pretty easy..."
Dad thought about it, and suddenly asked: "Is there really Li Xiaohui in your class?"
Xu Youyou said: "Of course! She is my friend. I remember she also said that her aunt's family lives in our community..."
Dad asked: "What building is it?"
Xu Youyou shook his head: "She didn't say."
Dad said: "Tomorrow I happen to be on vacation. I'll take you to the hospital. Recently, your thoughts may be a little... confused."
Xu Youyou could tell that Dad was trying his best to avoid some more accurate words.
The next day, Dad took Xu Youyou to the hospital.The doctor couldn't tell Ziwu Maoyou either, but prescribed some tranquilizing medicine.
Those medicines were placed by Xu Youyou's bedside, and she never took a single one.
At this time, Xu Youyou had vaguely felt the existence of that thing, but he didn't know its location.If that thing is a huge phantom, these Chinese medicine balls are a colorful toy gun, which has no lethality at all.If attacking it with such a weapon can only enrage it, it will be even more troublesome...
Originally, the parents planned to send Xu Youyou to study abroad, but she always behaved abnormally, and she definitely couldn't do it alone abroad, so they could only keep the only daughter under their noses.So, they never mentioned the matter of sending Xu Youyou abroad again.Because Xu Youyou has been leading dancers and exercises in school since she was a child, her parents asked her to apply for the dance department of the Normal University in this city during the college entrance examination.
Xu Youyou became more and more closed, hiding in books every day, getting farther and farther away from real life.She always speaks carefully, which sounds very contrived, especially for those who meet her for the first time, it will feel very weird.
Shortly after entering college, another unexplainable event happened.
One night, Xu Youyou suddenly had the desire to write. In an instant, she was so inspired that she couldn't stand the shock. She got up and turned on the computer, and started writing "cracklingly". In an hour, she wrote an article A 3,000-word novel titled "Crazy Eyeballs".After finishing the manuscript, she felt refreshed and refreshed. She saved the novel in the computer and went to bed.
A few days later, V came to visit her at her home. V was admitted to a prestigious school in Beijing and returned to Acropolis for the winter vacation.This kid is still thin and white, and still retains the old habit of pressing his knuckles constantly, making "click, click" sounds, which is annoying.He saw the "Crazy Eyeball" on Xu Youyou's computer, and asked, "Who wrote this?"
Xu Youyou didn't want to show off, so he said: "Copied from the Internet. Do you think this novel is very literary?"
V was amazed: "This story is too scary!"
Xu Youyou said: "That is obviously a beautiful and extraordinary love story!"
V shook his head and said, "I didn't see it."
Xu Youyou said: "That's why the heights of the peaks on the sides of the mountains are different in distance and height."
The next day, when Xu Youyou was shopping at the bookstall, he saw a magazine of "Folk Stories Cowardly", bought a copy, returned home, and mailed "Crazy Eyeball" according to the submission mailbox above.
She never expected to publish it.
Two months later, on a weekend, Xu Youyou saw the latest issue of "Folk Stories: Cowards" on the bookstall, picked it up and flipped through it, and suddenly saw a title - "Crazy Eyeballs"!Read on, it is the story she wrote.
Xu Youyou didn't expect that she could also publish novels!Looking back at her heart, she is delicate, sensitive, passionate, full of compassion, pursuing perfection, and eager to express. Aren't these all the characteristics of a writer?
However, there is a problem that Xu Youyou can't figure out. The author's signature is not her, but a strange name - Zhou Dedong.
Apparently, the editors got it wrong.
There was a contact number on the magazine, and Xu Youyou dialed it on his mobile phone, and the person who answered the phone was the editor-in-chief of "Folk Stories: Cowards".
Xu Youyou said: "Hello, I am the author of "Crazy Eyeballs"."
The editor-in-chief seemed a little confused: ""Crazy Eyeballs"?"
Xu Youyou said: "It's that beautiful and extraordinary love story that was published in the latest issue of your magazine. I submitted the manuscript two months ago, but you Zhang Guan Li Dai got the name wrong..."
The editor-in-chief asked, "What's your name?"
Xu Youyou said: "When I submit the manuscript, I use Xu Xu, the first one is the one to tell, and the second one is the one to confide in."
After a while of silence on the phone, the editor-in-chief said: "Xu Xu, did you remember it wrong? That story is written by Zhou Dedong, and he is the editor-in-chief of our magazine. We will not make a mistake."
Xu Youyou didn't want to argue, so he said "I'm sorry, editor-in-chief", and then hung up the phone hastily.
She read the story again from the beginning to the end. It was definitely written by her two months ago, almost word for word. How could it become someone else's work?
After thinking about it, she suddenly thought of a person——V, who had read this story at the time.
Xu Youyou hopes to get confirmation from V, not to get back the manuscript fee, but to see who is abnormal between her and this world.
V has already returned to Beijing, and Xu Youyou called him: "V, do you remember that when you came to my house, you read a beautiful and extraordinary love story called "Crazy Eyeball" on my computer? "
V said: "When?"
V's voice sounded weird through the microphone, as if it wasn't him anymore.
Xu Youyou said: "Two months ago, during the winter vacation!"
V said: "Vu, do you have a fever? Have I been to your house?"
Xu Youyou said: "Did you forget? At that time you still said that the story was scary..."
V said: "I feel that what you say is the scariest thing!"
Putting down the phone, Xu Youyou looked up at the sky, the sky was very blue, with a few clouds floating, dazzlingly bright.Through the atmosphere, above the solar system, the Milky Way, the total galaxy... This is science, there is no doubt about it.However, Xu Youyou still felt that there was something in the sky monitoring her and playing with her.She couldn't escape, even if she got into the air-raid shelter or fled into the big forest, nothing would help.After a long time, Xu Youyou even felt a certain personality in that thing—occasionally playing tricks, losing his temper, being silent and gloomy, showing a reserved smile, and ignoring her when he got busy... But, it will never give up on her , will not liberate her, as if that is its mission.
Xu Youyou felt lonely again.
She is alone in a never-ending nightmare, and no one can help her.One day, she is destined to go crazy.Then she will be able to see its true colors, and it will hold her hand and run wildly in the abnormal world.At that time, she was completely liberated, free, and unencumbered.