Chapter 27 4. Old photo album

Waking up in the morning, Wang Jingwen found that her mother had prepared a delicious breakfast: millet porridge with lean meat and fried poached eggs.She said hello to her parents, sat at the table, and tasted the long-lost mother's handicraft.During the meal, no one mentioned what happened last night. The mother asked her daughter who was drinking porridge: "How is it, Jingwen, are you used to eating?" Wang Jingwen nodded and said, "Mom's porridge is really delicious." "You used to like this millet porridge with lean meat, and you often asked me to make it." Mother smiled, "I'll cook some of your favorite dishes for lunch later."

"Mom, just eat whatever you want, don't take care of me too much." Wang Xingyu, who was sitting across the dining table drinking porridge, said: "Jingwen, let your mother take care of you. She has been holding back for several years and has no chance. Now it's time to take care of her addiction." Wang Jingwen pursed her lips and smiled. After breakfast, Wang Jingwen helped her mother pack the tableware.My mother said to her: "I'll go to the market to buy vegetables, and you can watch TV, surf the Internet, or read books at home. Anyway, you can do whatever you want."

"Mom, let me go shopping with you." "Another day, today you can accompany your father first." Dong Lin raised her head towards the study. Wang Jingwen nodded obediently. After her mother left, Wang Jingwen came to her father's study.Seeing his daughter walking in, Wang Xingyu seemed very happy: "Jingwen, do you want to surf the Internet or play games for a while? Let me teach you how to use the computer at home." Wang Jingwen still maintained the simple way of life she had in the nursing home. She looked at the big bookcase on the right side of the study and said, "Dad, I want to read for a while—what books do you have here?"

"Books? I have a lot of books here." Wang Xingyu stood up from his chair, walked to the bookcase, and introduced to his daughter who was leaning over: "The first floor contains books on literature, history, and biography; the second floor mainly contains There are some novels at home and abroad; the third floor is various magazines, and the fourth floor...hehe, you don’t need to read the books on this floor.” “Why?” Wang Jingwen asked curiously. "The fourth floor is basically books on architectural design, which are too professional, and most people won't be interested." Wang Jingwen was stunned for a moment, and then remembered an important question - she even forgot her parents' occupations.She guessed, "Dad, are you a... construction engineer?"

Wang Xingyu nodded: "But now that I'm retired, I'm all at home." Wang Jingwen tried hard to recall her mother's occupation, but she couldn't. She could only ask, "What does mom do?" "Your mother used to work in an insurance company as a deputy general manager. She is also retired now." Wang Jingwen nodded dully—it seems that Dr. Nie's "forgetting therapy" was too thorough, and she didn't have the slightest impression of these. Wang Xingyu wanted to recommend some good books to his daughter, but the phone in the living room rang.He said to his daughter: "Jingwen, read the book yourself, I'll answer the phone." He turned and left the study.

Wang Jingwen browsed the neatly stacked books on the bookshelf, stood on tiptoe, and went to get the architectural books on the fourth floor that her father least recommended.Strange to say, although Wang Jingwen looks soft and quiet, she is a bit boyish in her bones, and she is interested in things that boys should like, such as cars, military affairs, and architecture.My father thought she would not like to read books about architecture.It can be seen that he doesn't know her well enough. Wang Jingwen took out a thick "Architectural Detail Yearbook" from the middle of the fourth floor, flipped through a few pages, and felt that it was indeed too theoretical to understand, so she took the "History of European Architecture" next to it. When I got down, I was about to flip through it, but found an old book lying horizontally behind the two books.Compared with other books placed in an orderly and vertical manner, this book posted horizontally on the cabinet wall is obviously too irregular.Wang Jingwen wanted to help her father tidy up, so she took out the book that was lying horizontally inside.

The moment she took it out, Wang Jingwen was stunned.Only then did she realize that this was not a "book" at all, but an old photo album. Wang Jingwen was stunned for a few seconds, her heart beating faster.She did not forget what Dr. Nie had warned her many times—— "Wang Jingwen, you must remember that if you want to completely get rid of the psychological shadow and come out of the haze of fear, you must bid farewell to the 'past' forever! You must completely forget those things in the past! And, you must control Don’t explore and investigate by yourself, don’t recall and feel like opening old wounds—only in this way can you fully recover!”

Wang Jingwen has heard these words no less than one or two hundred times, and she has indeed done so.Dr. Nie said that it was because of her cooperation and persistence that her condition improved fundamentally, and she was able to return to her relatives to live a normal life—but, Wang Jingwen’s hand holding the photo album was trembling slightly—— She really wanted to see what she looked like in the past, and what her parents looked like before.The photo album in my hand is like Pandora's box, tempting me.She felt like she was possessed and couldn't help herself, she gently opened the cover of the album with her fingers

Just a glance, I just look at a picture - her heart is pounding. "Jingwen!" A loud shout made Wang Jingwen tremble all over, and the unopened photo album in her hand almost fell to the ground.She turned around in astonishment, and saw her father striding over, snatching the photo album from her hand, and asked sharply, "Where did you find this thing?" Wang Jingwen was completely shocked: "...I found it behind a few books on the fourth floor of the bookcase." Father glanced at the top of the bookcase, and then at Wang Jingwen, looking uneasy, he swallowed.Cautiously asked: "Have you...read it?"

Wang Jingwen shook her head lightly. The father asked again worriedly: "Really didn't watch it?" Wang Jingwen said, "I was just about to watch when you came in." Father stared at Wang Jingwen for a long time, and seemed to judge that she was not lying, so he breathed a sigh of relief: "Jingwen, the doctor told you...don't look at things that can bring back memories." "I know." Wang Jingwen said lightly. The father and daughter were silent for a while, and Wang Xingyu said, "What book do you want to read? May I recommend some for you?"

"Forget it, Dad. I don't want to read now, I want to go to the small garden at the door." Wang Jingwen said softly, looking a little restless. "Oh, that's fine, that's fine." Wang Jingwen turned and left, walked two steps, stopped again, turned her head and asked her father who was holding the photo album tightly: "Dad, is there anything important recorded in this photo album?" "Ah... what?" Wang Xingyu shook his head uncomfortably, "It's nothing important... just some ordinary life photos." "Then why are you so afraid of being seen by me? Even just a glance." "Jingwen, you know, what Dr. Nie said..." "I know, Dr. Nie told me, but what he said was to tell me not to recall the 'events' that happened in the past, and he didn't say that I should not even take a look at my previous appearance. If there are only some If it's me, or you and your mother's ordinary life photos taken in the past, then what does it matter if I take a look?" Wang Xingyu stared at his daughter dumbfounded, obviously speechless. Wang Jingwen stared at her father with an embarrassing expression, and couldn't help expressing her doubts directly: "Dad, are you telling me the truth? Are there really just ordinary photos in this album?" The muscles on Wang Xingyu's face twitched a few times, and he simply turned his back, without any explanation, just said forcefully: "Anyway, you just don't want to read this photo album." Wang Jingwen stayed for a few seconds, then walked out of the study silently. In the garden, Wang Jingwen gently fiddled with a peony flower, feeling ups and downs - that little incident just now aroused countless doubts and guesses in her heart. It was obvious that his father hadn't told him the truth, and the photo album was obviously hidden in such a hidden place on purpose.Wang Jingwen wondered why her father acted in such a panic when he saw that he got the photo album, and it could even be said to be a little frightened, as if seeing those photos would kill people.If it was just some ordinary photos, then the father's reaction was obviously too much.But——Wang Jingwen didn't understand, if it wasn't an ordinary photo, what kind of photo would it be? Suddenly, a terrible thought sent a chill down Wang Jingwen's spine and shuddered all over her body—could it be that what the photos in this album record is that it took her to be admitted to a mental hospital five years ago and Dr. Nie spent four years The 'that thing' that made her forget and told her never to remember again?