Chapter 19 Eighteen, one month later

(Jining Diary) "...The whole thing is like this. The reason why it is recorded now is because until today, some things finally came to a conclusion. This matter is finally coming to an end. Thinking about it now, I actually realized something was wrong from the very beginning.It's just that it didn't attract much attention at the time, and it was impossible to imagine that this little 'something wrong' would be the beginning of the series of horrible incidents that followed.In fact, there are too many things that are beyond my expectation—— I never thought that my grandma would be the "most powerful psychic who left long ago" in Xiaodeng's mouth (the village head's daughter): I also couldn't have imagined that my grandma would secretly use Doudou's paint Come to draw those spells, teach Doudou spells, and use the phone to hypnotize Doudou, and let him cast spells on me: and the most surprising thing to me is that I am the one who has inherited the psychic physique.

This is really ironic—I suspected that Doudou had a psychic physique before, and even my aunt herself, but I never thought that I, who have the same blood as them, would also have this possibility—unfortunately, that happened to be the case . Of course, now I understand everything.Why can I see my aunt's ghost in the mirror, on the bed, or in some other places-I just thought, why didn't I realize it at the time?Maybe I was really scared stupid. The reason for my aunt's suicide - I feel very sad.In the ignorant and backward village in my hometown, if anyone admits that he or she has AIDS, it seems to mean announcing to everyone that he (she) is a disorderly person, and will be spurned and criticized by everyone. despise.As everyone knows, in the way of AIDS transmission, sharing syringes is a big category.

Back then, Doudou's father secretly sold blood in order to supplement the family income.This is how he contracted the AIDS virus.When he realized that he was terminally ill, he chose to leave silently and go to a certain place to meet death.And a few years later.After my aunt learned that she was also infected with the virus, she chose the same path as her uncle—as if this was the only solution. I heard about these things from Xiao Fan later.Things in the world are so coincidental, some seemingly unrelated people or things are inextricably linked.In fact, I should have thought of something through her father's occupation a long time ago—Xiao Fan's father is a doctor in the hospital's AIDS department, and was recently promoted to director.From the medical records of the hospital, he found that a man in the ore village was diagnosed with AIDS a few years ago, but left without any treatment.From this, he thought that maybe he should find the man's family and test whether they were infected, so as to prevent the spread and spread of AIDS.

There is no doubt that that man is Doudou's father.But Xiao Fan's father went to the ore village to find his aunt, told her these things, and asked her to go to the hospital for a free examination. For Doudou, my aunt secretly went to the hospital for an examination without telling everyone, and the result was sad and cruel—she was really an HIV carrier.It's just that there are no symptoms for the time being (the incubation period of AIDS is sometimes as long as several years).My aunt couldn't accept this fact. She was afraid that she would infect her son who lived with him day and night. She was also afraid of seeing how she looked after getting sick, and she didn't know what people in the village would think of her when they knew about it.Therefore, she begged Xiao Fan's father not to tell this matter.Xiao Fan's father agreed to her, but he didn't expect that after a few days, my aunt would bring this secret to her grave.

Xiao Fan told me that her father mentioned this incident at home, and mentioned that there is a 7-year-old boy in the miserable family surnamed Xu in Miner Village. Although the possibility of infection is low, he must accept HIV testing.That afternoon, when Xiao Fan heard Doudou's name, he somewhat guessed it.After returning home, she got confirmation from her father.But Xiaofan's father repeatedly told him that this matter should not be told to anyone and that the patient's privacy must be respected.So a few days ago, Xiaofan heard me say on the phone that we already knew that my aunt committed suicide because she had some kind of terminal illness, and she didn't tell me all this.Because she realized—when his father came to us and asked Doudou to be tested for HIV, we would still know.

Regarding Doudou, I have to say that he is much stronger than we imagined.It has been twenty days since he learned the bad news that his mother had passed away.Doudou's mood and diet have basically returned to normal.It's just that he is not as lively as before, and has become taciturn.We know that the pain in his heart can only be soothed slowly with time and love. Grandma's grave is buried next to my aunt.Our whole family felt that this might be Grandma’s wish—when Grandma was alive, she always missed the mountain forest in her hometown, and now she can live there forever.And her youngest daughter kept her company.

Now, looking back at myself, there's one thing I don't understand - if I have a psychic quality, why didn't I (and my family) realize it for all these years?And how grandma saw it is even more of a mystery.Perhaps—I suppose—I can only see the ghosts of my own relatives.Forget it, I don't plan to get into this kind of thing.I will not tell anyone (including Xiao Fan) - I am still the original me. Tomorrow, we will go to the graves of grandma and aunt, and we have some news to tell them who are buried underground.It's 11:30pm and I have to rest.I think this must be the longest diary I have written in my life. "