Chapter 6 fortieth night obituary

Slightly different from my imagination, Guailong doesn't seem to be able to stay here for a long time. It can only be by Luo Lei's side during the six hours from ten o'clock in the morning to four o'clock in the afternoon.But I still hate it very much, because the only time I can spend with Luo Lei is these few hours a day. This year's Chinese New Year is really late. Since last night, I have been harassed by Li Duo non-stop. She called me almost every ten minutes to ask me about Ji Yan.I also took the trouble to explain to her that her elder brother Ji was called away. Of course, I am definitely not a fool, I would not tell her that it was a beautiful girl who called Ji Yan away.

"Okay, okay, how many times do you want me to say it?" I finally got a little angry. The boss only gave me the materials in the afternoon, and I had to work overtime at night, and the manuscripts on hand were not finished.There was a sudden silence on the other end of the phone, I realized that I was a little too much, and just about to apologize to her, Li Duo said suddenly. "I want to bother you from time to time, but I suddenly feel that I am so lonely that I am afraid. All my classmates have gone home for the New Year, and I am the only one in the dormitory." After finishing speaking, the phone hung up.Dudu's blind voice made me a little sluggish. I really didn't expect the crazy girl on weekdays to be like this. Maybe I really didn't consider her feelings. To me, Ji Yan is just a good friend, but to her For him, Ji Yan is everything.

I am no longer busy answering the phone, and my work speed is a bit faster. I have been busy all night, and finally finished the special article. I just remembered that it was Valentine’s Day when I started working on the special topic. They are all leaders, all of them are serious, and few of them say they want to buy gifts for their wives. It seems that Valentine’s Day is something for young people. Contrary to the operating system, when the lover is upgraded to a wife, most of the software and hardware are updated instead. You are not as diligent as before. Of course, you can also choose to use pirated versions, which are cheap and convenient.

Naturally, I won't let go of such a good opportunity. When I get up tomorrow morning, I'll make an appointment with Luo Lei. In my impression, the weather on Valentine’s Day is particularly good every year, and this year is no exception. I just walked downstairs and found that foreign festivals are more popular than local festivals these days.Even the man who sells steamed stuffed buns at the door keeps pace with the times, claiming that today he only sells even-numbered steamed stuffed buns, so he calls it lovers’ buns.Although it was morning, there were already many couples holding hands and meeting each other on the street, their faces full of satisfaction and happiness.It seems that I am afraid that others will not know that they are a couple, just like learning from Lei Feng, I am afraid that others will not know that I am a living Lei Feng.Of course, I can occasionally see some big spoilers, such as a pair of two old men who clasped their fingers in black coats with the "Death to Death" printed on the back passing by me just now.

"Here is an obituary, please find a place to post it on the sixth page." Xiao Liu, who was in charge of the advertisement, threw me a thin piece of paper, and I thought that I would sleep so long and die on Valentine's Day. This face is so familiar. Although it is a black and white photo, it can still be seen that he is a handsome person. Generally we say that girls are beautiful, but it seems inappropriate for men to describe them as delicate, but this person in front of him is very suitable, thin but not long Face, wide but not wide forehead, slender eyebrows, eyes can't see clearly because it is blocked by a pair of rimless glasses, but it is even more bookish, and the tight and thin lips make people think that although he is thin But very stubborn.

But how should I put it, this kind of person is the type who can make girls feel close but can't fall in love with him. "Huo Siyuan." I read the name softly, and it became more and more familiar, but memory is just like this, like a naughty child, the more he wants to find it, the more he plays hide-and-seek with you. But the appearance of this man is always dangling in front of my eyes. I found a place to put his photo on the sixth page. "Only 22 years old, so young." I sighed, Huo Siyuan is the kind of person who looks very sad, even when taking pictures, he frowns tightly.

Obituaries generally don't publish photos, but Xiao Liu said that the person there specifically asked to post photos. Xiao Liu reminded him that the price would be higher, but the person didn't care at all. Huo Siyuan's cause of death stated that he committed suicide by cutting his wrists, but there were very few other materials mentioned, only a few pens. I didn't pay attention after I took it to proofread, and the morning time passed quickly.When I was about to get off work, the boss asked me to go to the reference room, because the new year was approaching, so the materials there needed to be moved.I rolled up my sleeves and started to rummaging through the old newspapers. They were still in good condition, not moldy, but dust was inevitable.

I suddenly found a newspaper, a newspaper from February 14 last year. I finally understood why I was vaguely familiar with Huo Siyuan's appearance.In last year's newspaper, his photo was also published, no, it is also an obituary to be correct.I quickly dug it out, and sure enough, it was indeed him, the cause of death was poisoning, and he was also 22 years old. Didn’t someone say that there is only one life, so can someone die continuously? It's a prank, but this person is boring enough, he probably hates this Huo Siyuan very much.I threw the newspaper away, and suddenly a thought flashed through my mind.

There's only one way to prove it's a prank. Discussed with the colleague who sorted out the materials, I fooled him out at the cost of sorting out alone, and then took out all the newspapers I could find here, the earliest was twelve years ago. Twelve newspapers were laid out in front of me.Now I covered my mouth and even forgot to take pictures of the dust on my clothes.These are the newspapers on the fourteenth of February every year.The same obituary was published above.Looking at those black and white photos, my mind was blown.There is no difference in these obituaries except the cause of death is different each time. In the past twelve years, this man named Huo Siyuan has actually used twelve ways to commit suicide, jumping from a building, taking poison, cutting his wrists, hanging himself, and swallowing a gun.After I regained my senses a little, I rolled up all twelve newspapers.

"If it's a prank, it's too much." I looked at the materials, but I also had the urge to investigate clearly. The driving force of curiosity is amazing. I seem to have caught Ji Yan’s problem too. It seems that I must first find the person who came here to post the obituary, but I learned from Xiao Liu that the person wrapped himself up like Jiaxing meat dumplings, and also wore sunglasses and a mask. Why? Recognize what it looks like.I thought to myself that it will have to wait until Valentine's Day next year. I can always find some clues. I thought about it secretly. I wanted to go to Yue Luolei to go to the pedestrian street at night. It seems that I have plenty of time. Why don't I go and find out what's going on.

I went to check the major hospitals or funeral associations, and also looked for some acquaintances who have done some related things, but I found that there was no one named Huo Siyuan among the people who died recently, including the past few years. Is it really a joke?But a high school classmate of mine who was a film police officer suddenly remembered something after listening to the narration on the phone, but he said that it was difficult to speak on the phone, so I had to go to his area... "Before I came here, I heard that there was a strange person in our district." He tapped his index finger on the yellow wooden table, and most of the people went out. Because he lived relatively close, he was left on duty. This kid was in high school I often pretend to be a grandson, but I didn't expect to start pretending as soon as I put on the big cap.After typing a few haha, he began to speak formally. "At that time, I was just a stupid little policeman, just like my grandson, following behind those old fritters. They taught me that the merchant was a big family, and that the store had a good background. You can speak loudly about those people. Yelling, you have to deal with those people with a good voice." He lit a cigarette triumphantly, and I saw that it was still a hard China. With his salary, he could afford it there, and it was probably given by someone else. This administrative area belongs to the bustling area of ​​the city. Of course, they are also bullish along with their worth.I endured it and reminded him to speak quickly. The classmate glanced at me unhappily, coughed, and spit out a mouthful of thick phlegm. "However, after listening to so many teachings, one person surprised me the most, that guy named Huo Siyuan." His voice trembled slightly.The cigarette ash in his hand fell onto the clean and shiny designer leather shoes. "Oh? Then he didn't die?" I asked curiously, and my classmate also looked at me in surprise, consciously making a slip of the tongue, and didn't say anything more. Fortunately, this guy is quite nervous, so he didn't think much about it. "Almost all the policemen pointed to the head of a guy named Huo Siyuan and said, don't provoke him, and don't talk to him, although he doesn't talk to people most of the time, and his home is also very strange, small It is a very simple house, it is said that it is quite old. He has lived here for a long time, and he always packs himself up tightly, even in summer, he also wears a hat and sunglasses, making himself look like a celebrity. All the old policemen here know that Huo Siyuan claims to be a writer, a writer and a writer, but in fact he just works at home and writes every day, but he has never let go of a fart in newspapers and magazines, let alone a book, but it is said that he is very I committed suicide a few years ago, and after being rescued, my whole person has changed like that. Literati love to speculate and fantasize about beautiful love, but no matter how beautiful they are, girls still have to eat, so it’s not as good as my buddy, how happy I am now.” Seeing that he was getting excited, I quickly stopped him. "Come on, look at how promising you are. Now you are content with your wife and children on the bed. Seeing what you are doing, I don't want to talk about it with you. Tell me the address of that person." The classmate hurriedly copied Huo Siyuan's address to me. , but before leaving, I still said something. "You'd better not go. My grandpa used to be a feng shui practitioner. I know a thing or two. That kid has weird things every February. I can smell him dying with a smell when I see him from afar. Qi." After speaking, he flashed into the room mysteriously.I froze for a moment, and cursed inwardly, since I am a living person, I am afraid of being killed. According to the address, I found Huo Siyuan's house, it was really dilapidated, the whole house looked full of holes from the outside, it's really strange that people can still live in it. Maybe it's not a human being? I suddenly shivered, wondering why such an idea came up.But soon I didn't think much about it, I just stepped forward, knocked on the door, and shouted Huo Siyuan's name, but it was strange, the door opened by itself, and no one answered. I raised my legs and walked in. The room was full of strange smell, but it was very familiar, because my university dormitory had that smell for four years, and it was stronger than here.The room is not small, but there are too many sundries and it is extremely crowded. On the contrary, there is no place to stand. I carefully avoid those clothes and beer cans. It seems that the owner here likes to drink very much.I opened the doors and windows, the air convection, much more comfortable. There is a desk in front, which is probably the only thing that is pleasing to the eye here.The table is not big, about one meter long, it is put down close to the wall, and there are a pile of books neatly stacked on it, all of which are novels, both ancient and modern, Chinese and foreign, and of course there are some that I like more, like, etc, and there are many ghosts and ghosts Zhi, it seems that this man has hunted a lot. There is still a stack of manuscripts on the table, but he has not started to write. Although the desk lamp next to him has been wiped very clean, the blackened bulb and the almost broken orange lampshade indicate that it is working. Some years. "It's nothing special." I looked around. It was a typical bachelor's residence. There was a kitchen and toilet inside, but the door was not locked when no one was around. But after thinking about it, he had nothing to steal here, except for the almost It's an old, dusty 21-inch TV and VCR.In addition, the security of the community here has a good reputation, and it is not impossible to not close the door at night... But I found something. In the corner of the single bed, the other party was wearing a black coat, sunglasses, hat, and a complete set of underwear and shoes.Could it be that he was the one who went to the newspaper to publish the obituary just now? Someone actually posted an obituary for himself?Absurd, but the seeming absurdity was later confirmed, and I found the proof of our newspaper in my coat pocket. However, I soon realized that my behavior had violated the law, and I turned over other people's personal belongings in a moment of urgency.Just as I was about to leave the room, I found some videotapes under the TV.I took one out of curiosity. There were line labels taped to the side of the tape, which I read aloud. "February 14, 1999" I was startled, and quickly took a look at the other videos. Sure enough, all the video tapes were dated, from February 14 twelve years ago to today! Let's see.My hand holding the videotape involuntarily reached out to the machine. The footage is very dark, but strange how he filmed it, I'm holding today's tape.In the camera, I finally saw Huo Siyuan. He is much thinner and darker than in the photo, his hair is short and sparse, like grass that has been gnawed by sheep.Logically speaking, he should be a young man, but he looks very old. There are layers of dark circles around his eyes, and his half-closed eyes are looking at the camera dully. "It's Valentine's Day again, and this year is the thirteenth. How on earth are you going to forgive me?" He spoke, revealing a row of neat but yellow and blackened teeth.The background seems to be his home, and he seems to be sitting in front of the camera with his upper body naked. Huo Siyuan's voice is hoarse, and he seems to have cried before, with tear stains on his cheeks. Going down, blood gushed out all at once.Immediately afterwards, he stopped talking, closed his lips, his face gradually turned pale, and then lay down.I carefully watched the time of the tape. 13:40. I looked at my watch, it was 2:30 in the afternoon, that is to say, he committed suicide here almost an hour ago, I looked at the ground, there seemed to be traces of being wiped, and in the toilet, I also found a mop with blood on it . Since he committed suicide, who packed up his things?And if he took it himself, I didn't find the camera either.As soon as I thought of this, the tape suddenly ended, followed by a snowflake. I wanted to take it out to watch another tape, but it got stuck. All the windows and doors that were open were closed.I tried to open it, but it was in vain. It seems that I am locked here. The video tape made a creaking sound, and then, a picture appeared on the screen that was originally covered with snowflakes. The background was still Huo Siyuan's home, but it was different from the previous one. I saw a man, standing by the door, a man I knew so well because it was me. Whether it's shaking hands or jumping, the people in the picture are doing the same movements. I saw that the time in the video tape is exactly the current time - 2:40. But I don't see the camera. pinhole?Or miniature?I saw that the line of the lens seemed to be on the right side, and I walked towards it, and I became bigger and bigger on the screen, and sure enough, the lens was on the right. On the right is a pile of clothes, a pile of Huo Siyuan's changed clothes.I shake the clothes off, but there's nothing inside, and the picture on the TV changes again. I started to rotate, no, it’s better to say that the so-called camera started to rotate, and I had a look of doubt and fear in the picture, and I could see my astonishment and fear from above. It was just me in the room, and the sound of the VCR crunching the tape. Finally, the picture stopped and I could see it clearly. The camera was facing me, and it was so close that I could even see the pores on my face.Because it was too close, my head had already started to twist a little, as if it was in a distorting mirror, but I didn't have the mood to laugh.Because there is nothing but air in front of me, I can't see anything.Trying to touch it with your hands was in vain. "What the hell are you?" I yelled back, but the only answer was my own voice.The picture on the TV began to turn again, it seemed to be eyes that I couldn't see.It went around my back, and no matter how I turned around, it seemed to be stuck, and the picture on the TV was always my neck and shoulders. It suddenly stopped moving, and I froze. Minutes passed, but it seemed like hours. There was a strong manly sigh from the speakers in the TV.I've heard that sound before. It's the sound that people who smoke for a long time cause their throats to be hoarse. I stared at the TV, and in the picture, I saw something on my shoulder. It's a nail. It was indeed a piece of nail. I thought I was wrong, and I got close to the TV, but what I saw was more than just a piece of nail. Now it's a finger, a middle finger to be precise. When I looked back, there was really half of my middle finger on my shoulder. Immediately afterwards, there seemed to be a person slowly emerging from the water in the air.Or it is like a painter holding a pen and painting in the air, and the speed is extremely fast. Now I can see a complete arm, and judging from the muscles, I judge it to be a male arm. Then shoulders, neck, pecs, abs, thighs, and finally the whole body. It’s amazing, almost every part is fast-forward, showing the white bone marrow, then the gray-white backbone, followed by nerves, blood, fat, skin, as if a production process, just for a moment, as if in the blink of an eye, a A big living person appeared out of thin air in front of me.But I didn't blink, and even forgot my fear. What could be more surprising and exciting than seeing the process of the Creator creating human beings? The man's left hand was on my shoulder, his head was lowered, and he was panting heavily. He was not wearing any clothes, but I saw an obvious scar on my left wrist on my shoulder. I lifted him up and sat on the bed.Sure enough, this person was Huo Siyuan.But he was very weak, and seemed to be struggling even to breathe. I filled him with a glass of water behind him, but he didn't even look at me. He picked up the glass and drank it all.After drinking, he threw the cup on the bed and lay down again.I went on to pour water for him.After drinking four cups like this, he finally spoke. "I saw you when you first came in." He raised his eyelids and stared at me. "It's just that I just died, and you can't see me." "Dead?" I asked him in surprise. Huo Siyuan was still very weak and gasped for breath when he spoke quickly. He put on a coat casually. After all, it is not elegant to talk to people naked, and we are not poets. "Yes, although I will return to this world soon, from the first time I committed suicide to now, I can say that I have died thirteen times." His expression was very relaxed, as if he was talking about my birthday Average frequency.Seeing that I was still confused, Huo Siyuan suddenly laughed at himself. "Are you a reporter?" He suddenly asked, and I nodded. "I've read your article. You are a person who believes in ghosts and gods. So, you should be interested in my story." Since he was willing to tell me, it was natural to wish for it. I pulled a stool and sat facing him. down. "A person has only one life, this is what most, or the vast majority of people think, and I thought so fourteen years ago. As a poor, tinkling writer, I can only rely on my family's meager savings to make ends meet, and maintain my dream that is illusory in the eyes of others. It's just that I didn't expect that I would meet a girl whose name I don't want to mention again.Of course the first days are fun, having a beautiful girl by your side to encourage you, what better support than that? But her parents strongly opposed it, no wonder, there is no parent in the world who intends to marry his daughter to such a waste like me, saying that he wants to give her happiness, but this is just self-deception. "Huo Siyuan grinned at this point and shook his head. "After a long period of torture, we even eloped together, don't laugh when you say it, it's really the same plot as those cheesy third-rate movies, but it's all in vain. That girl is a person with a weak appearance but a very strong personality or a bit extreme. "Let's commit suicide and die together, just like the lovers in the story, I believe that people still have souls after death!" She hugged me the night before Valentine's Day, I was shocked by her words at the time, carefully watching Looking at her face, I saw that she was not joking. I'm not a strong man, and years of frustration and contempt from others crushed what little self-esteem I had, but now that she's made up her mind, I have nothing to say.So we made an appointment to commit suicide by jumping off the building at 1:40 p.m. on Valentine's Day. At that time, we studied many ways. She insisted on jumping off the building, saying that she died quickly, without pain, and that the death process was beautiful and gorgeous. I agreed. Instead of choosing a building, we went to a relatively remote abandoned factory.The two climbed up the tall chimney. But when I really stood on it, I was afraid. For the first time in my life, I had the fear of death. "Let's dance." She straightened her collar, as beautiful as ever, but now I feel uncomfortable looking at her. "We might as well think of other ways. We don't necessarily have to commit suicide." I endured it for a long time, and finally said it.She was expressionless after listening, and finally smiled. "You'll regret it." After saying that, she jumped off in front of me.After a few seconds.I heard a dull loud bang.It disappeared in an instant in the empty factory building.I sat down on my legs involuntarily, and cried all afternoon on it, and didn't come down until it was dark. "Huo Siyuan's eyes turned red again, I sympathize with him very much, suicide does require a lot of courage, and at this time, betraying the person he loves the most, in fact, he is also very painful. Huo Siyuan's tone suddenly changed, high-pitched and hoarse, his face became bloodshot, and his eye sockets were streaked with blood. "But when I got down the chimney, there was no dead body at all. Yes, there was only a pool of blood, but no dead body!" I was stunned when I heard that. Could someone survive a fall from a height of tens of meters?Even if you don't die, can you still have the strength to leave? Huo Siyuan went on to say that since that incident, he has had nightmares every day. In the dream, his ex-girlfriend just looked at him, but didn't speak, and looked at him with a mocking smile.The girlfriend's family never came to look for her again, but it was rumored that she was missing, but only Huo Siyuan knew the real situation. Finally, a year later, Huo Siyuan couldn't bear this kind of torture, and he also chose to commit suicide, but he took poison. "I poured a pack of rat poison into my mouth." Huo Siyuan said jokingly. "Then within a few minutes my stomach started cramping and then I was rolling and I had a very violent gag sensation. Then there was a convulsion, a violent convulsion, and I knew the toxicity was on, but I didn't call, I really wanted to die , maybe I can still see her and say I'm sorry. Then my consciousness blurred and I fell on the bed. But when I woke up I was still at home and there were multiple videotapes on the table.I didn't know where it came from, so I put the tape on to watch. You guessed it, that's my suicide tape.I don't even know who took it myself.But I understand that I should indeed be dead.I rushed to the mirror to see it. I only have half of my body, and the other half is recovering at a high speed, as if I was invisible before. " I'm afraid that's exactly what I saw a few minutes ago.Huo Siyuan continued. "I realized that I should be dead, but I was brought back to life by some power, and every time I died, the body that I didn't have would slowly disappear, but when I regained my body, there was a period of time that was invisible to the naked eye. The process of the body. And after getting the body, I will be as weak as a newborn baby, as you saw just now, that’s it. The tape ended suddenly, and then my girlfriend's face appeared on it, very white and beautiful.But I can't speak. "Are you happy? It feels good to be reborn, but you will get bored in the future. I will not forgive you. Although I am happy now, you are just a liar in my heart. Remember, every Valentine's Day you You will die again, and then come back to life again, you are only 22 years old forever, you can only live on the day when you and I decide to commit suicide, I want you to live in pain." After she finished speaking, she disappeared. Huo Siyuan let out a long sigh of relief. He stopped talking. After a long time, he spoke again. "Now, you all know, I wiped the blood on the ground, I saw you walk into the house, but I couldn't call you, I kept the videotape of suicide every year. Because I found that my eyes and the The video recorder has a weird connection, so instead of filming, I just sit in front of a mirror. So every year before Valentine’s Day, I go to the newspaper to publish my own obituary, which is really funny.” He pointed to the wall. A mirror, sure enough, if you look carefully, it is really a very polished mirror, about the height of a person. "Why do you publish the obituary in the newspaper every year?" "It's very simple, she may be, and she is obviously still in this world. Every Valentine's Day, she is next to me, playing with me like watching a mouse in a cage. So I published the obituary and wanted to beg her forgiveness." "Forgive what?" I asked.Huo Siyuan stood up abruptly, walked to the window and turned around, pointing to his chest. "Forgive my betrayal, so that I can really die, because this kind of torture is too painful, and every dying experience is real, and one death is enough, but I have died thirteen times, and I have to endure endless Restless self-blame and guilt, so I begged her to let me die." Huo Siyuan said it very easily, as if talking about the life and death of others, it was the first time I saw someone want to die so much. "Is there no way to solve it? For example, this is just a spell. I know a friend who may be able to help you." I also stood up and gave him an idea.Huo Siyuan held out his hand in refusal. "Do you think I didn't think of a way? I have tried everything in ancient and modern times, and there is nothing at all. Later, a Taoist priest said that it was a soul curse. Many people like my girlfriend committed suicide with dissatisfaction and resentment before dying, but Only she didn’t die, and I don’t know what she is. Anyway, she who didn’t die after committing suicide hated me to the bone. What could be stronger than cursing a person with her own soul? Unless she is willing to forgive me , otherwise there is no way, year after year, I will commit suicide in various ways, die, and then come back to this world again like a baby. Isn’t it interesting?” Huo Siyuan laughed, at first he was reluctant Then he actually laughed out loud, but in the end he knelt down on the ground and cried bitterly.I don't know how to comfort him.The two sat in the room for a few minutes.After crying, he seemed to relax a bit.And tell me to let me go, I need to be quiet.I had to get out of that room. As I walked down the aisle, I saw the girls.Tall and thin, but with very long and beautiful hair, but there is a big scar on his forehead, but it is covered by the hair, so it doesn't hurt too much. She saw me, looked at me and smiled, and that smile made me shudder. "Did you come from him?" The girl suddenly asked thoughtlessly, and I hummed unconsciously. "Today is Valentine's Day. Do you have any chocolates for your girlfriend?" The girl asked with a smile, and I shook my head.She took something out of her pocket. "Here, give this to her, the girl won't be happy without a gift." I took it, and it was a hazelnut chocolate.I was about to say thank you, but the girl looked up and disappeared. I went back to the newspaper office and happened to meet Luo Lei. "Here." I gave her the chocolate, Luo Lei was pleasantly surprised, and happily accepted it. She looked at the chocolate. "Oh? It's chocolate hazelnuts." I asked her if there was something wrong, but she just ate the chocolate and ran away without answering. I also checked it strangely. It turns out that hazelnut chocolate represents loyalty. Loyalty? I raised my head, and I suddenly thought of Huo Siyuan. On Valentine's Day next year, I don't know if he will come to the newspaper to publish his obituary.