When I woke up in the morning, I found that Lin Siping and Ji Yan were still sound asleep, but I still had to go to work. I guess the two of them will have a good chat in the next few days, but I don’t have so much time to participate. After all, I still Keep your job. After washing up, I just returned to the newspaper office and found that everyone was discussing the recent suicides of young students.I also looked at it, and it seems that this year's college students committed suicide by jumping off the building, just like mine disasters and medical accidents. Everyone is not surprised, but these few cases are still a pity, most of them are due to the pressure of job hunting.Just about to prepare for a day's work, I unexpectedly received a call from Tao Tao.

As one of the few friends in the university, I am very happy to hear from him. He is a year younger than me, and both belong to the same department. The two met because they both like adventure and strange stories, but since I graduated Haven't seen him either.But this time, he told me he was in the hospital. "Come on quickly, I am anxious to tell you my experience after graduation, I am lucky that I am not dead." Listening to his thoughtless sentence, I was very surprised, but I told him that even if I want to go there After noon, he readily agreed.The boring work in the morning ended quickly, and I rushed to the hospital Tao Tao told me according to the address.

He was in the orthopedics department. When I saw him, I could hardly recognize him. He was wrapped up like a mummy, and his left leg was still in a plaster cast and was hung up.He was trying to suck a bottle of milk and he was very happy to see me. It was Tao Tao’s parents who greeted him. They met him several times in college. They seemed to be much older. At Tao Tao’s request, his parents backed out.He lived in a single room, so it was just the two of us. Made a joke of him, and the two started talking. "What happened? Hit by a car?" I moved a stool and sat on the bed. "Look at this first." Tao Tao threw a dozen newspapers to me.I looked around casually, and the headlines were almost the same. "A graduate student jumped to his death from the fourth floor." "A student from a famous university jumped to his death due to excessive pressure." And so on.I don't want to read more about these, after all, I have also experienced those very painful years after graduation.

"Do you know how I was injured?" Tao Tao suddenly interrupted my train of thought.I looked at him again and said in surprise: "Are you too?" Tao Tao nodded. "I also jumped from the fourth floor and made it like this, but my life was fatal, only the ribs and leg bones were broken. However, the colleague who also jumped from the fourth floor a month before I jumped was not as lucky as me As Tao Tao said, looking out of the balcony, I suddenly realized that he was no longer the immature kid who chased me after me in college to ask about ghosts and monsters, maybe pain can make boys mature faster, I Almost don't know him anymore.Tao Tao shaved off his long flowing hair and replaced it with a crew cut. His nose could be seen to have been broken, there were scars on the corners of his mouth, and there were many scratches on his face, although he said it so easily , but it is conceivable how badly he was injured at that time.

"Shortly after my senior graduated, I started looking for a job. However, it was not as easy as I imagined. In our third-rate colleges, almost no one even read your resume. The so-called more than 90% Employment is all made up by the school. Almost half of the people who find jobs in the class are not in their original majors at all, or they ask someone to find a relationship. I planned to take the postgraduate entrance examination, so I was delayed. As a result, I didn’t pass the postgraduate entrance examination, and I didn’t find a job. It was successful, so I decided to go south to try my luck." Tao Tao spoke slowly when he said this, but his eyes remained dull.I didn't feel comfortable hearing it, he was almost walking the same path I did a year ago, if it wasn't for my parents putting on an old face, I wouldn't have found a career that had nothing to do with my major.

"Naturally it didn't go well at the beginning. I was so devastated that I didn't dare to go out, and I didn't dare to answer the phone calls from my friends and classmates. Senior, you know that I have a weird temper and a so-called self-esteem that is very out of touch with the world. I kept waiting for the news. Hanging out on the Internet. During the period, I applied for a few times and met a few scammers. Until one night, I accidentally saw a job offer on the Internet. I didn't see the job offer on the official website, but I blindly surfed the Internet and posted in some forums, putting my information like a missing person advertisement.Then I got an email in my mailbox.The other party said that there was a vacancy for a position, and he hoped that I would try it, and attached a detailed company address, and said that he was looking for a candidate named Liu.I looked at the requirements and treatment, and it was almost tailor-made for me.I immediately tried to follow his email address back, but the system said it couldn't find it.

You know, when a person is in despair, even if it is a trap, you will hope to step on it.I made up my mind, in short, what kind of training do I have to pay frequently, and I will leave when I sign up. After all, I have suffered several losses. There is more work, because they also count on us to get food money. The next day, I came to that company with my resume and materials. To my surprise, things went surprisingly smoothly. The examiner surnamed Liu agreed without asking any questions, and asked me to talk to him immediately. Just go to the office.As if in a dream, I even foolishly asked him why he agreed so easily.The examiner suddenly turned his head and smiled, his bald head, even his eyebrows were almost gone, and the corner of his mouth was cracked up, like a coconut that had been smashed open.I saw his teeth were red.

"The company is in urgent need of people, otherwise it would not be so easy. Your work is very important." After finishing speaking, he straightened his suit with his hands, ignored me, and led me to the office.The company is not bad, although it is not big, but it looks very clean. I saw some staff on the road, all dressed very neatly, with anxious faces, as if very busy.I nodded and said hello one by one, but they ignored me.But they all looked at me with weird eyes, as if they had a little bit of sympathy. "Mr. Liu, that's the only one." A girl who looked not much older than me came over. She was not very beautiful, but she had a good temperament, fair skin, and looked very capable.Her long hair was tied behind her head, she was wearing an orange professional suit, and she was holding a folder in her hand. I saw a beautiful heart-shaped silver necklace hanging on her fair neck.

"Well, it's him." The examiner surnamed Liu turned out to have a high status here, and I was secretly happy, because I didn't expect that the person who received such a pawn as myself was a high-ranking official. The girl didn't say anything, but just looked me up and down, "Mr. Liu, Xiao Zhang and I will go to the customer's place, it may take a few days." This Mr. Liu responded, and I saw the girl walk by me while shaking his head.I was surprised by her reaction, but I didn't think much about it, I just followed Mr. Liu closely.He took me to a small room on the fourth floor, which was only a few square meters.

"You only need to be responsible for the maintenance of the computer here, and help to clean it. The company dormitory is temporarily tense, so you feel wronged to live here." Although I am a little disappointed, it is always a starting point. For me, no matter how low the starting point is I have to go, it would be nice to have a salary, not to mention that I heard that there are zero wages. "I'm not tired from work, just remember to wait for everyone to get off work every day, and check whether the computers are turned off." When I heard that, this job is actually a so-called cleaner.If something goes wrong with the computer, I can't even handle it at a half-baked level.Is there any way, the four years of university are all the basics, it is better to learn the crafts in a junior college.Still, I said yes, and got to work right away.The office building here looks very uncomfortable from the front, and I always have a feeling of depression.

But something went wrong on the first night. That day I was eating instant noodles outside my room. This building has 16 floors, but the lower six floors have balconies, so I was lying on the balcony eating noodles while curiously looking at the scenery outside. .The cafeteria is not open to me because I only work part-time.A pack of noodles with more than one yuan is the most affordable. Anyway, I didn’t eat less when I was in college. Some people have left work one after another, returning in twos and threes, the sky has already dimmed, I don’t know why, I always feel that the sun is very red, and the whole sky is also very red, I rubbed my eyes, just about to throw the box away, But I saw a big shadow on the balcony, and it was expanding rapidly. Almost at the same time, I saw a person falling down quickly.I saw him as he passed the balcony.We are only less than ten centimeters apart, but soon he and I will be in two worlds.That moment seemed to freeze, and I believe he saw me too, because I saw him smile.It took less than a second for his body to cross the balcony, but I still saw his face because of his relatively tall stature. He is very handsome, even though it is just a casual glance of the eyes, I can still see clearly, and there is not much expression, on the contrary, he is very calm.Then there was a loud muffled sound.Immediately there was a scream downstairs.I also rushed downstairs quickly.The man was already dead, and I was stunned by the tragedy for a long time. This was the first time I saw a dead person with my own eyes, especially so suddenly and close. That man has the same surname as mine, Tao Yanbing, from the sales department. The sales department is on the seventh floor. He opened the window and jumped out. At that time, his colleague was not far away. He said that he was sitting there silently walking away. Go to the window, then open it and jump down.Tao Yanbing had no abnormalities during his lifetime. He had the best performance and popularity. It is said that he is still raising money to get married.I suddenly felt that life is so fragile, maybe he also had a reason for his suicide, who knows, everyone wears a mask, and only you know whether you are crying or laughing under the mask. The incident passed quickly, and everyone seemed to act as if this incident had never happened.I originally thought that there would be at least a discussion, but what they talked about most was the recent property prices, car prices, or the recent sharp drop in stocks, as if the person who committed suicide a few days ago was not here at all.Even the aunt I meet here who sends letters every day, a gossip woman who loves to talk to me about things, is too lazy to talk to people, or is this thing too common?The police came, and it seemed to be a suicide diagnosis. Everyone around him avoided him. The police even wanted to find someone to know Tao Yanbing's recent situation, but they didn't know.Asked that they always shook their hands and heads, then pushed the gold-rimmed glasses on the bridge of their noses and straight suits and went to work.And I'm on the sidelines packing things up and helping them out with some seemingly complicated but really idiot-killing computer problems.Time flies, I have been working there for almost a month, and I have met Liu Zong twice in a month, he praised me, but then quickly said that due to the company's recent financial constraints, the original several hundred yuan I can only give me half of the salary first, but he comforted me by saying that after the three-month trial period is over, the contract will be signed and the salary will increase. I am naturally happy. Although it is very hard every day, I still have some hope. On the day Tao Yanbing jumped from in front of me for a whole month, I waited for them all to leave as usual and started to check and clean the computer.Because it happened that someone in the company dismantled some computer accessories including memory sticks, hard disks, etc., and replaced them for their own use, so all the chassis were locked. thing.Go all the way to the seventh floor.It was already dark when we reached the seventh floor, and I didn't want to turn on the lights, so I used my own flashlight to illuminate.Help pick up the scraps of paper on the ground.And check that all power and windows are turned off.When I was about to leave the office, it suddenly occurred to me that Tao Yanbing's used computer seemed to have not been moved, and his desk had also remained there.I was curious and wanted to check it out.The table was tidied up, and there was nothing left in the drawers.I flipped through it casually, and used a few pieces of paper, on which was written, Rui, I love you.All are this sentence.I put the note back bored.Looking at his computer, it seemed that only this one was unlocked. I don't know what I was thinking, but I actually wanted to remove the hard disk of his computer.Because I suddenly became very curious about this person with the same surname as me.Since the tools are hard to find, I can barely use the folding scissors I carry with me.While biting the flashlight with my teeth, I took it apart forcefully. Now that I think about it, it is really stupid. If others see it, they will think I am a thief.After a lot of trouble, I removed the hard drive.And get the job done quickly.I don’t have a computer myself, so I had to take it from a friend who often hangs around outside, but the thieves here are very powerful, so he also asked me to help him look after the house at the cost of using the computer for free. When I went there with the hard drive, he Just about to go out, he said hello twice, and naturally fell asleep and met the pillow.I can't wait to connect the hard drive and start the computer.There are not many things in it, some documents and some reports.In addition, I saw some articles about stocks, it seems that he is speculating in stocks.I am not very interested in these things, but I saw a video file titled Lou.I opened it curiously.The picture is very dark, after which there will be violent shaking.It looks like it was taken with a hand-held camera.It is daytime in the picture, but it should be dusk, and the picture is light red.Just opposite this and that office building.The voice next to it was very clear, a very magnetic voice. "Rui, I might have jumped off that building when you saw this. I really want to marry you, really, maybe we are going to tell a lot of lies in sales, but this is definitely not a lie. But I can't help it , I can only choose to die, maybe you will suffer, but it is better than you and I suffer for a lifetime, you are so good, you should be able to find a better man. It is ridiculous, I have been working hard in this building, even my own Life also ends here. Just like that Möbius strip, we think we can get out like ants, but we never get out of this building.” The sound ended, and the camera slowly turned around.It was really him. Although I had only seen that face a few times, it left a deep impression on me.The power of technology is amazing. People who have been dead for many days feel alive in the 19-inch monitor.And his face was the same as the one I saw that day, handsome, but expressionless, as if dead. The camera shakes a lot afterwards, but I keep watching until the end, but I always feel that there is something wrong in the picture.So it plays over and over again.Sure enough, when I saw the camera turn around, it was when Tao Yanbing took a selfie with his back to the office building.In the later picture, I saw something strange, although it was only a flash, but I was sure I saw it.So I immediately intercepted the picture, and then slowly zoomed in with tools. Although it was not very clear, I still saw it.In the camera, the seventh floor of the office building on the back, I counted, it happened that the window he jumped from the next day was opened, and there was a person standing there.That person was none other than Tao Yanbing himself!Faced with this situation, I can only say that I was wrong, but the problem is that his face is too easy to recognize. "Tao Tao looked at me again when he said this. I can only say that I have heard that when people are about to die, they may see two selves, which is often said to be out of the body. Tao Tao also said, That's what I thought at the time. "After I copied the video and saved it, I put the hard disk back in that night. But lying in the room of a few square meters, Tao Yanbing's face appeared when I closed my eyes. This kind of life lasted for many days, and even I have had a nervous breakdown for a long time. Whenever I stand downstairs and look at the building, I always seem to feel that sense of bondage that I can’t escape. It’s very depressing to stay in the building for a long time. After more than two month, my probationary period expired, and Mr. Liu found me. I am naturally very happy, because after all, I will soon become a regular employee here. I can only receive half of the salary each time in the first three months, and I have to deduct The accommodation expenses are basically maintained by eating noodles. The instant noodles I have fed for several months have made me as thin as noodles. Mr. Liu is still the same, grinning and smiling to the side, but last time the red teeth have disappeared. Turned black and chewed hard. 'Little Tao, you have performed well in three months. 'I was very happy to hear this, but Mr. Liu quickly said again. 'However, the company is very nervous, and I think you should find a better job with your degree, so let's just leave it at that, and clean up tomorrow. ' After finishing speaking, I left the fool like me aside and left by myself.Senior, can you understand how I feel? I feel like I'm being swept out like rubbish.My previous ambitions were suddenly shattered, and I was so poor that I couldn't even hold a side job.Depressed standing on the balcony on the fourth floor.I just received another text message from a classmate of mine. He is my local classmate, but I have not contacted him, but today he said he asked me to come out to get together because he was promoted and wanted to congratulate me.And my parents have been asking about my recent situation, and I can only perfunctory them with lies.But there was some hope in the past, but now there is no basis for hope, and even lies cannot be established.I turned off my phone and stood on the balcony on the fourth floor. It was also dusk at that time, and the red sunlight hit my eyes, which was not dazzling at all, but I felt that everything I looked at was blood red.And I realized that tears were streaming down my face, the hand holding the railing unconsciously propped up my body, and my whole body suddenly tilted outwards, yes, I had the urge to fly down.But someone grabbed my back, with great strength, and pulled me back inside.I temporarily sobered up, and looking back, it turned out to be the girl who was a year older than me when I first came in.But this time she was wearing black clothes and black pants, and there seemed to be tears on her face.Looking at me angrily.I was overwhelmed and could only sit on the ground and cry. 'Do you look like a man?Did he fire you?In fact, I should have told you earlier that I shouldn't have come at all, if it wasn't for the anxious business that day, plus so many things recently. She stopped talking suddenly, and I saw her snow-white face was lifeless, her lips were not painted with lipstick, and her upper teeth were biting her lips tightly.In his hand was the black briefcase. 'I'm a piece of shit. 'I bowed my head and said something.The sun has almost completely set, and the shadows of the two of us on the balcony were drawn long, and then overlapped again at the farthest distance. "The few before you are also college students who have just graduated, and they were all deceived by Mr. Liu.Liu is always from Taiwan and was appointed by the head office.He is extremely stingy to everyone. Although he is the person in charge of the sales department and the personnel department, he often uses the probation period and the excuse that the company's interests are not good to prevaricate, and finally let you go.Most people leave before the trial period expires.Like me, it took a lot of effort to stay.Moreover, he also misappropriated employees' funds and advertising expenses to speculate in stocks.I gathered evidence for almost three months.After he leaves, I will recommend you. Don’t talk about suicide lightly. You must know that when you die, the saddest thing is the people around you. The closer you are, the more you will hurt them. ' After the girl finished speaking, she took a look at the necklace on her chest, then patted my shoulder again, and left.I thought about her words for a long time, and finally figured it out.It was already dark outside when we went downstairs, but the moonlight was still very bright. That day happened to be the ninety-ninth day of Tao Yanbing's suicide, which meant that tomorrow would be his 100-day commemoration. I didn't want to stay any longer. I stood downstairs and bowed to the place where Tao Yanbing died.But when I raised my head, I felt a gust of wind whistling over my head, and a person fell in front of me like a sack with toothpaste, and the moonlight shone directly on her face. I stayed for a long time before I realized it was just Advise my girl. Her eyes were wide open, she was lying on her back on the ground, her body was still convulsing violently like a patient suffering from epilepsy.There are signs of pulling on the clothes.The thick blood at the back of my head was like honey, slowly flowing out from under my body, reflecting my face distorted by fear under the silver moonlight.The necklace around his neck was also broken and spilled to one side.The heart-shaped pendant also broke.It can be opened unexpectedly, and there are two small photos inside, one is her, the other is Tao Yanbing.Both were smiling very happily.I covered my mouth, and it took me a long time to calm myself down, then called the police, and then sat downstairs on the gravel floor guarding her body. It turned out that her name was Tan Rui, who was Tao Yanbing's lover. Soon, the police identified her as a suicide. It is easy to explain that the lover died with him a hundred days after the suicide. Similarly, Tan Rui's death did not give anyone on this floor any harm. It brought too much shock, and after the routine inquiries, everyone was busy.I was ordered to leave by Mr. Liu.But at the scene I found one item, which was not handed over to the police.Because I saw Mr. Liu talking intimately with the police officer leading the team. It is a betel nut.I've inquired that Mr. Liu is the only one who likes to eat betel nuts in the whole company.I found the betel nut in the hand of Tan Rui's corpse, a chewed betel nut.The black bag that Tan Rui was carrying was also gone, needless to say, Mr. Liu took it away. In the afternoon of the second day, instead of leaving, I called Mr. Liu and told him that if he didn't come to see me, I would hand over the betel nut to the police.He sneered at first, but I told him that I kept the betel nuts very well, and the saliva can be identified. Then he didn't speak, and there was a loud panting sound from the phone, and he promised to meet me after get off work. A hundred days ago, I was standing on the fourth floor, watching Tao Yanbing jumping down in front of me.And at this time, standing in front of me was the well-dressed boss of the company with a bald head and still chewing betel nuts in his mouth.I made an appointment with Mr. Liu to the place where Tao Yanbing committed suicide by jumping off the building. 'I underestimated you, thought you were just a dumbass. Mr. Liu smiled, this time his entire mouth was open, his teeth were all black, his back was facing the red sunlight, it looked like he had no teeth, his whole mouth was like a black hole. 'Tell me, how much do you want?One price, then take it and hurry up. ' he went on, and I could tell he was in a hurry. 'Your Mandarin is very standard. 'I looked at him coldly, and Mr. Liu smiled. ' out of your business. ' 'I just want to know why Tao Yanbing committed suicide. ' I continued.Mr. Liu was a little surprised, but told me that he was short of public funds and was eager to find a scapegoat. He took a fancy to Tao Yanbing who was in a hurry to get married and needed money, and encouraged him by saying that he had inside information, and then he dumped all the shortfalls. In Tao Yanbing's body, naturally, everything was completely wiped out by Mr. Liu.And Tao Yanbing's personality is very closed, he knew that even if he sued, he would not be able to sue Mr. Liu, so he committed suicide by himself and did not want to drag his lover down.Tan Rui was also pushed down the stairs by Mr. Liu. 'That's right. ' I sighed.Mr. Liu was a little impatient. 'How much do you want, please quote each price. ' 'I don't want money, I just hand you over to them two. 'After speaking, I turned around and left the building. 'What are you doing?Don't think you can scare me!I am not afraid of any ghosts! Mr. Liu shouted hysterically from behind, the sun went down, and the corridor became dark all at once. 'Don't go, where's the betel nut? He still shouted behind me, I turned around, took out a key from my pocket, and gave it to Mr. Liu, who looked at me suspiciously. 'I put him in Tao Yanbing's used case, take your time to find it. After I finished speaking, I left, and Liu Zong rushed in. I heard his cursing and rummaging for things. I went downstairs and sealed all the exits in the house with the keys I had issued earlier.When I was leaving, I vaguely heard Mr. Liu yelling frantically inside to let me out. "Tao Tao was always calm when he narrated. I interrupted him. "You locked him up there overnight?" "Yes, and then I left that office building, I left that city, and later I heard that he was crazy, and some said he jumped off the building. I don't know after all." "So you didn't fall there?" I felt a little weird, Tao Tao finally smiled. "Yes, I came back here and found a job again. But the heavy pressure still makes me breathless. It may be like Tao Yanbing said, even if I can get out of that office building, I can't get out of the building in my heart. But when I really jumped down, I came to my senses again, since I was given a second life, I naturally have to cherish it, so don’t worry, senior, I won’t do stupid things again.” After finishing speaking, I seemed to be I saw the cheerful and sunny little junior from before. After continuing to chat for a while, his parents walked in, and I was going to work too, and after saying goodbye to him, I walked out of the hospital.However, when I walked into the newspaper office and looked at the towering office building, I suddenly felt a panic. I stood at the door for a long time and didn't want to go in. I don't know if I am the same as Tao Tao said. Inside a building.