Chapter 12 Chapter Twelve

Darkness, the darkness that devours and drowns all, was born with my life.I was fed up with endless fears day and night, and ugly, quarreling children in the baths, with their miserable faces all the day, bored me. I wandered around the baths day and night.The woman who calls herself my mother calls me Chen Xue and sometimes comes to talk to me. My mother didn't come today, and I was very irritable, so I took the initiative to find her. In one room, I saw the girl for the first time.Mother hugged her and called her Chen Xue, looked at her tenderly, and sang to lull her to sleep. It turned out that she was another Chen Xue, the one my mother would mention every time she talked to me.

"Chen Xue, Mom, I need you. My other Chen Xue has caught a cold, and I'm so worried. Let's pray for her together, and hope she can recover soon." "Chen Xue is in a bad mood today. A child without a father is easily excluded by schoolmates. Please help her. I don't want those bad kids to be in the same school as Chen Xue. You know how to do it, right? " "Chen Xue participated in the school's sprint competition today. She prepared very hard. I hope she can win. She will be very happy if she wins the first place." "Chen Xue's little aunt had a car accident, and she was terrified when she saw the situation. I don't want this incident to cast a shadow on her, so can you erase this afternoon from her memory?"

I secretly watched Chen Xue who was sleeping soundly in the dark corner. Her skin was ruddy, her lips were slightly parted, and she looked sweet and lovely when she was sleeping.She looks a lot like me, but I don't have such a pretty complexion as hers.My skin is transparent and pale, and sticky liquid and faint stench always ooze out. My mother said that it was because my real body was soaked in formalin solution, but I didn't quite understand. I looked down, and the place where I stood was wet again, which would let my mother find out that I had been there. My mother never let me enter Chen Xue's room, so I wiped off the liquid on the floor and left quietly.

From that day on, I began to follow Chen Xue secretly, spying on her from a distance.Sneaking into her hair while she was in the shower, touching her cheek while she was asleep. Once I made her cry, I grabbed her neck tightly and watched her suffer.I hate to see her smile, I want to see her like me, pale face, gloomy expression, lonely wandering figure.But my mother found out, she was very angry, yelled at me for the first time, and drove me away. That day I began to understand what jealousy is and what lust is. My mother came to me again, with an ugly face and a cold voice.She said to me, Chen Xue, you can't hurt another Chen Xue, because you are her, she is you, and you all exist together in this world.Look at the other children in the bathhouse, they can't see the sun, they groan in pain all day long, and they can't do things according to their own ideas.Know why you are different from them?Because you are stillborn of the most yin, and another you is still alive in this world, so you can communicate with each other.You are not an ordinary ghost raiser, you are the unique and most powerful ghost raiser in the world.

So what about being the most powerful ghost raiser, I still have to stay with the annoying children in the bathing place all day long, listening to their endless wailing.Except for my mother, I can't talk to anyone else, no one can see me, and my mother only cares about another Chen Xue in her heart.My existence is only to keep another Chen Xue alive and to make her live a happy life. I am just her puppet. But I also want to live!I also want to breathe the air outside the window in a healthy way like Chen Xue, eat delicious rice, chat twitter, play hand in hand with my mother, and play like a baby to get the ice cream and candies I want.

Why can she do it but I can't?Mom, don't you ever think it's unfair to me? I won't be Chen Xue's puppet forever, I don't have to be anyone's puppet, because I'm a stillborn ghost, the power of yin and yang intercommunication can make me a demon as long as there is enough yin in the surrounding environment .As long as I become a demon, no one can control me anymore, I wait for fate to give me a small chance. I didn't expect the opportunity to come so easily, and my mother actually asked me to kill my grandma.I thought of a great way to kill two birds with one stone.

My strategy was impeccable.A big fire completed my mother's curse, and at the same time gained the Yin Qi I needed.That night, the sky was full of flames, there were fleeing people everywhere, and there were constant shrill and ear-piercing screams—every time someone was burned to death, my strength became stronger. For the first time I saw my own shadow, the shadow of a demon.At first, it only enveloped the Haixiang Hotel, and then it continued to expand. The fire spread to the forest in Qingshui Town, and more people fell into my hands.I continue to fuel the fire, and the birth of "Binding Qi" is the best evidence of the expansion of my field.

I won!The age of demons has finally arrived! My mother could no longer control me, so she could only beg me: "Stop, don't continue to kill people. More than 700 people have died at your hands. Do you know how deep a sin it means?" "Mom, the strong survive, isn't that what you taught me?" "When did I teach you such a bloody truth?" Mom shouted. "It was when I was born." I sneered, "I was a stillborn child used by you. I couldn't choose to live, and I couldn't even choose to die, because I was weak and I was forced to be worse than the undead. Rest in peace is a luxury to raise ghosts! Have you ever asked me what I think?"

My mother looked at me with a pale face, maybe this was the first time she realized that I was once a human being.Even though it was only a few short months in her stomach, I still had a life, not a beast to be slaughtered. "What are your plans?" Mom seemed to calm down. "Of course it is necessary to use more life and blood to consolidate my strength, put myself in an invincible position, and never be a weakling again!" "Is this really what you want?" "What's the meaning?" Mom smiled bleakly: "I am your mother after all, no one knows you better than me, what you really want is to be 'alive', right?"

I laughed and said, "Yes, I want to live, but I already lost my life when I was in your stomach, and my body has been soaked in formalin solution for ten years, so what do you expect to live? But Since I can't live, everyone don't want to live well, everyone has to be buried for me!" Mother shook her head and sighed, and said, "I have a way to give you life, end this killing, and you will get what you want." "You have a way to give me life? You want to lie to me!" "I'm not lying to you, because you...you have another body, a whole, healthy body."

"You... mean..." I was shocked, why didn't I think of it?good!I can live because there is another Chen Xue.We exist in a state of devouring and being swallowed, whoever has enough power is the host, and the other is a puppet named "raise ghost". When mom can control me, I'm a puppet.But it is different now, I am the demon and the driver, and the other Chen Xue is the puppet. "It turns out that she is me, and I am her. This is a game of hide and seek. The one who wins can replace the one who loses!" I couldn't stop laughing, I finally found a way to have life! My mother looked at me sadly: "Now I will take you to Chen Xue's room. Mom is sorry for you, this is the only thing I can do for you, just let me watch you resurrect, okay?" My mother took me to Chen Xue's bedside, she was sleeping soundly, quiet and pure.She slightly raised the corners of her lips, not feeling at all that a tragic fate was about to befall her. I laughed, this is the fate of the weak. "Go." My mother said softly to me, "Enjoy the life you have longed for, and I hope you will be happy because of it." "Life" is right in front of my eyes. It is what I was ruthlessly deprived of when I first came to this world. It is what I most want but can only look at from afar. It is what I want to grasp at all costs. stuff in. I blended into Chen Xue's body without hesitation.She was so weak that I squeezed her poor soul out of her body with little effort. But suddenly, I realized that something was wrong. My mother's face was shaking in front of my eyes.What is it like?Is this a mother trap?She is trying to frame me? I couldn't open my eyes, I couldn't speak, but I could faintly feel that my mother came to me, hugged me in her arms and whispered: "Don't worry, my mother didn't lie to you, you will get your life soon. It's just the evil spirit Power is too scary to allow it to exist in this world. Just now I fed Chen Xue a sleeping pill, so you will temporarily lose your power when you enter her body. Next, I will seal your power and memory in Chen Xue’s body In the body, let them sleep. You will keep the memories of ten years in Chen Xue's mind, and forget everything about being a ghost. You will truly become Chen Xue, continue her life, and become an ordinary girl. Believe Mom, this is the best thing for you, mom has asked my little uncle to send you out of Qingshui Town immediately. Chen Xue, leave the bathing place and never come back." Throughout the night, my mother kept repeating in my ear: "Chen Xue, leave the bathing place and never come back." I fell asleep in my mother's arms.