Chapter 54 Chapter 54: Going to the Mountains and the Countryside

The old lady was silent all the time, her face was cloudy and cloudy. After a long time, she raised her head to look at Liu Ye, then at Da Ya and me, sighed, and finally spoke. It turned out that Aunt Liu's name was Liu Qinglian. Her parents were both soldiers. They fought dozens of battles, large and small, with outstanding achievements.The jobs assigned by the government are naturally good, and they are all old party members, so they are doing impressively in the factory. At that time, children of military families were very popular, and they were given preferential treatment everywhere, so they didn't suffer much from childhood to adulthood, and their living environment was also very good.

The old lady told us that when she was about to graduate from high school, she happened to catch up with the "Cultural Revolution", so she did not take the university entrance exam, and was arranged to work as an educated youth in Huaide County, a small county in Jilin Province. Lived in a small village.The village is not big, so there are several "educated youths" like her living in each family. After they arrived there, they followed the command of the production team leader and worked with fellow villagers to open up wasteland and farm. They were also young and energetic at the time. It still felt fresh, but within a few days, I was so tired that I couldn't find the tune.

When she said this, the old lady's emotions seemed to be infected, and she was a little sad. Da Ya quickly refilled her glass of water, and then asked carefully: "Aunt Liu, is the Huaide County you mentioned just now called Gongzhuling? Ah? It’s between Siping and Changchun, isn’t it?” Aunt Liu took a sip of water, regained her composure, nodded, and told us that it was there, and it was later assigned to Gongzhuling City. They were called Huaide County back then, and the place where they jumped in the queue was called Torch Commune. There are fifteen people in the household, nine women and six men. At the beginning, no one knew each other, but they worked together every day. After a long time, they became familiar with each other.

Speaking of this, the old lady couldn't help being happy, and told us that when she first arrived in the countryside, she couldn't do any farm work in the field. Once the production team leader asked them to pull weeds in the valley, but she I don't know what is millet and what is grass. I pulled out all the good seedlings and left a line of grass, which almost made the nose of the production team leader crooked. Work points were also deducted. We couldn't help laughing when we heard it. In that special era, it was really hard for those educated youths. Every era has different hardships and helplessness.

At the beginning, she didn't know how to do anything, she had to learn everything, and she was not used to life in the countryside.After living in the village for a long time, I got used to the life in the countryside and gradually got used to it.At that time, she was small and weak, and she couldn't do much work, so she earned the least work points. At that time, it was said that "work points, work points, the lifeblood of commune members", because the commune distributed all kinds of food and property with the denominator of work points, so they regarded work points as the lifeblood.The work points of each of them are different, and they all have to rely on their own hard work to earn. A work point costs more than 10 cents, and they can't earn less than 100 yuan a year, which is not enough to spend at all.

When Aunt Liu said this, she shook her head and smiled, and said: "At that time, there was a household friend named Dong Xi in our collective household, who was older than me and came earlier than me. He helps me with some work and takes good care of me in life, so my relationship with him is getting better and better. I always look for him for anything.” When Da Ya heard this, he rolled his eyes and winked secretly at me.Coincidentally, Liu Ye saw this scene squarely, gouged us both fiercely with his eyes, and asked her mother what was going to happen next without saying a word. When Aunt Liu said this, she was also a little sad, and Da Ya guessed the meaning out of ten.

The old lady shook her head and told us that the economy gradually improved and the ten-year turmoil was basically over, so the educated youth were gradually allowed to return to the city.But it's not blatantly, and they are gradually returning to the city under various names such as sickness retirement, promotion, worker, peasant and soldier students. They had been in the countryside for several years at that time, wishing they could leave here immediately and return to the city as soon as possible. They were looking forward to it every day and every night, but they didn't go back after looking forward to it for a long time.Some people even give up their hearts immediately, and simply get married in the countryside, settle down, and don't plan to return to the city, but plan to stay in the countryside forever.

Later, Dong Xi returned to the city first, and before leaving, they agreed that when she returned to the city, they would go to Beijing to find him.After seeing Dong Xi off, she was looking forward to returning to the city every day, but she couldn't wait for the notice.What was even more unexpected was that shortly after Dong Xi left, she found out that she was pregnant.At that time, such things were naturally shameful and embarrassing.And if this matter is discovered, there is no way to go back to the city, so she didn't tell anyone, and she insisted on it. At that time, communication was not as developed as it is now, and we could only rely on writing letters.She wrote several letters back and forth according to the address Dong Xi gave, but the results were like nothing, and there was no reply at all.In the end, she also despaired, and she no longer counted on that man.God also seemed to be deliberately trying to make things difficult for her. When she was about to give birth, she hadn't received the notice to return to the city. After all, the paper couldn't contain the fire. In the end, the people around her found out that she was pregnant.

Many people came to her to talk about "work" and asked her to tell who the child belonged to, but she never said anything. Of course, there was no hope of returning to the city this time, and it was stranded.And she didn't let go of her mouth, she didn't say anything, and in the end it was nothing. After the child was born, she pulled the child alone, and when the child was almost two years old, she finally "went to the mountains and went to the countryside" The wind has blown away. She had no face to go home at all, and the village was full of gossip and gossip.In the end, she returned to Liaoning with her two-year-old Liu Ye and lived in Wafangdian.It has been almost thirty years since I stayed here, and I have taken root here in this life.

Hearing Aunt Liu finish these things, not only Liu Ye, but also Da Ya and I were stunned. I never dreamed that the things inside would be like this, so I understood why the old lady kept hiding it Not to mention Liu Ye, there is indeed too much bitterness and helplessness, it is difficult to express it at all.When I thought of Aunt Liu who was in her early twenties pulling a child and pulling Liu Ye to such a big age, I felt emotional, it was really not easy. As the old lady talked, she seemed to be emotionally moved, and her eye circles were a little moist. Da Ya was beside her and hurriedly asked Aunt Liu to drink some water.

The old lady took a sip of water, calmed down a little, and shook her hands at us, signaling that we don't need to persuade her any more. She has long wanted to leave these years.People will inevitably do some stupid things like "monkey fishing for the moon".She has been studying Buddhism for so many years, and she has already seen through it. Everything in the world is changing, and people should not be forced to pursue it. Only then did Liu Ye tell us with a smile that her mother has believed in Buddhism for many years.She is also affected by it, so she knows some Buddhist Zen principles, but compared with her mother, she can only get in the door with one foot and out the door with one foot. According to her mother, she will never be able to enter the door, because She is too "smart". If she is too smart, she is "foolish". I talked about some Buddhist principles with Liu Ye before, but I didn't expect her to be influenced by her mother.Listening to what her mother said just now, I am indeed enlightened, but despite what I said, I always feel that there is still a trace of persistence hidden in her eyes, as if she is deliberately avoiding something, it is hard to say, and I can't see through it.