Chapter 64 Chapter Four

April 1.Sunday.Night, 22:19. I opened the window and stepped out of the presidential suite on the nineteenth floor of the Future Dream Hotel. The strange thing is, I saw a person crawling out from the window sill in the next room. Is he going to commit suicide too? At this time, I saw a gorgeous aurora lighted up in the distance. "Ye Xiao, you really dare not kill me? Well, can you do me a favor and put that piece of broken glass in my hand." "Luo Haoran, what do you want to do?" "Don't worry, I'm crushed in the ruins now, it's impossible to hurt you, let alone escape."

"What do you want to do?" "Please! Give me that piece of broken glass! There must be others behind you, if they break in, there will be no chance!" "What do you want to do?" "To do for you what you dare not do." Ye Xiao was silent for half a minute. Amidst the violent barking, he picked up the broken glass on the ground and slowly put it in Luo Haoran's hands. "thanks!" the end of the world? Next, I spent seven days and nights underground. I thought that the outside world would be destroyed, it would be impossible for anyone to discover my secret, and there would be no such thing as future dream group going bankrupt.I can safely live underground, no matter if I live for a day or a year!My desire to survive is so strong, not only to survive myself, but also to help others tide over difficulties.I recognized Mo Xing'er, and knew that she wanted to kill me, but I didn't do it, and I didn't want to provoke her.Even when I recognized that old man with the flat nose as the laid-off worker who framed me, I gave up the idea of ​​killing him.

Ye Xiao, haven't you read my suicide note?Do you believe everything I write?Have you been cheated by me again?Yes, regarding my life experience and my younger sister, these are delusions that have been accumulating in my mind over the past few years.I forced myself to believe so much that I almost forgot the real past.I imagined that I was born in a red family, my father used to be a high-ranking and powerful person, my mother and three brothers died in a big earthquake-maybe they were all true, but unfortunately I couldn't prove it.I replaced Ruolan with my younger sister, the daughter of a petty citizen who was indifferent to me. In my imagination, I became a relative with whom I lived with my childhood sweetheart day and night, and finally became a dead bone at the bottom of the lake.

Ye Xiao, have you forgotten that Zhou Xuan was asked to write a love letter for you in middle school?Have you forgotten your best friend's handwriting?I can't write such beautiful words! Do you understand it?This time is also Zhou Xuan's ghostwriting!Under the watchful eyes of the murals, I dictated my life—my "delusional life", which was recorded by Zhou Xuan, and there was no lack of polishing and processing by the writer. This will be his last work. Of course, if I let him know my secret, I'm afraid he will kill me on the spot. On the fifth night, Mo Xing'er came into my room and tried to kill me by bringing up the past.But she didn't have the guts to kill me.When she left in tears, I had the chance to kill her—but would I kill Ruolan?As long as she still has this face.

Churchill rubbed against my thigh, maybe it was his cloudy teary eyes that saved my life. Just when I violated the rules I made and lit a cigarette outside the door, I didn't know that Mo Xing'er was being raped.I had already discovered the rapist's secret from the surveillance, but I didn't say it out—my silence made the rapist condone. The last day, early morning. I killed two people. Sorry, I'm just relieving them of their pain.For example, the seriously injured old man with a flat nose, maggots grew from his wounds, and he was always tormented by piercing pain. It would be better to die than to live like this.I don't think he thought of me until he died, and he didn't repent of the frame seventeen years ago.

As for the bum, even if the world was perfectly fine, he would be starving and suffering, and no one would give him a second glance—I bet the other survivors didn't notice him at all.Instead of feeling guilty, I felt like a savior. When I was wandering alone on the seventh floor, I was kidnapped by Xiaoguang, and I only knew that he was Ruolan's son. When Xiaoguang made up his mind to kill me, he made the same mistake as Mo Xing'er—not daring to kill. He doesn't have that face I can't forget.It would be even more dangerous to keep him. After all, he is not a woman, and he may pick up the idea of ​​killing again at any time.

I'm sorry, Ruolan. I killed Xiaoguang. Unexpectedly, I was discovered by Zhou Xuan, and he started chasing me.Of course, as long as I hide in the secret passage, all his efforts will be in vain. I put the "suicide note" written by Zhou Xuan on my behalf behind the mural in the deepest part, and quietly waited for death to come. But why are you showing up?Ye Xiao, your appearance means that there is no end of the world, only the future dream building has sunk into the ground.The government is still doing its best to rescue, and it may have declared Future Dream Group bankrupt.Various media conducted in-depth investigations, especially for me who has always been mysterious.Those all-pervasive guys will definitely catch a lot of things about me, find out about my tragic childhood and teenage years, put me in jail, accept public humiliation, have my family greeted by mobs on the Internet - that's not as good as being alive died!

Better to die!Better to die! !Better to die! ! ! Just when the end of the world is coming!They will all be dead when we are!Just pretend there's nothing left!As if it ended up in a vast expanse of whiteness, the land is so clean! Why do men live? For dignity. If you don't kill me, let me kill me. farewell! Ye Xiao, Zhou Xuan, Ruolan... Luo Haoran's still movable right hand grabbed a sharp piece of broken glass and cut his own throat. The blood spattered far away, the film projection room was filled with yells of fear, Luo Haoran opened his eyes wide and twitched a few times.

he died. Ye Xiao watched him commit suicide from afar without getting a single drop of blood. Churchill the Labrador was another witness. Seeing Luo Haoran die, seeing his gradually cloudy eyes, Ye Xiao shuddered uncommonly. What's going on underground?And what makes a person like him so desperate that he just wants to die?According to Ye Xiao's logic, all people in the world have the possibility of committing suicide, except Luo Haoran, who is so treacherous and evil, can't. Therefore, Ye Xiao decided to disguise the suicide case as homicide. Ye Xiao buried Luo Haoran's hands in the ruins - so there was no possibility of suicide.And the blood on Luo Haoran's hand was normal because he was already injured.

Amidst the barking of the Labrador dog, Ye Xiao sat in the half-collapsed dark room in a daze. When he was thirteen years old, he walked through the old street with Zhou Xuan, and heard the song played from the tape recorder—"If there is a tomorrow? How do you want to dress up your face? If there is no tomorrow, how do you say goodbye?" " Those who are really desperate are not the people trapped underground. end There was a strong wind blowing over the city, Zhou Xuan held on to the scaffolding firmly, and managed to climb up the building under construction. It's about the nineteenth floor, it's almost there, no need to climb up, let everything go back to the original point.

Zhou Xuan climbed to the edge of the scaffolding and looked at a large open space across the road, which was the former site of Future Dream Building and the old house where he lived in when he was a child. He took a deep breath, closed his eyes, and jumped...he was dead.It slammed heavily on the road in front of the former site of Future Dream Building.If he had jumped from the top floor of the Future Dream Building thirteen days ago, he would probably have fallen to this position as well. Zhou Xuan didn't feel any pain, but instead felt much lighter, and was blown high by the strong exhaust fumes from the road. He saw his own body on the ground, surrounded by many cars and pedestrians, those who were terrified or indifferent or watching the excitement.In the crowd of onlookers, he saw Mo Xing'er's face, beautiful and pale, with two lines of tears streaming down slowly. He also saw Yoko Tamada and Masata. The mother was holding her son and was about to get into a taxi, but the seven-year-old boy kept looking at the sky—yes, this child with superpowers saw the ghost hovering in the air. There is also Ding Zi who is crying on the side of the street. This girl never dares to go back to school, thinking about how to wander around the world. Tao Ye had already packed his bags, but he didn't know where to go.He stood blankly on the side of the street, thinking that there was a traffic accident. A small animal from a burrow hid in the grass, screaming in terror and despair. The dead Zhou Xuan floated higher and higher, gradually surpassing the nineteenth floor, and their faces could no longer be seen clearly. The clouds in the sky are a little strange, which makes people have an ominous premonition. He thought of Ruolan. Seventeen years ago, in the second half of the third year of senior high school, in the cold spring of March, Ruolan quietly told him that she was pregnant. Zhou Xuan is the father of the child in her womb, although he himself is still an eighteen-year-old child. He was afraid and unwilling to take on the responsibility of being a father. He knelt in front of Ruolan, begged her not to speak out, and said that he was willing to pay to accompany her to the hospital for abortion—there were no advertisements for "painless abortion" on the street at that time. . The teenage boy and girl had secretly been to the hospital, but she escaped alone after witnessing nurses throw out the dead baby after an induced labor.She vomited for several days and nights, not wanting the child in her womb to be killed, that would be tantamount to disregarding human life.In the end, she decided to give birth to the child, no matter how hard it was. She never wanted to see Zhou Xuan again, but for the sake of this boy's bright future, she never said Zhou Xuan's name, even if she was slapped hard by her parents. When Ruolan's family disappeared overnight, Zhou Xuan regretted it too much, but he didn't dare to tell the secret. For more than ten years since then, Zhou Xuan has been living in deep guilt. The reason why he chose to commit suicide on April Fool's Day was also because of his cowardice at the beginning. During the demolition of the old house, Zhou Xuan approached Ruolan once, and it was just that the neighbors held a meeting to discuss the compensation.Ruolan admitted privately that she bore him a son who was already in middle school.She asked Zhou Xuan if she wanted to see her son, Zhou Xuan hesitated again and again, but she did not choose to meet, the reason was that she was poor and had no face to see their mother and son. From then on, he never saw Ruolan again, and he didn't even know the news of her death. It wasn't until the sixth night of the end of the century when he hid among the waste cardboard boxes on the seventh floor that he realized that Xiaoguang was his own son. However, immediately he watched his son being stabbed to death by Luo Haoran from behind. Zhou Xuan vowed to kill Luo Haoran. He will never be able to fulfill his wish in this life—in fact, he has never fulfilled a single wish in his life. Oh, he floated higher in the air, surpassing all the tall buildings in this city, overlooking this huge devilish city, the ferris wheel lit up all night, and the dark and boundless sea in the east. April 13.black friday.Night, 22:19. Suddenly, a dazzling aurora flashed across the sky. It was even more terrifying than the light twelve days ago, covering almost the entire Pacific Ocean, making it impossible for him to see the world under his feet anymore. In the blink of an eye, Zhou Xuan had drifted into the clouds of the night. He thought he would see the end of the world, the end of the world that really came to this earth, but unexpectedly saw two people. One is Ruolan and the other is Xiaoguang. They're all so pretty, carefree, waiting around the corner of heaven. However, he didn't dare to look into her eyes, and asked tremblingly, "Don't you hate me anymore?" "I never hated you." Never hated me? Suddenly, the clouds and aurora in front of my eyes disappeared, the stubble, wrinkles and dirt all over my face disappeared, and even my hairstyle returned to the appearance of a high school student.Zhou Xuan was wearing a thick down jacket with a black sweater inside and a student ID card in his pocket. All is an illusion?Or a worst nightmare?I have never grown up, and I am still an eighteen-year-old high school student?It was the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, and the old houses in the old neighborhood were in good condition. The sky was full of fireworks and firecrackers welcoming the God of Wealth, and in front of me was a beautiful girl in white. "Ruolan, do you dare to go to the 'Ghost Tower'?" "As long as you dare to go!" The boy held her hand, a small warm hand, which made his heart beat faster in the cold winter. Come to the legendary haunted old house, follow the dusty wooden stairs to the small room on the third floor.The boy lit a candle, and the flickering light illuminated her eyes.The boy took out a gift for her. "Wow! Super Saiyan figure!" He saved two months of pocket money and bought the genuine version from an imported toy store. Through the faint candlelight in the "ghost building", Ruolan looked at his face and asked softly, "Are you afraid of ghosts?" "There are no ghosts in the world." "I think so too. Zhou Xuan, I like you." "Since when?" She took off her coat and stroked his palm with her fingers: "From the first time I saw you." "me too." "do you like me?" "like." "Tomorrow, let's ride the Ferris wheel together. Legend has it that wishing on it will come true." "Make a wish...we'll be together...until..." "Until the end of the world." (full text)