Chapter 10 Chapter 10 Love

I went to the management office to look through the desk calendar.The date of the Gregorian calendar on Laba day is January 27, 1996, but today is April 15, and more than 80 days have passed.That is to say, if I stay in the world for more than nine months at most, I will become a ghost?Beads of sweat crawled unknowingly on his head.Yu Jingjing called the cemetery and said that she would invite Brother Meng and me to make a delicious meal.Brother Meng asked me what I would like to eat, but I was not in the mood to eat or drink, so I replied casually without thinking: "Dog meat." Although Jixi is not as close to North Korea as Yanbian is, there are still many Korean people living here, and there are even villages where Korean people live together. We call this kind of village Chosun Tun locally.Cold noodles, spicy dishes, and dog meat are all made with exquisite craftsmanship.Especially stewed tofu with dog meat, which is delicious when served with special dog meat sauce.The dog meat restaurant Jingjing chose is located on the edge of Chosun Tun, an unremarkable farm restaurant.However, there are quite a few people who come here. "The smell of wine is not afraid of deep alleys", and similarly, "good meat is not afraid of being out of place."

Spring is here, and it's the season when beautiful girls are in full bloom. Jingjing's fiery red body is eye-catching.I noticed that today she put her hair up high, and she wore golden earrings on her ears. She even put on light makeup on her face, and she didn't wear glasses. I guess she wore Bausch & Lomb.Today, she is like a lotus emerging from the water, with a stunning beauty.Where does she look like a college student, she is simply a beautiful adult woman. My heart was beating again disobediently, and the evil self in my head thought: "If I can have such a girlfriend before I die, this life will not be in vain." The righteous self said again: "What do you think? What about you, why did you have such an adventure? This is Brother Meng's girlfriend."

I can't help it today, I'm a light bulb again.Every time I don't come, I still want to see Jingjing, but when I do, I feel that it's not natural for the three of us to be together.Jingjing had booked a private room a long time ago. This is a farm house, and when entering the house, she has to go to the kang.Those of us Northeast children born in the 1970s grew up sleeping on this kind of heated kang, and it feels very cordial.There is a small table on the kang, with a dog meat hot pot in the middle, and four small stools on both sides.I sat alone first, and the two of them hung their coats and handbags on the hangers.

After hanging up her handbag, Yu Jingjing actually sat down next to me.I'm completely confused, what's going on?Don't let Brother Meng misunderstand. "Jingjing, why don't you sit across from me?" I reminded her. "Hehe, the main character I'm going to invite today is you, Master Taozi. Of course I want to sit next to you." Not only did she not walk away, she even put a hand on my shoulder. I was so happy in my heart, I was far away before I was tempted: "Today is not in vain. No matter how long it lasts, it is enough to have such a close contact."

Brother Meng swallowed his saliva, wanted to say something, but finally held back abruptly. Jingjing pretended not to see Brother Meng's embarrassment, and leaned into my ear and said, "There is a good show to watch today, are you ready? I discovered a shocking secret." "Ah, a shocking secret? What secret?" The waiter poured the dog meat into the pot, and it was steaming and fragrant.We each poured a glass of Xian rice wine and toasted together. Jingjing said: "Today is a special day. Firstly, it is to celebrate my promotion to junior college, and I will be a college student in the future. Secondly, I am here to announce a big event."

Not only me, but even Brother Meng was stunned. I didn't hear that there was anything serious about her.We all listened quietly.The room became very quiet, only the sound of the pot churning. "Starting today, I announce that Master Taozi has officially become my boyfriend." After listening to this sentence, Brother Meng and I were so shocked that we almost dropped our wine glasses into the pot.We both looked at me and I looked at you, we couldn't believe our ears, we must have heard it wrong. "Say it again, Master Taozi has officially become my boyfriend." Yu Jingjing was still so proud.

Brother Meng's face was flushed red, and it was very ugly against the pock marks on it, but he still forced a smile: "Jingjing, don't always make fun of your Master Taozi. He doesn't have a girlfriend. If you have time, you can help introduce one. Got it." The naughty part of Jingjing's expression suddenly disappeared, and she became very serious: "Brother Meng, I'm serious." My heart was beating violently, and I didn't know what to say, I just kept my head buried in eating dog meat. Brother Meng drank all the wine in his glass, and his expression finally became terrified: "Jingjing, why are you doing this? How can I treat you badly? How can I be sorry for you?"

Jingjing's face turned pink, like a peach blossom, "I'm sorry, you know best in your heart. Do you still need me to say it?" Jingjing's words were very serious. I had never heard her speak with such a serious expression, and suddenly felt a sense of oppression. The atmosphere in the room was tense.The dog meat in the pot was still boiling.Brother Meng's expression obviously changed when he heard Jingjing's words. Although he was still angry, he stopped talking. I quickly smoothed things over: "Dog meat is delicious, eat the meat first, and we'll talk later."

They didn't listen to me, Brother Meng stood up and said, "Jingjing, can we go outside and have a chat alone?" "There is nothing to talk about between us. From today on, we have nothing to do with each other. Master Peach, we eat ours." Brother Meng's eyes were about to burst into flames, and his eyes moved from her to me.I stopped my chopsticks in fright, not knowing what to say. "You, you, Taozi, I have you." After saying this, he took his coat and jumped off the kang without looking back.I got up and wanted to chase but was held down by Jingjing, "Why are you chasing him? Sit down for me."

I sat down without saying a word, lowered my head to eat meat, and didn't dare to look at Jingjing again.Everything was quiet, only the dog broth in the pot was still blooming. No one spoke for a long time, but I couldn't help but look up at her.There are two long water lines on Yu Jingjing's cheeks, which I didn't expect. "You, what happened today?" "Don't worry about it. Let's have a good meal." ... It was getting dark, even though Jingjing and Brother Meng had an unpleasant experience, even though Brother Meng misunderstood me, and even though I became a living dead in a daze, none of these things stopped my appetite.After drinking a stomach full of dog meat soup, I almost couldn't walk.Jingjing asked me to take her back home, but she stopped me when I wanted to take a taxi. She said that walking is better for digestion.I didn't know what to say, didn't understand what was going on, and didn't know what to ask her or how to comfort her, I just walked silently with my head down.Finally she couldn't bear it anymore, and she got angry at me: "You dead peach, bad peach, why do you ignore me and don't ask me? Is there anyone like you?"

"What do I ask you?" I really don't know anything about women, and I don't understand why they are so fickle. "Do you understand?" She actually hugged me from behind me.I didn't dare to move anymore, it was like a little rabbit was jumping around in my arms. "You, what are you doing?" "Will you be my boyfriend?" ... It turned out that Yu Jingjing encountered something that she couldn't accept the day before.There was no class in the school that afternoon, so she dialed Brother Meng's pager as usual, but Brother Meng didn't answer the phone.Counting today, it shouldn't be the day for him to go to the cemetery.It doesn't matter, anyway, her school is not far from the place where Brother Meng rents a house, and it takes more than ten minutes to walk there.Jingjing bought a few fruits and hurried over happily.The house Meng Ge rented was on the third floor, and when he was about to knock on the door, he found that the door was ajar. "Hehe, this guy must have slept late at home and forgot to close the door, let me scare him." Jingjing opened the door without making a sound, and tiptoed in. There was no one in the living room, and the door of the bedroom was ajar. Needless to say, Brother Meng must have been sleeping on the bed.Jingjing laughed secretly, and continued to move forward.Suddenly, I heard a heavy breathing sound, which was very strange, as if it came from Brother Meng, but it didn't look like it.Could it be that something happened to him in the house?Jingjing couldn't help becoming alert.She moved more cautiously, quietly touched the door of the bedroom, and looked into the room intently——Yu Jingjing was stunned. There is a spring show going on in the house.Brother Meng was indeed on the bed, but he wasn't lying down. What Jingjing saw was his dark and firm naked back. Under him, a very white girl was naked.Clothes, both men's and women's, were scattered on the ground. Jingjing blushed when she saw it.Although he and Brother Meng have been friends for several months, they just held hands and kissed or something, and there was never any physical relationship between them.Where has she seen such a scene.She didn't want to look at it anymore, turned around and left quietly with the fruit. From the moment she chose to leave, she was completely disappointed in this man who betrayed her.On the way back, she couldn't stop crying, and the relationship between the two of them has been very pleasant in the months they have known each other.Although Brother Meng is neither handsome nor tall, he has a good heart and has always been kind to himself.Originally, he planned to let this man be his husband, but now it seems that he has made a mistake.Although Jingjing is pretty and cheerful, she is not a casual girl.She really couldn't accept Brother Meng's behavior. In the evening, she went to JJ alone, which was a disco next to the Workers' Cultural Palace.At that time, almost all the gangsters in Jixi would go there. There was a mixed bag of fish and dragons, and she would never go to that kind of place in normal times.But what she needs today is release, otherwise she might drive herself crazy. Crowds of people danced wildly in the JJ. In the center of the huge dance floor was a one-meter-high lead stage. A transvestite DJ from Thailand shouted chant in vague Chinese. Hundreds of people in the audience had already fallen into madness.Jingjing drank a bottle of beer and jumped onto the dance floor.Jingjing is so beautiful, this kind of flickering light can't hide her beauty at all.Several gangsters gradually surrounded her and jumped around her. The encirclement is shrinking, and someone has already danced with her face to face.Jingjing felt that her whole body was on fire, and she also felt that the men around her had malicious intentions.She tried to squeeze out of the encirclement, but to no avail.The surrounding music was loud, no matter how loud she shouted, no one would notice her predicament.A hand touched her butt without losing the opportunity.She couldn't imagine how terrible the next thing would be. If she had known it was like this, she would never have come here.What to do now, everything seems to be too late. Seeing several villains gradually approaching, Jingjing really didn't know what to do.She tried to break out from the corner of the human wall, but failed.After all, she is a girl, and she is vulnerable in front of these strong men. "Where is the chick going?" A bald man chewed gum and looked at the prey in front of him with a half-smile.The other Scarface couldn't wait a long time ago, stretched out his elbow and wrapped it around Jingjing's neck.His arms were tightened, Jingjing felt breathless and dizzy.She struggled and yelled for help.A few gangsters narrowed the encirclement and prepared to take Jingjing outside. Fortunately, the ladyboy DJ saw everything that happened here from a high position, and immediately notified the security with the walkie-talkie.Several security guards wearing steel helmets and holding batons surrounded him from several directions.The bald head realized that the momentum was not good and he yanked Scarface fiercely. Scarface was reluctant to part with such a punctual chick, but he couldn't help it. It fell into the hands of the uncle." Jingjing took the opportunity to break free, hid behind the security guards, and then quickly ran out of the dance floor. After a false alarm, Jingjing was still in shock, and all the bottle of wine that Jingjing killed was evaporated into sweat, and her mind was completely awake.I felt fluid running down my face, which turned out to be tears.I can no longer take this risk, I never thought I would be in such a predicament today.She no longer cared about the madness and noise here, and squeezed out the crowd to the door. Compared with the hustle and bustle in the living room, it was much cooler and quieter outside the door.Jingjing wiped away her tears and walked down the stairs.She is ingenious and beautiful, and everywhere she goes, she is like a star holding the moon, and she has never suffered such a loss since she was a child.What kind of woman has seduced Brother Meng's soul?I really regret not seeing that woman clearly.After a moment of daze, she had already reached the bottom of the steps, where four or five Xiali taxis had already been waiting there.Several taxi drivers were chatting under the car, and when they saw her going out, they enthusiastically invited her to get in the car.Jingjing was considering which car to get in, when a driver said, "Miss, take my car." He took her by the arm and stuffed her into the car. Jingjing was stuffed into the back seat of the taxi, and she couldn't help becoming angry from embarrassment, how could the driver so savagely solicit customers.But when she glanced at her side, she suddenly felt dizzy, her world was coming to an end.After the car started, it flew out quickly.Besides the driver, there were two other people in the car—Baldy and Scarface. "How is the girl, I'm not mistaken, we meet again." The scarred face made people feel extremely terrifying.He hugged Jingjing and kissed her forcefully. Jingjing's cry failed to impress anyone.She was taken to an unoccupied room in an old building near the old market, her mouth was gagged and her clothes were stripped off piece by piece.Two big men ruined a freshly bloomed flower in such a dirty place.No one can imagine how she finally put those clothes that fell on the floor back on her body one by one.When she stumbled out of the room, she had no tears, and when she took a last look at the room, she actually smiled... The next day, Jingjing invited Meng Ge and I to eat dog meat.She put on what she thought was her prettiest outfit and put on makeup.Then the scene above happened.That night, she hugged my waist from behind: "Taozi, can you be my boyfriend?" I was too stupid to see that she had gone through such a cruel blow, so naturally I couldn't guess why she broke up with Brother Meng.At that tender moment, I only had two beliefs in my heart: "Friends are like brothers and feet, and women are like clothes. I can't break my brothers and feet because of a piece of clothes. And she is a school girl, but what am I? I'm just a wandering in the world lingering It’s nothing more than a living dead.” I coldly opened her hand and turned around.Jingjing's tears rolled in her eye sockets, and she looked straight at me.I can't understand the content contained in these beautiful eyes. There are yearning, begging, and unspeakable secrets in them. "Jingjing, it's impossible between us." "Why? Because I'm not pretty enough for you?" "Of course not. I, I like you very much. It's just..." Tears had already covered her handsome face.I didn't know how to comfort her, so I just said, "Don't cry, I'm not good at comforting people. I'll take you back to the dormitory." Jingjing cried for a while as if she wanted to understand something, she flicked her hair and strode forward.I still didn't know what to do, so I just kept following her.Neither of us spoke again. Twenty minutes later, we have entered the campus of the medical school, and the female dormitory building is on the left.I don't know if there is a rule that boys are not allowed to enter the girls' dormitory in their school, but I dare not go in after following the door.She didn't look back, didn't hold me back, didn't even know if I was behind her.In a blink of an eye she entered the building.I shook my head and walked back alone. After walking a few steps, I looked back at the dormitory building.Under the night, this old building built in the 1970s looks very gloomy, like a huge tomb standing in the dense jungle of the campus.Later I found out that this building was actually a famous haunted house in the rumors. Terrible things happened here all the time, and the students staying here were kept in the dark. Under the dark sky, I left the campus sadly alone. The next day, the call rang, and it turned out to be the phone number of Yu Jingjing's dormitory.Now as long as I hear Yu Jingjing's name, my heart beats faster, and I am more nervous than encountering any horrible things.I think I'm really obsessed with her.I dare not say the word "love" because I don't want to be sorry to my friend.But her face is really hard to give up.In the past two days, every time I think of her being my girlfriend but being rejected by me, I wish I could give myself two slaps, it's too worthless, why do I worry about gains and losses and dare not pursue my true love?Sometimes Xiaojing also appears in my mind, she is also a good girl, where did she go?How are you doing?It also makes me worry about it.Sometimes the images of the two of them get mixed up in my mind, and I can't tell which is which.Well, let's talk back first. Fortunately, Brother Meng is not in the office.After dialing the number, I picked up the receiver, feeling uneasy.Jingjing’s voice on the other end of the phone sounded very aggrieved as if she had done something wrong: “Master Taozi, I’m Jingjing. You, please forgive me. I shouldn’t force you to be my boyfriend so suddenly. I’m now I regret it when I think about it, and I apologize to you." "Don't, don't, don't do this, I'm wrong, I'm wrong." Hearing her seductive voice, I didn't know what to say. "Can I ask you out tonight? I want to talk to you calmly." The more pitiful her voice was, the more numb I felt. "Of course, I will go to school to find you." After hanging up the phone, I feel more fulfilled, and the rest is waiting and longing. At around 6:30, I arrived at Jingjing's dormitory downstairs.I looked at the pager, and it was almost time. Why hasn't she come out yet, is she trying to release my pigeons? After the Municipal Medical College was upgraded to a junior college, the scale has expanded a lot, and the campus has been greened quite well.There are more women than men in medical schools, and young girls come in and out, but I am not moved.Compared with Jingjing's beautiful appearance, all of them pale in comparison.This dormitory building is really old: it is a four-story old building with a European-style spire.The four characters "1976" are printed on the triangular area, and there is a red star in the middle of the characters.There is an iron flagpole standing upright on the spire, but there is no flag on it.There are also several spotlights installed around the building, which make the building look a bit gloomy.In fact, I really don't understand the design of this light source, it is easy to think of a haunted house. "Taozi, why are you in a daze?" Jingjing stood at the entrance of the building at some point, and she was dressed in sports casual clothes, which could not conceal her delicacy.I stared at her up and down as if I had just met her today. "Let's go, I invite you to the cafeteria for dinner." Jingjing grabbed my hand and walked towards the cafeteria. After dinner, we took a walk on the cultural road outside the school gate.Jingjing told me the story that happened to her, and I was so surprised that I couldn't close my mouth when I heard it.First of all, what I didn't expect was that Brother Meng would do such a thing behind Jingjing's back, disappointing such a good girl.What I didn't expect was that Jingjing was insulted by hooligans, how much psychological burden she had to bear.Why didn't she report the case?That's right, a girl values ​​her reputation more than her life, how dare she speak up about such a thing.I hate those hooligans and wish I could kill them with my own hands.But I am somewhat happy because of her honesty to me.Maybe through such a thing, I can no longer bear the burden of morality, and I can really associate with her. After talking about the whole incident, Jingjing felt relieved, like a child who did something wrong and waited for her parents to criticize her. "Taozi, after hearing my story, am I still qualified to be your girlfriend?" "Hasn't the person you like always been Brother Meng? You have to think carefully, how could you be so quick—" I didn't continue, and swallowed the words empathy. "Actually, I have had a crush on you for a long time. You are upright, steady, talented, and the ideal kind of man in my mind. But now, I am no longer qualified to say these things to you..." Jingjing said Every word knocked deeply on the door of my heart, and I felt a kind of excitement that I had never felt before from the bottom of my heart. "Stop talking." I hugged Jingjing.She also hugged me for a long time, with mixed feelings in her heart. "Go and sit in our dormitory." We looked at each other affectionately, holding hands together. "Do you allow boys to enter your dormitory? Besides, there must be many roommates in your room, so it's not convenient." I hesitated. "It's okay, I just moved into this dormitory after I continued my junior college, and now I'm alone. The doorkeeper's eyes are not good at first, and I will guide her away when I enter the door." Jingjing resumed her old self. naughty. "Oh, I'll just go in and sit down." It was the only happy day I've had in a long time, and it looks like I'm starting to get lucky.I have already forgotten that I am the living dead, let those unlucky things go to hell. With Jingjing's clever trick, we easily fooled the aunt who is watching the door.I tiptoedly followed her up to the second floor.The corridor was even older than the exterior of the building, and there was a damp smell of drying clothes everywhere.A few girls cast curious glances at me and pointed behind me.I'm not used to these things, and I quickly flashed into Jingjing's room like a thief. After closing the door, I looked at the place carefully.An old-fashioned full-length mirror hangs on the wall.A large room that can accommodate eight people has only Jingjing's single bed.Three beds were also placed in other positions, but there were only bed boards on them.Jingjing's personal items are all over these bed boards, they are all toiletries, skin care products and some gadgets.Although messy, these made me feel novel and intimate.What came out of my nostrils was a puff of fragrance, and I was almost intoxicated. I have never had such a close contact with a girl's life after being born in the womb. Jingjing was a little embarrassed, "Don't look at Master Taozi, my room is a bit messy." "Hehe, you still call me Master, I'm your boyfriend now." I was joking with her, and at the same time picked up a stuffed bear from a bed board.The fur on the bear's body is all down, it seems that it has been washed by someone, and it looks a little old. "Jingjing, you're still playing this stuff at this age." While packing up her personal belongings, she answered my question with a smile: "Hehe, it's not mine. It was there when I first came here, and it should have been left by the girl who lived in this house before. Seeing how pitiful it is, I took it in." " "Well, my Jingjing is still so caring." I noticed that the glass on the wooden door of the dormitory was firmly pasted with newspaper, so the inside of the room should not be visible from the outside.Putting down the teddy bear, I suddenly hugged her from behind. I can't imagine that such a perfect girl is in my arms right now.She didn't resist, just enjoying my embrace without moving.I could hear her breathing getting heavier.We've all forgotten about each other. The door creaked open suddenly. Neither of us had time to say goodbye from heaven and went straight back to earth.The two quickly separated at a world-record speed of 100 meters, and their hearts were beating non-stop. I quickly returned to the appearance of a gentleman and sat upright by the bed.Jingjing went to the door and asked softly, "Who is it?" It was very quiet outside.There were sounds of people walking and talking in the corridor, but it was not known which floor those voices came from. Jingjing suddenly stuck her head out of the door, only to find that there was no one in the corridor. "Too careless, I should have locked the door just now." Jingjing closed the door from the inside and returned to my side. "It might have been the wind just now, and there was no one outside." She smiled and sat next to me, "You know, maybe Brother Meng's betrayal was destined, and God wanted to send you to me." I didn't want to waste any more time, so I greeted her directly with my tongue as an answer to her question.The room smelled of lust. There was a loud noise in the room, and Jingjing and I were so frightened that we almost lost our minds.There was the sound of someone running upstairs, which made the floor thump. What is this sound?The two of us came back to our senses and searched in the house.It turned out to be the old-fashioned full-length mirror, which was hung on the wall in a good condition, but suddenly fell to the ground and broke. Could it be that there was an earthquake just now? I told Jingjing to be careful, don't let the broken glass scratch her feet, and leaned over to see if the nails on the wall had fallen off. "Huh!" Unbelievable, some sharp object was used to carve a line of big characters on the wall where the mirror was originally hung.If the mirror does not fall, no one will imagine that there are words behind the mirror.That line took us by surprise.It read: "Looking for hope in another world. Desperately written." Both Jingjing and I were stunned.Last word?Is the person who wrote this sentence no longer alive? We no longer had the leisure of intimacy, and looked at each other. "Jingjing, who lived in this room before you?" I have already experienced this kind of strange things, and my words are more calm. "Who? I don't know. It's only been a dozen days since I was assigned to live here. Originally, our junior college students would not change dormitories until the start of school in September. It was the teacher who said that there is a room in this building that can be moved in advance." Apply, and I'll come over." Jingjing was really scared, her voice trembling. While I was sweeping the broken glass on the floor with a broom, I comforted her: "It's okay, don't be afraid, maybe someone wrote on the wall to tease others when they were moving out. The teacher didn't say anything else at the time? About this dormitory." Jingjing began to recall hard, remembering that the teacher said that whoever applies for this room can enjoy the treatment of living in a single room for the past six months. "Are there a lot of vacant dormitories in your school?" "No, the bed space is still very tight, so the seven girls who were promoted to junior college with me after hearing the news all rushed to move here. The instructor opened the back door for me." I dumped the broken glass into the trash can, turned around and said to Jingjing, "That's the problem. Since the school's dormitory has always been short of beds, how can it be possible to vacate a room for students to live alone? There must be some reason for this." .” "What's the reason? I haven't thought about it so much." Jingjing's expression made people feel pitiful. I stopped talking, I couldn't say any more.I found a small knife from Jingjing's desk, the blade was a bit blunt.I used the back of the knife to scrape off the words on the wall little by little.Can't let Jingjing see or think of those words again, otherwise she will be scared alone at night.I just had to do my best to convince her it was just a prank. "This raging trick is really vulgar. I heard from our classmates that this kind of thing often happens in college. It is not creative to engrave some words behind the mirror or under the bed to scare the people who come in behind." "Really? I hate it to death. It scared me so much. You are so kind, Taozi. It's lucky to have you here. If I was alone, I would have been scared to death." A kiss on the cheek. "Hey." I was just silly. I walked out of the dormitory building quickly, but the aunt who watched the door still didn't find me.Looking back at the old building, it looked very strange against the backdrop of the night.Needless to say, something must have happened in the room Jingjing lived in.It was a paradise on earth just now, but now I was alone again, and I remembered that I was the living dead who was about to leave this world.Looking at the pager, it was almost nine o'clock, and it might be time for the school to close the gate.I stopped staying and walked out of the campus quickly. When I left the school gate, I hesitated.There are no buses at this time.The buses in this small town of Jixi stopped running at six o'clock, and Xiali was the only one who ran on the streets after six o'clock.The distance between the medical school and my home is a bit embarrassing. It’s not worth it to take a taxi, as it takes a few minutes to get there; it’s a little far away if you go.The weather is still comfortable now, so let's go for a walk. I walked down the sidewalk towards home.