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Mu Chu: Dear friends. Mu Chu, do you know what heaven looks like?I think it should be better than the place we lived in. Because those who went there never came back. I heard this sentence a long time ago, but recently I turned it up again when I occasionally flipped through my diary, and I felt a little bit touched.I'm afraid I will go to heaven in a short time, of course I may go to hell, but it doesn't matter, I'm afraid I will leave you forever. Mu Chu, my dear, what will happen to you if I am no longer by your side?Counting, in this case, in the days when we acquiesce in dating, I have worried countless times.But this time, maybe it's the last time I really ask you.

The first time I met you was when I first came to the school to teach. At that time, I had many dreams in my arms.I rescued the so-called depraved you from others. You are only three years younger than me in the third year of high school. It is ridiculous that I am afraid that you are more mature than me in many ways.I forced you to look me in the eyes hard, and then I said that to you. At that time, you had a lot of bad habits, smoking and drinking, idleness, not enterprising, loose and aimless in life, and worst of all, you could tell lies without guilt, big lies... What a terrible man.During that time, you didn't dare to touch other people's eyes, lacked self-confidence, and turned your head away as soon as you touched it.

I know, you feel inferior because you don't have parents.You said that I saved you, but do you know that maybe the one who was saved was actually myself. ——My dear, what will happen to you if I am not by your side anymore?I began to prune your bad habits drastically.No matter how you rebound, I always have a way to suppress your resistance.Until one day when I suddenly realized that you had become a pretty good boy, I was surprised to find that my emotions gradually changed. Human feelings are really strange, obviously we shouldn't be together, obviously we are only three years apart, but the occupational difference caused by those three years old is undoubtedly not allowed in this world.

For a long time, I was full of guilt for this feeling, and I kept it firmly in my heart.But can feelings be suppressed?I have no idea.My diary is full of memories with you.The joy of being with you, the pleasure of being with you, the memories of being with you... Everything makes me unable to extricate myself. ——My dear, what will happen to you if I am not by your side anymore?That day, you mustered up the courage to confess to me.I was extremely happy in my heart, but I didn't dare to show it on my face. I put on a serious expression and scolded you severely.There were tears in your eyes, despair in your eyes, and then you ran away without looking back.

In fact, when you are in pain, why don't I suffer more than you. I have learned a lot from you.I really want to quit my job as a teacher and wait until you go to college so we can date.But I didn't expect that you, who are stubborn, would choose to commit suicide. You said that if I really didn't like you at all, you would never pester me again. After speaking, you jumped straight from the Bitou Bridge, which was more than ten meters high, into the icy cold river.At that moment, my heart almost broke. ——My dear, what will happen to you if I am not by your side anymore?I tightly hugged you, who was soaking wet, and we hugged under the bridge all night to keep each other warm.Then, I acquiesced in dating you, and at that moment, my gloomy heart disappeared.

Yes, there is something that cannot be overcome, as long as the two of them can be together, no matter how great the pressure of public opinion is, it doesn't matter.Although human words are formidable, they may not be able to defeat me.Don't look at my weak bones, but I also have my own attachments. Think about it, it's a miracle that we haven't quarreled or even gotten into a fight during the time we've been together with you.After all, the two people's worldview and outlook on life are very different, and their personalities are not suitable. A few days before New Year’s Day not long ago, I wondered if I had read too many tragic novels, and suddenly said to you: ——My dear, what would happen to you if I was no longer by your side?You froze for a moment, shook your head, smiled, and didn't pay much attention.Unexpectedly, this sentence may become a fact now.I'm afraid I can't last much longer.

I know that you didn't come to see me because my family blocked me. It came to light and you were beaten up pretty badly, right?It may not be long before our lives will cross each other, yin and yang will be separated, and they will be farther and farther apart in a radial pattern. In the next life, we hope that there will be a possibility of overlap. In fact, do you know that I am actually a very poor girl. When I met you, I was very depressed and at the low ebb of my life.I change you and say I want to save you, but do you actually need me to save you?I look for confidence and courage in you.Even though I am three years older than you, you are the one who took care of me. It was you who made my life a little bit better and saw the dawn of hope.

Mu Chu, do you know how much I love you.Yes, you know, you know better than anyone.I know that you love me too, so when I leave this world, please learn to cherish yourself. —Hey, what would you do if I wasn't by your side anymore?I forgot when it was, it seems that when I was celebrating my birthday, you said this to me with a smile, like a counterattack against me all the time.At that time, I smiled confidently, and asked without thinking: "Why are you not by my side?" Unexpectedly, unexpectedly, when we planned everything, it turned out like this.Is it true what the third-rate TV series say?Could it be that fate likes to make jokes the most?No wonder it's on TV.The killer said to quit, the prostitute said to be good, waiting for their results, it will be death without exception. ——My dear, what will happen to you if I am not by your side anymore?Maybe it's a curse word.

We plan to leave this city together when you graduate from high school.You said you were going to change your original name, what about Mu Chu, that's too literal.You want to change your name to a masculine one, and after thinking about it all night, you finally wrote three words on the paper - Yang Junfei. But, dear, I still like your original name.Although that name was given to you by parents who abandoned you, although you often say that you hate them.But I know very well that deep in your heart you still long for them to come back to you and recognize you. You run a detective agency to find them. ——My dear, what will happen to you if I am not by your side anymore?Now, I suddenly want to say this sentence again.

Yes, dear, if I'm not here, will you change?Become stronger than before?Become more diligent than before?Become smarter than before?Won't you lose things and be confused anymore?Won't it go bad again?Will it become self-care?Maybe, when a person is used to being taken care of, he will be too lazy to use his brain.But when the solid shoulders that I have always relied on suddenly disappear, although there will be a period of pain, after waking up, I still have to go on with my life and continue to live. At that time, my dear, whether you want to or not, you will force yourself to change and grow up, like an angel with broken wings, unable to fly, and can only learn to walk on the ground with weak legs.

But dear, how can I have the heart to let you break your wings?But dear, how can I have the heart to say that cursed word to you?So change your words. ——Honey, if you are no longer by my side, what will happen to you like this?And what will happen to me like this?Ha, maybe I'll never know what heaven looks like.But, it doesn't matter anymore.Heaven is nothing more than that.Darling, don't suffer over my death, your life has just begun.I don't have any strength anymore, and it's hard to even hold a pen.I beg my parents to send this letter to you, it is my last wish.Hope they keep their word. Darling, live my share together. You are a wonderful man. The person I love the most in my life—the blackboard of Xue Qin’s Juebi was transported back to Yang Junfei’s secret warehouse. He used a lot of preparatory work to seal its mysterious energy. In the secret warehouse, there are all kinds of items with special powers that have been collected all the time. There are so many items, and finally there is a newly found item that has an effect on the blackboard. Only then did he dare to carry out the work of moving. Until now, he and Ye Buyu have studied for a long time, but they still can't find out the mystery of the blackboard.After investigating every raw material used to make it, they still haven't found out which link makes this blackboard produce such a terrifying ability that can distort human nature and even exist forever. The things in the world are mysterious and unpredictable, and it really cannot be understood by human beings. After reading Xue Qin's last letter, Yang Junfei looked at the sky and looked hard, as if he could use gravity to force the tears back to the depths of his eyes.But his actions were in vain, the tears were still overflowing and flowing down his cheeks. Twelve years ago, a girl who so-called loved him and confessed to him killed the woman he loved the most in his life during class.In the end, the police believed that he had a history of mental illness and was released without charge.He sneaked into the schoolgirl's house that night and killed her. That was the first time he killed someone, and he was so stupid that he ran to the principal, because he didn't know who to confide in. Only the old principal treated him best, and even regarded him as his own. I remember that the old principal sighed deeply at that time, and then sent him on a smuggling ship bound for Canada.At that time, he was only eighteen years old.Before leaving, he went to Xue Qian's cemetery and dug her out. At that time, he secretly put her body in the freezer of the smuggling ship, and then went through all kinds of troubles. Only he could know the hard work, but everything was worth it. Up to now, he still preserved Qin's body intact. . Twelve years later, facing Xu Weiwei who killed his second love woman, he gave up and did not take revenge on her.In fact, it doesn't matter if it's revenge or not, because Xu Weiwei committed suicide on the third day after he left Bicheng. Thinking of the past, Yang Junfei's throat choked, and then he took out his phone tremblingly and dialed a number: "Hello, Time Freeze Foundation, I want to add another time capsule. The patient is Chinese, sixteen years old, died on April 27th, and her name was Xue Qian." Yang Junfei took a deep breath, patted the coffin where Xue Qian's body was preserved in dry ice, and looked up at the clear sky.I have collected so many magical items, I am afraid that only the corpse of Mr. Chen can achieve my ultimate goal.It seems that the pace is about to speed up! ——End of the full text