Chapter 16 postscript

"Do you know how many people jump off this bridge every year?" "have no idea." "Three hundred and seventy-six people, an average of 1.03 people will jump off this 40-meter-high bridge every day. Do you know why?" "have no idea." "Because of heartbreak and life gap." In other words, today is September 23, 2011, that is, NASA announced that there is a 1 in 3200 chance for an abandoned satellite weighing six tons to hit anywhere on the earth. Chances of rushing into the city to cause damage on the day. I didn't watch the news today, and I didn't think about whether the abandoned satellite will rush to Chengdu. To be honest, I don't care much.

After all, this news was only seen in the lace news in a certain corner of the newspaper, and it really didn't make me feel too much real. Well, I drove out with my wife today and went for a walk in the suburbs.The appearance of the city is really changing day by day, even the locals will have a feeling that they will be amazed if they don't see each other for a day.I didn't know when a towering overpass was built in the place I often passed by, but I didn't pay attention to it at all. When the car drove to a large river with a width of several hundred meters, I stopped the car.Holding his wife's hand, he walked all the way to the river beach.

The waterway, which was not abundant in the first place, may be filled with rushing torrents of muddy yellow water, perhaps because of the recent abundant rainfall.I randomly found a large cobblestone and sat down, then pointed to the old bridge not far away, across the river on both sides, so there was also a conversation that started with the postscript. "Heartbreak or something will make people commit suicide? Those who commit suicide really have a problem with their brains." My wife thinks my words are very interesting. Of course, her rough nerves have been intermittently dull, and she cannot understand the emotional fluctuations and emotional colors of "heartbreak or life gap".

I have been too lazy to be in a mess recently, the temperature has gone from an extremely hot 30 degrees to the current 16 degrees, and it has only been four days of struggle.The sun came out by accident three days ago, I got up early at 8:30 by accident, and then I looked out from the balcony, wow, my god, I saw a rainbow. The natural phenomenon that I hadn't witnessed for more than ten years, swept the memories of many years ago and flowed back into my mind. It felt weird, but it was only more than ten years, but when I went back to dig it, it seemed like a lifetime ago. Human beings have created an idiom called "cocooning themselves", but people always make the same mistakes again and again, whether it is life, study, work, or love.

Recently, there was a class reunion in high school, and not many people came, that is, familiar people chatting and talking about homework. But it feels weird, the appearance of the classmates has changed, the belly has changed, and the mood has also changed. Everyone has become utilitarian, showing off, lying, and inferiority.Suddenly, I found that the group of people with good grades in the past has turned into the most submissive group, and the group that has entered the school's discipline office the most is arrogant in the class reunion. I smiled lightly, looking at the various feelings in life, I always find it very interesting.

Thinking back, among this group of classmates, I can be regarded as the one who has done well and lived the most leisurely life.It’s just like my childhood life, I never talked about myself, I just echoed everyone’s laughter in a low-key manner, quietly listening to my friends in high school, and spitting about my current status and ability to make money.I smiled without opening my mouth once, like an outsider. The friend who told me about my achievements didn't seem to find self-confidence from me, nor did I see envy in my eyes, so he walked away embarrassingly, and went to the next person to be shown off.

Everyone felt bored after eating, so they scattered away.I was driving on the way home when I suddenly burst out laughing. It turns out that the word "growth" clamoring in human mouths is indeed distinguished according to the level of social status.Many people may not be willing to accept this kind of growth, but in the end they are silent and harmonious in the torrent of the world, unable to struggle. I am no exception, unable to struggle, unable to please, and have no courage to resist. This world club is more thorough, it is a commodity society, from childhood to adulthood, human beings survive in the well-established commercial layout of the society.

Everything can be marked with a price. As a commodity, it is placed on the shelves by merchants or the government, and each shelf is marked with a different price.Human beings are comparing how high they can buy things on the shelf, and use them to beat others and satisfy themselves. You bought mustard for one yuan, but I can eat a package of mustard for one thousand yuan.My spending power is a thousand times that of yours, and I can afford it, so I live better than you. Human society is full of comparison formulas like this.That's why, I find it interesting. Gain some, and eventually lose some.While being diligent, you will also lose your happiness and leisure.So my life is always lazy, never proactive and willing to do something.Fortunately, my luck is not bad.Otherwise, I might become the only one in the class reunion.

Society itself is so deformed, no matter what, it cannot be denied that this is the driving force behind social progress and development. Um, I accidentally overdid my divergent thinking, um, stop this topic. Well, no matter where the fallen abandoned satellite will fall today, I hope that everyone who reads this book will be happy and have their own ideals and pursuits. Only in this way can we find the meaning and purpose of our own existence without going through confusion. Speaking of which, the book "Desperate Highway" is not about the heroine's process of seeking the meaning and value of her own life!