Chapter 16 Chapter Sixteen

I quietly walked out of Dad's room, closed the door gently, and didn't look back at him.All he said to me in his entire life was not worth as much as these few hours. Thank you, Dad!Thank you for letting me know that my life was just a nasty accident, that I was already doomed, that all my dreams were just futile struggles and laughs! I felt empty inside, as if I had never existed, or perhaps, the purpose of my existence was to destroy. I went back to the room I had lived in for many years, to the place where my bad luck started, and lay down slowly, hugging Ye Ye who was already asleep, only feeling that my body was as cold as hers.None of us can give anyone warmth.

Before returning to Shanghai, Liu Fei told me: "Maybe the answer to the mystery is far scarier than the mystery!" She was right, absolutely right!But I still refused to give up, I had to struggle to this point, and finally realized that I had no hope!Didn’t Yu Qing’s ghost also say that, that night she looked at me desperately and said, “It’s too late, no matter what you do, it’s too late! Everything that decides has already happened, the outcome is already doomed, and no one has time to change anything.” Already!" Black despair overwhelmed me, I didn't even have the strength to cry, I wanted to laugh but couldn't, so I could only hug Ye Zi weakly.Maybe, only she and I are a pair, a pair of despair and melancholy!A normal girl like Xie Yuting will never be able to get together with me.

My love, the love I can't let go of, is nothing but a futile dream... When it was almost dawn, I got up in a trance to go to the bathroom. When I passed the full-length mirror, I suddenly froze, from pain to fear!In the mirror——in the mirror, there is a thin white figure standing behind me! Nyx!That's a water monster! The water demon looked at me coldly through the mirror with strange eyes.I wanted to turn around, but my body was covered in cold sweat, and I couldn't turn around. The finger of the water monster pointed to the sofa in the living room, I looked in the direction of her finger, and suddenly fell into the ice cellar, tears of fear stung my eyes, another self was half lying on the sofa and stared at me in horror!

His terrified gaze suddenly aroused the evil impulse in my heart. I felt the encouragement of the water monster behind me, and slowly walked forward, staring cruelly at his face deformed by fear. The water demon behind him danced that weird dance again, raising his hands, clenching them tightly, raising them again, and clenching them again... My hands seemed to no longer belong to me, and they trembled with the movements of the water demon's arms Lift up, pinch, lift up, pinch again... the hand on the sofa staring at me in horror, I suddenly remembered that I was lying on the bed, staring at another self in horror and trying to strangle me!But now, it's me standing here, imitating the water demon's movements to strangle him to death!No!I don't want to, but I can't control my hands anyway.How could there be another me?

Finally, I slowly pressed my hand on his neck, trembling and pinching it hard, his throat frantically wandering in my palm.He couldn't breathe due to suffocation, and tears leaked from his panicked eyes. He struggled desperately to breathe, but he couldn't exert any strength... After an unknown amount of time, his eyes finally lost their luster slowly. Stared at me blankly. he died!His eyes were still wide open, and he could not rest in peace! Suddenly, an unprecedented joy and peace filled my heart, as if a person who had been locked in a dark room since birth had finally killed his guard and walked into the sunlight.

I couldn't support my body any longer, so I lay down on the sofa tiredly and excitedly, beside the body with my own face, which was getting colder... The night gradually became colder, and the cold air surrounded me. The excitement that killed people just now slowly disappeared, and the fear filled me again... It was beginning to dawn, and I struggled to get up, but I still couldn't move the slightest... The cold corpse was leaning against me.I looked back with all my strength, and suddenly realized with horror that that face—my own face on the corpse was rapidly aging, as if it had been decades in a few seconds!

Suddenly, I screamed "ah", he is not another me, he is my father - that is my father's face, I killed my father under the instigation of the water demon! I jumped up all of a sudden, my legs went limp, and I fell hard beside the corpse. "What's the matter? What's the matter? What's your name?" Ye Zi was only wearing her underwear, and ran out in panic to see. "I killed Dad, I killed him with my own hands... the water demon—the water demon forced me to kill him!" I covered my face, crying so hard that I didn't dare to open my eyes to look at my father's body again .

Ye Zi screamed, and for a while, she pulled me tremblingly, and after a few tries, she pulled me away from the sofa and crawled into my arms, shaking violently.I hugged her tightly, my mind went blank, and I suddenly fainted... When I woke up, Ye Zi was looking at me worriedly, and I found that I was lying on my own bed.Seeing me wake up, Ye Zi breathed a sigh of relief, lowered her head and kissed my forehead, and said softly, "You're fine, don't be afraid, I'm here!" I closed my eyes, turned my head away, and didn't want to say anything , don't want to think about anything.

Ye Zi pressed against my face and whispered softly in my ear: "You didn't kill your father, he committed suicide!" I suddenly opened my eyes and sat up abruptly, not knowing what Ye Zi's words meant.Leaf sighed, pulled me up and walked into the living room.I burst into tears, my father's body was still lying on the sofa, his eyes were closed forever. Ye Zi pointed to me the medicine bottle in Dad's hand.That's a bottle of Valium!He committed suicide by taking sleeping pills!Dad has been tormented by nightmares for decades, and he would never expect to sleep peacefully. He bought Valium for only one purpose—to commit suicide!

He was holding a note in his other hand, and he could vaguely see words written on it. Trembling, I walked towards his already cold body, settled down for a while, and finally carefully pulled out the note in his hand, which read: On the way back to Beijing, I remained silent, thinking about the nightmare before dawn.Did dad really commit suicide, or was he killed by me at the instigation of the water demon?No, he must have committed suicide!He left a suicide note.He was forced to commit suicide by the water demon. Over the years, the water demon most wanted to kill him. I recalled the sudden sense of joy and peace in my heart after I strangled my father.I obviously killed someone, killed my father, how could I have that sense of peace?

Suddenly, I understood that with the death of my father, the water demon also disappeared, so I will have that sense of peace!I didn't turn around to see the water demon leave, but I really felt that the suffocating fear disappeared in an instant. The curse has been broken! Dad's last words last night were: "All crimes started with Bai Zhuo and I, and we must end them with our own hands." Dad had already thought of suicide at that time, and he wanted to die when he saw my red and swollen eyes. He's going to get me out of this terrible curse by killing himself.I suddenly found tears streaming down my face.In this world, I don't have any relatives. My father is finally gone, and I don't know whether I should love him or hate him. Outside the car window, the morning sun is slowly rising on the vast horizon, and thousands of golden rays of light are reflected on the leaves and my face. A warm feeling slowly rose in my heart. My past was not only hatred, but also unspeakable love.Maybe love and hate are one. It is because of love that we choose to hate, and it is also because of hate that we know how strong and burning love is.After a long nightmare, I finally came to happiness, and finally I can live a happy and normal life with Xie Yuting. I turned my head to look at the leaves.Ye Zi was staring worriedly at the speeding road, and every time the road retreated, she and I got closer to the end point.She should also be happy, and each of us should be happy. The nightmare has gone with the previous generation. Leaf turned to look at me. I sincerely said to her: "Have you ever thought that it is time to bid farewell to this abnormal life and find someone to love each other?" Ye Zi curled her lips and said bitterly: "You can live your own happy life, why bother about other people's happiness or not?" "I really hope you find happiness too!" Ye Zi sighed softly, looked back at the rapidly passing road, and stopped talking. In the evening, the hustle and bustle of Beijing surrounded me again. Although I only left for one night, it felt as long as I had been away for several years. Ye Zi parked the car downstairs where I lived, she glanced at me quickly and then turned her head away, stubbornly refusing to look at me again.I hugged her sideways in my arms, she struggled a bit, but still refused to look up at me.I lowered my head and pressed a kiss on her cold face. I didn't know what to say for a moment, hesitated for a few seconds, and finally said: "Treasure!" Ye Zi didn't answer, and I was silent for a while before opening the car door.Ye Zi's body shook violently, and she looked up at me in panic, her face was pale and her eyes were filled with tears.I tried not to hug her, but I couldn't let my eyes leave her face.I got out of the car, took one last look at Ye Zi's desperate eyes, and slowly closed her in the car door. I stood quietly outside the car, the car was like a silent tomb, the leaves locked inside without a sound. Finally, the car started slowly. I watched the red POLO drifting away, feeling sore in my heart, knowing that this time she was leaving my life forever. One day, we'll all be someone else's memory... As soon as I entered the room, I couldn't wait to call Xie Yuting. Xie Yuting exclaimed on the phone, and shouted cheerfully: "Great! You're back, I thought I wouldn't see you for a week! She stayed at Sister Liu Fei's house last night, and she herself was restless, but She still kept comforting me for half a night, and she seemed to be worried about you too. Have you finished all your affairs, is it all right? " "It's all done, it's okay now! You can ask for leave and come back, I think you're going crazy!" But Xie Yuting refused to ask for leave, saying that he really couldn't leave, and let me wait for her for a few hours with peace of mind.I thought, she hadn't had a long night like last night, and she couldn't have known that she had nearly lost me, and I had nearly lost everything. After putting down the phone, I simply tidied up the room. I felt a little stunned for a moment, this room seemed so strange!It's time to say goodbye to this house and everything in the past. A new life is about to begin. I can't let Yu Qing's shadow continue to haunt me and Xie Yuting.The two of us should re-rent a house, or simply sell one in installments. I turned on the computer and went online, but Yu Qing was not on QQ.I wrote down my experience of the past few days and sent it to Yu Qing via message.Finally I said: "I won't use this QQ account anymore. The curse of the water demon has been broken, so I shouldn't pester you anymore. I hope you can live a good life and find the happiness that the two of us couldn't find at the beginning. Still deep I love you, but I'm still alive, no matter what kind of setbacks I experience, I must keep going. Take care of yourself!" After going offline, I was a little sentimental. The last blessing to Yu Qing just now was obviously a lie. I don't know how the ghost can find happiness.But I once lost Yu Qing and almost lost Xie Yuting, and now I have to grasp the happiness that I have finally obtained with great difficulty for the rest of my life. This is the only way to bid farewell to the helpless past in such a hasty way, the past is lost, let everything in the past pass. I went downstairs to order food, buy wine, and bought candles, and then sat down to wait for Xie Yuting to get off work. I was anxious and couldn't restrain my excitement. When it was almost eleven o'clock, there was a sudden sound of a key being inserted into the lock.I rushed over, opened the door violently, and hugged Xie Yuting into my arms. Xie Yuting's face was flushed with excitement, and he said shyly, "What's the trouble? I'm so hugged that I can hardly breathe!" I frantically kissed her soft lips and sucked the tip of her delicate tongue.Xie Yuting closed his eyes and smiled happily.I raised my head, looked into her eyes, and said earnestly, "Marry me! Be my wife and stay together for the rest of my life!" Xie Yuting was taken aback, and immediately showed delighted eyes, blushed, and buried his head in my arms, trembling slightly with happiness.I took her little hand and walked into the room. There was already a candlelight dinner on the table, and her face looked even more beautiful under the candlelight. When I opened the red wine, Xie Yuting took out a pen and drew a line on the calendar.I asked her what she was doing.She said: "I want to remember this day forever, and every year from now on, this day will be the anniversary of our proposal! You must treat me well for the rest of your life!" "Of course I'm good to you, I love you and pity you all my life—ah, no! I forgot to buy a ring! I'm so stupid, I couldn't wait to propose to you, and I even forgot to buy a ring." "It's okay, we'll go shopping together tomorrow. But from tonight on, I'll be your wife!" Xie Yuting suddenly felt a little shy as she spoke, and hid in my arms again.We both immersed ourselves in this rare happiness. After a while, Xie Yuting suddenly raised his head and said: "By the way, I forgot, you haven't seen my mother yet! Let's go back to Changsha to see her. Don't worry, Mom will definitely like you, as long as you treat me well Everyone's mother likes it." I kissed her and couldn't help but think of my father, and I felt a little sad in my heart, but I quickly suppressed the sadness.Dad exchanged his death for my happiness. As long as I cherish this hard-won happiness, Dad's soul will rest in peace.I said to Xie Yuting in my heart: "Dad will definitely like you, although he will never see you again. My mother will also like you, and they will both bless us in another world." When we were having dinner, neither of us was thinking about the food and drink, and smiled affectionately at each other to see if it was enough.After dinner, I got up and walked over to hug Xie Yuting.Xie Yuting hooked my neck, not knowing what I was going to do.I smiled, gently put her on the bed, and unbuttoned her clothes.Xie Yuting whispered shyly, "Did you blow out the candles?" I didn't obey, but stared at her cute little face in the candlelight.The shadow of the candle swayed lightly, and a bunch of bright clouds passed over her face and her beautiful body... The lovemaking this time was extremely considerate, happy and fulfilling. I didn't feel the emptiness, loneliness and depression after ejaculation before.I hugged Xie Yuting's tender body and said gratefully: "You know? A few months ago, I couldn't even imagine that there would be such a day in my life!" Xie Yuting put his face on my chest, and said dreamily: "I never thought that it would be so - so happy..." I bowed my head and kissed her lightly, closing my eyes contentedly in the center of her charming deodorant.Insomnia has left me forever...