Chapter 14 Chapter Twelve A Terrible Smile

It was late at night and I was going home alone.I didn't take a car, I went home step by step.In fact, the place I want to go back to is not home, but a hell on earth, a hell on earth without warmth and affection.As I was walking to a street corner, I heard a baby crying.I looked around and there was no one there, where is the baby? I can't help but think of the baby who died because of me. I don't know if he looked at me with terrible eyes in the dark and cursed me viciously.The dead baby was the child of my husband Zhang Wenbo and Man Li.That night, out of desperation, I followed Zhang Wenbo again.After I found out that he was having an affair, I tried my best to make him change his mind, but he refused to admit that he had a woman outside. He even swore that he still loves me. I don't believe that he even has a woman outside. He didn't even dare to admit it, which proved that his shamelessness had reached the point of outrage.That night, I followed him, I was not reconciled, I was extremely sad and angry, I want to tell him, don't tell me the lie about his overtime work.

Sure enough, he went to Manli's place. When I knocked on that door, the one who opened it froze.I don't know where the strength came from, I pushed him away and rushed in!Manli also saw me, she must know that I am Zhang Wenbo's wife, she stood up, and to my surprise, her belly was already very big.I couldn't care less, I rushed towards Manli, slapped her hard, and then cursed: "You stinky bitch!" Manli, who was slapped by me, was also enraged, and she wrestled with me. We both cursed at each other and fought.At that time, Manli and I were shrews. When we fought over a man who was not worth it at all, that man actually watched the battle without saying a word.What a terrible thing that is!He was still sneering, as if the two of us were performing for him.

I was so angry that I completely lost my mind, I pushed Manli hard, she fell on the coffee table, her arched belly hit the coffee table, I heard Manli scream, and then I saw Blood... I, I killed that baby... I shudder thinking of the baby that was aborted because of me.The cry of the baby wafted through the night air.I run all the way, I want to get out of this place.But the faster I run, the louder the crying of the baby fills my ears, it keeps chasing me, I can't escape, just like I can't escape my fate... Cloudy, no wind, no rain, the air is even more dull. Ah Hua did not see Fangfang under the plane tree again.

Fangfang didn't show up for a few days. Could it be that she is really getting married? If she is really married, then her status is different, and she won't go shopping with her. Can marriage really change Fangfang's life?Has Fangfang really turned from a black chicken into a phoenix? Every day when she went out to buy vegetables, she hoped to see Fangfang standing under the plane tree waiting for her bored.Ahua thought of what Fangfang said to her, and said that she would introduce her to work as a nanny in the future, and Ahua said in her heart: "I won't go, you still want me to serve you! No way! Hmph !"

Ah Hua was walking on the way to buy vegetables, and she planned to secretly buy garlic for Zhang Molin, what if Mei Ping found out!She couldn't imagine the consequences of that. That day when she heard that there was something going on upstairs, she secretly stood downstairs and looked up. She would not go upstairs. Mei Ping had explained to her when she came that she didn't have to worry about what happened in this family. Just do what she's supposed to do. Ah Hua who was standing downstairs couldn't see Mei Ping who was talking to Zhang Molin. She only saw Zhang Molin on the railing of the staircase at the entrance of the attic on the fourth floor, and she only saw Zhang Molin's back.

Zhang Molin held the ax high in both hands, and saw Zhang Molin's body leaning back, the ax fell out of his hands, and fell on the floor in front of A'hua, with a loud bang, the floor was smashed into a hole. pit. A'hua was shocked, the ax almost fell on her head, if the ax really fell on her head, what kind of tragedy would happen to her, A'hua didn't dare to think about it, she was afraid . Ah Hua was still in shock and worried that Zhang Molin would fall freely like the axe. If Zhang Molin's body fell from upstairs, what kind of noise would it make?What shape would his body break into?

... After thinking about it, Ah Hua came to the vegetable market.The vegetable market was crowded with people, it was unusually noisy, and all kinds of smells mixed together, making the air here unusually turbid.Ah Hua was picking and choosing in the vegetable market, and when the vegetables were almost bought, she came to Ah Mao's pork stall. The hands are also much stronger. Amao cut a knife of pork for a customer, weighed it on an electronic scale, put the pork in a convenience bag, and handed it to the customer: "5 yuan!" The customer said: "It won't be short of catties!"

Amao smiled and said, "Don't worry, you are a regular customer, how can I cheat you?" After paying the money, the customer left suspiciously! Amao said to Ahua: "People nowadays are afraid of being tricked, so wherever they go, they think that others are tricking them!" Ah Hua smiled: "Then will you cheat me?" Amao said: "If I cheat anyone, I can't cheat you!" Ah Hua said: "That's not sure, people nowadays can't believe it." Amao said: "Ah Hua, what's the matter with you today, you speak in a strange way?"

Ah Hua blushed, she threw the written letter on Ah Mao's chopping board and left in a hurry. Amao couldn't wait to pull out a piece of paper full of words from the envelope, and read it carefully, his eyebrows beamed while reading. At this time, someone came up and wanted to come with him. Amao stretched out a hand, pushed away the companion who was selling pork with him, and said, "Go, go, don't make trouble for nothing!" His companion said unhappily: "What's the big deal, isn't it just a babysitter?" After hearing what he said, Amao's face sank, he put away the letter and stuffed it into his trouser pocket, picked up a sharp knife, pointed at his companion and said, "If you talk like that again in the future, I'll stab you with a knife!"

The companion's expression changed, and he fell silent. Li Li never dreamed that after Lao Jin retired, Zhang Tingting would be the director.When Cheng just announced this decision at the staff meeting of the society.Li Li almost spat out a mouthful of blood.Even if Li Li is not considered to be the director, how can Zhang Tingting, a yellow-haired girl, be the director! Cheng Gang’s reason for making Zhang Tingting the director seems to be very good: “Although Zhang Tingting has been in the publishing house for less than two years, she has edited more than ten books, and the circulation of each book is very considerable, which proves Zhang Tingting’s ability. Now If you don’t boldly break the stereotypes and appoint newcomers, the publishing house will age, and now that the market competition is so fierce, it is imperative to appoint Zhang Tingting as the director of the literary editorial office!"

Li Li felt that what Cheng Gang said was all fart!She, Zhang Tingting, edited some low-quality online novels and fashionable petty bourgeoisie books. If you only look at the circulation and not the quality, you can get away with it. What is the relationship between her, Zhang Tingting, and Cheng Gang? Li Li returned to the office after the meeting, deliberately slammed a book on the table, and sat there angrily, with Zhang Tingting's smug smile on her mind. Zhang Tingting seemed to be very concerned about her appearance. She walked up to her and asked Han Wennuan: "Sister Li, what's the matter with you? Are you feeling unwell? If you feel unwell, you can go home and rest. Just tell me anything, and I'll take care of it for you!" Li Li didn't want to burst out her bad emotions at first, but what Zhang Tingting said made Li Li feel that she had been greatly ridiculed and insulted. She stood up and took a ceramic teacup on the table. When it hit the ground, fragments of the ceramic teacup flew, and a fragment flew on Zhang Tingting's slender and strong calf. Li Li didn't see the fragment flying on Zhang Tinghao's calf, but shouted at Zhang Tingting: "You are the only one who is sick! Don't cry like a cat and pretend to be merciful, what kind of person are you in front of me! You What is it!" At this time, some people came from other offices, and those people were all little sisters who usually stayed with Zhang Tingting. One of them said in shock, "Tingting, it's not good, your leg is bleeding!" Zhang Tingting looked down, and sure enough, her calf was cut by ceramic shards, and the blood flowed down the smooth skin to the white leather sandals inlaid with broken crystal glass. Although Zhang Tingting was usually careless, she opened her mouth and was at a loss when she saw that she was bleeding. Li Li also saw Zhang Tingting's bleeding calf, and she immediately felt guilty, but Li Li still put on a posture of not admitting her mistake, sat heavily on the chair again, and flipped through a book angrily, as if the bleeding was not Zhang Tingting, but her Li Li. A female editor found a piece of cloth from nowhere and bandaged Zhang Tingting. She let Zhang Tingting sit on a chair and asked, "Tingting, how do you feel?" Zhang Tingting seemed to have been greatly wronged, with tears in her eyes. Her gang of little sisters murmured: "I feel unbalanced if I don't become a director, take it out on Tingting, what!" "I don't have any courage at all. Fortunately, we didn't let her be the director. If she becomes the director, how will we live!" "I can't do this, I can't let Tingting suffer this in vain, report to the agency, if the agency doesn't care, report to the bureau!" "Oh, Tingting, what can I do, she has lost so much blood, why is her heart so cruel!" "How can you be so violent? There's no need to vent your anger on Tingting when Lao Jin rejects her!" ... Zhang Tingting's calf was covered with blood, and the female editor who bandaged her asked Zhang Tingting, "How do you feel?" Zhang Tingting said: "Dizziness!" The female editor quickly said: "Don't talk anymore, please send Tingting to the hospital first. The wound is too deep and the bleeding won't stop. Tetanus will cause trouble." Zhang Tingting was sent to the hospital, and Li Li stayed in the office alone, her heart was desolate and angry, she looked at the messy ceramic fragments and blood on the ground, Li Li seemed to hear the sound of breathing again, heavy The sound of breathing. No matter what, Li Li was in the wrong. She didn't know how the situation would develop. She vaguely felt a terrible worry in her heart. She seemed to have pushed herself to a dead end.Li Li remembered what little sister Tingting said just now: "How could this be so, being rejected by Lao Jin..." Did Lao Jin tell the story before retiring?That night, there was a banquet in the club to send off Lao Jin's resignation, but she didn't attend. Did Lao Jin drink too much that night and broadcast it as a joke?Otherwise, how would these yellow-haired girls know? Li Li rushed to her forehead again, why can't anyone get along with her?Why is that? The sound of breathing echoed in the office. Li Li stretched out her trembling hand and dialed a number. After the call was connected, Lao Jin's cowardly voice came: "Hello——" Li Li paused for a moment, then growled in a low voice: "Old Jin, you are a bastard!" Li Li hung up the phone with a "snap" and sat there, looking out of the sunny window with bloodshot eyes. Zhang Xiaotiao glanced coldly over the small matchbox-like window, looking for something in the pale sunlight outside the window. It was still a cloudy day in the morning, and the sun appeared after noon. Did Zhang Xiaotiao fantasize about becoming a free bird, flying in the open sky?At this time, everyone in this family has nothing to do with him, and he is immersed in free imagination and cannot extricate himself. That day at McDonald's with my aunt Zhang Wenling, my aunt said something to him, and he remembered it deeply. Aunt Zhang Wenling said to him like this: "Xiaotiao, don't go out at night when you are alone. Don’t go out if you hear anything, you know? Remember what my aunt said!” However, Zhang Xiaotiao couldn't comprehend the profound meaning of Zhang Wenling's words at all. Zhang Xiaotiao looked away from the sunlight outside the window, and suddenly remembered something. He stood up and walked out of the room quietly. The building was terribly quiet, and Zhang Xiaotiao didn't know what his father, Mao, who was at home on vacation, was doing in the room, and he didn't want to bother his father Zhang Wenbo. When he came to the second floor, he saw his grandma Mei Ping drinking tea alone. He didn't know what was so good about the tea. Where is Grandpa Zhang Molin? He didn't know, he only knew that Zhang Molin didn't teach him to play the piano now, and to be honest, he hated playing the piano very much.It was all grandma and his father's idea.How much he wanted to smash that old piano into pieces, and then take it to the garden and dig a big pit and bury it like a corpse. This kind of idea has not been realized in the end, the piano is still alive like an old monster, and it is possible to catch him at any time, let his hands massage it, and make it make a comfortable cry. Sometimes, Zhang Xiaotiao really wanted to tell his father Zhang Wenbo, one day when you go to a massage parlor for a massage, bring a massage lady back and let her die after pressing the piano once!But he couldn't speak. If he said that, his father Zhang Wenbo would beat his ass to death. Zhang Xiaotiao has an instinctive fear of his grandma Mei Ping. Sometimes the image of her in his dreams is completely different from that in reality. She will grow long white hair in dreams, and her face will become a The face of the old witch, with sharp claws growing from her fingers.She would open her toothless mouth like a black hole and say to him: "You, you, your mother, your father, and your grandfather are all my slaves." Zhang Xiaotiao went downstairs while Mei Ping wasn't paying attention. He walked out of the big iron gate of the garden, and saw pedestrians with different expressions and various cars on the street. Zhang Xiaotiao suddenly had a weird and cruel idea, those cars on the street would collide and ignite a raging fire, it must be very beautiful, he was moved by his own idea, and the corners of his mouth twitched Terrible smile. Zhang Xiaotiao stood under the sycamore tree, where Fangfang often stood here waiting for Ah Hua. Zhang Xiaotiao stood there in a daze. After a while, the collision of the cars he was expecting did not happen, nor did a raging fire ignite. A small voice rang in Zhang Xiaotiao's ears, calling Zhang Xiaotiao mysteriously, and Zhang Xiaotiao decided to go to a certain place. Zhang Xiaotiao took out the money in his pocket. He counted, and there were more than ten yuan. When Zhang Xiaotiao walked towards the bus stop, he ran into Ah Hua whose face was blushing. Ah Hua carried a basket full of vegetables. Zhang Xiaotiao put his hands in his trouser pockets, and walked towards A'hua staggeringly. When Ah Hua saw Zhang Xiaotiao, her expression changed.She didn't know what this little ancestor was going to do. Zhang Xiaotiao stopped Ah Hua. Ah Hua said, "Xiaotiao, what are you doing?" Seeing A'hua's tense and vigilant look, Zhang Xiaotiao sneered and remained silent. A'hua tried to escape from his side, but Zhang Xiaotiao moved nimbly and blocked in front of A'hua again. Ah Hua said anxiously: "Xiaotiao, what do you want to do? I want to go home and work. There are still many things to do, so please stop making trouble, okay?" Zhang Xiaotiao suddenly said like an adult: "Ah Hua, I want to touch your ass!" Ah Hua's face was flushed, how could Zhang Xiaotiao say such shameless words, he was only 10 years old! A'hua pushed Zhang Xiaotiao away hard, and trotted all the way. Zhang Xiaotiao sneered at the back of A Hua who was leaving in a hurry, and said a word between his teeth: "Burn you to death, country bumpkin!" Zhang Xiaotiao was surprised that he said such a thing, why did he burn Ah Hua to death? Zhang Xiaotiao was at a loss. Zhang Xiao jumped on the bus. Through the car window, I saw someone passing by holding a large wreath. Zhang Xiaotiao's heart trembled, another person died! Zhang Xiaotiao's eyes suddenly dimmed. At Baocheng Road Station, Zhang Xiao jumped off the bus. He came to the gate of Baocheng Park. There was a flower shop at the entrance of Baocheng Park, and Zhang Xiaotiao walked in. The flower seller asked him, "My little friend, what kind of flowers do you want to buy?" Zhang Xiaotiao glared at the flower girl and said, "I'm not a kid, I'm already 10 years old!" The flower girl's eyes met Zhang Xiaotiao's, and the flower girl took a breath. Why is there an evil look in this child's eyes? Zhang Xiaotiao asked her: "If someone dies, what kind of flowers do you think is better?" The flower girl had an inexplicable fear of the child, as if he was not a child living in this sunny world.The flower girl wanted the boy to leave quickly, and he stood in the flower shop, as if all the flowers were about to wither. The flower girl said without thinking, "Chrysanthemum!" Zhang Xiaotiao said, "Then buy chrysanthemums." The flower girl immediately took a bunch of white chrysanthemums and wanted to wrap him in wrapping paper. Zhang Xiaotiao said, "I don't want that much." The flower girl was very depressed, she said: "Then how much do you want to buy?" Zhang Xiaotiao said coldly: "Two flowers are enough." The flower girl said sadly in her heart, why did she meet such a boy full of ghosts today? She took out two chrysanthemums from the bouquet and handed them to Zhang Xiaotiao. When Zhang Xiaotiao took the flowers, the flower seller's hand touched Zhang Yitiao's. Zhang Xiaotiao's hands were like ice cubes. The aunt trembled all over, Zhang Xiaotiao's eyes fell on her trembling breasts, and said coldly: "How much!" The flower girl couldn't take it anymore, she said: "These flowers are for you, no money, you go!" Zhang Xiaotiao said: "I never ask for other people's things for nothing, and you are not my aunt, how much is it?" The flower girl almost recited it all at once. She suppressed the uneasiness and fear in her heart and said, "Just give me one yuan." Zhang Xiaotiao took out a dollar from his pocket and gave it to her, then said: "Your breasts are beautiful." Zhang Xiaotiao walked out of the flower shop like a ghost and walked into Baocheng Park. Under a huge cedar tree in Baocheng Park, Zhang Xiaotiao was sitting on the root of the tree with two chrysanthemums in his hands. His eyes fell on a spot in the grass under the tree. There was a stone, a white stone, and he said in his heart : "The stone is still there, even if it is gone, I can still find this place." He stared blankly at the white stone, and liquid gradually filled his eye sockets. He saw a white butterfly flying on the grass. The butterfly fluttered in the wind like a white leaf in the sun. Finally, the butterfly landed on the stone, watching the white butterfly's wings folded quietly. Zhang Xiaotiao seems to have seen it somewhere. Zhang Xiaotiao suddenly recalled a scene that seemed very far away: it was also noon, and there was also pale sunlight.A puppy is chasing a white butterfly on the grass in the garden. The butterfly seems to be playing with the puppy, flying high and sometimes low. The puppy is jumping and barking constantly.The butterfly seemed to be tired from flying, and it landed on the tip of a grass leaf with its wings together. It was as light as a feather, and the grass stem did not move.The puppy stopped chasing, and it sat quietly on the grass, staring at the white butterfly. Is the puppy guarding the butterfly's dream?When the puppy and the butterfly were waiting for each other tacitly, a snake appeared. It swam out from the tuberose bush and quickly swam towards the puppy and the butterfly. Oily sheen.The puppy and the butterfly sank in the tranquility of corresponding waiting, and they didn't even notice the venomous snake slithering over.The poisonous snake attacked the puppy. It flew up, flew to the puppy, and entangled the puppy tightly. The puppy's neck was tightly entangled by the two-foot-long snake. It wanted to Bite a poisonous snake but can't use his kung fu at all.The puppy whimpered and spit out blood foam from its mouth. Its legs twitched and died gradually. The butterfly flew up, it was crying, but its crying could not be heard.It just flew and lingered there, and finally disappeared in the pale sunlight... Zhang Xiaotiao had actually seen that dreamlike scene. When he was very young, he saw it standing alone in the garden.At that time, his mother Li Li hadn't raised anything yet.The grown-ups all ran down when they heard the sound of him being scared and crying by the snake, but when they heard Zhang Xiaotiao talking about the scene, none of them believed it, because they didn't find any snakes, puppies or butterflies at all. Even now, Zhang Xiaotiao firmly believes that he did see that puppy, butterfly and snake back then. "Zhang Xiaotiao—" Who is calling yourself?As soon as Zhang Xiaotiao turned his face, he saw Wang Ning running from the other side. The innocent smile returned to Zhang Xiaotiao's face: "Wang Ning, why are you here?" Wang Ning came over and sat next to Zhang Xiaotiao: "Xiaotiao, I'm going out to play with grandma today. I saw you here, so I came here." Zhang Xiaotiao said, "Where's your grandma?" Wang Ning pointed to the bench under the shade of the tree over there: "She rests there, it's okay, grandma will wait for me." Zhang Xiaotiao saw the old woman, and she looked this way. Wang Ning said, "Xiaotiao, why are you ignoring me these days?" Zhang Xiaotiao said, "Did I ignore you?" Wang Ning said, "Have you forgotten? Since the day you came to school with two dead birds, you have ignored me." Zhang Xiaotiao said, "I can't remember." Wang Ning said, "Really?" Zhang Xiaotiao said, "Really!" Wang Ning said again: "Then do you still remember where you went after you disappeared that day?" Zhang Xiaotiao nodded: "I remember, I went to find a grave for the little bird. I searched a lot of places and finally found this place. After I buried the little bird, I sat here until it was dark. I saw My grandfather died, he must have come to look for me. I hid and didn't let him find me. Later, it was dark, I was very hungry, and I didn't go home until late at night..." Zhang Xiaotiao was different from his narration to his aunt Zhang Wenling. He didn't talk about being in the park, but by the Chiban River. Wang Ning was very surprised: "You said your mother took you to a dark place?" Zhang Xiaotiao nodded. Wang Ning stuck out his tongue: "It's terrible, my mother is very good to me. He will definitely not take me to a dark place and leave me alone." Zhang Xiaotiao's voice was suddenly full of chills: "Not necessarily, adults and we are dead enemies, they will not make us happy, from the day we were born, they hate us, torture and persecute us in different ways, they It is not pleasant to see us happy, and the grown-ups are our natural enemies!" Wang Ning couldn't understand Zhang Xiaotiao's words, she said with bright eyes, "Why am I so happy?" Zhang Xiaotiao said quietly: "Because you were killed by them a long time ago, of course the dead don't have pain." Wang Ning said, "Zhang Xiaotiao, you are scary." Zhang Xiaotiao said, "Why are you afraid of me? Aren't we good friends?" Wang Ning nodded and said, "However, Xiaotiao, I found that you have changed." Zhang Xiaotiao ignored her words, but turned his eyes to the white stone on the grass. He found that the shadow of the white butterfly disappeared. Where did it fly? How wonderful it would be to be just a chick, or to turn into a white butterfly by myself, staying there all the time, never leaving no matter it is windy or rainy. Zhang Xiaotiao said, "Wang Ning, do you think people can turn into butterflies?" Wang Ning shook his head: "That's impossible." Zhang Xiaotiao said, "If I were to turn into a butterfly, would you come and see me?" Wang Ning nodded: "But you can't become a butterfly." Zhang Xiaotiao stopped talking again, he stood up, walked to the white stone, squatted down, the stone was shining white, and he put the two white chrysanthemums on the stone. Wang Ning walked over, stood beside her and said, "Xiaotiao, what are you doing!" Zhang Xiaotiao said quietly: "I'm here to visit the dead bird's grave. I bought two white chrysanthemums, one for each of them." Wang Ning also squatted down, and when she saw Zhang Xiaotiao's eyes filled with crystal clear tears, Wang Ning suddenly felt sad too: "Are they buried here?" Zhang Xiaotiao nodded. Wang Ning said: "They are so pitiful." Zhang Xiaotiao said to Wang Ning: "Wang Ning, if I died suddenly like a bird, would you bury me here? How nice this place is, I found it after searching many places." Wang Ning nodded and said: "I will, but don't talk nonsense, how could you die, you are still so young, we still have to grow up!" Zhang Xiaotiao said: "Wang Ning, you are so kind. If I can grow up, I will definitely want you to be my wife. I will love you for the rest of my life. It's not like my father looking for women outside." Wang Ning blushed, and her heart was beating wildly, she stood up and said to Zhang Xiaotiao: "Okay, you can go home quickly, the family members will be anxious if you run out alone. I'm going to be with my grandma." She ran away, and when she turned her head occasionally, she found that Zhang Xiaotiao had disappeared, but the two white chrysanthemums on the stone were still there. She went back to her grandma and said, "Why did Zhang Xiaotiao disappear all of a sudden?" Grandma smiled: "You said the classmate who was with you just now, don't you think he is walking towards the gate of the park?" However, Wang Ning never saw Zhang Xiaotiao's figure, and suddenly became worried for Zhang Xiaotiao.