Chapter 2 Chapter two

There are many evils, which are weird and inexplicable.He wondered whose heart it was—_Why didn't they tell me?What concerns?Who else is there to worry about besides me?Is there any secret?Or something hidden? After Dr. Meng's observation and treatment, it was confirmed that Wu Bingbing was in a normal state of mind, and she was finally discharged from the hospital after the operation.This morning, she got up very late.My mother's school is very close to home, and I came back to take a look during the break, and saw her squatting on the sofa in the bedroom in her pajamas, frantically flipping through the pile of colorful newspapers in front of her.There was milk and cake prepared for her in the morning on the tea table, she just kept busy and didn't move at all.

Wu Bingbing glanced at ten lines at a glance, flipping through the newspapers for more than half a month, always looking at a page of important news and local city news, searching for the titles she was interested in.Japanese businessmen built pulp mills and planted eucalyptus in mountainous areas; robbery cases occurred frequently, and plainclothes police set up cards to solve 20 cases a day; female painter Jiang Lan’s murder case was finally pronounced, and thousands of people watched when she was executed... "Looking down like running water. After being busy for a while, I finally believed what my mother said—she was anesthetized and dormant for such a long time, and there was nothing important to remember.Life is mediocre and trivial, how can there be so many new things.

Mom asked her if she had taken any medicine, and she said she had.Mom urged her to hurry up and eat breakfast. Sitting in front of the tea table, Wu Bingbing frowned and said, "Mom, I don't want to eat these." Mom asked her what's wrong: "Don't you like milk and cake for breakfast?" "I want something salty—when I wake up hungry, I think about ham, and steak, and salty porridge." "Didn't you always eat sweet for breakfast, never salty? Those high in fat and high in cholesterol—" "Whatever, I want to eat anyway... Mom, tell me, has my appetite changed after the operation?"

"Eat what you want. Mom will buy you whatever you want. What has changed? It hasn't changed." "Then thank you, Mom, you are very kind." Mom went downstairs to do some shopping.Wu Bingbing stood up and walked to the balcony, moving her sore legs.Looking at the clear and clean blue sky above her head and the freely curling white clouds in the distance, she feels that she is in a particularly good mood at the moment, and a desire to relax arises spontaneously. She really wants to run out, stretch her muscles and bones outside the house, and have a good rest. Suddenly a string of laughter floated over, the girl's relaxed and cheerful smile was as pure as a mountain stream.She searched excitedly, and saw an endless green meadow under the sky directly in front of her. A group of children dressed up in fancy clothes were running, laughing and playing. The bigger it gets, the clearer it becomes.A little girl in a red jacket, blue trousers, and braided horns saw her first, and pointed in her direction, and the group of children also ran in this direction with satisfaction, shoving and screaming as they ran, smiling...

Seeing their carefree appearance, she smiled enviously, and really wanted to run over to play with them. In an instant, she felt that she had returned to her childhood, and the calls of those children calling for friends made her blood boil with excitement and she danced with excitement.She saw a wall made of stones in front of her. Outside the wall was a quiet pond. Walking past the pond was the grassland.As soon as she jumped up, she climbed onto the fence, sat on the top of the wall and looked at the children, her feet were stirring in the pond, and the cool feeling spread from the soles of her feet to her whole body, very comfortable and cool...

At some point, the girl with the shofar braids stood by the pond and greeted her with a smile.This little girl has a round face, big eyes, and two small dimples when she smiles. She is very pretty, and there is a shiny thing hanging on her chest. I remember that some children living in my grandmother's village have worn it.By the way, that is a longevity lock, a silver longevity lock. The girl came from the path by the pond, and the bell on the Longevity Lock rang softly.She still smiled innocently, and raised her thin white arms to beckon her to go down, with a soft and seductive voice: "Sister, come down, come down and play with us. Come down, come down——"

The mother bought the ham and other food she wanted for her daughter at KFC across the street. When she came back and walked to the gate of the community, she saw a group of people gathered there, all looking up and talking upstairs.She asked what was wrong, what to see?Several people replied to her that there was a girl upstairs who wanted to commit suicide. She then looked upstairs and saw a girl sitting on the balcony of a house in the middle of the building, sitting on the balcony railing with her face facing out, her feet dangling non-stop.There was no safety net installed on the balcony, and the girl looked like she might jump down at any moment—she counted the floors, the 12th floor, she was so frightened that her legs went limp, she rushed into the elevator screaming, and knocked her hand off in a panic. I don't care to pick up things.He kept urging the elevator, hurry up, hurry up!

She opened the door of her house and rushed in, the first thing she saw was her daughter sitting on the balcony.Looking at her back, she didn't dare to vent her anger, gritted her teeth, and shouted softly: "Bingbing———" After shouting a lot, Wu Bingbing slowly turned her head as if she had just woken up from a dream. Mom said, "Don't move, sit still—listen to me and don't move at all. By the way—" She walked over carefully to her daughter, "Come on, slowly move your right hand Give me--" She grabbed her daughter's hand and pulled her off with all her strength.The two of them hugged each other and fell on the floor inside.Mom still didn't let go of her for a long time, and blamed her angrily: "What's wrong with you? Why are you sitting there? You don't want to live anymore? Don't you want to live? Do you really want to commit suicide?"

Wu Bingbing fell to the ground, got rid of the confused state just now, and muttered to himself: "What's wrong? What did I do just now? I didn't intend to commit suicide... I don't know why—" The mother was very annoyed: "You are not a child anymore, even a child knows that if you stumble, you will fall downstairs." Wu Bingbing was very confused: "I really... don't understand, what happened just now?—" Throughout the morning, Wu Bingbing locked herself in the room, walking around for a while, lying on the bed for a while, her thoughts were always entangled in a series of unsolvable doubts.

When she was sitting at the table, she drew many large and small question marks on the white paper in front of her. There is a pen holder on the table, which contains pens, pencils, plastic rulers, and paper knives.Several times she pulled out the paper knife and put it in again, holding it in her hand like playing with a pencil, sometimes dangling it in front of her face, sometimes cutting the question marks on the paper boringly, playing non-stop, Almost cut my hand in the middle.She didn't understand why she became interested in the knife, so she forced herself to put it in the pen holder.But after a while, she found that she picked up the knife again without knowing it, and subconsciously used it to scrape back and forth on the back of her hand and arm.She secretly scolded herself for not being able to control herself, and solemnly put the knife in again.However, she always felt that her attention could not be separated from the knife.She turned her back on purpose not to look at it, but her mind could never forget the existence of the knife, and she always felt that the knife was staring at her with shining eyes.This made her very distressed, so she simply turned around, stared at the pen container angrily, then picked up the knife in puzzlement, and pondered in front of her face—why is it so strange?Could it be that this knife has some magic power?

At this time, my mother opened the door and came in. Seeing her fiddling with a knife in front of her eyes, she was really shocked again.Mother asked her in amazement what happened?After explaining over and over for a long time, my mother was convinced that she did not commit suicide. Her mother told her that she had just received a call from the hospital telling her to go for a re-examination in two days. At this time, Bingbing raised her head and asked hesitantly: "Mom, do you still remember what I told you the day before yesterday?" Mom tidied up the things she messed up and asked, "What did you say the day before yesterday?" "I think—" she put her hand on her chest, "my heart is so strange." Mom looked at her with concern: "Do you feel uncomfortable anywhere?" She frowned and said, "It's not that I'm uncomfortable. I always feel something is wrong. I don't know what it was like during the operation. Anyway, it was a strange day when I woke up. I don't know why I ran out of the hospital? ... Also, That day in the ambulance, Dr. Meng pressed my forehead, and my heart seemed to be frightened, beating like crazy..." Mom smiled: "You are usually shy when you grow up, is it because of Dr. Meng—?" Bingbing was in a hurry: "Mom, where is this going? I'm talking about business." Mom quickly said: "Okay. Go ahead, go ahead." Bingbing went on to say: "There is also a strange voice." "What—sound?" Mom seemed to be listening intently. "It's the cry, it's from that heart." "There is no sound, it should be—" "Like the neighing of wild animals." "Yes, there is a cry in the heart?" "That voice really came from my body." "Ridiculous, are you talking in your sleep in broad daylight?" "It's really the cry of a beast, high and low." "Who will believe your nonsense, nonsense!" "What I said is true!" Bingbing was a little helpless. At this time, the phone rang again.Mom hurried out to answer the phone. Bingbing complained: "What I said is clearly - forget that I didn't say it." Soon, my mother came over again and asked her to answer the phone, saying that it was Guo Kai. Guo Kai is her middle school and college classmate, and her boyfriend. They have been in love for five years.The students are going to Shennongjia for an internship tomorrow, and Guo Kai came to see her. It only takes half a day, and the tickets for the afternoon are all bought. Half an hour later, the two were walking in the park in the middle of the street.Wu Bingbing walked ahead, Guo Kai followed, and did not speak for a long time. Wu Bingbing almost forgot about Guo Kai. She felt as if she was walking in a deep mountain forest. Some force pulled her forward unconsciously. Images flashed in front of her eyes: bright sunshine at the end of the gloomy forest , there was a stone house surrounded by thick brambles, and there were tall oleanders with white and pink flowers.Blurred faces emerged from among the flowers... Seeing Wu Bingbing walking and getting into the bushes of the park, Guo Kai quickly caught up with her and grabbed her. Seeing her preoccupied look, Guo Kai asked her if she was not feeling well?Wu Bingbing shook her head.Ask her if she is upset about anything?Wu Bingbing also shook her head.Asked if she was mad at him?Wu Bingbing still shook her head.Guo Kai embraced her waist intimately, but Wu Bingbing subconsciously avoided it. Guo Kai was surprised.Even Wu Bingbing herself didn't know why, she lost her previous enthusiasm for Guo Kai, and she didn't want to say anything, just like facing a stranger. Guo Kai said, "I'll be leaving in an hour—" Bingbing said: "Then go." "I'm afraid the internship will take two months before we can meet." "Two months—all right." "Why are you so calm? You can't—" "What? It's not life and death." "At least say a few words of affection—" "What are you talking about, you're not a child..." "come here--" "Why? I'm not going." "Come here—" "What are you doing, I don't want to go there." Guo Kai stepped forward and hugged Wu Bingbing, but he didn't want to slap her. Guo Kai was stunned, and Wu Bingbing was also stunned by his behavior.Guo Kai's eyes widened: "Do you not love me anymore?" Wu Bingbing muttered aggrievedly: "Don't do this—" Guo Kai left angrily.Wu Bingbing called him twice from behind, but he ignored him and walked away. Wu Bingbing squatted on the ground, covering her face with her hands, thinking about it, she began to cry. That night, Wu Bingbing's eyes were sore from reading, stretching and yawning like a kitten, but she refused to sleep for a long time.In fact, she had another hidden worry, which she didn't tell her startled mother—every night, she had dreams as soon as she fell asleep, and they were all nightmares—this gave her more doubts and troubles. So, as usual, she procrastinated and refused to go to bed early, reading books non-stop-although her mind was not all on books.The typefaces on the book turned into rows of ants, attacking her non-stop, wave after wave, always being driven away by her, she shook her head to regain some energy, and continued to read. Until late at night, she could no longer resist the erosion of sleepiness, and finally turned off the bedside lamp and lay down, took a deep breath, and relaxed her tired body.She didn't want that annoying dream to reappear, and she prepared without fear.After her eyelids were closed heavily, her mind gradually became blurred. In the haze, a huge black curtain descended from the sky, slowly covering her... ...She felt light and light, walking alone in the dark night, not knowing where she came from or where she was going.There is no moon in the sky, only a few stars.I can't see the houses around me, the trees are dark; I can smell oleander and a meow or two.As she walked forward, she saw a section of stone wall among the bushes. Sitting on the wall was a little girl wearing a red jacket, blue trousers, braided braids, and a longevity lock on her chest.She giggled beside her, stretched out her small hand and pointed forward, and said softly to her, "Sister, go that way, go that way—" She took a few steps forward and turned around, only to find that the girl had disappeared.Immediately, he felt uneven under his feet, as if he had fallen into a low-lying, damp pothole in the mountains, and the dense thorns and weeds rushed towards him.At this time, she heard the heavy panting of some kind of beast coming from far and near, and she was so frightened that she started to run.And that beast is clearly walking this way, and you can hear its greedy whimpering and the snapping sound of its claws breaking the branches of the bush... As she ran forward, she screamed nervously and pitifully.In addition to the wild beast chasing, she clearly felt that there was a white figure following her in the darkness, maybe that white figure was driving the wild beast away.She fell down again and again as if her legs were not in control, but she always got up quickly and ran forward after bumps and bumps.She walked through a wood and across a sloping field and came across a house and a yard surrounded by log fences.She ran over, climbed over the fence, and hid in the yard.In the yard there is a canopy frame made of bamboo poles, with strange shapes of melons and fruits hanging from it, giving people a hideous and terrifying association in the dim morning light... There was a dim light in the house, and a woman in taupe clothes was sitting in the center of the room, with her thin body facing away from the door.She came in and whispered, Please, kind soul, let me hide here!The woman didn't respond.She walked to the opposite side and saw her face covered by long hair, she couldn't see the eyes under the hair, she only saw the flat and pale chin, her lips were tightly bitten, and there was a mole at the corner of her mouth.She shook her shoulders lightly, and she fell to the ground like a bundle of straw. Only then did she see the face clearly, her eyes were gouged out, leaving only bloody holes... She cried out in horror, jumped over the dead man, and ran desperately out of the house.She heard the voice in the bushes, and clearly saw a white figure of a woman deep in the woods, so she ran in the other direction without hesitation.Behind her, the woman in white yelled ghastly and hoarsely: "You will die like her! That is my heart! I will not let you go! You will die! Die like her! Wait to die ! Die!—” She was so frightened that she trembled all over, crying and ran forward, and the dark cloud above her head followed her like a monster. Looking back at the outline of the village far behind him, he breathed a sigh of relief and slowed down.She saw a very high mountain in front of her, covered with dark clouds, as if it was raining, and heard thunder rumbling in the distance.There is a wind blowing from the other side of the mountain, pushing the dark clouds.At the foot of the mountain shrouded in dark clouds, I saw a large black phlox... She felt her body spinning with the wind and rain, and she was thrown into the middle of the woods at some point, surrounded by hard tree trunks and large flowers.Oleander suddenly turned into pale and blood-red faces, and at the same time stretched out his arms and legs to block her, tripped and entangled her repeatedly, and also scratched streaks of blood on her face.She fell and got up again, so frightened that she cried hoarsely.He ran back and forth among the trees, but couldn't get out. At this time, a cat slipped past her.She followed the cat as if delirious.When she looked up, she found a dead tree in front of her, and another person was lying between the branches and staring at her.She retreated into the bushes, inspecting the bonsai-like dead trees and people in the bright place, and found that it was a man in his fifties, with a thick build, gray hair and flat head, broad face, thick eyebrows, and golden fish eyes.He was wearing a gray suit, black trousers, and a pair of flat shoes on the soles of his feet. She had never seen this man.But she walked over resolutely, told him that she was being chased, and begged him to help her.Said for a long time he did not respond.Only then did he discover that he was a dead man, dead standing there with his neck clamped between two tree branches.Blood dripped from both sides of his ears and pooled on the ground.She screamed again and turned and ran. Unexpectedly, she stumbled, and when she got up, she found that everything around her had changed. In a blink of an eye, the world was bleak, the leaves fell, and the forest was bare, turning into dead trees.Outside the withered forest, there is a vast expanse of whiteness, a world covered in ice and snow.The mountain in the distance is still there, but it is surrounded by silver, which seems to shorten the distance.She was still walking forward, her face was uncomfortable from the dry and cold wind, and her brain hurt from the bright light on the snow.She looked up suddenly and found a wolf, blocking her at the intersection ahead. The wolf had a ferocious face, smoking from its cracked mouth, and its fangs gleamed coldly... She ran back again and saw a house at the foot of the mountain in the distance, so she ran towards it in a hurry.Coming to the front, Jing felt as if he had been here before.There was a cat on the window sill of that house, which gave her a vicious look, and sneaked into the house through the window.She saw a white figure swaying behind the window, and heard a woman's gloomy voice: "Damn it! Give me my heart back! Give me my heart back!" "Ah!—" Wu Bingbing yelled and woke up.She found herself lying under the bed, on the floor between the bed and the cabinet, dripping with sweat. Sitting on the ground and panting for a long time, she was still in palpitations from the horrible dream just now. She frowned and said to herself: "Her heart? What do you mean?—" One day, on the way to the hospital, Wu Bingbing asked, "Mom, have you seen that girl?" Feeling sudden, my mother asked, "Which girl?" "That's—the one that gave me my heart?" Mom was stunned for a moment and said, "I haven't seen it before. What's the matter?" Bingbing asked: "Tell me, what does she look like?" Mom didn't answer, just gave her a puzzled look, and walked away on her own. Bingbing said: "These days, whenever I fall asleep, I dream. The dream is either a dark night or a gray sky. There is always a woman chasing me, dressed in white, with loose hair, yelling and cursing at the same time. ...I only see her figure, but not her face, I don't know what she looks like..." Mom suddenly shuddered and squeezed her arm tightly. She wanted to go on, and her mother said, "Stop talking nonsense. Are you scaring my mother again? What kind of woman in white, with disheveled hair... how can such a thing happen. I don't like to hear it." Seeing her mother's nervous look, Bingbing quickly shut her mouth. When they came to the hospital, the nurse on duty told them that Dr. Meng was receiving guests and asked them to wait for a while.But not long after, another tall, thin female doctor came and said that Dr. Meng asked her to examine Bingbing. The next examination is also very simple, mainly to see how she is recovering after the operation, tap on the healing wound, tap it a few times, listen to the heartbeat with a stethoscope, and finally take an electrocardiogram... The female doctor said to her It's good to come, everything is normal, and I said it's okay, don't worry. This made Wu Bingbing a little regretful—although she didn't want a male doctor to examine her, Dr. Meng didn't examine her personally, which made her feel that she had lost another chance to verify—is this heart really afraid of Meng? What about the doctor?Therefore, she did not leave immediately after the examination, and her mother accompanied her, waiting for Dr. Meng. Finally, Dr. Meng came out of the doctor's office, and there was another man who was slightly older than him. It seemed that Dr. Meng saw him off, and they walked towards the elevator together.Wu Bingbing stared at the man walking into the elevator, then hurriedly ran to the side glass window and looked down, waiting for them to come out from downstairs.She was stunned at that moment—a thick build, gray cropped hair, a broad face, bushy eyebrows, and goldfish eyes—she had seen this man in her dream yesterday.But in the dream he died, he was caught between two tree branches—she looked at the man downstairs, with the gray jacket and black trousers, which made her puzzled. She watched Dr. Meng send the man to the parking lot, saw the two shake hands and say goodbye, and watched the man turn around and get in the car and leave. After a while, Dr. Meng came back, and Wu Bingbing went up to meet him, and asked eagerly, "Uncle Meng, that person—that person just now, who is he?" Dr. Meng was startled, and asked in puzzlement, "What's wrong?" Wu Bingbing said: "I seem to have seen him before, where did I see him, and who is he?" Dr. Meng said, "Impossible, you haven't seen him." "Let me just ask, who is he?" "I told you, you don't know him." "I saw him in my dream." Wu Bingbing blurted out anxiously. Dr. Meng looked at her suspiciously: "What? Seen it in a dream?" "That's right, I really—dream that dream," Wu Bingbing stammered, "I saw this man in the dream, he was dead, he was killed—do you believe it?" Dr. Meng shook his head and laughed: "Kill him? You said someone else killed him?" "Yeah, I don't know why—" "That's why it's called sleep talk." Dr. Meng nodded tolerantly at her, "Okay, I still have something to do, so go back when you have nothing to do! Pay attention to your body, don't think about it, and rest more." Dr. Meng walked a long way into the corridor, and Wu Bingbing just woke up and chased after him. "Uncle Meng, I still have something to ask you. Can you tell me who donated my heart? Didn't you say it was a girl? What's her name? Where does she live?" "Why do you ask this?" Dr. Meng said. "I want to know, who is she?" "No need, you don't need to know." "I have to remember who is my benefactor?" "You only have a relationship with the hospital, and the hospital is responsible for you to the end." "But I want to know, I want to remember him, can you tell me?" "No, the hospital keeps the donors absolutely confidential, so go back!" When Dr. Meng walked into the office, Wu Bingbing chased him to the office, and even sat across from him, asking questions over and over again.And Dr. Meng always prevaricates and prevaricates her with various reasons.But she was still relentlessly pestering her, which made Dr. Meng gradually lost his mood, kept a straight face, and never told her. Wu Bingbing was puzzled—it was unreasonable, it was changing my heart, why didn't I know? She didn't want to go home, and when she questioned her father, her father also didn't tell her, no matter how she asked, her father would always answer that she didn't know.And the mother has an innocent expression of not knowing anything, which makes people anxious. She thought that there must be a reason why they refused to tell me.What are your concerns?Who else is there to worry about besides me?Is there another secret?Or is there something hidden?Even if there is, you don't have to hide it from me?I don't care about the mess, I just want to figure out what I'm confused about...