Chapter 18 Chapter 17 Agents are people made of special materials

Chen Jiao asks Director Mi for leave and returns to Foshan to take care of Aunt Lan.With the popularity of the "Once Upon a Time" series of movies, more and more people came to Foshan to practice martial arts, and the martial arts school became more and more prosperous.The school building of the Yingcai Martial Arts School has been renovated, and two rows of new student dormitories have been built.Only the staff dormitory is still the same. Compared with the new student dormitory with red tiles and white walls, it looks somewhat shabby.Aunt Lan's house is still the same, except that there is an extra photo frame on the wall.Huang Shirong's posthumous photo was placed next to his father's posthumous photo.Ah Rong, who was wearing an olive police uniform, stood side by side with his father, who was wearing a navy blue police uniform, making everyone who walked into this small room feel a sense of heaviness.Aunt Lan sat on the bed most of the time every day, looking at the photos of the father and son in a trance.

"Aunt Lan, let's eat." Chen Jiao set the dining table and called out to Aunt Lan who was sitting on the bed blankly.Aunt Lan didn't seem to hear.Chen Jiao yelled three times in a row before she slowly turned her head. "I'm not hungry." It took her a long time to answer. "Aunt Lan, what can you do if you don't eat? What if your body collapses?" Chen Jiao said anxiously. "What's the use of my life? Ah Rong's father left early. Fortunately, he left Ah Rong to accompany me. Now that Ah Rong has also left, I am left as a lonely old woman. What's the point of living? Let God take me in too. Let's go."

After Aunt Lan finished speaking, she lay down on the bed and turned her body to the wall. Ren Chenjiao ignored her screams.Aunt Lan turned a deaf ear to Chen Jiao's enlightenment.She seemed to have lost the motivation to live, and after being forced by Chen Jiao to eat a little food every day, she lay on the bed. He didn't speak three words to Chen Jiao a day, and he was indifferent to the neighbors who came to visit.Chen Jiao can't do anything about Aunt Lan's situation.Her own condition was terrible, waking up from the same nightmare almost every night.She was in a dark cave, and the bat flew towards her, tearing her hair and slapping her face with its greasy wings.She fled out of the cave and fell into the river.During a raging storm, a woman desperately pushes her head into the icy water of a river.She struggled and called for help when a man swam over from a distance and pushed her to the river bank. She saw clearly that the man was Ah Rong. sinking rapidly.Every time she woke up from the nightmare screaming, she was panicked, panting heavily, and soaked in sweat.She felt that she was now a walking dead, without emotion.Every day I struggle to get up to go to the market to buy, prepare meals, and serve them to Aunt Lan.Aunt Lan always took two bites and then put it down.She herself had no appetite, and even felt sick looking at the food on the table.Within a week, she lost three kilograms.One morning, while she was drying clothes by the door, she passed out on the floor.Chen Jiao was sent to the hospital by Aunt Lan and her neighbors.

"Chen Jiao is pregnant." When the doctor announced that Chen Jiao was two months pregnant, she was shocked.During this period of time, she experienced too many things, and she was so nervous that she ignored the fact that her menstrual period was delayed. She never thought that she would be pregnant.Hearing what the doctor said, she was stunned. After hearing the news, Aunt Lan's cloudy eyes suddenly lit up.She took Chen Jiao's hand and asked eagerly, "Is the child Arong's? I know you two slept together three years ago. Two months ago, Arong told me that he met you in Shenzhen. Are you sure?" Sleeping again? Is this child Arong's?" Chen Jiao looked at Aunt Lan in bewilderment, not knowing how to answer.

"Is it, isn't it?" Aunt Lan asked anxiously.Facing Aunt Lan's expectant eyes, Chen Jiao nodded unconsciously. "Great! Great! God knows, our Huang family has a queen!" Aunt Lan hugged Chen Jiao excitedly.Aunt Lan was worried, so she went to the doctor to ask about Chen Jiao's condition. The doctor took the B-ultrasound picture she had just done and told her, "The fetus is developing well. It's just that your daughter-in-law is a little malnourished. Go back and feed her well." " Aunt Lan grabbed the B-ultrasound picture and stuck it to her chest, as if she was sticking to the body of her future grandson.She hurriedly said to the doctor: "Thank you doctor, thank you doctor. I will make up for her when I get back!" After returning home, Aunt Lan helped Chen Jiao to lie on the bed, took her hand and said earnestly: "A-Jiao, You must give birth to this child. After giving birth to this child, you will be the hero of our Huang family and the benefactor of Aunt Lan. Ah Rong will thank you in the underground. Promise me, okay?" Chen Jiao said: " Aunt Lan, let me think about it?" Aunt Lan let go of her hand in disappointment.

"Aunt Lan doesn't force you, you should think about it. I'll go to the vegetable market to buy a chicken and make soup for you." Looking at Aunt Lan's stumbling back, Chen Jiao felt sore in her heart.In the evening, when Aunt Lan brought a bowl of chicken soup and asked her with pleading eyes, Chen Jiao replied clearly: "Aunt Lan, I have made up my mind to give birth to this child." Aunt Lan's face was filled with tears immediately. "Thank you, Gillian, I thank you on behalf of Arong's father and Arong." Chen Jiao also cried. "Being able to give birth to brother Arong is my little repayment to him."

After Arong and Wanrou died, Chen Jiao was devastated, and her spirit was destroyed by guilt and grief.Had it not been for the accidental news of her pregnancy, this grief might have killed her.That day at the Armed Police Hospital, after going in and out of the morgue twice a day, she had the idea of ​​suicide.When a person has a mental breakdown and his beliefs are dead, he will naturally think of death to escape.Back at the Foshan Martial Arts School, facing Aunt Lan who also lost her life force made her think even more.She had thought countless times that Aunt Ruolan had also passed away, so she would definitely not live on.Pregnancy, this sudden unexpected news changed her mind.Chen Jiao decides to give birth to the child. Apart from comforting Aunt Lan and repaying Ah Rong, she also wants to use the pregnancy to avoid continuing to work.She decided to quit the organization, stay in Foshan to live a normal life with Aunt Lan and her children, and provide for Aunt Lan until her death.

Chen Jiao stayed in Foshan like this.After knowing that you are pregnant, the pregnancy reaction will come.Drowsiness, nausea when smelling oily.Aunt Lan regained her vitality and got up early every morning to go to the vegetable market to buy vegetables. Cooking nutritious dishes for Chen Jiao became her top priority.The kitchen at home is filled with the smell of stewing soup from morning till night.After the soup was stewed, he brought it to Chen Jiao himself.Sometimes Chen Jiao vomited as soon as she drank it.After vomiting, Aunt Lan would serve another bowl and stand by to watch Chen Jiao drink it.Fortunately, this uncomfortable reaction disappeared soon, and under Aunt Lan's careful care, Chen Jiao gradually gained weight.Chen Jiao stays at home every day, and occasionally goes out for a walk.She went to the bookstore and bought a few books and magazines on infant feeding and intellectual development, and also bought some cute portraits of fat dolls to stick on the bedside.These are all advocated by modern prenatal education - when you are pregnant, you often look at the portraits of beautiful children, and the children born will also be beautiful.When Chen Jiao returned to Foshan this time, she forgot to bring her mobile phone charger. When the battery was exhausted, the mobile phone stopped working.She is also happy to live this kind of undisturbed life.

She gradually began to enjoy this leisurely life, hoping to forget the past and start over.However, things are not that simple. Chen Jiao can pretend to forget the organization, but the organization will not forget her.A month later, Director Mi showed up at Aunt Lan's house.In front of Aunt Lan, Director Mi only said that he was the leader of Chen Jiao's company in Shenzhen.Chen Jiao asked for leave to go home to visit relatives, but she didn't return after the deadline, and the company couldn't contact her, so she came to see what was going on.Aunt Lan heard that she was Chen Jiao's leader, so she poured tea and gave up her seat in a courteous manner, and then informed Chen Jiao that she was pregnant.He also said that he did not let Chen Jiao go back to work, and took all the responsibility.Hearing that Chen Jiao was pregnant for more than three months, Director Mi showed a surprised expression on her face. She looked at Chen Jiao, and her eyes rested on her abdomen.Chen Jiao subconsciously protected her lower abdomen, which was not yet visible.

"The child in Gillian's womb is my son's posthumous child. Although Gillian and my son did not hold a formal wedding, they grew up together and have a very good relationship. The neighbors know that Gillian is my daughter-in-law." Aunt Lan pointed to the photo on the wall and told Director Mi, "This is my son, a policeman who just died two months ago. I thought our Huang family was going to die. Now the child in her stomach is the hope of our Huang family. I must watch her give birth to the child. Gillian can't go back to Shenzhen to work until she has a child. You should find someone else. "

Director Mi looked at Huang Shirong's photo without saying a word. After a while, she pointed to the photo next to her and asked, "Is this Huang Shirong's father?" "Yes, Ah Rong's father was also a police officer. He died in 1972. As soon as Ah Rong was demobilized from the Armed Police Force, he entered the Public Security Bureau, saying that he was taking care of the orphans of martyrs. Unexpectedly, he had only worked for one year, and he became a police officer. martyr." Aunt Lan broke down in tears as she spoke.Director Mi's eyes were also a little red.She was silent for a long time, and said to Aunt Lan: "Can I talk to Chen Jiao alone?" "You don't want to mobilize her to give up this child!" Aunt Lan said. "I just want to talk to Chen Jiao about work arrangements." Director Mi said. "Let's go outside for a walk." Chen Jiao stood up. "A-Jiao!" Aunt Lan called out uneasily, trying to say something, but was interrupted by Chen Jiao. "Aunt Lan, don't worry, I have my own ideas." Chen Jiao and Director Mi went to the lychee forest behind the school and found a slope to sit down. "Why didn't you report your pregnancy to the organization?" Director Mi asked her. "I'm afraid..." Chen Jiao lowered her head and murmured. "What are you afraid of?" Director Mi looked at her sharply.Chen Jiao suddenly cried. "After Zhang Wanrou's brother died, I had nightmares every night. I felt that they were all killed by me. I was about to collapse! When I knew I was pregnant, do you know how I felt? I felt that I was killed Saved, let me have the opportunity to redeem my sins to Brother Arong and Aunt Lan..." "But you are still so young, and you are not yet married. Having children is not in line with national policy." Director Mi said. "Please, Director Mi, let me give birth to this child. My heart is already empty, and now only this child is inside. I wait for him to grow up slowly and fill my heart little by little. If even He was also lost, and I became a heartless person, no different from a walking dead..." Chen Jiao cried. "I understand your feelings. After each bat completes a task, we will send someone to give him psychological counseling to help him get out of his psychological shadow. Only you haven't had time yet." Director Mi said. "I don't want to do any psychological counseling, I just want to keep this child. If the child is gone, no psychological counseling will work!" Chen Jiao said excitedly. "Okay. You can have this baby." Director Mi considered for a moment, and finally said as if he had made up his mind. "Really?" Director Mi agreed so readily that Chen Jiao couldn't believe it.Director Mi nodded.She looked at Chen Jiao, and asked seriously: "Chen Jiao, are you really sure that the baby in your belly is Huang Shirong's?" Chen Jiao blushed, "Of course." Director Mi breathed a sigh of relief, "That's good. Aunt Lan is more fortunate than me, and you have left her a grandson. My poor son didn't even talk about love before he died." she said sadly. "Director Mi!" Chen Jiao called out guiltily. "Don't say anything. You can stay here and wait for the delivery, and take care of Aunt Lan by the way. Now you are her greatest comfort." Director Mi said. "Thank you Director Mi." Chen Jiao said gratefully. "You don't have to thank me. I'm retiring soon. This may be the last bit of help I can give you." Director Mi looked at Chen Jiao, "This is a very cruel profession. Undercover agents live in lies every day. As time goes by, I can't tell which ones are true and which ones are false. It is one of the commandments of agents not to have true feelings." One, it’s like acting. In order to impress the audience, actors must give their true emotions when performing. This is called fake acting. An excellent actor should take back his emotions when the curtain falls on the stage and prepare for the next stage. A show." "I can't do it. Two living people, who died because of me, were once my closest people. Have you ever considered my feelings? I can't do it as if nothing happened, can't You can take it in and out freely..." Chen Jiao said, with tears in her eyes again.Director Mi patted Chen Jiao on the shoulder, and said earnestly: "No one is born to be able to do this, they grow up after being baptized. Agents are special people, made of special materials. people." "But I'm not made of special materials. I just want to be an ordinary person." Chen Jiao said. "I personally selected you. I believe in my own vision. You are agile, flexible, and have a strong memory. You have the basic qualities of an agent. Your weakness is your excessive demand for emotions. This may be related to your life experience. It is related that people who grow up in a lack of caring environment have stronger emotional needs than children who grow up in normal families. There is no way to do this. Weak agent." "I don't think I'm suitable to be an agent. I'm just an ordinary person. I hope to live an ordinary life." Chen Jiao said. "In our industry, there are many excellent talents. They are talented, wise and courageous. If they use their talents to do other things, they will definitely earn money and fame. But their entry into this industry means that Their devotion can only be silent. They dedicate their youth, talents, and even their lives. Not only will they not be rewarded publicly, but they may be misunderstood by relatives and friends. However, the operation of the state machine requires someone to make such sacrifices. Those who are selected can only do so without hesitation." Director Mi said. "I don't have such a high awareness, I really don't want to do it anymore. Director Mi, can I quit the bat?" Chen Jiao said bravely. "Bats are state secrets, and you can't withdraw if you want to. To become a bat requires a series of tests, and you also need to undergo an organizational test when you withdraw. Unless you are seriously injured or mentally ill, the identification team believes that you cannot Only when you are qualified for the job can you quit.” Director Mi said. "I'm definitely not up to the job, really, I know, I can't..." Chen Jiao covered her face and started crying again.There was a look of pity in Director Mi's eyes.She patted Chen Jiao's back lightly. "Encountering such a tragic result on your first mission is too cruel for you. Don't worry, time will heal all wounds. You will give birth in half a year, and there is still a year of breastfeeding. I am for you Apply for a one-and-a-half-year leave, and you stay at home and take care of yourself. Think about work later, okay?" Chen Jiao stopped crying and nodded. "Since the death of my son, some of my ideas have changed. I found that I have become a bit of a mother-in-law, and my heart can't be hardened. I know that I am old and no longer suitable for this job, and it is time to retire." Director Mi looked into the distance and said slowly. After seeing Director Mi off, Chen Jiao returned home.Aunt Lan came forward anxiously and asked, "What did your leader say? Did you mobilize you not to want this child?" "No. She granted me a year and a half of vacation." Chen Jiao answered. "It's such a good thing! One and a half years!" Aunt Lan smiled like a chrysanthemum. "Your leader looks very strict. I thought it was hard to talk, but I didn't expect her to have such a good heart. What does your company do? Is it okay if you don't go to work for a year and a half?" "Trading company. The boss is a woman, and I am her bodyguard. I can't protect her in my current state. There is no way to give me a long vacation." Chen Jiao said. "You used to be a bodyguard. Don't do it after a year and a half. You have a child, so you can't do such a dangerous job anymore. Understand?" Aunt Lan said hastily. Chen Jiao suddenly felt extremely tired, she yawned, walked to the back room, and replied vaguely: "Let's talk about it later." Six months later, Chen Jiao gave birth to a baby girl in Foshan People's Hospital.The baby girl weighed 2,650 grams at birth and had a full 10-point Appointee score.Although Aunt Lan was a little disappointed that Chen Jiao gave birth to a girl, the birth of her granddaughter still greatly aroused her enthusiasm for being a grandmother.She did her best to serve Chen Jiao during confinement, cooked milky soup for Chen Jiao every day, and washed the child's clothes and diapers.Chen Jiao felt sorry and wanted to share some of the burden, but when Chen Jiao wanted to do something, Aunt Lan immediately ran over and shouted, "Don't move, don't move, I'll get what you want, and your task is to raise the child well."Chen Jiao tied a towel on her head according to the custom of confinement for women in Guangdong, and she couldn't get out of bed for a month.After feeding the child every day, I lay on the bed, looked at the baby in my arms, and looked at Aunt Lan who was busy going in and out, thinking that living like this from now on might not be a kind of happiness.But this peaceful little day is destined not to belong to 21-year-old Chen Jiao.Disaster struck again.On the 16th day after the birth of the child, Aunt Lan suffered a heart attack. She was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment but died.Chen Dalong brought Chen Mei to Foshan to assist Chen Jiao in handling Aunt Lan's funeral.After Aunt Lan was cremated, her urn and her son's were placed side by side in the ashes depository of the funeral parlor, waiting to be moved back to the countryside to be buried next to her husband's tomb a year later.After finishing Aunt Lan's funeral, Chen Jiao's spirit completely collapsed.Because of the extreme grief, she couldn't eat anything, and her swollen breasts dried up quickly. The child had no milk and cried day and night. Chen Jiao was helpless, holding the child every day to wash her face with tears.Chen Jiao suffered from severe postpartum depression.Her mood was depressed, anxious, and irritable.When the child cried, she would suddenly lose her temper, throw the child aside, and then be seized by a heavy sense of guilt, hold the child tightly in her arms and cry bitterly.She began to have hallucinations, paranoid, and always felt that someone was going to hurt her child, and worried that she would not be able to support her daughter. She was in a state of high tension every day and suffered from insomnia day and night.Within a few days, both myself and my child were tortured until they were skinny.Chen Dalong's vacation is coming, he wants to take Chen Jiao's mother and daughter back to Jilin, but Chen Jiao is unwilling to leave Guangdong, so Chen Dalong has to take the children away.Chen Dalong named his granddaughter Guoguo.Xiao Guoguo passed the full moon on the train from Guangzhou to Beijing. Grandpa and auntie took turns holding her, and auntie sang a song for her.Xiao Guoguo, who left her mother, is very well-behaved. She doesn't cry or make trouble, and goes to bed after drinking milk.She and her aunt seemed to hit it off very well. When her aunt sang, she smiled for the first time in her life.After seeing off her father and daughter, Chen Jiao didn't have the courage to go back to the hut in Foshan to face the three portraits on the wall.She came out of Guangzhou Railway Station, walked alone, wandering aimlessly on the street.In the evening, she came to the Guangzhou Bridge and jumped off the bridge.After Chen Jiao was rescued, she was treated briefly at the Guangzhou People's Hospital, and then sent to the General Hospital of the Armed Police Force, where a psychologist was arranged for psychological counseling and treatment.The treatment went on for a while without great results.Chen Jiao's emotions were repeated, manic and restless, and her memory began to appear confused. When she saw a person in uniform, she yelled: "I'm not a bat, let me out! I want to go home!" Whether to send Chen Jiao to a mental hospital On the issue of treatment, there were differences in the organization.Under the resolute opposition of Director Mi who had just retired and Jia Shilin, Chen Jiao's instructor, the proposal to send Chen Jiao to a mental hospital was not approved.Considering that Chen Jiao is breastfeeding, the organization made an exception and agreed to Chen Jiao's retirement and sent her back to her hometown in Jilin.In the first two months after returning to Jilin, Chen Jiao was still emotionally unstable, controlled by negative emotions such as depression, self-blame, and anxiety, and rarely took care of Guoguo.Gradually, she got used to the monotonous life of the small town in the forest area, her mental condition gradually improved, and she began to pay attention to her daughter little by little. In a blink of an eye, Guoguo is half a year old.One day, Chen Jiao fed Guoguo with milk and sat on the kang with her in her arms.Chen Jiao's younger sister, Xiaomei, was playing with Guoguo.Xiaomei used to work as a temporary worker in the Forestry Bureau. After she and her father went to Guangzhou to pick up Guoguo, she didn't go to work and stayed at home with her little niece. The 18-year-old Xiaomei is very talented as a mother. She is self-taught, and she actually does the tedious things of taking care of babies in an orderly manner.Although Guoguo is not a fat baby without breastfeeding, her body develops normally. "Sister, who do you think Guoguo looks like?" Xiaomei asked.Chen Jiao looked at Guoguo and said, "I don't know, such a young child can't tell." Xiaomei looked at Guoguo, analyzing her facial features one by one. "I see, Guoguo's mouth is a bit like yours. The child's nose hasn't started growing, so I can't tell who it looks like. Your most distinctive feature is your eyes. The corners of your eyes fly upwards. They are standard Danfeng eyes. Guoguo's eyes It’s bent down, not quite like you. Does it look like his father? I’ve only seen pictures of Brother Arong, but I can’t remember what he looks like. Others say that girls are more like their fathers, right?” Xiaomei asked.After hearing what her sister said, Chen Jiao also began to look at Guoguo carefully, becoming more and more suspicious.She tried to find some resemblance to Arong on Guoguo's face. Arong's thick eyebrows and big eyes didn't have any clues on Guoguo's thin eyebrows and thin eyes. Instead, she could vaguely see the outline of another person. "Impossible!" Chen Jiao categorically denied this idea in her heart.She handed Guoguo to Xiaomei's hands abruptly, not daring to look at it again.But the more she dared not look at it, the more she wanted to look at it, so she couldn't help but hug Guoguo again.Guoguo suddenly smiled at her mother.This smile shocked Chen Jiao's heart.She asked her sister, "What's Guoguo's blood type?" "Type O. I remember it is listed in Guoguo's health manual." Xiaomei answered. "Find out the health care manual!" Chen Jiao ordered her sister.Xiaomei looked at her sister suspiciously, got up to look for it, and handed the health care manual to her sister after a while.Sure enough, Chen Jiao saw the word "O" in the blood type column of the handbook.Her complexion changed, and she said to her sister, "Come with me to Changchun!" "What are you going to Changchun for?" Xiaomei asked inexplicably. "Go and test Guoguo's blood type again!" Chen Jiao said. At the Provincial People's Hospital in Changchun City, Chen Jiao got Guoguo's blood type report, which still clearly says "O".She was wandering in front of the laboratory with the report sheet, several times trying to ask questions but hesitant to speak, finally caught the attention of a female chemist, she went out and asked, "May I ask what you want?" "Doctor, I would like to ask about the genetic rules of the blood type of the child and the parents?" Chen Jiao asked. "Of course there is." The female chemist answered. "Mother's blood type is B, and father's blood type is AB. Is it possible that the child's blood type is O?" Chen Jiao asked cautiously. 7 years ago, Brother Arong had an experience when he was a soldier. His blood type is AB.At that time, Gillian and Ah Rong discussed the blood type issue, and regretted that they could not transfuse each other in the future due to their different blood types. "Absolutely impossible! Parents with blood types B and AB have only three possible blood types for their children, type A, type B, or type AB. It is absolutely impossible to be type O!" the female chemist said in an unquestionable tone. Say. "Is there no exception?" Chen Jiao asked unwillingly. "No, the child's blood type is outside of these three types, which can only explain two problems. One is that the child was held in the wrong hands, and the other is that the child's father made a mistake." The female chemist took the test sheet in Chen Jiao's hand and looked at it: "Are you type B? Is the child type O?" Chen Jiao nodded. "The blood type of the child's father may be O, A or B, and it is absolutely impossible to be AB. If you are worried, you can ask the child's father to do a DNA paternity test." "No, thank you." Chen Jiao took the test sheet from the chemist and turned to leave. "It's safer to ask the child's father to come and test it again!" The female chemist chased after him and shouted.Chen Jiao didn't look back.She ran to the hospital gate to meet her younger sister who was holding Guoguo.As soon as the younger sister saw her, she asked where she had gone, but Chen Jiao didn't say anything, and grabbed the child and hugged her in her arms.Guoguo, who had been sleeping, was awakened with a start, and burst into tears.Chen Jiao looked at her crying daughter, and her whole body fell into indescribable fear.Guoguo is not Brother Arong's flesh and blood!She knew she had made a terrible mistake.She is very careful in this aspect. Every time she has sex with Bo Zai, she asks him to wear a condom.Although Bozai was reluctant, but at her insistence, she put on the condom before ejaculating.That night, she and Arong had sex three times, neither of them using any contraception.That's why after she found out she was pregnant, she was so sure that the baby in her belly belonged to Ah Rong.She also knows that no contraceptive method is 100% safe in theory, but Chen Jiao never imagined that she had sex with Bozai so many times, but she was not pregnant, and it happened the day before she had sex with Brother Arong I got pregnant at night.This joke made by fate is really too big.Chen Jiao stared blankly at the daughter in her arms, feeling a sense of ecstasy, and suddenly burst into tears.