Chapter 13 Part Two-1

J. ms summer was different from any other time Mick could remember. Nothing much happened that she could describe to herself in thoughts or words—but there was a feeling of change. AH the time she was excited. In the morning she couldnt wait to get out of bed and start going for the day. And at night she hated like hell to have to sleep again. Right after breakfast she took the kids out, and except for meals they were gone most of the day. A good deal of the time they just roamed around the streets—with her pulling Ralphs wagon and Bubber following along behind. thoughts and plans. Sometimes she would look up suddenly and they would be way off in some part of town she didnt even recognize. And once or twice they ran into Bill on the streets and she was so busy thinking he had to grab her by the arm to make her see him.

Early in the mornings it was a little cool and their shadows stretched out tall on the sidewalk in front of them. But in the middle of the day the sky was always blazing hot. The glare was so bright it hurt to keep your eyes open. A lot of times the plans about the things that were going to happen to her were mixed up with ice and snow. Sometimes it was like she was out in Switzerland and all the mountains were covered with snow and she was skating on cold, greenish- colored ice. Mister Singer would be skating with her. And maybe Carole Lombard or Ar-turo Toscanini who played on the radio. They would be skating together and then Mister Singer would fall through the ice and she would dive in without regard for peril and swim under the ice and save his life. That was one of the plans always going on in her mind.

Usually after they had walked awhile she would park Bubber and Ralph in some shady place. Bubber was a well kid and she had trained him pretty good. If she told him not to go out of hollering distance from Ralph she wouldn't ever find him shooting marbles with kids two or three blocks away. He played by himself near the wagon, and when she left them she didn't have to worry much. She either went to the library and looked at the National Geographic or else just roamed around and thought some more. If she had any money she bought a dope or a Milky Way at Mister Brannons. He gave kids a

reduction. He sold them nickel things for three cents. But all the time—no matter what she was doing—there was music. Sometimes she hummed to herself as she walked, and other times she listened quietly to the songs inside her. There were all kinds of music in her thoughts. over radios, and some was in her mind already without her ever having heard it anywhere. In the night-time, as soon as the kids were in bed, she was free. That was the most important time of all. A lot of things happened when she was by herself and it was dark. Right after supper she ran out of the house again. She couldnt tell anybody about the things she did at night, and when her Mama asked her questions she would answer with any little tale that sounded reasonable. But most of the time if anybody called her she just ran away like she hadnt heard. That went for everybody except her Dad. There was something about her Dads voice she couldn't run away from. He was one of the biggest, tallest men in the whole town. But his voice was so quiet and kindly that people were surprised when he spoke.

No matter how much of a hurry she was in, she always had to stop when her Dad called. This summer she realized something about her Dad she had never known before. Up until then she had never thought about him as being a real separate person. A lot of times he would call her. stand by him a couple of minutes— but when she listened to him her mind was never on the things he said to her. Then one night she suddenly realized about her Dad. Nothing unusual happened that night and she didnt know what it was that made her Understand. Afterward she felt older and as though she knew him as good as she could know any person.

It was a night in late August and she was in a big rush. She had to be at this house by nine oclock, and no maybe either. Her Dad called and she went into the front room. He was sitting slumped over his workbench. For some reason it never did seem natural to see him there. Until the time of his accident last year he had been a painter and carpenter. Before daylight every morning he would leave the house in his Overalls, to be gone all day. Then at night sometimes he fiddled around with clocks as an extra work. A lot of times he had tried to get a job in a jewelry store where he could sit by himself at a desk all day with a clean white shirt on and a tie.

Now when he couldnt carpenter any more he had put a sign at the front of the house reading Clocks and Watches Repaired Cheap. But he didnt look like most jewelers—the ones downtown were quick, dark little Jew men. Her Dad was too tall for his workbench, and his big bones seemed joined together in a loose way. Her Dad just stared at her. She could tell he didnt have any reason for calling. He only wanted real bad to talk to her. He tried to think of some way to begin. , and since he had lost every single hair the pale, bald top of his head gave him a naked look. He stul looked at her without speaking and she was in a hurry.

She had to be at that house by nine sharp and there was no time to waste. Her Dad saw she was in a hurry and he cleared his throat I got something for you, he said. Nothing much, but maybe you can treat yourself with it .' He didnt have to give her any nickel or dime just because he was lonely and wanted to talk. Out of what he made he only kept enough to have beer about twice a week. Two bottles were on the floor by his chair now, one empty and one just opened. And whenever he drank beer he liked to talk to somebody. Her Dad fumbled with his belt and she looked away. This summer he had gotten like a kid about hiding those nickels and dimes he kept for himself. in his shoes, and other times in a little slit he had cut in his belt. She only halfway wanted to take the dime, but when he held it out her hand was just naturally open and ready.

I got so much work to do I dont know where to begin,' he said. That was just the opposite to the truth, and he knew it good as she did. He never had many watches to fix, and when he finished he would fool around the house doing any little job that was needed. Then at night he sat at his bench cleaning old springs and wheels and trying to make the work last out until bedtime. Ever since he broke his hip and couldn't work steady he had to be doing something every minute. I been thinking a lot tonight, her Dad said. He poured out his beer and sprinkled a few grains of salt on the back of his hand.

Then he licked up the salt and took a swallowout of the glass. She was in such a hurry that it was hard to stand still. Her Dad noticed this. He tried to say something—but he had not called to tell her anything special. He only wanted to talk with her for a little while. to speak and swallowed. They just looked at each other. The quietness grew out longer and neither of them could say a word. That was when she realized about her Dad. It wasn't like she was learning a new fact—she had understood it all along in every way except with her brain. Now she just suddenly knew that she knew about her Dad. was an old man. Because none of the kids went to him for anything and because he didnt earn much money he felt like he was cut off from the family. And in his loneliness he wanted to be close to one of his kids —and they were all so busy that they didnt know it. He felt like he wasnt much real use to anybody.

She understood this while they were looking at each other. It gave her a queer feeling. Her Dad picked up a watch spring and cleaned it with a brush dipped in gasoline. I know youre in a hurry. I just hollered to say hello. *No, Im not in any rush, she said. Honest. That night she sat down in a chair by his bench and they talked awhile. and how things would have been if he had just managed in a different way. He drank beer, and once the tears came to his eyes and he snuffled his nose against his shirt-sleeve. She stayed with him a good while that night. if she was in an awful hurry. Yet for some reason she couldn't tell him about the things in her mind—about the hot, dark nights. These nights were secret, and of the whole summer they were the most important time. In the dark she walked by herself and it was like she was the only person in the town. Almost every street came to be as plain to her in the nighttime as her own home block. Some kids were afraid to walk through strange places in the dark, but she wasn't. Girls were scared a man would come out from somewhere and put his teapot in them like they were married. Most girls were nuts. If a person the size of Joe Louis or Mountain Man Dean would jump out at her and want to fight she would run. But if it was somebody within twenty pounds her weight she would give him a good sock and go right on. The nights were wonderful, and she didnt have time to think about such things as being scared. Whenever she was in the dark she thought about music. While she walked along the streets she would sing to herself. Without knowing it was Mick Kelly. She learned a lot about music during these free nights in the summer-time. When she walked out in the rich parts of town every house had a radio. All the windows were open and she could hear the music very marvelous. knew which houses tuned in for the programs she wanted to hear. There was one special house that got all the good orchestras. And at night she would go to this house and sneak into the dark yard to listen. There was beautiful shrubbery around this house, and she would sit under a bush near the window. And after it was all over she would stand in the dark yard with her hands in her pockets and think for a long time. That was the realest part of all the summer—her listening to this music on the radio and studying about itCerra fa puerta, senor Mick said. Bubber was sharp as a briar. Haga me usted el favor, senorita, he answered as a comeback. It was grand to take Spanish at Vocational. There was something about speaking in a foreign language that made her feel like shed been around a lot. Every afternoon since school had started she had fun speaking the new Spanish words and sentences. At first Bubber was stumped, and it was funny to watch his face while she talked the foreign language. Then he caught on in a hurry, and before long he could copy everything she said. He remembered the words he learned, too. all the sentences meant, but she didnt say them for the sense they made, anyway. After a while the kid learned so fast she gave out of Spanish and just gabbled along with made-up sounds. But it wasn't long before he caught her out at that—nobody could put a thing over on old Bubber Kelly. Im going to pretend like Im walking into this house for the first time, Mick said. Then I can tell better if all the decorations look good or not.' She walked out on the front porch and then came back and stood in the hall. All day she and Bubber and Portia and her Dad had been fixing the hall and the dining-room for the party. The decoration was autumn leaves and vines and red crepe paper. On the mantelpiece in the dining-room and sticking up behind the hatrack there were bright yellow leaves. They had trailed vines along the walls and on the table where the punch bowl would be. The red cr￡pe paper hung down in long fringes from the mantel and also was looped around the backs of the chairs. There was plenty decoration. OK She rubbed her hand on her forehead and squinted her eyes. Bubber stood beside her and copied every move she made. I sure do want this party to turn out all right. Isure do.' This would be the first party she had ever given. She had never even been to more than four or five. Last summer she had gone to a prom party. But none of the boys asked her to prom or dance, she just stood by the punch bowl until all the refreshments were gone and then went home. This party was not going to be a bit like that one. In a few hours now the people she had invited would start coming and the to-do would begin. It was hard to remember just how she got the idea of ​​this party. The notion came to her soon after she started at Vocational. High School was well. Everything about it was different from Grammar School. had had to take a stenographic course like Hazel and Etta had done—but she got special permission and took mechanical shop like a boy. Shop and Algebra and Spanish were grand. English was mighty hard. Her English teacher was Miss Minner. Minner had sold her brains to a famous doctor for ten thousand dollars, so that after she was dead he could cut them up and see why she was so smart. On written lessons she cracked such questions as Name eight famous contemporaries of Doctor Johnson, and Quote ten lines from "The Vicar of Wakefield." She called on people by the alphabet and kept her grade book open during the lessons. And even if she was brainy she was an old sourpuss. The Spanish teacher had traveled once in Europe. She said that in France the people carried home loaves of bread without having them wrapped up. They would stand talking on the streets and hit the bread on a lamp post. And there wasn't any water in France—only wine. In nearly all ways Vocational was wonderful. They walked back and forth in the hall between classes, and at lunch period students hung around the gym. Here was the thing that soon began to bother her. In the halls the people would walk up and down together and everybody seemed to belong to some special bunch. Within a week or two she knew people in the halls and in classes to speak to them—but that was all. She wasn't a member of any bunch. In Grammar School she would have just gone up to any crowd she wanted to belong with and that would have been the end of the matter. Here it was different. During the first week she walked up and down the halls by herself and thought about this. She planned about being with some bunch almost as much as she thought of music. Those two ideas were in her head all the time. idea of ​​the party. She was strict with the invitations. No Grammar School kids and nobody under twelve years old. She just asked people between thirteen and fifteen. She knew everybody she invited good enough to speak to them in the halls—and when she didnt know their names she asked to find out. She called up those who had a telephone, and the rest she invited at school. On the telephone she always said the same thing. She let Bubber stick in his ear to listen. This is Mick Kelly, she said. If they didnt understand the name she kept on until they got it. Tm having a prom party at eight oclock Saturday night and Im inviting you now. I live at Fourth Street, Apartment A. That Apartment A sounded swell on the telephone. Nearly everybody said they would be delighted. A couple of tough boys tried to be smarty and kept on asking her name over and over. One of them tried to act cute and said, I dont know you. She squelched him in a hurry: You go eat grass! Outside of that wise guy there were ten boys and ten girls and she knew that they were all coming. This was a real party, and it would be better and different from any party she had ever gone to or heard about before. Mick looked over the hall and dining-room one last time. By the hatrack she stopped before the picture of Old Dirty-Face. This was a photo of her Mamas grandfather. He was a major way back in the Civil War and had been killed in a battle. Some kid once drew eyeglasses and a beard on his picture, and when the pencil marks were erased it left his face all dirty. That was why she called him Old Dirty-Face. The picture was in the middle of a three-part frame. On both sides were pictures of his sons. They looked about Bubbers age. had been killed in battle also. A long time ago. Tm going to take this down for the party. I think it looks common. Don't you?' I dont know, Bubber said./Are we common, Mick? Im not.' She put the picture underneath the hatrack. The decoration was OK Mister Singer would be pleased when he came home. The rooms seemed very empty and quiet. Thetable was set for supper. And then after supper it would be time for the party. into the kitchen to see about the refreshments. You think everything will be all right? she asked Portia. Portia was making biscuits. The refreshments were on top of the stove. There were peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and chocolate snaps and punch. The sandwiches were covered with a damp dishcloth. I done told you forty times that everything going to be all right, Portia said. Just soon as I come back from fixing supper at home I going to put on that white apron and serve the food real nice. Then I going to push off from here by nine-thirty. This here is Saturday night and Highboy and Willie and me have our plans, too.' Sure, Mick said. I just want you to help out till things sort of get started—you know.' She gave in and took one of the sandwiches. Then she made Bubber stay with Portia and went into the middle room. The dress she would wear was laying out on the bed. Hazel and Etta had both been good about lending her their best clothes— Considering that they were not supposed to come to the party. There was Ettas long blue crepe de chine evening dress and some white pumps and a rhine-stone tiara for her hair. These clothes were really gorgeous. It was hard to imagine how she would look in them. The late afternoon had come and the sun made long, yellow slants through the window. If she took two hours over dressing for the party it was time to begin now. When she thought about putting on the fine clothes she couldnt just sit around and wait . Very slowly she went into the bathroom and shucked off her old shorts and shirt and turned on the water. She scrubbed the rough parts of her heels and her knees and especially her elbows. She made the bath take a long time. She ran naked into the middle room and began to dress. Silk teddies she put on, and silk stockings. She even wore one of Ettas brassieres just for the heck of it. Then very carefully she put on the dress and stepped into the pumps. This was the first time she had ever worn an evening dress. She stood for a long time before the mirror. She wasso tall that the dress came up two or three inches above her ankles—and the shoes were so short they hurt her. stood in front of the mirror a long tune, and finally decided she either looked like a sap or else she looked very beautiful. One or the other. Six different ways she tried out her hair. The cowlicks were a little trouble, so she wet her bangs and made three spit curls. Last of all she stuck the rhinestones in her hair and put on plenty of lipstick and paint. When she finished she lifted up her chin and half-closed eyes like a movie star. Slowly she turned her face from one side to the other. was beautiful she looked—just beautiful. She didnt feel like herself at all. She was somebody different from Mick Kelly entirely. Two hours had to pass before the party would begin, and she was ashamed^ for any of the family to see her dressed so far ahead of time. She went into the bathroom again and locked the door. up her dress by sitting down, so she stood in the middle of the floor. The close walls around her seemed to press hi all the excitement. She felt so different from the old Mick Kelly that she knew this would be better than anything else in all her whole life—this party. ?Yippee! The punch!' The cutest dress------' Say! You solve that one about the triangle forty-six by twen------' Lemme by! Move out my way!' The front door slammed every second as the people swarmed into the house. Sharp voices and soft voices sounded together until there was just one roaring noise. Girls stood in bunches in their long, fine evening dresses, and the boys roamed around in clean duck pants or ROTC uniforms or new dark fall suite. There was so much commotion that Mick couldn't notice any separate face or person. She stood by the hatrack and stared around at the party as a whole. Everybody get a prom card and start signing up.' At first the room was too loud for anyone to hear and pay attention. The boys were so thick around the punch bowl that the table and the vines didnt show at alL Only her Dads face rose up above the boys heads as he smiled and dished up the punch into the little paper cups. On the seat of the hatrack beside her were a jar of candy and two handkerchiefs. A couple of girls thought it was her birthday, and she had thanked them and unwrapped the presents without telling them she wouldn't be fourteen for eight more months. Every person was as clean and fresh and dressed up as she was. They smelled good. The boys had their hair plastered down wet and slick. The girls with their different-colored long dresses stood together, and they were like a bright hunk of flowers . The start was marvelous. The beginning of this party was OK Im part Scotch Irish and French and------' *I got German blood------'