Chapter 4 Section 04

The tall pagoda of Yingjiang Temple reflects the dazzling autumn sun, highlighting the rows of temple houses with yellow walls and black tiles, reflected in the shallow water of the Yangtze River.The infinite blue sky, because of the touch of this high tower, shows its vastness and leisureliness, as if it is laughing at the management of the world on earth, and disperses its meticulous gifts there.After we walked out of the east gate, we took a rickshaw instead. When we got off the rickshaw at the front steps of the temple, we had already felt a leisurely and leisurely atmosphere, leaving behind all the past worries and future worries.Xie Yueying forgot that she is an actress, a woman whose career is to be played by others, and I also forgot that I am a guest.From the top of the stone steps to the middle of the mountain gate, we competed to give a lot of money to the men and women sitting on the stone steps begging on both sides.

Walking into the mountain gate guarded by the Four Heavenly Kings, I smiled slightly at the Budai Buddha facing the river.She stopped suddenly, leaned against my side, looked up at me gently and asked: "We don't burn incense, and we don't write money, so it's okay to come in for nothing like this?" "What are you afraid of! Famous mountain resorts are originally places for people to hang out, why are you afraid of them!" Passing through the Daxiong Palace and walking to the middle of the backyard, the upper part of the pink and white pagoda was pressing on our heads, Yueying jumped up like a child, shouting, "Let's go up! Let's go up!" Go up!" On the other hand, her feet jumped forward several steps.

Around the pagoda courtyard, several countrymen worshiped there.On the lower wall of the tower, there are also many poems written in ink and pencil, which are inscribed there.In front of the Buddha statue in the alcove, there are still several pairs of small candles and incense sticks burning, probably just burned by local devout men and women. The tower was very dark.A perennial kerosene lamp cannot illuminate the path under my feet. When I was buying tickets in front of the tower, she seemed to have peeped into the tower. When I turned around and asked her to enter the tower, her face But he put on a wry smile of suspicion and said to me:

"It's very dark inside the tower. Go forward! I'm a little scared!" I stepped forward a few steps, and on the sloping stone steps, surrounded by the dark air, I suddenly felt a strange emotion.In the darkness, I felt that my face was also turning red. Without making a sound, I let go of my big stride and took a step forward. With empty feet, he fell asleep at an angle. "Be careful!" With a cry, Xie Yueying rushed up and grabbed me. My back was leaning against her arms, and my face was burning like fire.Turning my head around, I even smelled her "Are you okay! Are you okay!" asking me.At this time, my consciousness was completely blurred, a strange feeling of shame and comfort spread from my head to my feet.I let go of one right hand, and unconsciously touched her hand on my chest in the dark.A kind of soft and smooth touch, like touching a ball of flour, passed an electric current through my whole body.Leaning against the wall while clinging to her chest, I stood silently for a minute or two.Suddenly I heard footsteps coming from behind, and I squeezed her hand tightly, and then I stood up and climbed up the tower step by step again.I went up one floor and walked around, but I didn't dare to look back at her, and she didn't say a word to me in silence, she just ran after me. This is another floor, another walk lock up.When I got to the fifth floor, I felt that the people who came to climb the tower were no longer following us, so I walked to the gate of the tower facing the river in the south to stand still.She saw that I had stopped, so she didn't follow me. She deliberately stayed on the outer layer of the tower, looking northwest at the smokers in City A and the countryside outside the city.

The sun has just slanted to 30 degrees. The water surface of the Yangtze River is crimson yellow, just like a line of tinted glass. There are many toy-like sailboats and steamboats sailing on this smooth glass. There is a hair-like jungle, and there are little white and red houses exposed in the woods.Behind these houses in the dry forest, there are a few faint autumn mountains, which are criss-crossed, as if they were painted there with a brush.Surrounding these mountain shadow houses and woods is a silver-blue sky, clear air, and full sunlight.Even if you look up, you can see wisps and wisps of floating clouds, but on a sunny day, these few wisps of small clouds can't add any shadow to the autumn scenery.The scene of this afternoon seen from the tower is really beautiful.

I stood there blankly for a while, concentrating on the scenery around me, and felt that the excitement just now gradually calmed down.Walking a few steps on the outer layer of the tower, looking sideways at Xie Yueying, she felt that she seemed to be delusional about the smoky cityscape in the sunset.When she turned her head and her eyes met mine, the two of them smiled unconsciously and walked towards each other naturally.When we were within a couple of feet of each other, at the same time she stretched out a hand, and I stretched out a hand too. I didn't know how long I stayed on the pagoda, I saw the sun getting lower and lower, looking down, the nearby villages were already smoking.I took a small bag of satin under her blade, took her hand, and when I walked down the tower slowly, there were already many shadows in the courtyard of the tower, and it looked like the sunset was in a hurry.

In front of the gate of Yingjiang Temple, I hired two rickshaws and walked back to the city. I thought many things along the way: "It's already very clear. Of course, my enthusiasm for her is a fact that can't be concealed. She never plays with me like an ordinary game. Good, good, success, success. Ah! This one I really want to call out the joy of success. After the car entered the city, the passers-by on both sides of the road saw the smile on my face and felt a little strange. Some of them stood still. , looking blankly at me and Xie Yueying who was walking in front of me. At this time, I am not afraid of shame or fear, full of secrets, I just want to ask the driver to stop the car, jump down to shake hands with them, report to them, report me This time, I spent half a day with Xie Yueying on the pagoda. I think Xie Yueying is already in my hands. I want to express to that little white-faced Chen Jun that I have obtained it unintentionally. Thank you for the love he wanted but couldn't get. I want to show Xie Yueying's love to those frivolous young people who are desperately applauding. I actually forgot that I was in the car, the city at dusk, and my own undecided life like wandering dust. When the car arrived at the door of the hotel, I returned to the hotel like a person who woke up from a dream. The real world, and Xie Yueying walked in from the door in a hurry, without saying hello to me, and disappeared in front of my face. She held a pack of leather materials she bought this afternoon, but I and As if I was insane, I had to stand still. If I wanted to send it in, I was only afraid of arousing suspicion from Li Lanxiang and the others. If I didn’t want to send it in, I was afraid that she would say that I was not smart and couldn’t serve women. In the messy hotel hall I hesitated for a while, and walked in and out of the door several times. After all, I didn't have the courage, so I still hugged the bag of satin and went back to my own room.

The electric light was already on, and the man moved the food in.I ordered a jug of wine and drank alone in front of the lamp, while thinking, "She's on stage tonight, let's see if she has anything to say. After the play is over, I should go to her theater again.  … ...Ah, that soft hand of hers!" Thinking about it for a while, I actually ate this dinner for more than an hour.Because it was still early to go to the theater, and no matter what time of day I went, there would always be seats, so after dinner, I walked out of the hotel alone, intending to go to an open space near the city wall to the north. There is a small pond next to it, and there is an ancient temple on the pond. In front of and behind the temple, there are many old trees of willow and holly growing. In the big city A, this place is relatively secluded, so the young people nearby Male and female students always come here for a walk.Because my daily life was so good, I felt a pity to sit alone in the room, so I thought of this quiet place to enjoy my daily memories carefully.Walked out the door, walked east for a while, and met many idlers in the small alley that turned north.This alley was originally a secluded alley with few people walking, but today there are so many people coming and going, I am wondering in my heart, thinking, did something happen?As soon as I walked out of the alley, it was really good. In the open space outside the alley in front, there were many lights, and children and old women were crowded together to have fun.Along the bank of the pool, there are piles of five steps, and groups of ten steps. There are some small stalls, cloth tents, and juggling fences, inviting guests loudly.In the temple on the bank of the pool, the lights were brightly lit, as if it was the birthday of some Bodhisattva.

When I got closer to the temple and took a look, I realized that today is the first day of November in the old calendar, which is the annual thanksgiving day in this ancient temple.The corridors of this ancient temple, which was originally not very tall, were covered with red gauze lanterns. On the open space in front of the temple, there was also a large pile of ashes of paper, silk, and incense sticks. Many old women even cupped their hands. , kneeling on the ground, muttering mantras towards the pile of incense. I squeezed into the temple gate, fought for a place among the crowd, and knelt down to pay respects to a bearded Bodhisattva in the Buddhist tent above.

The smoke from the incense and the flame from the lamp made me tear up, so I barely stood up, took a stick, and went to the lower cabinet in the east corridor to check the sign, I suddenly had a bad feeling in my heart, because When I was pushed, the stick fell from my hand.Picking up the sign, went to the cabinet to pay for a few copper goods, and read the sign, and it turned out to be an unsatisfactory sign: Song Leli made Junling sign the eighty-fourth sign A song of silver candle is too delicate and heartbroken Ziyu Xiao in the world Looking for stories in Jinling Although I can't understand the words and phrases of this signed poem, I always feel uncomfortable after reading the last sentence of "crying crows and decaying willows, I am bored".Although it is a matter of gods and ghosts, most of them are ambiguous, but since I have asked about it, there is always some cause and effect.Besides, I went to ask for a lottery this time out of a sincere heart, because today's adventure satisfied me so much, so I only hope to get a lucky lottery. Add a little icing on the cake.Only now do I feel like I've lost my mind.

Feeling dissatisfied, I slowly walked across the pond among the crowd, and on the way to the theater garden, I thought suspiciously about her behavior on the tower many times. ——Although she didn't express any affirmation to me, she didn't have any malice towards me, but it was true.The love I have for her, she is bearable, is an obvious fact.But when she got home, she ran in without saying hello to me. What does that mean? ——After thinking about it for a long time, I finally concluded that it was her good intentions, because she had seen my embarrassed attitude when I came out in the afternoon. Thinking of this, I like it again in my heart, signing poems and the like, just laugh it off, it is no longer in my mind.Letting go of my pace, I walked quickly to the theater garden. Sitting in front of the stage, when Xie Yueying was not on stage for two or three hours, I heard nothing, saw nothing, and only pursued her fantasies of today. She is wearing a melodious silver-red foreign wool robe today, the waist is very tight, so she looks extraordinarily good-looking.On her head was a black velvet cap, which was the favorite type of hat for actresses in the north.On the long round face, there is a pair of charming big eyes.The slightly raised eyebrows hanging on the double eyelids are probably due to the reason of often acting?The lips are very curved and very red.The neck seems a little too short, but it doesn't matter, because her head is not big, so it doesn't spoil the symmetry of her whole body.Ahhh, those hands of hers, those soft, plump white hands, but very small hands!Small holes in the spine of the five fingers on the back of the hand. As soon as I thought of this, the feeling of trepidation I felt when I shook hands with her on the tower during the day came to me again, I shook my head, raised my eyes to look at the stage, all right, all right, it’s the end. Came over for the second play.At this time, what was being performed on the stage was Chen Liankui's "Exploring the Yin Mountain", and below that was Xie Yueying's "No. 1 Scholar's Spectrum".I cleared away those delusional thoughts, smoothed the long hair on my head with my hands, sat upright, and focused all my attention on the stage, but no matter what, Xie Yueying's pair were like a well of cold spring The eyes always seem to be beckoning me with a smile, and other things can never be imprinted on my eyelids. Finally, it was her show. Her member Chen came on stage, and there was a burst of shouts in front of the stage.Her eyes swept down the stage and onto my head, and she really stopped for a few seconds.The eyes swept to the endless side again.There was another wild noise from the east.I blushed and waited anxiously for her to turn her eyes back, but after waiting for a few minutes, she finally didn't come.I became anxious, and when I heard the cries of the frivolous youths in the east, I just felt uncomfortable, as if a pot of boiling water was boiling in my stomach.Those frivolous youths were screaming endlessly, and she was only looking at them. At this moment, I really wanted to throw a teacup over.But I, who was born very cowardly, finally didn't dare to let go of my throat to call out, but just stared at the stage with glaring eyes.She finally turned her eyes back, and I put away my scowl for a moment and replaced it with a smile.Sorrows and joys like this have been exchanged many times. I felt that the tension in my heart could not last, so I stood up and walked out of the theater before her play was over. It was still a cold night outside the door, and a slight cool wind blew on my face, and I felt my cheeks swollen red from overexcitement.After standing in the cold alley for a few minutes, I was finally reluctant to leave her like this, so I walked north and walked into the narrow alley leading to the backstage. In that dark and dark alley, I did meet a few female actresses who stepped down from the stage, but I couldn't tell who they were, so I hurriedly passed by.At the door of the backstage room, the two plank doors were only concealed there.There is a slit in the middle of the door, revealing a light." The voices of the girls chattering and shouting in the stage room can also be heard clearly. I tried to reach out several times and push the door open, but finally touched the door. After a while, I still retracted my hands. A few minutes later, someone opened the door from the inside. I was startled, and quickly dodged and walked west. At this time, a feeling of anger and shame in my heart The feeling of fear is more irrepressible than the day when I came out of the theater and walked in the empty city at night until dawn. I had no choice but to feel around on the dark and uneven road. I found another narrow road and took a detour. On the avenue leading to the north gate. I walked around and walked for a long time in vain. I finally found the avenue. When I turned a corner and wanted to go to the hotel, there was a sound of footsteps behind me, and then came I took a few rickshaws. I dodged my body and let the car pass by. I turned my head to look, and in the dim gray street lights, I saw her again——Xie Yueying's profile. Originally, I planned to send the package of satin for the day tonight after the play, and also go to see my grandmother Li Lanxiang and the others sick, but in this state of excitement, this matter is impossible, because Extremely excited, it is inevitable to show signs of instability in attitude and speech.So although I was only sad in my heart, I was only delusional to see her again, but with my tired feet, I just walked slowly on the deserted long street and walked slowly back to the hotel.