Chapter 49 Section 48
As soon as Sun Tianzhu returned to school, he was in trouble and borrowed money every day to survive.Teacher Wei knew about his difficulties, so he asked him to write an application, and went to talk to the head of the Chinese Department.The teachers in the Chinese Department all admire Sun Tianzhu.So some money was squeezed out of the funds of the Chinese Department and sent to Sun Tianzhu for books and tuition.The state subsidizes that little money every month and distributes it as a meal ticket.When Sun Tianzhu first came here, he was still young and could eat for nearly twenty days.This year, Sun Tianzhu suddenly grew from 1.58 meters last year to 1.71 meters. The meal ticket is only enough for ten days.For the remaining ten or so days, I had to borrow money.Boys don't have enough food, so they usually run to the girls' dormitory to talk to a girl.Girls' meal tickets can't be eaten up every month, and there are leftovers, so that girls can dig up the girls' extra meal tickets to eat.The few in the same dormitory didn't have enough meal tickets, so they were busy imitating other boys.Although I didn't catch up with my girlfriend, I went to brag with the girls for two days. When it comes to not having enough food, the girls help me no matter whether they are boyfriends or not.So as soon as I went, I got a meal ticket and came back.They all called Sun Tianzhu: "Girls love you! You can do it, it's easier than us!" Relief him.
Meal tickets rely on relief, and the girls with food tickets cannot help.Girls also depend on their families for food tickets, how can there be any way to help boys?Sun Tianzhu only eats, not vegetables.After eating dry rice for a few days, a hard white crust formed on the upper and lower lips and cracked.I couldn't even open my mouth to speak, and my lips bleed when I spoke.But there are some people who heard the name of Sun Tianzhu and came to ask for advice.The students in this school can cope with it. When it comes to eating, they go back to the dormitory to grab a meal.Those who come from other schools or from the society, they have to entertain a meal when it comes time to eat!In the past, Sun Tianzhu spent a lot on this aspect.It's even worse now, I don't have anything to eat, so how can I entertain others!So Sun Tianzhu made an appointment with the people in the dormitory. Some people came to see Sun Tianzhu, but they all said he was not there.Someone came and asked Sun Tianzhu: "We came to ask Sun Tianzhu, is he in?" Sun Tianzhu said, "No. He has gone home."
Hunger drove Sun Tianzhu out of the library.If he is not hungry, he can spend a whole day in the library.I was so hungry that I couldn't stay for ten minutes.When I came back, a few boys in the same dormitory were also down and out.Everyone went to fetch dried rice and soaked it in boiling water to eat.If they didn't solve the problem, they met in the farmer's field outside the school, pulled out radishes to satisfy their hunger, and discussed: "The situation is not good! The girls we were looking for all have boyfriends! We can't look for them anymore. , Even if I look for it, I can’t find the meal ticket. The meal ticket is going to be eaten up, what should I do next?” They all told Sun Tianzhu to cooperate quickly.Back at school, I took Sun Tianzhu to the girls' dormitory and said, "We will take you to find some rich girls. We can get both meal tickets and food tickets." In the past, when they went to the girls' dormitory, they only dared to go to the rural areas. The girls who came here pulled Sun Tianzhu to find the girls of the cadres, saying: "These girls have money." After going, they said: "You want to see Sun Tianzhu, we brought it." The girls became excited and blushed into one piece.The boys secretly hinted to God Sun: It's done!So these people started to brag about Sun Tianzhu to the girls, saying how powerful Sun Tianzhu was, and gradually they talked about Sun Tianzhu's meal tickets not enough.The girls donated generously, giving both meal tickets and food tickets.These people were like beggars, and hurriedly picked them up.The girls told them: "You don't have enough meal tickets, just tell me!" If they want to leave, they hope to come back to play again next time.Send them out.Sun Tianzhu always saw them staring at him when he turned his head.Feeling pitiful in my heart: love is too tormenting, it's not a good thing!Once back in the dormitory, everyone called Sun Tianzhu: "Girls chase boys, and the interlayer of paper will be broken; boys chase girls, there is no other way. Infatuation. It’s so clear! It’s not you chasing them, but they chasing you. You hurry up and go again. We’ll go with you.” Sun Tianzhu didn’t go any more. Go to torture them again.The relationship is still shallow, and it is easy for them to quit.The relationship is deep, and they are trapped in it, which is pitiful.Everyone then said that Sun Tianzhu was too stupid and useless, and refused to do the good things that came to his door.The next time I am short of food tickets, I will go to these girls again and say that Sun Tianzhu has nothing to eat.The girls helped out again, telling them to take their grandchildren to play with them.But Sun Tianzhu was never seen.
The way the girls looked at him was still the same as when they were in Miliangba.When Sun Tianzhu was walking on the road, when he was unprepared, sometimes when he suddenly looked up, he would find a girl's red face smiling brightly at him.He still hasn't found the best way to deal with it.Smile at them too, it will give them an illusion, what if they initiate a pursuit of him?Also have to offend people.Ignore it, it's too unfeeling, and too cruel, you shouldn't treat these flawless, innocent and romantic girls like this.But neither option is ideal.Sun Tianzhu had to choose the latter.When they smiled at him infatuatedly, he faced each other coldly.This is only once, and when we meet again next time, the girls treat her like a passerby, as if they don't know him, and their smiles disappear.Soon he won the title of "cold-blooded animal".
The money was not enough to eat, so Sun Tianzhu had to give up part of his time to write and submit manuscripts to earn some manuscript fees.Sometimes I was so poor that I didn't even have the stamp money to send the letter, so I had to sell the meal tickets I got from the girls before sending the letter.But his articles rarely meet the taste of those superficial editors.Sometimes ten articles are submitted, but only one or two are published, and the manuscript fee is low. When a 1,000-word article is published, the manuscript fee is less than ten yuan.Sometimes I went to the girls of those cadres, and they gave far more than the ten yuan.
Girls from other schools also chase Sun God.The students from Miliangba, when bragging with those girls, the girls asked Sun Tianzhu of Miliangba.They boasted that they were Sun Tianzhu's good friends.The girls treat them with respect.They also want to show that they are not lying and come to ask Sun God to play.Sun Tianzhu reads every day, and his eyes can't bear it. Every other week, he has to climb the surrounding mountains and fields to rest his eyes.Sometimes my eyes hurt and I can't read for a few days.When they come to invite, they also follow.Regardless of any school, when Sun Tianzhu was taken to the girls' dormitory by them, he would brag about useless bullshit, or go shopping on the road, or watch movies, or play poker.Scattered bullshit, it doesn't work; the road is still the same road; movies, they are all things without content.Those girls were elated and applauded.Sun Tianzhu couldn't stand it any longer, so he closed his eyes to rest his eyes.Those girls filmed him: "Why don't you watch such a beautiful movie?" Sun Tianzhu still didn't open his eyes, and said, "I listen with my ears." They said, "How do you listen to movies with your ears?" Sun Tianzhu said: "If you have ears, you can hear how vulgar this movie is." They said, "How wonderful this movie is! If you think it is vulgar, then don't watch it. Go back to play cards." The girls took care of Sun Tianzhu's emotions and reluctantly watched the movie , but the boys were pissed off: "You guys are too spoiling everyone's interest. You are watching wonderfully, but you have to leave, you can't leave, you have to finish watching." The girls said: "We also watched wonderfully! But he said It's not exciting!" Sun Tianzhu didn't want to play poker either, so he told them to watch it before leaving.He still closed his eyes to rest.They stopped watching and teased him to talk.The audience around told them to keep their voices down.They called him: "Go, go out and talk." They took Sun Tianzhu outside the movie theater, looked at him, smiled, and asked him what kind of girl he likes and what kind of girl he wants to find, and tried it out step by step.When it comes to playing poker, they all score thousands of points, level up, boys and girls, they get carried away, and they don’t care if they urinate.Going to the toilet twice a day.When it was time to eat, there was a truce, boys and girls ran desperately towards the toilet.Before he finished pulling, he rushed out of the toilet and ran towards the dormitory. As soon as he entered the dormitory, he grabbed poker and started playing again.Some of them took a little longer to go to the toilet, and those in the dormitory were impatient, so they yelled at the toilet, and even the boys shouted the girl's name at the women's toilet: "You need to relieve yourself quickly! Let us wait!" They Competing to be the opponent of Sun Tianzhu.Sun Tianzhu also doesn't want to play cards, which hurts the eyes more than reading.When there are more people, he will automatically give way, sit on their bed, and look at the photos they usually take to pose.I couldn't sit still on the poker field, so the woman yelled, "Who's going to play poker?" She called a top, and came to introduce to Sun which photo of her was taken, and asked him if he liked it.Take him there and take a photo if you like.Sun Tianzhu just wanted to see how vulgar their photos were, and he didn't care what kind of photos they took.They are different, calling others: "You play, we go to take pictures." The card players shouted again, saying that their interest was spoiled.They didn't care about it, so they pulled Sun God to go out.Sun Tianzhu will not go.They are deadly invited, and when they arrive, they find a photographer to come, select the scene, pose, and then, when they come to take pictures, they force him to hold their hands and they hug his shoulders.When the photos were taken, they were smiling from ear to ear. Sun Tianzhu saw that the women were like prostitutes, and the men were like clients, twisting, hugging, jogging, how decent they were, and couldn't bear to watch it any longer.I just want to grab it and destroy it.But they immediately protected it, put it in the photo album, and treasured it.Sun Tianzhu couldn't destroy it even if he wanted to, and regretted it endlessly.Sometimes when we get along like this, it hurts to feel that time has passed by.Only then did I realize that these people have too much time to spend, so they live by it.As for him, there is not enough time at all, how can he spend time with them?When they were teasing him, he thought in his heart: "How much is the life of these girls worth? Not worth a penny!" The world, the nation and the nation, why worry about each other!As for this group of birds and men, they hang around, roam, talk, quarrel, vulgar, ignorant, superficial and boring all day long.What is the hope of this nation?Sometimes when he saw those girls in such a situation, he became anxious and wanted to go back to school to read.They are still teasing him around.He got angry, stood up and left, ignored them, and immediately made them angry and cursed.As soon as he returned to school, it was already late and the sun was setting. Standing on a high place, he felt like a wasted day.I regret it.
After so many visits, the fellow villagers also bothered him and didn't come to invite him.The girls ignored him, and he didn't want to go either.After walking around, I finally found out that the people of the world pass by in a daze, come in bewildered and ignorant, and leave in obscenity and stinking.It's ugly and dirty. It's unreasonable to record it truthfully and make it into one episode. People in the world will think that the author made it up. Who can believe it's true?On the contrary, ancient and modern Chinese and foreign novels, the plots of the most bizarre ones are no more bizarre than this world.After all, there is still only one Sun Tianzhu in the world, and there is no second one!He has to cherish the only one in the world!If he wasted his talent, he was wasting the essence of heaven and earth, and he was committing a crime against the universe!These philistines, who kill and set fire, are crimes, and heroes who live up to the world are crimes. There is an essential difference between the two.So I wrote a poem:
Liu Xiangxiong's talent and ambition, do they compete in the world for food and clothing?
Heroic crimes are different from others, and it is just to live up to their talents!
I also think that it is a pity that people like Song Weizi, Jizi, etc. have talents but have no life.It is excusable to do nothing to the country.But how easy is it to be born with talent?It is justifiable for the two of them to fail the country of Shang; it is not justifiable to fail the world, but it is still responsible, and they wrote another poem:
Heroes must cherish their uniqueness, and there is no virtue if they are not used by the country.
Although it is pitiful to have talent but no life, it is still responsible for righteousness.
On this day, he summarized Chinese historical figures and wrote an article "On Chinese Characters":
There are two extremes in the universe: Yin and Yang.There are also two extremes in life: fame and romance.Only the combination of the two can lead to no regrets in life.
Small fame is boring, but big fame is fine.Yao, Shun, Yu, Tang, Wen, Wu, Yingzheng, Liu Bang, Sun Yat-sen, and Mao Zedong all contributed to overwhelm China, and their names will last forever. They are great achievements.
Small romances are boring, but big ones are fine.Lao Tzu wrote, Sun Tzu wrote "The Art of War", and Confucius created Confucianism, all of which have been passed down through the ages.Another example is Cao Cao and Mao Zedong, whose poems can't be written without them. They are grand in spirit and magnificent in scenery, so they are also called romantic.
How to combine fame and romance?Let me give you two examples first: one is Xiang Yu, who destroyed the world and ruled by himself, for the sake of fame; at the end of the road, the tragic song is generous: "Strengthen the mountain and the world is overwhelming, the time is not good, the time is not dying! The time is not dying, what can I do?" How about Xi Yu Xi Nai Ruo?" And Yu Ji Hege: "The Han soldiers have already conquered the land, and the singing is besieged on all sides. The king is exhausted, how can the concubine live?" She committed suicide with her sword.It is very emotional.The second is Liu Bang, who controls the talents, dominates the world, travels day and night in brocade clothes, and returns to his hometown: "When the wind blows, the clouds are flying, and the Vega will return to the hometown, and the warriors will guard the Quartet?" It is also worthy of life!
In general Chinese characters, Lao Tzu, Confucius, Sun Tzu, Li Bai, Du Fu, Cao Xueqin, Lu Xun, etc., are all romantic figures, but they lack merit.Qin Huang, Han Wu, Tang Zong, Song Zu, Genghis Khan, etc. had great achievements, but lacked romance.Goujian got a beauty, Tang Xuanzong got a Yang Guifei, this is not romantic.Emperor Wu of the Han Dynasty, Emperor Taizong of the Tang Dynasty, and Kangxi were all able to write poems, but they couldn't write well, so they couldn't be considered romantic.
There are three people who combine great fame and great wind: Zhou Wenwang Jichang, Wei Wudi Cao Cao and Mao Zedong.Needless to say, the achievements of the three of them.King Wen of Zhou performed "Yi" and breathed out the world; Emperor Wu of Wei's poems were deep and vigorous;There are three people like this in life, and there is no regret at all.The rest are mere areas, what's the point!
After finishing this article, he thought: What are Yan Mingxing, Lu Zhaochen, Wang Weimin, etc., among my life goals?What good does it do to my fame and fortune?I used to spend so much energy for them, it is really not worth it!From now on, any woman, go away!All the women around Yan, Lu, Wang, etc. are not worthy of being my wife!
From then on, Sun Tianzhu no longer went to find any girls with these fellow villagers.When his eye hurts, he goes outside to climb mountains alone.Come back and read alone.They still come to him sometimes.One day, Mi Liangba's hometown fellow from the Institute of Education came to Sun and told Sun that their school had a school belle named Boyeger, and everyone chased her but couldn't get her.Then mobilize everyone to attack her, and those who attack her will be rewarded.The counties organized a force to attack.Counties that cannot be conquered lose one hundred yuan.All the counties tried and failed.Mi Liangba's student Chuan can take her down.Students from other counties bet with students from Miliangba.They came to ask Sun Tianzhu to arrest the girl, saying that Sun Qu would definitely capture the girl.Sun Tianzhu said: "I'm not interested in these things, you can get them yourself." The group of people said: "This girl is very beautiful! She is even more beautiful than Lu Zhaochen! Let's invite you to win glory for Miliangba! You have a girl, we need money to spend." Sun Tianzhu said: "I won't go!" Everyone said: "If you don't go, we will lose! The bet has been placed!" Sun Tianzhu said: "Don't go!" Everyone said I went back and tried it with that girl, and found that when she heard Sun Tianzhu's name, she became excited and wanted to succeed.That is to say, he asked Sun to go to her place to play, and she agreed.Everyone said: "If we bring his Sun Tianzhu and lose, you have to pay!" She said yes.The crowd came again and said to Sun: "You go and take her 100%! She has promised not to let us lose! She is basically waiting for you to take her." It’s not a good thing!” He always refused to go.These people pestered several times and had to go.Sun Tianzhu wondered if Wang Weimin's words were right?These men are so boring in this world.Doing these boring things all day long.If you can't attack, you have to attack with a reward.If it cannot be captured, the man will be sad; if it is captured, the woman will be sad.Women are really unlucky, such as Yan, Wang, etc., who are constantly entangled by this group of shameless men, their time is wasted, their futures are cut off, their reputations are ruined, it is sad and lamentable.If I also join in with these people and attack Boyeger, I will become a shameless person.Never do such a thing!From the so-called lovers he has seen all the time, he has not seen a single person who has a successful career, so he takes it as a warning, and he will never make the same mistake again.
On this day, Luo Xincheng and a few students from the Chinese Department of the Teachers College went to Wumeng Teachers College to play and talk about poetry.Normal students said that Wang Guozhen's love poems are too good.A few teacher college students didn't like anyone with the surname Wang, so they ridiculed him for being superficial, calling Wang a "stinky shit".The group of normal students felt that their idols had been insulted, and argued vigorously.When Luo et al. saw that he was defending Wang, they were furious, saying that these normal students were of low quality, and calling Wang a "pig shit pile".The verbal and verbal sword gradually got out of control, they scolded each other, and finally got into a big fight.There are few students in normal colleges, and they are defeated by normal students.When the normal students came back, they invited a group of people to beat the normal students, defeated them, and said: "Clear the garbage for the Chinese poetry circle."Those normal students refused to accept, and the two sides have often fought since then.Luo and others came to discuss this matter with Sun Tianzhu, and it happened that Yue Yingxian was also with Sun Tianzhu.Luo et al. said: "Fucking normal students, too superficial! Poems like Xu Zhimo's "Farewell to Cambridge" are really good love poems!" Yue Yingxian ridiculed his superficiality, saying: "Xu Zhimo What kind of thing is Zhimo!" He pointed to Sun Tianzhu: "The real great poet is here!" Luo Xincheng immediately retorted: "You actually belittle Xu Zhimo? You can't write poems like Xu Zhimo! You are jealous of Xu Zhimo How can you attack him personally?" Yue said, "I am impatient to envy him? I am impatient to write his stinky poem!" Luo et al. were furious, and said, "Look at your sharp-mouthed monkey cheeks, It’s not like someone who writes poetry!” Sun Jian was about to fight for poetry again, so he hurriedly said: “Don’t quarrel! Don’t quarrel!” Yue Yingxian teased enough people, and said: “Xu Zhimo’s poems are quite good! Very good! Good!" Luo and others were still chattering.Sun Yue and Sun Yue smiled at each other and walked to the street.Yue said: "Damn it, the quality of people in the world is unbelievably low! They all come from peasant backgrounds just like Lao Tzu, what love poems are you talking about! If you want to talk about love poems, only Li Shangyin's two are passable! The rest are all fucking nonsense. !"
When Yue Yingxian paints, he only reads albums every day, and rarely reads Chinese and foreign art history.Looking at it is also taking it out of context, and being fascinated by Van Gogh every year, it must be Van Gogh.When Sun Tianzhu looked at the history of art, he appreciated everything from ancient Egyptian murals, ancient Roman vase paintings, from the Renaissance to Impressionism, and from Raphael Dali.Sun Tianzhu only admired Van Gogh for one month before he became Dali, and he only admired Dali for one month before he became another man.Yue, on the other hand, remained obsessed with Van Gogh until graduation, and knew nothing about Dali and others.
Sun Tianzhu went to the teacher's college for a year, only to find out that the teachers in the teacher's college didn't read books.Teachers in the Chinese department do not look at other relevant knowledge.Teachers from other departments do not read books from the Chinese department.Especially for teachers in the Chinese department, those who teach ancient literature do not read modern literature.Those who teach Chinese literature do not read foreign literature.Even a few young teachers in the Chinese Department talked about what they had learned in college, and they learned less after they graduated from college.The words must be Europe and the United States, but Asia and Africa are meager.For example, Sun Tianzhu read the poems of Persian Hafiz and Khayyam one day. Teacher Wei saw it and said, "Is this American or European?" Sun Tianzhu said, "Persian." Teacher Wei said, "Persian has What kind of poetry! Just look at the works of Baudelaire, Pound and others.” As for European and American works, they only focus on Western Europe and the United States, and ignore Russia and others.Today, Sun Tianzhu was reading Russian literature, and another young teacher said: "What's so interesting about Russian literature? Just look at France!" Sun Tianzhu felt that some professors and associate professors actually confine themselves to a very small area. Within the scope of the Chinese department, I have been a teacher of the Chinese department all my life, and I have not even mastered the things involved in the Chinese department courses.The tragedy of their life's inaction lies here.He must overcome the root causes of this tragedy.After a year of hard work, he has read all works related to Chinese and world literature.He wants to use his two years in the teacher's college to take an overview of various subjects such as philosophy, physics, chemistry, art, astronomy, etc., and expand his knowledge.Of course, each subject can only be understood superficially.