Chapter 31 Section 30

Sun Tianchou obtained more than 200,000 words of material during the interview during the holidays.As soon as he returned to school, he bought a stack of manuscript paper more than one foot high and started writing.If he wants to finish writing this pile of manuscript paper, his novel is almost finished.At the beginning, he was busy designing character names, resumes, and writing story outlines.The outline of the story has written more than 30,000 words.Then he started to create.He revised while writing, and as soon as he finished writing a natural paragraph, he went back and corrected it, and felt dissatisfied.After a busy day, I only wrote a few hundred words in the end.On the second day, even writing and revising, there are only a few hundred words, and sometimes they are all torn up, which means that there is no word at all.After more than ten days of writing in this way, more than 4,000 words were completed.As soon as Sun Tianchou made a summary, he knew something was wrong. According to this progress, when will it be completed?So I changed it to finish writing each natural paragraph, and I was not allowed to look back. It was going to be dark every day, so I came back to see if I could write all day.Just tore up the rewrite.Look again next time, still not working.Started rewriting again.Therefore, although the daily progress is more than seven or eight thousand words, once repeated, it takes two or three days to complete seven or eight thousand words.

Sun Tianchou felt that this was not enough, so he simply stipulated that he would not read it every day.Check back in a few days.A few days later, looking back, it was no good again.So I wrote for nothing these days and started from scratch.After a month of this, he was barely satisfied with only more than 10,000 words.  Sun Tianchou began to reflect again, blaming himself for seeking perfection in everything, just to seek a mature and perfect manuscript all at once, thus wasting a lot of time and energy.In the end, he had no choice but to change his method, only writing but not changing.But it's still hard to do.When he felt that there were irrelevant and long-winded words, he couldn't hold back his hatred, so he went back and changed them.

Insomnia accompanies his creation all the time.His life was blurred, day and night turned upside down.Sometimes I write at night and sleep during the day.Sometimes I have insomnia all night and can only fall asleep in the morning.Sometimes it is dusk when I wake up.Sun Tianchou didn't go to class all day and hid in the dormitory, which seriously violated the school's regulations.The school was very angry with him.As soon as the teachers met, they said: "Young man, what kind of novel are you writing! What you need to do now is to study hard, get admitted to school, find a job, and change your life. After you have a job, how much do you want to write in decades? High school After a few years, it will be too late for you to regret it!" Sun Tianchou refused to listen.The teacher came to persuade again: "We all know that your family is not good! What you need is to find a solid job. You are not the kind of student who can't afford the exam! As long as you work hard, you can afford it in ordinary universities! You Wouldn’t it be okay not to write novels for two or three years? It’s an honor for our school to become a great writer after you get admitted to a university, study a Chinese department, and specialize in writing! We welcome you to do this! But writing now is not good for you Ah!" The teachers of Chinese, mathematics, English, politics, history, geography and other subjects all said this, but Sun Tianchou just didn't listen.

After class, the classmate went back to the dormitory to surround Sun Tianchou, asking for his manuscript, but he refused to give it to him. The other party thought he was arrogant and said mockingly: "What's so great! Want to be a writer? Why don't you just take a picture of yourself? What kind of face!" Sun Tianchou thought: "These bastards are really hateful! The world is so vast, and everyone does what they want. I don't bother you, why are you bothering me? Even if you ask me to bother you, I don't have the time and effort at all , and I am impatient to bother you at all! You are living a boring life, and you come here to disturb others.” I was angry, but I still suppressed my anger, I just looked back and vented.Sometimes a large group of people gathered around to insist on seeing how Sun Tianchou conceived, how to write, and what he looked like when he wrote.The light was blocked, and there was darkness in front of him.Sun Tianchou was caught in the shadows, unable to write, so he had to stop.The group thought that Sun Tianchou deliberately didn't write for them.Both sides are angry.Sometimes, someone wants to test the extent of Sun Tianchou's writing fascination, and when Sun Tianchou is conceiving, he suddenly rushes to the back and screams.Sun Tianchou's creative thinking was interrupted.Sun Tianchou wanted to recall, but there was no trace of him.Sun Tianchou asked angrily: "What are you doing?" The other party said: "I see you are fascinated?"What's more, when Sun Tianchou was moved by the characters and plots in the novels he wrote, he cried and laughed at the same time.Some students knew about Sun Tianchou's situation, and sometimes they would come back secretly to observe how Sun Tianchou cried and laughed.Some girls became interested and followed to watch. Seeing that Sun Tianchou was crying and laughing inappropriately, they couldn't help laughing.Sun Tianchou was deeply immersed in the novel, and was suddenly disturbed by the laughter of these boys and girls.It makes me very irritable every day.

Later, the head teacher came to interfere and said to Sun Tianchou: "The class counts your absence, and you can already be expelled! What should I do?" Sun Tianchou promised to attend class, but actually refused to go.Teacher Zhu, the teacher in charge of the class, repeatedly taught that Sun Tianchou didn't go to class. One day at noon, the students were in class, and Sun Tianchou was still writing in the dormitory, so the class teacher came in.Sun Tianchou didn't notice.The head teacher didn't speak, just watched quietly. After a long time, the head teacher sat down, lit a cigarette and smoked.Seeing Sun Tianchou motionless for a long time, burying his head in the book, he was a little moved. When Sun Tianchou was happy writing and jumped up to move around, he found the head teacher sitting in the dormitory, and was shocked.Teacher Zhu said, "How is the writing?" Sun Tianchou said nothing.The class teacher said: "You have been writing for more than two months! How many words are there?" Sun Tianchou said truthfully, and the teacher stomped his feet: "Then when do you want to write? You write 170,000 words in two months, 60 It will take a few more months! Then I advise you to stop studying and go home and write! Write until you graduate from high school!" Sun Tianchou said: "I will try to finish writing this semester."

Because the dormitory was extremely dirty, Teacher Zhu took Sun Tianchou to his dormitory for education.Sun Tianchou said: "Mr. Zhu, I won't make any mistakes! I will finish my novel this year, and I will come to study later. It is not a problem to get into an ordinary university!" Teacher Zhu said, "Do you know how intense the college entrance examination is? Thousands of troops cross the single-plank bridge! Raising soldiers for three years and using them for three days is not enough. You actually talked to me about your absurd plan! You go to the classroom of the third year of high school to see the kind of preparations that are in full swing!" Education for a while, called Sun Tianchou helped him correct the students' homework.Sun Tianchou took the students' homework and went to the balcony to correct it.These homework are from Yan Mingxing's class.Sun Tianchou's face was red and his heart was beating, and he first asked Yan Mingxing to change it.Unexpectedly, I changed a few questions, all of which were wrong.Sun Tianchou couldn't believe it, and opened the homework book, there were names written by Yan himself, etc. Sun Tianchou was familiar with her handwriting and knew it was true.Open the homework book again and look at it. The previous homework is also a lot of mistakes.Sun Tianchou was silent.This is no longer the former star Yan!Feeling restless, he stood up and looked out.

Outside Teacher Zhu's balcony is the county swimming pool.Coincidentally, it was Yan Mingxing's swimming class.Sun Tianchou searched for a while, and suddenly saw Yan Mingxing.She was wearing a bathing suit, with her arms and legs exposed.I was joking with some girls above the swimming pool.Her form is so beautiful.It was the first time Sun Tianchou saw her limbs exposed.Sun Tianchou was suddenly excited, how happy he would be to sleep with such a beautiful woman in his arms!He must achieve this goal!She is his forever!As long as he wants her!He made sure to get her, and when he met Su Xuesheng in the future, he said to him, "Brother, you were wrong! Yan Mingxing will always belong to me!" Sun Tianchou kept looking at her greedily until they went back from get out of class.Sun Tianchou changed her homework again, and suddenly wanted to express his concern for her in her homework.He thought for a while: If I finish correcting all the homework, Teacher Zhu will not change this homework again, and will not find out that I am playing tricks in it.So I changed all the workbooks, opened Mingxing Yan's workbook, and wrote on the bottom: "Xingxing, your studies have declined! What's going on? I'm very surprised! You are very smart, study hard, and you will have great achievements." Future! May you realize my wish! Sun Tianchou!"

After class, Teacher Zhu asked Sun Tianchou to have dinner with him.Sun Tianchou has been paying attention to whether he will look through the students' homework.He hasn't been.The next day, Sun Tianchou went to class uncharacteristically, observing Teacher Zhu's expression towards him.Teacher Zhu didn't respond much.Sun Tianchou thought, Teacher Zhu didn't find out!After a few days of observation, there is still no more expression.Sun Tianchou's adventure was a success.He paid attention to Yan Mingxing again, but unfortunately, he went to the classroom less often, and he didn't see Yan in the few times he went, and he started writing his novels again and skipped class.

Sun Tianchou finally felt the hardships of starting a business.The further the novel was written, the more it was out of his control. He couldn't control the seven or eight hundred thousand words of the novel. He knew that he was writing indiscriminately. A novel of 700,000 to 800,000 words.Later, he became more proficient in writing, and finally he could write without changing what happened before and after.Seeing that this semester is coming to an end, I have written 600,000 words.There is already a full box.By the time he finishes writing, the box may be full. On this day, Sun Tianchou occasionally walked through the classroom of the third year of high school. The classroom and corridors were full of students who were studying hard.Some faces were stuck on the book, some pens were drawn in the sky, some fingers pointed to the sky to write, some were chanting words, and the atmosphere was really lively.

The closer to the end of the novel, the more diligent Tian Chou worked, day and night.He doesn't care about the upcoming exam.With another 100,000 words, he will complete a great cause!He writes happily every day, and keeps writing.Sometimes because I was too happy and excited to write any more, I stood up and danced endlessly.After calming down, I continued to write.I was so excited as I wrote, I jumped up again.It's really joyful, and joy accompanies him every day.Teacher Zhu came in again this day.Sun Tianchou was weighing his manuscript, which weighed several kilograms, and couldn't help laughing out loud. Teacher Zhu thought there were other people besides Sun Tianchou, so he came in and saw that only Sun Tianchou was alone.Sun Tianchou was happy when Teacher Zhu came in.Sun Tianchou was in a hurry to put the manuscript back into the box, and was in a panic.Teacher Zhu took it, weighed it, and was very surprised. After flipping through the pages, he put it down and said, "It's a pity that you have such perseverance! If you use it in your studies, it's not difficult to get into Peking University and Tsinghua University! It's useless, don't you know? I feel sorry for you! What a pity!"

But behind the scenes, Mr. Zhu praised Sun Tianchou endlessly.Today, he said in Yan Mingxing's class: "I have been teaching for ten years, and the best student is Sun Tianchou! If Sun Tianchou can give full play to his talents, his future will be limitless! I admire the students I teach. Students, I am ashamed of myself!" In Sun Tianchou's class, he said: "Students, Sun Tianchou has written a novel of 700,000 words! No matter how ugly, if you can finish 700,000 words, you will Amazing! He has ambition, foresight, and perseverance! A student like this is invincible and invincible! Worth admiring and worth learning from!" The students all came back and said to Sun Tianchou: "The class teacher and teacher praised you! You did a great job!" The closer to the end of the novel, the more busy Sun Tianchou was, always feeling that the speed was too slow.Except for going to the toilet every day, he never leaves the dormitory.I'm too lazy to even go to eat.Often forget to eat.It was only after dark that we went out to eat a bowl of rice noodles on the street.Every night when I go to sleep, my eyes hurt.When I woke up the next day, my eyes were covered with eye mucus, and I had to soak in water for a while to remove the eye mucus.After picking it up, I was busy writing again.One day when I woke up, there was darkness in front of my eyes, and I tried to open my eyes, but I couldn't open them no matter what.When I touched it with my hand, there were walnut-sized balls outside the eyes, like two balls of glue.Tian Chou was so frightened that he let out a "Mom", thinking that his eyes were finished, what would he do if he became blind now.When I got busy, I soaked it in water, and when I touched my eyes, they were swollen to the size of walnuts.I hurriedly found a mirror on my classmate's bed, but I couldn't open my eyes. From a crack, I could see the eyeball inside, like a ball of blood.Tianchou hurriedly ran towards the school infirmary.The doctor was shocked when he saw it, and said: "We dare not treat your eyes! You go to the county hospital!" Knowing that this is the famous "novel writer" in the school, the two female doctors said: "Young man, slowly Write it! Your eyes are useless, and no matter how good the novel is, what good is it?" Tian Chou hurriedly ran to the county hospital, and when he arrived at the ophthalmology department, the doctor looked at Tian Chou's registered name and said, "I heard that there is a man surnamed Sun. A student writes a novel and has finished writing millions of words, is it you?" Tian Chou was surprised: My reputation has actually spread to this hospital?Said to be.The doctor looked at it and said, "Young man, if you continue like this, I'm worried that your eyes will be ruined! You are not allowed to read for ten days and have a good rest!" He prescribed medicine.Seeing that Tianchou was wearing a Chinese tunic suit and his trousers were patched, he asked Tianchou where his home was, and Tianchou said it was in Fala.The doctor said: "That place is poor!" Tianchou said: "Have you been there?" The doctor said: "I saw it when I drove by. Most of the county cadres know the reputation of Fara! The most pussy place in the county! That place can produce a young man like you, it’s not bad! Just take good care of your eyes! If your eyes are useless, everything will be useless!” He said pitifully, “You’ll lose money by prescribing medicine! I’ll just give you some medicine! "He took some eye drops and gave them to Tianchou.Tian Chou thanked him, went back to school, took some eye drops, and lay down to rest. At that time, it was widely rumored in the school that Sun Tianchou wrote a novel, and he lost his eyesight.When Fala's cadres working in the county came back to Fala and blew it, everyone in Fala knew that there was something wrong with Tianchou's eyes.Tian Chou's eyes hurt, and he suffers every day.I can't write a novel.Just go to class.All the students in the school stared at his eyes to see if the man was really blind.In class, the teacher's speech was extremely boring, and Tian Chou realized that he was wasting his life in the classroom, so he went back to the dormitory, no matter whether his eyes hurt or not, he took eye drops, and started to write again.This is the happiest moment of his life.Sometimes after writing for a while, I have to look at the manuscript in the box, and I can't help but jump up for joy again.This is his priceless treasure!See enough to see enough, more inspiration and more energy when writing.The beautiful plots and words, which are different from the original conception, are hundreds of times better, and they are the natural development of the previous hundreds of thousands of words.He just kept memorizing.He is no longer conceiving or creating, but recording a ready-made novel. The novel is coming to an end.When Sun Tianchou thinks of his novel, he has an incomparable sense of pride and accomplishment.Even if the novel fails, he wins.He tried how to start a business after all.In the last two days, Tian Chou was very excited. When he was happy, the dormitory was no longer enough to vent.From time to time he stopped writing, rushed downstairs, and ran on the playground.All the other students are in class!The school is very tolerant of Tianchou now, basically ignoring him and allowing him to write.The principal usually heard that Sun Tianchou was crying and laughing while writing, so he said, "Don't make a lunatic come and trouble us!" Now seeing Sun Tianchou dancing wildly on the playground, he really thought he was crazy.In a hurry, I asked the school security to take a look.The guard came and yelled at Sun Tianchou: "You lunatic, jump away!" Sun Tianchou was disturbed by the scolding of the school guard.He stared at the school guard, thinking that the guard was infinitely smaller than the book in his box, really like clouds in the sky and dust on the ground!Yan Mingxing's class is in physical education class, and the whole class is like watching a circus, and some cheer loudly.Sun Tianchou was unmoved, and continued to sing something he composed: "People are not as great as their careers!" Even the physical education teacher couldn't help laughing.Yan blushed, thinking that Sun Tianchou was probably not far from the madman.Sun Tianchou looked at her, she was ashamed and hid behind other students.Sun Tianchou jumped for a while, like a lunatic who temporarily regained consciousness, and rushed back to the dormitory.Here, the physical education teacher and the students in Yan Mingxing's class were talking about how crazy Sun Tianchou was, and the principal didn't dare to bother. When they were laughing, Sun Tianchou rushed down for the second time and sang at the side of the court again. .Yan Mingxing was deeply ashamed.In particular, some students who came from Zebu would talk here about how she said that she and Sun Tianchou were "my couple" when she was in Zebu, and so on.Now some girls point to Crazy Sun and ask Yan: "Look at that guy in your family! He's crazy!" After the whole school rumored that Sun Tianchou was blind, it was rumored that Sun Tianchou was crazy.  Yan Mingxing suffered a lot of humiliation that day, after class, he wrote a letter to Sun Tianchou without mentioning it or signing it: "The way you danced on the school playground is so ugly, it's quite ugly! The whole school looks at you like a monkey! If you are really not crazy, I hope you have self-respect! If you are really crazy, then this letter should be written for nothing!" Sun Tianchou received the letter, seeing that there was no beginning and no end, The handwriting looks like it was written by Yan Mingxing.He wrote back and said: "Did you write me a letter? If so, I will answer you, I am not crazy! My novel is almost finished! I can't express the happiness in my heart, so I went to the playground to dance! What do others think? I do not care!" On the last day, Sun Tianchou didn't sleep all night.By dawn, there is only one last page left!He couldn't help humming: "It's really 'the tiger dominates the dragon, the past is better than the past, the world is turned upside down and generous'!" He felt that he had changed from an insignificant person when he started creating half a year ago to a great person.He learned a lot and achieved incomparable achievements.After finishing the book, Sun Tianchou was elated, and signed "The book is finished!" He picked up the book and sang "The Internationale": "There has never been any savior, nor the emperor!" After singing for a while, Sun Tianchou locked the novel, rushed downstairs, and a person in front of him asked, "How happy are you?" Sun Tianchou said loudly, "The novel is finished!" I'm done." Sun Tianchou just walked around laughing and dancing profligately.He put his hands behind his back, smiling as he walked, like a great leader inspecting.Teacher Zhu met upstairs, thinking how could he look like a student, like a lunatic, he was very angry and yelled at Sun Tianchou: "Sun Tianchou, what are you doing?" It's over!" Teacher Zhu couldn't laugh or cry.The principal just checked here and shouted: "Do you still look like a student? You have become a fool!" Sun Tianchou raised his hand again: "The novel is finished." The principal shook his hand: "Get out, get out!" Sun Tianchou is like a lunatic on campus, constantly "finishing the novel", causing a sensation in the whole school.The principal couldn't help it, so he ordered Sun Tianchou to be locked up.Sun Tianchou was taken to the duty room by the guards and detained.After interrogation until the afternoon, he was released.When Sun Tianchou came out, he was so happy that he carried himself away, thinking that this is a great day and worth remembering.How to commemorate it?He suddenly had an inspiration, went to the dormitory to hold the manuscript, and ran towards the photo studio.When I arrived at the photo studio, I took two pictures with the manuscript in my arms before returning to school.I was hungry, so I ran to a restaurant, ordered food and champagne, and started to eat and drink.His figure was reflected in the opposite glass frame, and he realized that every pore of his body was smiling.After eating, Sun Tianchou fell asleep. He slept for thirteen hours, and woke up the next morning when the class was over. He was eager to assess the value of his novels, so after eating after class, he picked up the suitcase and went to the mountain behind the school to find a secluded place to read from the beginning.After reading the first few pages, I am very satisfied, but I feel that I need to make some changes.After reading it, I feel good, but it is obviously not as good as the previous one.After reading it further, Sun Tianchou gradually became dissatisfied, thinking how could he write like this?Feeling ashamed: Is this my Sun Tianchou's novel level?After that, I feel that the novel is getting more and more empty, and there are fewer and fewer real things.He hated himself.I have despised others for many years, and it turns out that I am also unwise.By the fiftieth page, he could no longer read any more, slapped himself across the face, and stood up angrily. After resting for a while, his anger subsided, and he sat down to read again, but he still couldn't read.The feeling of failure gripped him tightly, and beads of sweat covered the tip of his nose and forehead.He was already tense: what's the point of living so impotently?What hope is there for a man who writes such a bad novel?Looking at the level shown in writing this novel, it is really imbecile and can't do anything.He was hopeless in this life, and he thought of death.Instead of living in disgrace, why not die happily?He stood up again, lingering. But he is not reconciled.Didn't he remember crying and laughing many times during the creation?Aren't there many things in this novel that are very touching?Where are they?Maybe I still hide that I haven't read it!He sat down again and looked back, but the more he found, the more dross he found. He vaguely remembered the excellent parts of the creation, and he found some, but it was tasteless after reading it.He wondered why he was so happy with such boring words that he ran to the playground and danced and sang crazily in front of everyone.When he couldn't continue reading, he stood up again in pain, scolding himself with extremely dirty words. I keep standing up disappointed, and after a while I sit down to read the novel with hope.Sun Tianchou kept flipping, the more disgusting he looked, the faster he flipped.When he was humiliated before, the best way was to flee quickly.Now he felt ashamed, so he quickly turned to the next page and covered the previous one.But every page is a disgrace.In the end, he only looked at one or two lines on each side and kept flipping through them.The manuscript is so thick that I can't finish it in half a day.Dozens of pages into the last volume.Sun Tianchou held it in his hand, already feeling quite desperate.Turn it over again, it's still the same.The last ten pages, nine pages, eight pages, seven pages... At the last page, Sun Tianchou was so disappointed that he smashed the manuscript and kicked the wooden box away. opened. "What should I do? What should I do? What should I do?" Sun Tianchou asked himself painfully.The world is so pale, life is so small, and career is so hopeless.Do you want to study hard for the university entrance exam?Very boring!What about a great cause?Can't do it!I am not made for a great cause!He hates himself, not a piece of steel.He is the source of shame: Only with his incompetent material, there will be unsuccessful novels, and only then will there be shame!That's what caused the failure!If there is no self in the world, where is the shame? Sun Tianchou left without knowing where he was going.Wandering?Back to school?He is at a loss.Walking up the mountain, looking down at the county town, it is so insignificant.Life is like an ant!He sat on the top of the mountain and looked down. How sad it is for a person to fail to achieve great things.And how?Is it so successful?Don't you want to achieve what you want?So what to do?Crazy to die?He suddenly thought: One day I will go crazy and die!As Yan Mingxing said, the goal he set was too big.How can it be all done?If you can't finish it, don't you just court death? It was getting late and it was getting cold on the mountain.He is cold.The cold made him more pragmatic, and he descended the mountain.When I got off the mountain, my mentality gradually calmed down.When I got to the place where I was reading novels, looking at the pile that weighed several kilograms, Sun Tianchou felt sorry again.But a fire was lit on the manuscript.The flames roared.He regretted it very much, and asked himself: "Do you want to save them? I often go to extremes. Is this extreme again?" The flames were extinguishing his shame.He is like a criminal destroying evidence to escape punishment.After the book is burned, won't he have no shame?Who dares to say that Sun Tianchou is a loser?I can still declare to the world that I am great, and no one will dare to doubt my greatness.This book is here, and if someone points to it and says, "You're a great fart!", wouldn't it be all over?So he kept setting the manuscript on fire.But there were too many manuscripts to finish burning for a long time. Sun Tianchou burned for a long time, and his heart changed again.After burning the last two volumes, he thought: "No matter how ugly I wrote it myself! Keep it! No matter how dissatisfied tomorrow, it's not too late to burn! If you finish burning today, it will be too late to regret tomorrow!" It was getting dark.Sun Tianchou picked up the broken box and brought two unburned manuscripts back to school.Just lie on the bed, feeling unhappy.Stand up, where are you going?He suddenly thought: "I'm going to die one day! Before I die, go and have fun too! Go find Yan Xingxing and love her!" He walked out.When they arrived at their classroom, Sun Tianchou looked inside, but couldn't find her.Everyone was studying by themselves last night, where did she go?Sun Tianchou walked out, having nowhere to go, so he walked out of the school and walked towards the street. At this time, China had been conquered by Jin Yong and Qiong Yao.The ignorant citizens are trampled even more ignorant by the bastard stories made up by these two bastards.Books are binge-reading, and TV dramas are binge-watching.Sun Tianchou used to see his classmates watching frantically, so he wanted to come over, flipped through a few pages, and then threw it away.As for the TV series, he only heard the pig-like cry of Fara killing a pig from behind the black curtain when he was walking on the street.Walking on the street, Sun Tianchou felt that he had nowhere to go, so he thought: "Look at how vulgar these vulgar things are." He went into a video studio against the sound of fighting.It is Jin Yong's.Sun Tianchou sat down and watched for two minutes, then the will-o'-the-wisp started again: The novel I burned today is childish enough, and this guy's stuff is even more childish than mine!But not at all consciously!To have the face to show it everywhere!Mine were consciously burned, and his should also feel ashamed, secretly burning like mine! The audience continued to applaud the martial arts inside.Sun Tianchou looked at the audience angrily.With the dim light of the video recorder screen, Sun Tianchou looked at this group of poor men and women.Suddenly he discovered that several boys and girls belonged to Yan Mingxing's class.He suspected that Yan was also here.After searching for a while, Yan was found.She was in front, buried in the crowd up to her ears.But when Sun Tianchou saw the top of her beautiful head, he knew it was her.He kept staring at the top of her head.After a while, she tilted her head and talked to the two boys next to her.Sun Tianchou saw that it was the city playboys from her class who were messing with her.Yan Mingxing blushed and scolded them.Sun Tianchou was very ashamed, afraid of being seen by her again here, he hurriedly escaped. Walking down the street again.Sun Tianchou asked himself: "Sun Tianchou! Your great mission in this world is to sweep away all vulgar, low-level, and boring things! Have you cleaned up yet?" Love and hate were intertwined, and he swore in anger: I just want to do it. Do the greatest career, let Yan Mingxing be ashamed!Let her know how great I am and how small she is!Let her regret her behavior forever!Running back to the dormitory, Sun Tianchou looked at the burnt manuscript again, nodded and said: I am greater than the world!Bigger than Yan Xingxing!There is no doubt about it!I want to continue to improve, to be greater and more noble, so that when all human beings look up to me, they are deeply ashamed of their own insignificance!After falling asleep, he thought again: cheer up!Start again tomorrow!I am forever invincible!If the world dares to stop me, I will destroy the world!If fate dares to resist me, I will destroy fate!Who said there is no savior?I am the savior! Sun Tianchou fell asleep that night.It took another ten hours to wake up.Woke up feeling empty again.I used to be busy writing books as soon as I woke up, but now, what should I do?Unable to sit still in the dormitory, he walked towards the classroom, thinking that the classroom would be boring, so he walked towards the library, thinking that going to the library would also be boring, so he wandered on the street.Walking on the street is also boring.Sun Tianchou thought: everywhere is ignorant, everywhere is boring!There was a person in the world who wasn't boring before, and now he's boring too.If you want to find a boring person, you have to find yourself!Only oneself is his eternal partner, he has no teacher in this world!No partner either!No friends either!It is impossible for him to give up his ideals and beliefs and lower his level to adapt to Yan Xingxing and others.He also has no hope that Yan et al. will be able to extricate themselves from the quagmire and improve their quality to be able to stand shoulder to shoulder with him.The confidantes he could have are all gone, and they are only in the history books.Yellow Emperor, Yao, Shun, Yu, Tang, Zhou Wenwang, Qin Shihuang, Liu Bang, Cao Cao, Sun Quan, Liu Bei, Sima Yan, Yang Jian, Li Yuan, Zhao Kuangyin, Temujin, Zhu Yuanzhang, Nurhachi, Sun Yat-sen, Mao Zedong and others are his bosom friend!But these bosom friends have gone away, and he is alone here to feel sad.All his teachers, friends, mates are himself!He can only love himself!I used to love Yan Xingxing, I was wrong!It is very likely that he will not find a suitable girl for him in the world!What girl can compare to me?Pushing it away, Sun Tianchou thought: living in this world is boring!If you worship others, it means that you are inferior to others, and it is meaningless to be inferior to others.If others admire you, it means that others are not as good as you!What's the point of being worshiped by a group of people who are not as good as you?The same is true of the love between men and women. The girl you love is not as good as that girl.That girl loves you because she is not as good as you!You love a girl you are not as good as him, you have no self-knowledge, you are too brazen, you are insulting this girl, you are ashamed to commit suicide!This girl who is not as good as you loves you, if you don't refuse, it is hypocrisy, it is teasing this girl, it is immoral, and it is not worthy of your love, why do you waste your life and time?Thinking about it this way, Sun Tianchou thought: That's loveless!Neither love nor be loved by others!Always love yourself! He thinks about it like this every day.Sometimes I feel sad and hopeless.For example, I think that although I unify the world, what's the use of it? The earth will be destroyed one day!The sun will be destroyed too!After the destruction of the solar system, who in the universe knew that there was a great person named Sun Tianchou in the former world, who unified the world!How are his lofty ideals, aspirations, and passions entrusted?Although it can be written into a book and handed down temporarily.But when the earth is destroyed, where will this book be hidden?This book has to be destroyed too!Then my Sun Tianchou also lost his reputation?I was so sad that I burst into tears, crying and filling out the word "A Cluster of Flowers": Fighting against the sky and the earth is a matter of the Long March, and his deeds are worthy of diligence. There are too many choices in the world, and the only choice is fame. In the afterlife, there is no righteousness, so what is the difference between beasts and birds? Who will go on blind date for generations to come?The chess game is new day by day. Could the red sun last forever?Who in the world conveys my affection? Long-cherished and sleepy at night, still afraid, poor heart of a strong man.