Chapter 58 Section 4

After the Korean left, Ding Yi hid in the bedroom and cried, what kind of luck!It took a lot of hard work to find such a husband, and he worked diligently to manage the house, but he was messing around outside.Don't talk about it, but also get sick.Not only did he get sick, he even infected her, but nothing happened to him, and he didn't even leave any evidence of his crime. Is there any justice in this world? Although she couldn't get any evidence of the crime, she knew it in her heart, because she had never had sexual contact with any other man herself, and she was actually infected with a venereal disease, which could only come from him.

She didn't know what to do, should she settle accounts with him?She can't even get the evidence, and if he refuses to admit it, she can't help it.He is a doctor, and he must know that HPV cannot be detected in men, so he will definitely not admit it, and maybe he will beat him up and put the blame on her, but how can she prove her innocence? The test sheet from the hospital was evidence, but it was evidence against her. Ding Yi never thought that she would get cancer. In her impression, most cancers have a family history, which is also related to introversion and depression. But no one in her family has cancer, and none of her relatives has cancer. Her personality She is also introverted and depressed, so she never thought that she would have something to do with cancer.

But now she knew that cancer was not just a family history, it was contagious, not directly from a cancer patient but from a promiscuous husband.If she had known about this decades earlier, she would have chosen not to get married and live alone, which is better than being infected with cancer by a messy husband. Thinking about her own marriage, she felt that the happiness and sweetness she got from it was not much, but it brought her a lot of troubles and distress. Even if she didn't have cancer, she felt that it was not worth it, let alone putting her own money on such a worthless marriage. Life is gone.

She married this marriage, and the only gain is that she has a daughter.But if she knew that there would be today, would she be willing to get married for a daughter? The answer is definitely "no", not because she loves her life more, but because once her life is gone, her daughter cannot be happy. Don't look at Xiao Wen still showing some courtesy to Ding Ding now, it's because Xiao Wen hasn't got Ding Ding's father yet, once he got it, what is Ding Ding?It can only be a stumbling block, a burden, and the child of the husband and ex-wife is the thorn in the side of the stepmother.If Xiao Wen had a child of his own, he would definitely favor one over the other; if Xiao Wen had a son, even Ding Ding's father would favor one over the other, and the two might join forces to treat Ding Ding like a girl.

The prospect made her shudder. Thinking of her daughter, she hurriedly wiped away her tears, went to the bathroom to wash her face, calmed herself down, and then went to her daughter's room to help her take a bath and sleep. After her daughter fell asleep, she returned to her room, feeling that her heart was too blocked, and if she didn't talk to someone, she would burst open. But she found that there are not many people to talk to. Talk to your husband?I'm afraid there will be an argument and my daughter will be frightened. Talk to mom and dad?I am afraid it will not be worth the candle.Mom and Dad are old and far away from each other. They can't understand things like this for a long time, and they can't help other than worrying.She has long been used to reporting good news to her parents but not bad news. She will definitely not tell her parents such serious bad news, and hide it for as long as she can.

Talk to classmates and friends?She no longer dared.Some time ago, she didn't quite understand the Pap smear. She told several classmates and friends that she needed to be re-examined. At that time, she thought it was like having a mammogram and needing to be re-examined. Just sick.If she knew what an abnormal smear test meant, she certainly wouldn't tell people that she needed to be re-tested. Isn't that the same as telling people that her husband is out messing around?Either tell people she fucked outside, or both couples fucked outside. No matter who messes with it, it's not a glorious thing.

Her classmates were already blue with jealousy because she got the interview in J state, and they probably all prayed in their hearts that she would have some bad luck.Well now, they got their wish, and there are more materials for rumors: Hmph, so what about your J state interview?You traded your body for it. For an interview, you messed around with Professor Se, and you got cervical cancer. Are you satisfied? Only now did she discover that the scariest thing was not getting cancer or STDs, but people's gloating after getting cancer or STDs.You are in great pain there, but some people are applauding, and everyone's clapping will make your pain multiply.

She struggled, suppressed the choking in her throat, and dialed her sister's number. But as soon as my sister picked it up, she burst into tears, so scared that my sister kept asking: "Sister, what's the matter with you? Don't cry, what happened? Tell me, did J State reject you? " She held back her tears and told her sister the test results and the Korean analysis. My sister said: "Don't be so anxious, you haven't talked to Dr. Z yet, how do you know if the Koreans are right?" "Dr. Z also said the word 'dysplastic hyperplasia', but I didn't know what it meant, so I thought what she said had nothing to do with cancer."

"Maybe it has nothing to do with cancer? Didn't the Koreans also say that this is just 'abnormal growth'? There are many abnormal growths. A mole on the body is abnormal growth, but how can it be cancer? ?I think American doctors speak straight and will not hide it from patients. If you are cancer, they will say that you are cancer, even if you have a tumor; if you have five years to live, they will only tell you that you have five years They are not like the doctors in China, they will avoid the serious and ignore the serious, and only tell the patient's family members about the illness. So I said, if Dr. Z didn't say that you have cancer, it means that you are not cancer. "

"But she also didn't say I wasn't cancer, she said a conization would be necessary to be sure." "Isn't that just uncertain? Don't scare yourself. You will always have some symptoms when you have cancer. You don't have any symptoms. It can't be cancer. Don't be stupid and rush yourself out of the disease." "I still have symptoms, and sometimes after that, there's bleeding." "Bleeding after that does not necessarily mean cancer. People with cervical erosion will also bleed, and some people will bleed a little during ovulation. All in all, don't worry, it's useless. I'd better call Dr. Z tomorrow and make an appointment. Meet her sometime and see what she has to say."

"Sister, I'm not worried about anything but my daughter. You have to promise me that if anything happens to me, you will take care of Ding Ding for me. I can't let her fall into the hands of a woman like Xiao Wen. " The elder sister said angrily: "What nonsense are you talking about! Where did you get to the point where you are alone? Even if it is cancer, it is not incurable. Those cancers in women are not incurable now. How many women who have breast cancer and cervical cancer, It was surgically removed, and there was nothing wrong with it.” She still knows one or two cases where breast cancer was all right after being removed, but she hasn’t heard of cervical cancer being all right after being removed. She has only heard of a few cases where cervical cancer died. One is the famous movie star Anita Mui. , and the other is Professor Se's wife. But Anita Mui's experience chills her heart. She is a star, a rich woman, and her medical conditions are definitely not so good. Even if such a person gets cervical cancer, it is a dead end, and she dies so quickly, let alone she has no job and no income. pauper? Professor Se's wife stays at home all day, does not leave the front door, does not walk in the second door, how could she get cervical cancer?Must have been messing around outside, contracted HPV, and passed it on to wife.You can see how prosperous Professor Se is now. He went to Beijing to have fun, and came back to have sex with female students, but his poor wife probably died of cancer because of the virus he brought back. She intuitively felt that this was her fate. She was pure and pure all her life and never had sexual relations with other men. I have never done any pretty things, and I have devoted myself to taking care of my husband and daughter for more than ten years, but I have ended up in such an end, what do you mean by love and marriage? After she dies, the husband can safely and boldly pursue young girls like Xiao Wen, show courteousness to them, and speak ill of his deceased wife, such as "all women who get cervical cancer are women who fuck". Thinking of this, her chest was tight and painful, and she began to cry again. My sister said: "Sister, don't be like this, you are sure to be fine, cancer will not look like this, the cancer patients I have seen are all collapsed and deformed, you are so lively, how does it look like you have cancer? When you talk to Doctor Z tomorrow and find out that the Koreans are talking nonsense, then are you not in a hurry today?" "I'm not just worried about the cancer. I feel that I'm too wronged and worthless. I've only been such a man in my life, but he caused cervical cancer, and he's fine. When I die, He can live happily with his lover, this world is too unfair!" "Girl, don't think about these negative things. The most important thing now is to maintain a positive and cheerful mood. Not to mention that you haven't been diagnosed yet. Even if you are diagnosed, don't keep thinking about these unpleasant things. Psychological factors are very important. Don't you Think for yourself, even for Tintin, you have to be strong and fight against the disease!" My sister comforted me for a while, and she took the initiative to end the conversation, not wanting to delay my sister's rest, and there was no result to be discussed. The strange thing is that the husband didn't come back that night, as if he knew that she would take care of the family.After twelve o'clock, she called his laboratory, and he answered the call himself. "When are you coming back?" she asked. "I don't know, I'm busy." "What about the rest?" "all gone." "Why are you doing it yourself? Why don't you ask others to do it?" "People can't do it." "Didn't you say that Xiao Wen is very capable? She can't do it either?" He fell silent. She knew that he loved Xiao Wen and was afraid of tiring Xiao Wen, but he was not afraid of tiring his wife at all. The more she thought about it, the angrier she became, and ordered: "I want you to come back now!" "I told you, I can't leave now, let go of your ovulatory man." "Who told you about ovulation and being a human?" "Then what are you talking about?" "I told you about the review a long time ago, didn't you hear?" He said in a perfunctory way: "You should review it first. Go to review wherever you think of. The insurance is covered. It doesn't matter if you don't. I will pay for it. But I am not in this business, so I can't help you. What's the matter, you'd better go to the hospital to find a gynecologist." She said angrily, "You caused my illness. If I don't ask you, who will I look for?" "What disease is caused by me?" "HPV!" "What HPV?" "You are a medical student, and you don't even know about HPV?" He seemed to be offended, and defended himself, saying: "I studied medicine in China, and it was written in Chinese. After so long, you suddenly came up with such a foreign word. How do I know what you are talking about? You know everything about your profession, remember it?" She talked about the transmission method and harm of HPV, and asked, "I want you to explain to me now, where exactly did you get HPV." "I didn't get HPV anywhere." "You don't have HPV, how can I have it?" "I was just about to ask you!" He hung up the phone with a "bang". She was trembling with anger, and wanted to call him again to question him, but the phone rang, she picked it up, and it was her sister, she couldn't help asking in surprise, "It's so late, you haven't slept yet?" "Not yet. I checked the Internet and found that 'cervical carcinoma in situ' is not equal to 'cervical cancer'. 'Cervical carcinoma in situ' is just a precancerous lesion. If treated in time, it can be completely cured. The Anita Mui you mentioned, She got cervical cancer, not cervical carcinoma in situ, and because she wanted to have a baby, she didn't receive surgery in time, so it got worse." "Thank you, it's so late, and you are still helping me look up information." "Also, HPV is not always transmitted through sexual activities, sometimes shared viral pollutants can also be transmitted, and some can be transmitted through skin ulcers and breaks. Don't blame Xiaoman for now , first think about other possibilities.” Her nose was sour, and tears came down again.It's still my sister who knows her well, knowing that she is neither in the mood nor the courage to look it up online, so she helped her look it up all night, and called her all night to comfort her. In this world, no one cares about her as much as my sister does, and cares about her. in place. She thanked her sister, said she was going to bed, and ended the conversation with her sister so that she could go to bed early. But she didn't rest after hanging up the phone, but went online to search for information in this regard.With her sister's words at the bottom, she is a little more courageous, and she probably won't find anything scarier than what the Koreans said, and maybe she can find some comforting things. She searched for a while and came across an article on a Chinese webpage saying that HPV could be transmitted through contact with pollutants, such as toilet seats in public toilets and shared bath towels. Thinking of her husband's attitude just now, she felt that he probably hadn't cheated, that's why he was so confident and angry.Now she doesn't find her husband's attitude hateful, and even likes his attitude. If he cheated, she probably wouldn't be able to pretend to be so innocent. So her brain was running at high speed, like a high-performance hair dryer, blowing up all the trivial matters of the first three hundred years and the next eight hundred years. First, the artifact of Manjialing.Does anyone know if anyone has used it?Who knows what the master on the mountain did with it?If the master on Lingshang has HPV himself, wouldn't the artifact be easily infected with HPV?Moreover, the artifact has been kept in Manjialing for such a long time, and it has been spared in the wall hole, on the shrine, God knows where else it was spared, there are too many chances of contracting the virus, and then used it on her, although It has been sterilized with boiling water, but can boiling water kill the virus?Even if it can, has the husband really drenched it with boiling water? Second, foreign artifacts.It was recommended by the woman in the shopping center to buy it. Who knows what kind of broken store it is?The first time she saw the "artifact", she had opened it. She thought it was her husband who opened it, but it could have been opened by someone else, or even used by someone else, and then used it on her.At that time, I also asked my husband to sterilize. Who knows how he sterilized? Third, Xiao Wen came to her house to wash clothes, so it is absolutely possible to leave the virus in the washing machine, and then she put the clothes in to wash, so the virus will stick to her clothes?This scares her the most, because her daughter's clothes are also washed in the washing machine, so don't infect her daughter. Fourth, when I lived in an apartment, I used to wash clothes in the public washing machine. I heard that many of those old inks and old blacks were drug addicts. Could it be from there? She also thought about many items, such as the old clothes that her husband's French tutor gave him, the old bed that she bought when she first came to the United States, the school's flush toilet, and so on. When she was going to see a doctor, she would bring up all these things and see which one the doctor said was the most likely.As long as she can prove that her HPV is not caused by her husband's messing around, she will have the courage to face cervical intraepithelial neoplasia and even cancer.