Chapter 4 4. If a woman suffers from emptiness

Society is progressing and developing, and driven by progress and development, many diseases can be cured, although the cure rate is not high.Of course, there are many new diseases, chronic, acute, physical, psychological and so on. Such as depression, such as night eating disorder, such as emptiness. Many people know the former two, but what about the latter? Emptiness is different from autism. Autism is being alone, but emptiness is the hollowness you feel from the inside out whether you are alone or not.Even if it's a free market full of people in your depths, even if you fall into a swimming pool like Toad Hollow, even if you walk through a temple fair where people step on people.

It is said that there are a few typical representatives of emptiness syndrome, such as: Ba Jin, Li Ao, Yu Qiuyu, Xu Jinglei, etc.This disease is ubiquitous, especially in some groups who think they are not sick, they think they are normal, but in fact they are all on the verge of collapse. Baidu Encyclopedia has a very broad definition of emptiness syndrome, and even the phenomenon of "the more you live, the poorer you are, the poorer you will be for the rest of your life", "celibacy", "political dictatorship", and "chasing fame and fortune" are not immune, let alone Wen Jiajia.

Wen Jiajia has always suffered from emptiness, which is very serious, but like most people, she is unaware of her condition.Thinking about it later, perhaps it was because this phenomenon was so common that she ignored it. The characteristics of Wen Jiajia's emptiness syndrome are: the emptiness of not spending money, and the emptiness even more after spending money. After bidding farewell to the banker and the banker's lover and daughter, Lao Zhong personally took Wen Jiajia back to her apartment by car that night. Wen Jiajia put the finished lobster spaghetti on a plate bought for more than 1,000 yuan, and placed it on the dining table in front of Lao Zhong who didn't know how much it was.

Lao Zhong rolled up the spaghetti with an Italian steel fork and delivered it to his mouth. He gave a very satisfied "um" and once again praised Wen Jiajia's cooking skills tirelessly. Wen Jiajia didn't bother to say: "That's right, I was an editor of a food magazine before you and I saw a lot of dishes, and I like to cook them. No matter how bad the food is, can it be worthy of your stomach?" Old Zhong Te ate two large plates to save face, and sat on the sofa watching the news with Xiaoshi tea made by Wen Jiajia himself, swinging his Erlang legs, the old god was there.

Lao Zhong sometimes sleeps in this position, and some experts say it is because of narcissism. Wen Jiajia nodded frequently in her heart. If this man wasn't narcissistic, he wouldn't make himself look like a dog, and she wouldn't fall in love with him either. People who have money have to learn how to spend it. Fortunately, Lao Zhong is not earthy, and this is all due to his narcissism. After drinking tea and watching the news, Lao Zhong went into the bedroom with Wen Jiajia in his arms to finish his dedication, and then returned to his wife by car. Wen Jiajia stood alone in front of the bed in the apartment, looking at the night in Beijing, the lights were brilliant, the scene was like diamonds of all sizes scattered on the black and blue flannelette, it was even more beautiful than the stars in the sky.

But why did she suddenly feel lonely? When there was no Hermès before, Wen Jiajia occasionally felt insecure, but now that Hermès is beside her, she feels empty again.People say that a problem that money can solve is not a problem.So what should be used to solve the problems that even money can’t solve? To be honest, Wen Jiajia didn't know either. And this "don't know" is like a black tunnel that splits open in my heart, expanding and becoming bigger and bigger, gradually forming a bottomless black hole, and no amount of limited edition Hermès can fill my dissatisfaction.

And Wen Jiajia soon discovered that Hermes could satisfy her momentary pleasure, but after that pleasure, a greater emptiness followed. As time went by, Wen Jiajia spent more and more time standing alone in front of the window looking at the night view of Beijing. The sense of emptiness that hit her made her feel hopeless, like a prey entangled by a black widow. After the cold venom was poured into his body, he watched his despair of being dismantled into his stomach by it but unable to do anything. Wen Jiajia felt that she was simply addicted to emptiness and loneliness. Once addicted, she had to spend money, but when the money ran out, her condition became worse and she could only use more money to suppress it.Over time, it's like smoking opium, and behind the enjoyment is endless hell.

Fortunately, Wen Jiajia finally found a medicine that could treat this emptiness. The medicine was on Lao Zhong. Wen Jiajia also found this medicine a few months later, like a treasure. The name of the drug was written on the test sheet issued by the obstetrics and gynecology department: urine pregnancy test (+). When there is one person, it is (-), and if there is one more person, it is (+). When Wen Jiajia told Lao Zhong the news, even she herself hadn't woken up from this amazing fact, she was embraced by Lao Zhong, listening to the beating of his chest, staring. Looking at his flushed face with excitement.

"Great baby!" Wen Jiajia also thought it was great, her emptiness was cured, and she happily went shopping with that credit card that was said to have no limit. The same burning of money was made worse a few months ago, and became icing on the cake a few months later. Later, Wen Jiajia attributed the pregnancy to Lao Zhong's hard work and the healthy food she let him eat. Food tonic is not as good as medicine, and mothers-to-be are right in everything they say. Wen Jiajia thought complacently, it seems that the middle-aged Lao Zhong still has strength, and the problem is only with Mrs. Zhong.

It's just that good times don't last forever, and Wen Jiajia's pride was finally shattered on the morning when she had the worst morning sickness.Even her favorite Chloe skirt was thrown aside, she squatted in front of the toilet in the bathroom and vomited again and again, wishing she could throw up her stomach together. When she took a deep breath and supported the sink to stand up, a pale face appeared in the mirror at the same time, even her lips were white. Wen Jiajia was so surprised that she immediately cursed: "Pregnant is really a fucking pain!" It is said that this morning sickness process will last for three months, and she is about to collapse before even three days.

But Wen Jiajia didn't expect that what was more difficult than this was the problem of the child's landing.