Chapter 20 Nineteen, do not want to surrender

In the early morning of the next day, we finally arrived outside Pokhara. I was able to take a hot shower and sleep in bed. I was so excited, but as we got closer to the city, I started to feel ominous When I got up, there were more and more buses on the road, and the speed was very slow. This scene seemed familiar. Sure enough, when we were about to enter the city, the road was completely blocked. The tour guide got out of the car to have a look, and came back to inform us that there was also a riot in Pokhara, which was different from the riot on the road yesterday. We are very close. We listened carefully, and we could really hear the slogans not far away, and the sparse explosions. The muscles I had just relaxed for a long time tightened up again, and I entered a state of combat readiness. Although I came all the way, I just listened Speaking of riots, I didn't take it too seriously in my heart. I didn't expect that I could be so close to the scene now.

Wang Can regained his energy at this time, holding his own box and gesticulating: "Look! Why Chitwan is so poor, it's because the buddies over there are so lazy, even thinking about taking a break to eat in the middle of fighting After dinner, look at this side, they got up so early to greet you! That's right..." I blocked Wang Can's voice, took out my mobile phone to call Racine, and after driving around the city like a parking lot a few times, we finally saw Racine, that sister and the others sitting on the ground on the hillside. and Li Ruoxue. Seeing everyone I haven't seen for a few days, I was stunned. I always thought that I should be the first to bear the brunt of the hardest life these days, but when I saw these people sitting on the ground, everyone's faces looked like they had been abused. of the remnant.

Li Nuoxue saw me, and ran towards me at a trot. After standing in front of me, I took a closer look and was shocked. Not only did Xiao Li become thinner and darker, but there were still spots on his face and legs. With a Band-Aid on it, it looked like it had just been released from an MLM organization. "What's wrong with you? Where did you get hurt?" Li Nuoxue's face collapsed, and he babbled for a long time before choking out a sentence: "Sister Cheng, I understand why my boyfriend broke up with me." I was taken aback: "Ah? What does that have to do with your injury? You figured it out by self-mutilation?"

Li Nuoxue shook his head: "Sister Cheng, my boyfriend is not a jerk, it's me, and the problem lies with me." "That's not self-harm, is it? You tell me what the injury is." When Li Nuoxue and I sat down on the hillside, Li Nuoxue stammered and told me her experiences in the past two days. After arriving in Pokhara, the sister and the others lived in the most famous Fishtail Villa in Pokhara. Li Rexue didn't want to live there, because the people living there were old men and women who were on vacation, and the hotel had a red sunset atmosphere. Li Ruoxue told Racine that she wanted to live in a vibrant hotel that was closer to the snow-capped mountains. Racine tried her best to persuade her that it would be safer to stay with the big army when she went abroad for the first time, but she didn't persuade her. After living in Yuwei Mountain Villa for a day, Li Nuoxue was fooled by a small travel agency on the street, who said that she could take her to the Salangke View Hotel on a nearby mountain, which was cheap and quiet, and the snow-capped mountains could be seen from the window.

After being taken to this "viewing hotel", Li Rexue began to feel that something was wrong. On the top of the mountain more than 1,000 meters high, there was only this hotel. It was indeed very quiet. All roads are to be walked. During the day, there are still many tourists, all of whom come to the mountain to see the snow-capped mountains, but at night, all the tourists go down the mountain, leaving Li Nuoxue alone, staying in this hotel. The hotel room is not as big as a toilet, just open the door The bed, and geckos crawling all over the ceiling. On the first night of staying here, Li Nuoxue sat on the side of the mountain and stretched out his hand to cover a large area of ​​light at the foot of the mountain. The light is the lively city of Pokhara. The city must be full of singing and dancing, wine and meat , but Li Nuoxue, who was hanging on the top of the mountain alone, could only watch the light go on and off, with only the gecko family of three on the wall as companions.

"Then stay for one night and go down the mountain the next day, won't it be enough?" "Actually, on the first day, I didn't want to leave. I felt that I needed such an environment to think about my boyfriend and I. It's really a good place to think about things, especially isolated from the world." "Oh, you just thought about it all night on the mountain, and you figured it out?" Li Nuoxue shook his head honestly: "No, actually I didn't think about anything on the first night, because I found out that the hotel could access the Internet, so I kept using my mobile phone to check Weibo. A Japanese man and a big brother lived in. He seemed to be in his thirties, with a guitar on his back. On the edge of the mountain, while drinking beer and chatting, I asked the elder brother, how long have you been in Nepal? The elder brother said that you have been here for half a year, and I was very surprised. I asked him, is this place so good? The elder brother said, He came to Nepal to escape the troubles of Japan, and after he came, he found that the prices here are also low and clean, so he didn’t want to leave.”

Later, Li Nuoxue and his eldest brother drank more and more beer. The eldest brother also told Li Nuoxue how he hid in Nepal. When he was in Japan, he went to work from nine to five every day. A regular girlfriend, we have been dating for a few years, and the two of them also plan to get married, but one day, the elder brother was scolded by the boss at the company, and he felt very blocked. After returning home at night, he finished eating with his girlfriend After dinner, we started to watch TV together. The TV show was a Japanese comedy show. My girlfriend was watching it while leaning on my elder brother to quack me. The older brother became more and more annoyed. The elder brother didn’t know what he was bothering about, but he was just a little happy. Unable to stretch himself, on the way to work the next day, he still felt the harsh laughter ringing around him. A week later, he fled to Nepal and told his girlfriend before coming that the trip Just to give himself a vacation and go back soon, but after he came, he found it difficult for him to go back. He didn’t want to go back to the tram at 7 o’clock every morning to go to work, drink with the boss after work, and go home with his girlfriend In the days of watching funny shows, Nepal is still suitable for him, he can make his spiritual world safer.

"Although I think he is quite pitiful, but I think it's definitely wrong to do this. He ran away as soon as he said it. What a man. If you don't like your girlfriend, at least you have to explain it to him. If you walk away for half a year, it counts. What's the matter, besides, being scolded at work and socializing after work, men have to be like this, others don't say, my dad is already at this age, doesn't he work hard every day to make money to support the family, and he returns home to accompany me at night Mom watches that kind of dog-blooded family drama. Sometimes I want to watch football, but I have to watch my mother's face before I dare to change the channel. After so many years, I haven't watched it. My dad suddenly ran away and found a place to become a monk. , What did you say about 'protecting the spiritual world'? In fact, it was a disguised escape. Anyway, after listening to him complaining, I said everything I wanted to say, and told him that anything is lacking in life, except courage. What should be borne, what should be faced, hiding as soon as I can't stand it, this matter is too unblooded, I was abandoned by my boyfriend, but I didn't even think about it, so I stayed here and didn't go back."

Li Nuoxue finished what he wanted to say in a single brain, and the eldest brother also had a very helpful expression on his face. I don’t know if he understood it completely, but he nodded very hard, feeling like he was being spoken out of his heart. He touched Li Nuoxue's shoulder and said something, "We are all poor people, but we are very lucky to meet". The more they drank, the better. The eldest brother took out his guitar and sang a few Japanese folk songs, "On such a high mountain, listening to songs feels different. I feel like I'm dead. What I listen to is Legend of Paradise. The sound coming is very beautiful and dreamy.”

After the eldest brother sang the song, he solemnly thanked Li Nuanxue again, thanking her for saying a lot of truth, Li Nuanxue, who was a little drowsy, reached out and patted the elder brother's shoulder, and said, "You're welcome, can you think about it?" I understand, I do have credit, right?" The eldest brother nodded desperately, and Li Ruoxue cheered drunkenly at him: "Then, now it's your turn to do something, let me feel comfortable and happy, okay?" Li Nuoxue himself described: "At that time, the eldest brother showed a very complicated expression on his face. He was stunned for a while, and then nodded with a blushing face."

After the elder brother nodded to express his willingness to cooperate, Li Ruoxue ran back to the room "thump-thump-thump", and ran back "thump-thump-thump" after a while, and sat down next to the elder brother again, with an extra iPad in his hand. The eldest brother sat there stupidly, watching Li Nuoxue open the webpage, and the opening animation music of "One Piece" sounded all around. Li Nuoxue smiled and said to the elder brother: "I chase your Japanese "One Piece" every week. Last update, I can’t watch domestic video sites, I can only watch videos on Youtube, but I can’t understand them without subtitles, I’m so anxious, now I meet you, God help me, come, help me translate sentence by sentence! Say something Probably will do." The Japanese brother was stunned on the spot: "Is this what you said, let me help you have fun?" Li Nuoxue nodded: "Ah, hurry up." I can still think of the expression of the Japanese brother at that time, it must be that the blood flow in the whole body accelerated for 30 seconds, and then it froze in an instant, and the whole body was immediately crowded with blood clots, especially the lower body. "The elder brother was stunned for a while, and managed to translate a few sentences for me. Later, he said that it was too difficult. His English is not that good, and he went back to the room with a bad face. I didn't think there was anything wrong. I thought the Japanese were really weird. If you say turn your back, turn your face, our Chinese government has to be on guard against them." Li Nuoxue also returned to the room later, but after a while, when Li Nuoxue was about to fall asleep, the elder brother probably got drunk, and began to stand outside the door and knock on Li Nuoxue's door, muttering loudly. Speaking Japanese, I say a sentence or two in English from time to time. The English meaning is: "Open the door! Let's do something that can really make us happy." Hearing the aggressive knock on the door, and thinking that he was on such a mountain again, Li Nexue began to get scared. At this moment, when he thought about the smile on his elder brother's face just now, it seemed that it was not as simple as he imagined. The owner of the hotel Living on the top floor, I probably couldn't hear the yelling. After a burst of panic, Li Nexue called his boyfriend. This was the first time he had been contacting him after being out for so long. "My boyfriend actually scolded me on the phone. I could tell he was in a hurry, but he spoke too harshly. He said what's the use of me calling him now. People are blocking the door, so far away." So far away, he can't think of what to do, and it's not a problem that he can solve by taking a taxi when he goes out. Then I cried, and I said, even though we broke up, you can't be so indifferent, you can comfort me anyway Me, my boyfriend was silent on the phone for a long time, and later, he said a long paragraph, which made me understand why he wanted to break up with me." "What did he say?" "He said, when you decided to live on the mountain by yourself, didn't you think about the consequences? When you were with a strange man, why did you think of him so innocently? He said he was with me For so long, whenever something happened, I rushed forward as soon as my brain got hot, and he explained to others why I did that. Several times, I also felt that I seemed to be wronged by others. I was hurt, but I forced him to comfort me and tell me that I did nothing wrong. He said on the phone that day that he couldn’t comfort me anymore. Since I donated blood without saying hello, he felt more distressed than ever. Angry, but the deepest feeling is that he can't take it anymore, he has to withdraw, he knows that I will be very proud after donating blood, but for him, it is because he is late, so the daughter My friend ran to get the blood drawn, which made him feel like a jerk, and most of the time, I made him feel like a jerk, I was always the one who played the hero, and he always lived a worthless life People, he doesn't want to find this kind of gap from his girlfriend." While Li Ruoxue was speaking, the scene of the riot became more and more chaotic down the hillside, and more and more young people gathered. Except for a few people carrying guns, most of them did not hold weapons, but held large slogans, kept shouting slogans, and the faces of those young people were full of restlessness, arrogance and fearlessness. "In the end, he said to me on the phone, it's okay if I don't want to grow up, but one day, I have to live in a real world, that world is not as good as I imagined, and he has no ability to protect me like this all the time, I also don't have the ability to refuse to grow up forever, we are all children of ordinary people, how to behave in the world, how to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, these abilities are what we must master, if I keep refusing to face it, one day, I will Become a person who is out of tune with others, pretends to be stupid every day, and deceives himself." Hearing this, Li Nexue hung up the phone silently. At this time, there was no sound outside the door. Li Nexue opened the crack of the door and looked. The Japanese finally returned to the room. Li Nexue immediately packed up his luggage and walked softly. corridor, and then ran all the way down the mountain. After a certain distance from the hotel, Li Nexue slowed down. Wearing slippers and carrying luggage, he slowly went down the hill by himself. Hei rushed down the mountain, slipped his foot, and fell violently. In a daze, he and his luggage were thrown into a pile of stones by the side of the road. As the footsteps approached, Li Nuoxue thought to herself that it was over, that she was completely in the hands of the Japanese, and wondered if the motherland would pay her the blood debt for her, but when she looked up, it was the shop owner who came. When the boss was standing on the balcony of the top floor to wash clothes, he saw Li Ruexue who was running around at night with her luggage, so he hurriedly chased her out, wanting to see what she was up to. Later, the boss accompanied Li Nuoxue, who was injured all over his body, to the middle of the mountain, made a few phone calls, and called a taxi. Only then did he bring Li Nuoxue out of a nightmare in the middle of the night. "After returning to the hotel where my sister and the others lived, I washed my wounds in the toilet and cried for a while. I understand why I have been unwilling to face the real world that my boyfriend said. It's not that I look down on him. In this world, it's not that I think I can change anything, but that I'm cowardly, I'm afraid of pain, I'm afraid that if I walk in, I'll fall and get hurt all over my body, I'm too scared, I'm too scared to face it, I'm afraid I don’t want to grow up, I’m afraid of rejecting others, the scene in exchange is not good, I’m also afraid that others will say that I’m not good, I’m afraid that I will become complicated and dirty, I hope that every day can be like in kindergarten, But that night, I finally understood that I had to take this step." After Li Nuoxue finished speaking, she was silent for a long time. She didn't say whether her boyfriend called her again. At the scene of the riot down the hillside, the atmosphere became more and more tense. The police rushed over in large numbers in jeeps, and the ambulances also began to stop not far away. The slogans became louder and louder, and some people started charging with torches. Something was burning, and the smoke was thickening. There was silence on the hillside beside me. Li Rexue sat quietly, motionless, with empty eyes. Not far away, Wang Can was weeding boredly, and the grass under his feet was about to be bald by him. Behind him, a group of people from the sister were complaining loudly, as if the sister had bought a bunch of grass in Pokhara. Buddha Bead, feeling that he was cheated in terms of price, was talking fiercely that he would go to the store to seek justice when he entered the city. Racine stood on the hillside, staring at the scene of the riot with his back tense. The scene below gradually became chaotic. The police stood in the middle of the rioting crowd, and the police cars behind them lined up and approached continuously, as if they were about to open fire at any time. A group of young people began to write banners with English written on them and held them up high. Walking through the crowd of tourists, it seems to be calling for the support of international friends. Many banners have the same sentence: Fighting for the dream (fighting for the dream). I waved to Racine and signaled him to come over. After Racine came over, I asked him: "What is the cause of this riot? How did it become so big?" Racine knelt down beside me: "In Nepal, we used to have a king, but in 2001, the whole family of the king was killed in the old palace. It was the king's son who killed them. We don’t know the reason now. Some people say that it’s because the king’s son fell in love with the enemy’s daughter, and the king didn’t agree to their marriage. Therefore, on June 6, he sent his parents, sister, and After that, the younger brother of the king took over our country, but everyone didn't like him, and later, we didn't have a king, and after that, there were many political parties in Nepal, and everyone wanted to be the most powerful person, so They will continue to fight. This time, it is because one of the party leaders died in prison after being arrested by the police. His supporters felt that there was a problem inside. As soon as they heard the news, they all came out. , The other group of people who fought with them were opponents of that leader." "Then why was this leader arrested?" "Last year, he has been marching and demonstrating, trying to fight for more job opportunities for young people in the Chitwan mountain area. In Nepal, everyone dreams of being a policeman or a teacher because they earn a lot of money, but Not everyone has a chance, and the chances are very small." I stood up from the hillside, looking at the chaos under my feet, and behind me, not far from the hillside, I could see the scene of the small town, but the scene was peaceful, because the road was blocked, there was no one in the small town. Cars passed by, children were playing ball in the street in twos and threes, dogs were lying in the middle of the road basking in the sun, all the shops facing the street were closed, and old people were sitting on the side of the road, watching the direction of the riot without moving. The distance of a turn around is the two worlds separated. The world in front of me has no sense of order. Young people rush forward with adrenaline to fight, grab, shout at the top of their lungs, and destroy regardless There is no right or wrong in this process, it just has to be done. And the world behind has no sense of time. The tranquility is an illusion brought about by accident. No one knows how long it can last. Will be instantly smashed apart. I don't know which of the two Nepals in front of me is more real. Every movement and every stillness are so extreme. Although this country is blessed by God, there is still hatred, anger, and obsession. On the road ahead, a young man set a car on fire. The flames shot into the sky, and the explosion sounded thrillingly. The burning wheels rolled towards the police. A large group of people followed the wheels and rushed towards the police. On the banner held high, " The word "Dream" is particularly dazzling by the flames. On the hillside opposite us, a group of European and American tourists sat across from us. A few Nepalese boys held banners and shouted at them: "Fighting for the dream! Save our life!" (Fighting for the dream! Save our lives!) )” Those foreigners also shouted together in twos and threes. Our field of vision was filled with the word "dream". At this moment, Li Ruoxue approached me: "Sister Cheng, what is your dream?" I was taken aback by the question. Li Nuoxue pointed to the slogans under the hillside: "Their dream is to win this fight, right?" My dream... Amid the sound of slogans all over the sky, I was stunned for a few seconds. "I really don't have any dreams right now." "How can a person have no dreams? Didn't we start writing that kind of composition when we were in elementary school?" "Oh, that kind of thing doesn't count, so let's put it this way, my first dream, you can't even guess what it is." "what is it?" "When I was in elementary school, I wrote essays. Others wrote that they wanted to be a scientist or architect in the future. What I wrote was that I wanted to be a cool noodle seller." When Wang Can on the side heard this, he burst into laughter: "You should stick to your dream, Tianshuang." I glared at Wang Can and explained to Li Nuoxue: "When I was in elementary school, there was a cold skin seller at the school gate. Every day after school, there were many people crowded around the cold skin auntie. I really liked it." She makes Liangpier, but I prefer to watch her make Liangpier for others. That set of movements is so smooth and smooth. With a flick of the left hand, a whole piece of Liangpier is thrown out with the right hand. Cutting board, and then slap! Raise the knife with your hand, and the Liangpier will be cut thin and neatly. Grab it with your left hand, shake it, throw it into the basin, and sweep it three or four times with your right hand just like drawing a sketch. , chili garlic sauce and balsamic oil vinegar, all fell into the basin, the auntie used chopsticks to mix up and down, then poured it into a small bowl, and before handing it to you, throw a handful of coriander, and it’s all done! The whole process can’t be used Thirty seconds, when the small bowl is handed to you, you will feel that this aunt is the most awesome person in the world, surrounded by people looking up at her, so my first dream is to do this Auntie, be a Liangpier seller." "Cheng Tianshuang, why didn't you write your manuscript like this? If you want to write like this, others dare not say it, but I would like to read it anyway." I glared at Wang Can again: "So, dreaming of this kind of thing is like a birthday wish. It changes every year. When I was young, I wanted to be a cold skin seller. After entering junior high school, I was ashamed to be on the side of the road. I am eating Liangpier, and I am afraid of being seen by the boy I like. After entering high school, my dream is to be admitted to a good university. Buying an apartment in Beijing and taking my parents over, this dream persisted for a short time, and I found it unrealistic, so I shrunk it down and down, and simplified it to the fact that I survived in Beijing first, until now, I have no more dreams , I only dare to say that I still have a wish, because the wish is shattered, it is no big deal, but the dream is shattered, although it is the same thing, it is always a little bit unacceptable to say it." After listening quietly, Li Nuoxue shook his head: "Sister Cheng, you are too pessimistic. After listening to you, I almost have no dreams." "What is your aspiration?" "My dream is to live as I am now, and never change." I was happy: "You are not called a dream, but a challenge. Let me know if you succeed." Li Nuoxue thought about it in frustration, got up and moved towards the sister: "I'll ask that sister what their dreams are." "Don't mess with you, what can you ask that sister to ask..." Because she wanted to stop Li Nuoxue, she spoke a little louder, which was overheard by the sister. "Hey Xiao Cheng, what you said is wrong. I was not born as a housewife either." I hurriedly smiled apologetically at that sister: "That sister, I didn't mean that." Sitting next to that sister, an elder sister who looked like the female version of Zang Tianshuo, whose surname I had forgotten, interjected, "Our sister wrote poems when she was young." I nodded in admiration: "Amazing." The sister smiled slightly: "I know what you are thinking. Women of our age basically have nothing to do in the eyes of your generation, right? My daughter thinks of me the same way. She is in high school now, and she is rebellious. Sometimes, I usually take care of her, telling her not to fall in love early, not to think too much, do the homework that should be done well, and you will be finished if you don’t get into college, and you have no future. Once I made her anxious, and she told me, Mom, don’t you want to live in such a realistic way? Look at what future you have now? You usually ask me this and that, why don’t you develop your own life again? Do you still have dreams? I see you No, you said every day that you threw your head and blood for this family, but my dad and I didn't regard you as a martyr. You are so tired yourself, why should I follow you? Don't always take it. Talk about life with me in that tone." The sisters sitting around that sister all showed expressions of hatred and hatred, and the female version Zang Tianshuo shook his head and nodded: "I don't know whether these little bastards are eating too well now, or living too comfortably, my son is too, every day The mobile phone is always in my hand, and the phone calls with my friends are endless, but I don’t have a word with my parents. Sometimes I get close to me and talk about my son, talk to my mother, you know what my son said? Said that we have a generation gap and no common topic, I was so angry that I slapped him on the back of the head: "Generation gap fart, when you were in my stomach, why didn't you say that we have a generation gap and let me not have you!" This kid While running and yelling, what he said made me hyperthyroid. He said that I didn’t entrust you with a dream to let you give birth to me. He also said that we have equal human rights and let me not rob his life. You said this is all about human beings. Oh?" A tall and thin elder sister took over the conversation: "My daughter once told me that she was going to participate in that kind of dance competition. I said Niuniu, you can't even ride a bicycle well, and you are born with poor coordination skills, let alone dancing. , Niu Niu said, Mom, how can you interfere with me realizing my dream? I am doing well or not, at least I have done it. Unlike you, you see that your eyes are only shining when you are playing mahjong , Don’t you usually just dawdle, you fell asleep watching TV many times, with your mouth still open and drooling. She, I have lived since you were so old. It’s not like your mother didn’t have the dreams you mentioned. When I was younger than you, I wanted to be a gymnast, go to Beijing, have the chairman meet me, and win international awards. , do you think I didn’t realize my dream? I’m more cruel to myself than you are. Now you are clamoring to lose weight all day long. Tell me, Mom, if you find me eating chocolate again, you will cut off my hand. We lost weight at that time , don’t talk harshly to others, don’t eat when it’s time to eat, no one will keep it for you, you’re really hungry, in order not to let yourself grow too fast, wrap your chest with white gauze, and wrap it for a year , just to make myself look like a gymnast, who hasn't beaten himself hard for his dream!" After listening to the girl, Zang Tianshuo leaned forward and touched the tall elder sister's chest: "Regret it now..." "Go, go." The tall elder sister pushed her away forcefully. After hearing everyone's complaints, the sister quietly lit a cigarette, puffed out the smoke, narrowed her eyes, and looked like a mafia boss: "So, my daughter told me these things the other day. I told her, Ding Xiaoqi, in order to prevent you from living to my age and regretting what you said, your mother, I will tell you a truth, whether you like it or not, you must be right, people Everyone will grow old, and people will also become vulgar. If you want to live at the age of eighteen, you can only die the day before the age of nineteen. Therefore, never laugh at those who go down the mountain on the way up the mountain. Like a dead dog, understand?" Everyone around, including me, was taken aback. "My daughter was startled, pointed at me and said, Mom, why are you talking like that! I laughed at her and told her, what's wrong with my words? If you were born more than 20 years earlier, you would go to the same room as me. In high school, I promise you would want to run away when you see me." A group of the sisters laughed, and the female version Zang Tianshuo said: "Really, when we were in school, the four of us were really good! Do you remember that we used to fight with Sun Lifei and the others from Class 3? In the water room, you want to pour boiling water on someone, and you also use soap to gag her mouth, because people say that your poems are like jingles?" The sister nodded: "What is a jingle, she doesn't know how to rhyme, she is the most vulgar in our school, combing that pile of tattered hair like a feather duster every day... Hey, what is Sun Lipei doing recently? Do you know?" "Divorced, I met her when I was shopping at the mall. She said she didn't believe in evil, and she was going to Korea for plastic surgery. When she came back, she found a 20-year-old man, and she was mad at his ex-husband. She also asked me if I wanted to go with her, and I could get a discount. , Talking is still so hated." The tall and thin elder sister reported the situation. "Divorced again? Didn't she just get married? She was cheating on the marriage, but when she was in school, she was always supernatural, and the fortune teller said that she was destined to be a peach blossom, and her life was rough. At that time, she said that Woolen cloth……" "That's right! Saying that I'm a confidante..." The voices of the sister and the others gradually became smaller. From a little distance, I looked at that sister and her group, with bright eyes, chattering about the past and the people in the past. At that moment, I seemed to be able to see them when they were young, from each to middle age. Steaming out of their bodies, they surrounded each other tightly, dancing and dancing with high spirits. At this time, there was a pungent smell from the hillside, and then the thick fog rushed up—the riot escalated, the police began to throw tear gas, and the flames could be seen in the thick fog, and the young people who participated in the riot scattered and hid. Let’s go, Racine dragged us back, although no one would rush to hurt the tourists, but we still had to try to hide in a safe place. We watched the chaos at the foot of the mountain, the placards were all burned, and the young people pulled off their masks one after another, panting hard, and the faces after the masks were pulled off were so young, so childish, and there was no sign of anything. atrocious. Li Nuoxue came to me and said, "Sister Cheng, look." She opened an app on her phone called "Today in History". "Every time I can't figure out something, I open this software, read it carefully, and see what major events happened on this day in history. You see, on this day in 1787, "Don Juan" was published Premiere in Prague. On this day in 1969, two computers were interconnected. On this day in 1988, astronaut John Glenn went on a mission in space, although he was seventy-seven years old..." Li Nuoxue held his mobile phone, read line by line, and then looked up at me: "Every time I finish reading this software, my brain immediately recovers. There are so many people in history. On this day, they have done it. It’s a great event, although I’m not a person who can accomplish great events, but I don’t want to be trapped like this, live carefully, and my day can be recorded in this software every day, only going to and from get off work safely.” Li Nuoxue looked at me seriously, and through her pupils, I saw the old me. "The world we live in is not very good." I looked at the chaotic scene at the foot of the mountain. Time becomes interesting, but this is the real world, you have to accept it sooner or later, you can stick to it, but your path will be a little harder than others, because if you don’t cooperate, it will be dazzling.” I turned around and looked straight into Li Rexue's clean eyes, and the past me in the eyes: "But, don't you want to surrender before you hit your head and bleed?" The me in the past nodded slightly, "Yeah, I don't want to surrender." She said so. Wang Can stood beside me quietly, watching the young people being chased away by the police with live ammunition. "Cheng Tianshuang, do you know what my dream is?" Wang Can stared blankly at the scene of the riot, and asked me with dull eyes. "Isn't your dream just 'the wedding is scheduled for this Wednesday, whoever comes is a true friend'?" I still remember Wang Can's wedding copywriting. Wang Can shook his head: "I am different from you. My dream has never changed since I was a child." "what is it?" Down the hillside, the boys retreated step by step, but some still rushed into the smoke and tried to run into the police. Wang Can turned around, smiled at me, and then began to undress, and I quickly stepped back: "Hey, hey, what are you doing?" Wang Can bent down and picked up a thick wooden stick on the hillside, rolled the clothes into a ball and tied them to the stick, then picked up the lighter that the sister had left on the lawn, and started lighting the clothes. "My dream is to die in battle." Wang Can said calmly. "what?" Before I could react, Wang Can nodded at me seriously: "Death on the battlefield." Wang Can rushed down the mountain with a "chuckle", stumbling, and holding the stick in his hand like holding a holy fire. The clothes on the stick didn't completely burn, but only smoked intermittently. "Wang Can! Are you crazy? Come back quickly!" Wang Can ran down the hillside regardless. "Even if you die here today, your dad will only get angrier! It's useless! You'd better go back to China and make trouble!" I shouted at Wang Can's back. Wang Can stopped, turned around and looked at me, the smile on his face was a little dazed: "Fuck it!" Wang Can ran down the mountain at a fast pace, and the torch in his hand was finally lit. 事情发生得太快，其他人都愣在原地，没反应过来，我身边的李热血看着王灿冲进了暴乱的人群里，她也站起来，拍拍屁股，“噌”地就往出蹿，我一把拽住她的后脖领子：“你你你！你又干吗去？” 李热血傻乎乎地看着我：“我不要变，别人看我刺眼，好过我看我自己刺眼。” “知道你说什么呢么？” “知道！我要让今天变成李热血的一天！” 李热血用力一挣扎，从我手下跑了出去，一路追着王灿的脚步冲下了山。 我在原地急得直蹦，拉辛从吓傻了的状态中恢复过来，一路嚷着尼泊尔语，追着两人就从我身边跑了下去。 山坡上只剩我和那姐她们，我眼睁睁地看着他们的身影冲进烟雾弥漫的暴乱现场，变成三个小黑点，时隐时现。 “那，那姐，怎么办？” 那姐站起来，吐出一口烟，沉默了两秒钟，夹着烟头的手向旁边一伸，女版臧天朔就递上来一个矿泉水瓶，那姐动作潇洒地把烟头弹进了瓶子里。 “咱们也下山！” “啊？”我愣在原地。 那姐一派慢条斯理：“烦死我了，自己的内部矛盾，困我们这么半天，演给谁看啊？老娘我还急着进城退我那串佛珠呢！” 那个十几岁的大姐头，附身于中年那姐的身体里，替她发话了。 我很难形容出之后的情形有多混乱，反应机制彻底失效的我，心惊胆战地跟在那姐她们屁股后面下了山，在刺耳的呐喊和刺鼻的浓烟双重包围下，我只能看见王灿正举着火把冲到警察面前大声嚷嚷着什么，李热血没头苍蝇一样四处乱跑乱喊，那姐率领她的姐妹团，不管不顾地径直往城里的方向走着，走得那叫一个目不斜视，气宇轩昂，守在城门口的一群暴乱分子表情惊愕，根本不敢上前，因为实在摸不清楚这几位大姐的路数和状况。 我站在原地，毫无方向感，只是惦记着李热血和王灿的安全，我努力向他们的方向跑去，但身边跑着的人群把我撞来撞去，我都觉得自己可能马上就要成为这场暴乱里最先倒下的那个人。 这时，不远处响起了汽车的鸣笛声，隔着烟雾，影影绰绰，一辆中巴车向我们的方向开了过来，中巴车卷着浓烟，离我们越来越近，冲进混乱中心时，拉辛从车门里探出身：“快上车！我们走！” 那姐她们和我率先上了车，然后我们一路左躲右闪，冲到人群里，那姐一把搂住正跟着别人喊口号的李热血，拦腰把她捞了上来，车又开到警察周围，我和拉辛拽着王灿的胳膊，硬生生地把他从警察面前拖走，死命把他拽上了车。 “我还没跟他们丫讲明白呢！”王灿上车以后还嚷嚷。 “闭嘴吧你，你知道你自己一直在说中文么？”我一把把他按在座位上。 中巴车不管不顾地往城里冲去，车速还是不敢太快，因为不时会有人冲到车前，用螳螂奋臂的状态试图阻止我们，但过了不久，前面的路渐渐变得清晰起来。 这时我才敢回头，向身后的战场上看看，神奇的是，我们这群中国人，居然杀出了一条进城的血路，证据就是：刚刚那群悠哉游哉地坐在山坡上晒太阳的外国游客，正跟在我们的车后，在我们闯出来的路上齐刷刷地跑着。 车越开越快，身后，那群警察和暴乱的年轻人，都呆若木鸡地站在原地，一动不动，看着我们离开的方向，和车后的大队人马，催泪弹的烟雾渐渐散开，这场暴乱，像是被暂停了一样。