Chapter 19 Chapter Nineteen

He bowed his head, but he bowed his head like this more than once. He said it every time. After he finished speaking, he was completely ashamed. In this world, some people love with words, some people love with their hearts, and some people do it love.Ye Nanlin is a typical lip love.Lan Hong bowed her head to him, and already felt distressed. I didn't make any contribution, but I haven't married you yet.You still know that you are ashamed, you are simply a devil, ruined my youth, from the day I met you, I tied my happiness to you, and my fate began to be unlucky. It's useless.I want to find a quiet place to adjust my mood.

Don't put all the blame on me, you are too self-willed, too stubborn, and you never review yourself, you think you are right every time, like a child, if you want to get rid of it twice, what do you say? Reading, read what?Is it so difficult to call a mother when I go home and lie on the bed or read some books without cooking, and I don’t have dessert in my mouth?No wonder my mother doesn't like you. I didn't call her, but is she worth my calling?do you have eyesYou can't afford me, but you have to raise a child. Are you mistaken? I'm stubborn, I'm headstrong, okay, I'll go now, and you can be happy on your own.

Lan Hong went into the bedroom crying.Ye Nanlin was also angry, froze on the balcony, poking his teeth leisurely, I've seen these tricks before, what tricks are there.Lan Hong opened the closet to collect the clothes.There are not many clothes left, just a few summer skirts and some underwear.She was not in a hurry to collect her clothes, and opened Ye Nanlin's closet again, flipping through them one by one, two suits, one gray, she gave it to her boyfriend after they met in 1997, the first time she gave a gift to her boyfriend , I’m sorry to ask, I don’t know that Ye Nanlin wears a medium size, but bought a large size, it’s a bit bigger, it looks like a cape for the first time, this suit has never been worn, and I keep it here as a souvenir.The other set of light yellow was bought by her at the Mediterranean Shopping Mall with Ye Nanlin, and the tie was also a gift from her. Before she met her, there were a few more, which she threw into the trash can as rags.Ye Nanlin also had a few women from Guangzhou before, and those women gave them to him, and they felt disgusting, so he didn't let him do it again.There are also coats, leather jackets, and there are quite a lot of clothes. She tugged at the sleeves of the leather jacket, and it was a little gray, and it was time to oil it again. I don't know whose turn it is this time.She has washed and dried every one of them, and some of them have even sewed, and the smell is so familiar.She used to regard this place as her home, and said she would go home every time she returned to Guangzhou from Dongguan, which is different from other migrant workers.She thought she would bid farewell to the days of wandering. The home she longed for was actually such a room. The request was really not high. Why couldn't such a house accommodate her.Maybe all of this is fate. At this time, she believes in fate even more.She carefully closed Ye Nanlin's wardrobe, stood in front of her own wardrobe, turned all the clothes on the bed, and folded them one by one. Every time she folded a piece, she felt that something was a step away, as if she had put her heart on the bed. Break, break the past, break the pain, break the hate, break the love.

When it was more than half folded, Ye Nanlin strolled in with his slippers on. He moved half of his buttocks on the corner of the bed, stretched out one leg for support, and rubbed his hands between his thighs.He stared blankly at Lanhong folding one by one, and the last two socks were knotted and stuffed into the box.With no expression on his face, he yawned and stretched, looking indifferent.Half of the closet is empty, should he cry or laugh.He said lazily, alas, I have too many clothes, and now I have an extra cabinet, which has a lot of space.He got up and opened his closet, deliberately took two pieces and put them there.Lan Hong saw it in his eyes, the more this time, the less angry he became.She looked around the room, and there was a group photo on the bedside. She took it in her hand, turned on the lamp, and wiped it with a paper towel. In the photo, Lan Hong was leaning on Ye Nanlin's arms, smiling innocently and happily, relying on each other The sweetness of cuddling, she is bright and moving.She touched her face subconsciously, alas, youth is gone.Lan Hong turned the photo frame over, trying to take out the photo.Ye Nanlin stood behind Lan Hong and said, don't tear it down, just take it.Lan Hong said, I won't dismantle it, you can keep it, if you want to keep it, keep it, if you don't want to keep it, burn it.Lan Hong put the photo frame back on the bedside.Ye Nanlin put the photo frame back on the blue and red clothes.Lan Hong said, I don't want it.The two pushed back and forth several times, and accidentally, the photo frame fell to the floor and shattered with a bang.If it breaks, it will break, Ye Nanlin squatted down impatiently, picking up the glass shards.Lan Hongxin was startled, then bowed to pick up the photo, and said, we are really doomed.Lan Hong tore the photo from the middle with a bang, the crack in the photo was passing through Lan Hong's face, her smile was divided into two parts.She was extremely upset, and tore the photo into pieces with all her strength, and threw it on Ye Nanlin's body.

Holding the shredded paper, she wanted to cry but didn't. There is also a photo album, you should tear it up, Ye Nanlin frowned, took out a photo album from the desk drawer, and handed it to Lan Hong.On the cover of the photo album are the words "Stay Together Forever". Lan Hong stretched out her hand to caress those words, her heart trembled, those words were printed by her, in artistic fonts, flying elegantly, closely connected, Like a couple hand in hand, playing together.Forever, how far is forever, she smiled wryly, touched it a few times, but couldn't feel happiness, what was left was scars, gently opened the first page, it was taken in 1998, the second page was also taken in 1998, and then Turns out, almost all of them were taken in 1998. There is a moving story behind each photo. She once smiled happily, and every photo is smiling.At some point, Ye Nanlin sat beside her, with his head almost touching Lan Hong's ear.Lan Hong moved her buttocks, so as not to touch me.This one, I didn't expect you to look better in Gege's outfit than Zhao Wei, Ye Nanlin pressed his hand on the photo and said.Lan Hong's gaze stayed on that photo for a long time, and she turned over silently.There are many more, hugging, embracing, back to back, holding hands, and Ye Nanlin hugging Lan Hongzhao, each of which has traces of love touching the pain in my heart.Lan Hong said, give it all to me, and I will take it away.Ye Nanlin said, the one I'm holding on to you, leave it to me.Lan Hong pulled out the photo.

They calmly flipped through the photo album. what else.Lan Hong began to look at the house, searched the memory, found nothing, the shoes and clothes were collected, the books were packed, even the toothpaste and toothbrush were put into the bucket.There are still some things that can't be taken away. I looked at the wall, and the wall was yellow, like a yellow memory. I looked at the floor again, and the floor was so clean that there was no concern.Look at the watch again, it's past ten o'clock, let's go to sleep, Lan Hong closed the door, and took off her coat. Let me take it off for you, the man said, I want to sleep with the lights on tonight.

Lan Hong changed into pajamas, Ye Nanlin hugged Lan Hong from behind, and said, let's get warmer. I don't feel it, I'm still cold, my heart is cold. Let's do it again. Lan Hong didn't answer, and continued to change into pajamas. Ye Nanlin laid Lan Hong flat on the bed, took off his clothes, and pressed it on Lan Hong.Lan Hong closed her eyes, Ye Nanlin kissed her on the neck a few times, Lan Hong's whole body was icy, her pajamas were lifted halfway, and then covered again, Ye Nanlin weakly climbed off Lan Hong's body, and pulled the quilt over her head. Turn off the light, I'm not used to it, Lan Hong ordered sadly.

It's off, it's off, Ye Nanlin impatiently touched the switch to turn off the light. Back to back, the two slept until dawn. The next day, Lan Hong washed her face, rinsed her mouth, combed her hair, carried the suitcase, and turned her head at the door of the house and said, I'm leaving.The sound was as quiet as a mosquito, Ye Nanlin was still snoring, he slept soundly.Lan Hong closed the door without making a sound.She walked past her mother-in-law, dragged the box, and slammed across the ground. Breakfast was already on the table, so you can eat it if you want.Ye Nanlin's mother seemed to be used to Lan Hong moving her luggage around.They didn't look at anyone or pay attention to anyone.Lan Hong passed through the living room quietly like this.She rested in front of the door for a while, maybe she wanted to say goodbye to this family or something, but no one came out to see her off, so who should she say goodbye to, say to the God of Wealth posted on the door.The cold wind blew upstairs from under the stairs, Lan Hong wrapped her clothes tightly, looking at the dark stairs, she felt that what was blowing up from below was not the wind, it seemed a kind of sadness, a kind of vicissitudes of life.She struggled to drag her suitcase, and finally reached the fourth floor. She was going to take a break. If she was not in love, she would always fantasize about having a mature man at this time, preferably one who had never been married, or even had no girlfriend. Yes, she appeared in the stairwell and offered to come over and help her.Women who have had men before, although they also have such thoughts, but they hope that the man is their own, and they don't need to waste words when they come, and they help carry the suitcase tacitly, and they can even jump on his back like a child , Acting like a baby to him, what a romantic thing that is.

Lan Hong continued to go down to the third floor, but the rollers of the box got stuck in the railing, and she couldn't pull it out, couldn't push it down, it was really insulting, her nose was sore.At this time, a man really came up. The man was not tall, but he was strong. He looked like an outsider. He helped her back the wheel of the box from the gap in the railing.Lan Hong said thank you very gratefully.The man put the box on his back, seeing that you are struggling, I will help you to the first floor.The man went downstairs quickly, and Lan Hong trotted to catch up.The man put down the box on the first floor and said, which floor do you live on, why don't you call a man to deliver it.Lan Hong smiled wryly, I live on the fifth floor, and they all went out.Lan Hong said thank you again, remembering that he hadn't asked the man's name yet, the man had already gone up to the second floor.

When she came to Liuhua Station again, she looked at the crowds of people, big and small bags, their backs passing by in a hurry, and their expressions of panic. In July 1994, she looked helplessly at the surrounding high-rise buildings in the crowded torrent. .She peeled an orange in the square and dropped a thread on the ground. She was fined ten yuan by the careful sanitation supervisor wearing a red armband. Ten yuan was a pain in my heart at that time. I went back to my hometown at the end of 1995, waited for the train in the square, and while waiting, the luggage bag disappeared. In that bag, I put half a year's hard work income.Guangzhou is a place of hate and love, full of panic and nostalgia.There was a lot of traffic, the flow of people was surging, and Lan Hong was flustered. She didn't dare to miss it. Before she could stand still, she was pulled into a bus bound for Dongguan by Lukezai. The price was agreed, and there would be an additional highway toll when the car left Guangzhou. Ten yuan per person is obviously a rip off.The men in the car obediently handed over the money.Lan Hong pouted her small mouth, full of grievances, how could she dare to speak out when others dared not speak out.

Outside the window was the sun at eight or nine o'clock in the morning, and she warmly thought of Guangzhou yesterday, that lovely Guangzhou, that sad Guangzhou, that Guangzhou man who loved and hurt.Farewell to Guangzhou, goodbye to the previous love, goodbye, everything is like Guangzhou outside the car window, passing by in a flash.These three years, like the scenery outside the window, hastily passed away, and everything beautiful was thrown into the tunnel of time.She just felt that she shouldn't be here, she shouldn't, tears welled up in her eyes. Her Guangzhou dream, her Guangzhou love, was shattered. Get off, get off, sell piggies again.She crowded down with the people in the car, and returned to the land of Dongguan. She trembled unspeakably. For some reason, maybe Dongguan was the first stop for her to work. Like a person's first love, on the land of Dongguan, I feel at ease, and the houses in Dongguan are also kind.If it wasn't for love, she wouldn't want to leave Dongguan, let alone H Town, where there are so many colleagues and so much joy.Dongguan is a youthful city, as unkempt as youth, as vigorous as youth, as restless as youth.The cement roads in Dongguan are always dusty, and the factory workers in Dongguan are unstable. It is not as stable as Guangzhou, and it is not as rich as Shenzhen. But she likes it, and she wants to abandon Guangzhou from the bottom of her heart.After leaving Guangzhou, she lost her home. She thought that she used her youth to rent a Guangzhou home, and the rent was too expensive.The people coming and going in front of me carried all the big bags and small bags. A section of the road is a chapter of wandering. Everyone is a note in the chapter. Looking at the suitcase in her hand, there is infinite emotion in her heart, wandering is actually a piece of luggage. Box, wandering is back, you can see it, touch it, wandering is good, wandering makes people strong and refreshing. Homeless people have no home, and everywhere is home.Homeless songs are playing in the streets and alleys, which makes people feel sour. After the tears flow, there will be a strong back.She hasn't figured out where to go yet, is it Yang Xiaoli?Is it Luo Yueli?When the car came, Lu Kezi yelled.She backed away, but others rushed forward, and she had to keep up with the minibus.She didn't ask the price, she was assured of the car in Dongguan.The car passed Aihao, and when she got out of the car, she was still kind to H Town, as if she had returned to her mother's house.She dialed Luo Yueli's phone number from the roadside shop, and said timidly, "Yueli, I'm back again." back again?What are you talking about, I'm in the car, the wind is very strong, I can't hear you clearly, Luo Yueli is speeding on Shagang Avenue. When I was in the store under the town mark, her voice was even deeper. Stop hitting, stop hitting, I saw you, Luo Yueli was less than 100 meters away from Lan Hong, and the motorcycle whizzed towards Lan Hong. I'm planning to walk over, this road is not far from Baoxin, alas, I feel very boring today.Some light shone from the shadows on the blue-red face. Oh, you mean you don't want to bother me, right? Hehe, that's funny, let's get in the car. Baoxin Industrial Zone.Fu'an Building.Two people and women carried the suitcase, one forward and one backward, pushing and pulling, panting and shaking, and finally reached the third floor.At the door, the two leaned against the railing and rested. Are you really divided? No, everything has been moved. Ye Nanlin is willing, are you willing? If I don't want to part with it, I have to divide it. I have lost the bet for three years, so why should I still lose the bet for the rest of my life? Enter the room, let's talk after entering the room, Luo Yueli took out the key and opened the door, you should sleep in the one inside. Lan Hong dragged the suitcase in, and the two suitcases leaned together. It's already 11 o'clock, blue and red, it's lunch time, what should I eat? Oh, what, whatever. There is also a Fushou fish, come out, I will kill the fish, you can wash the vegetables. Lan Hong followed into the kitchen. It just so happened that the phone on the coffee table rang, Yueli, call. Go, pick it up for me, my hands are dirty, Luo Yueli is scraping the fish scales. Lan Hong picked up the phone and opened the flip, not knowing which key to press. You are stupid, the green OK button. Lan Hong pressed down, hello, hello three times, the other party hung up. After a while, the phone rang again. Hey, who is it? Lan Hong took it. The other party said, don't be angry, I'll come over for lunch. I didn't hear what you said clearly. The other party interrupted her, listen to me, I didn't lie to you. Lan Hong didn't dare to listen anymore, and stuck the phone to Luo Yueli's ear.Luo Yueli shrugged her shoulders and held the phone between her shoulders. Why is there no sound? It's off. Who is it?Hua Wanfang, leave him alone.He said he came over for dinner, he regarded me as you, Lan Hong smiled. He won't come to eat, let's eat. I really won't come, and I won't have anything to eat when I come. It’s not that he won’t come, he doesn’t dare to come, I will beat him out with a broom. Hey, how dare you. I'm not you, he didn't dare to mess with me, he didn't call to apologize just now. Well, it blows again, and you don't blush. Do you dare to hit Ye Nanlin? Don't you dare. If a man doesn't fight with you, how can a woman beat a man? Lan Hong said it dryly. Why don't you be hotter, you hot girl, you always think of men, what do you get, Lan Hong, you have lost a lot in the past three years, you should ask him for a fortune, and sleep with him for nothing, look, What kind of people have been tossed by him. He also paid a lot, I don't blame him, I also brought up the breakup, and he spent a lot of money. You are really considerate of him, do you see that, his family is using a soft knife, not caring about you, making you feel boring, proposing to break up, killing without blood. Alas, everything is useless.Lan Hong put down her chopsticks, held her face in her hands, there was still half a bowl of rice left, and she couldn't swallow it anymore. Just talking, don't skip meals, it's your body that is starving, so I won't talk about it. Luo Yueli turned from the opposite side to Lan Hong's side, and thumped Lan Hong's back, are you all right? It’s okay, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it’s crying, it’s okay, Lan Hong shook her head. Lan Hong put down the bowl, turned to the room, opened the suitcase and found the photo album, took the lighter from the kitchen, and went to the balcony. What are you doing?Burn photos?Wait a minute, when I collect the bowl, I will go with you. Luo Yueli quickly put away the dishes and wiped the table.