Chapter 7 Section 6

Liu Weizu took the five hundred marks given to him by Wang Hongjun and wandered around alone for two days. He visited nearby small towns, sat in different beer halls, walked up the Naka River one day, and did not return until the afternoon. For ten years, he has been Liu Lang, trying his best to forget the poor and ridiculous Liu Weizu in the past.But in Heidelberg, Liu Weizu was revived, and Liu Lang gradually disappeared.Unable to resist or hide, he returned to the old Liu Weizu.All the joys and sorrows about Liu Weizu, like the raging waters of the Naka River, rushed towards him and drowned him.

For a long time, he thought that he was a person who had already been liberated from the secular world. The so-called worldly joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys could no longer affect him at all.It is an achievement he is quite proud of to be able to break free from the dirty and hypocritical old environment that he hates, despises, and despises so completely. It is an extremely successful means of revenge, a joyful and hateful thing.Unexpectedly, when I went to Heidelberg to look for the old days, I found all the old things back.They still tormented him as before, gnawed at his heart, as if all the hard work of the past ten years had been put in vain, Liu Weizu was still Liu Weizu, he went around and returned to the original starting point, without taking a step from the old Step out in the circle.

This feeling made him suffer, and it also prompted him to quickly escape from this pain and continue his wandering life. "Old Wang, I'm leaving early tomorrow morning." After trekking ten kilometers along the river bank, Wang Hongjun just returned home from get off work.He told Wang Hongjun when they met. "Leave tomorrow? How can I do that? My hospital is too busy these two days, and the patients have made appointments. I can't ask for leave to accompany you, and I don't have time to have a good talk with you. You came to Heidelberg to revisit the old place. Swim! Stay a few more days!"

"The old place and the new place don't make any difference to me. Anyway, I can't stay long anywhere, and I want to leave quickly. I think it's better to go away." "Don't go, really, since you're here, just stay for a few more days. I've already invited Guo Xinzhi and the others to dinner on Saturday. I deliberately kept it a secret, saying that I wanted to surprise them." Wang Hongjun saw that Liu Weizu was not very interested. Looking interested, he thought that he was so downcast that he was ashamed of himself and ashamed to see his old classmates.Then he asked tentatively: "What? Don't you like seeing them?"

"It doesn't matter whether you like it or not. If you tell me to stay a few more days, I will stay a few more days." Liu Weizu could hear the meaning in Wang Hongjun's words, and he was a little amused, and said, "Don't look at me as a libertine, see the king I am not inferior to him. Hey! Old Wang, I can stay for two more days, can Elizabeth bear my cigarette addiction?" "You're not serious again." Wang Hongjun could only smile apologetically. It was an unbelievably fine Saturday, and the sun came out early in the morning.Liu Weizu went out to hang out alone after breakfast, but Wang Hongjun refused to accompany him.Wang Hongjun asked him where he was going?Liu Weizu said he would take a walk along the river and go up.Wang Hongjun couldn't help laughing:

"Ah, it turns out that the miserable old boy is going to find his old dream! Then I won't bother you!" When Liu Weizu came back from his shopping, it was already afternoon, and when he woke up from a long nap, the sun was almost setting.When he walked into the living room with fluffy hair, slippers, hands in his trouser pockets, and nonchalantly, Wang Hongjun had already invited all the guests. As soon as he entered, everyone was taken aback. "How is it? Is this surprise big enough? I'm not bragging, am I?" Wang Hongjun rubbed his two fat, smooth hands.That action makes it easy to think of him washing under the tap before and after delivery in the delivery room. "You didn't expect Liu Weizu to be in Heidelberg, did you? Haha." Wang Hongjun seemed to want to lighten the atmosphere, and laughed loudly.

"This surprise is not small. Why did the missing miserable green boy suddenly come back?" Guo Xinzhi was the first to shout, rushing to shake hands with him. "Where have you been all these years! We think of you when we play bridge. Here, this is my wife, and old Heidelberg, you always remember." Liu Weizu glanced at Mrs. Guo, and recognized her as Xu Conghui, who was with Lin Bi often, and also studied education.Although she wasn't very beautiful back then, she was small and dainty with delicate features and looked full of intelligence. She was by no means the lucky look she is today.It's strange to say, why can't people see wisdom once they grow up with blessings?

"I remember, isn't she Xu Conghui?" "Brother Chen, do you remember? This is Mrs. Chen who was in Kaslu back then." Wang Hongjun pointed to a man in a neat suit and said to a well-dressed young woman. "Oh, it turned out to be Dr. Chen Guangming. How could I not remember." Liu Weizu wanted to say, "Isn't he the guy who chased after Lin Bi and stared at me?" But look at Chen Guangming, smiling so much The simple Mrs. Chen didn't say anything.At that time, Chen Guangming's pursuit of Lin Bi reached a fever pitch.Originally, those who study science and engineering can gain some advantage by catching up with the young lady, but when they meet someone like Liu Weizu back then, no one will be defeated.Chen Guangming couldn't catch up with Lin Bi, he didn't have to chase hard, Lin Bi would come close automatically.The difference between them was too big, so Chen Guangming saw that he rarely spoke, so he mostly just walked over with his eyes wide open.Seeing Chen Guangming present, Liu Weizu couldn't help thinking mischievously: "This is a good show."

After exchanging greetings, Wang Hongjun poured the aperitif before dinner, and Liu Weizu had to drink whiskey two or three times a day as usual.He picked up his wine glass and was about to sit down when he heard Chen Guangming ask: "Where is Brother Liu's high school?" "In—" Liu Weizu looked at Chen Guangming's smiling face, and intuitively believed that the whole sentence of this sentence was: "Where are you fooling around? Why do you look like a bereaved dog? It's so scary!" "In—" Liu Weizu sat down on the sofa, stroking his mustache, "between heaven and earth." His tone and attitude were serious.

His words surprised everyone again, and Chen Guangming's face flushed with embarrassment. "Really, where have you been all these years? You didn't even say goodbye to us when you left. What are you doing now?" Guo Xinzhi's tone was the same as ten years ago, as if he was very friendly. "Some people say: Mr. Liu is handsome and can row a boat, so don't you just drive a small boat to wander around the world?" Xu Conghui joked. Seeing that Liu Weizu was silent for a long time, Wang Hongjun just stretched out his legs and drank wine, thinking that he was embarrassed again, he cleared his throat quickly, and said exaggeratedly:

"Everyone still remember the good looks of our brother Weizu back then. At that time, he was young and handsome, and he was a top figure among the elders in this area." "From your tone of voice, it seems that today I want literary talent but have no literary talent, and I want talent but no talent. I am a very embarrassing person." Liu Weizu said humorously. "Brother Liu seems to be studying economics. Are you working in your own business now?" Chen Guangming returned to the original topic, as if he wanted to find out the origin of Liu Weizu. "What do I—Brother Chen do?" Liu Weizu asked knowingly. "I got my Ph.D. in 1973. Since then, I have worked in XX Automobile Company for eight or nine years! Now I am the director of the Dynamics Group of the Research Department." Chen Guangming corrected his glasses, and also Sitting upright. "Oh, Director, it's not easy!" Liu Weizu sighed, and then turned to Guo Xinzhi: "Old Guo, I heard that you are teaching Chinese?" "That's right! I teach in the Department of Sinology, and I started teaching after I got my degree. I have been teaching for seven years!" Guo Xinzhi laughed twice, and then said: "Xu Conghui is always clamoring to go back to Taiwan. I said: 'Wait a minute, I want to spread the seeds of Chinese culture overseas, how can I leave my post casually!' Hehe." "Oh, you are a professor, Lao Wang is a doctor, brother Chen is a scientist, each has their own achievements. They are all the backbone of the times." Liu Weizu nodded approvingly, lit a cigarette and smoked it endlessly . "Weizu is an extraordinary person." Wang Hongjun felt that he had the obligation to relieve Liu Weizu's embarrassment, and said solemnly: "In the past, we only knew that he was good at schoolwork, decent, good family background, and talented, but we couldn't figure him out. How talented is he? Brother Weizu’s talent is incredible. He is now a professional painter, traveling all over the world with a colored brush, in order to promote Chinese art, but his goal is the same as that of Lao Guo! But Weizu not only painted Chinese paintings, but also painted Western paintings, and also did art design work, and his stage name was Liu Lang—" "Wandering?..." Several people said in unison. "Forget it, stop bragging for me." Liu Weizu made a stop gesture with his hand. "You think I'm embarrassed and ashamed to speak out, don't you? Honest old Wang, don't worry about it." He smiled indifferently. "Studying, getting married, starting a career, creating a future for the individual, benefiting the society, being a good son, husband, and father at home is a big pillar supporting the society outside. This is like a track paved with railway tracks, and everyone has to follow along. Go with it, or it won't be right." "I think this track is the right path, not bad." Chen Guangming said. "Let's see who you are talking to! For those who consider themselves to be an upright gentleman, there is no such thing as an upright path! But for some people, for example, I don't care about taking that way. Frankly speaking: I am a vagabond today. , With a few strokes, I have not starved to death in the past ten years. You ask me what I do? My experience is as simple as that.” He stretched his arms and smoked again. Everyone looked at each other in blank dismay, and no one could answer.After a while, Guo Xinzhi said in a tone of infinite sympathy: "Brother Wei Zu, I want to know why you are like this? Given your background and conditions, you really shouldn't be so extreme." "I'm not extreme at all, I just refuse to live a life of deceiving myself." "You mean, most people live a life of deceiving themselves?" Chen Guangming was rather disapproving, not even smiling. "In my opinion it is." Liu Weizu raised his chin arrogantly. "Strange..." Mrs. Chen, who had rarely spoken, murmured. "I can't figure out this truth, and I need you to explain it again." Chen Guangming said. "This truth couldn't be more obvious. How many injustices are there around us? How many dark realities are there? How many people who are full of benevolence and morality but full of male robbers and female prostitutes? But no one dares to admit it. Why dare not admit it? Because one Admitting this world is too ugly and worthless, and there is no way to live this life." Liu Weizu took a few puffs of cigarette fiercely, strangled the remaining short cigarette butt, and then compared with others He gestured, and said: "So, I pretended to be a fool, a big ostrich, and told nonsense with my eyes open. What is this kind of life not a deception?" He sneered and looked at everyone after speaking. "I don't think it's a deception, and I don't think the world is as hopeless as Brother Liu described. I think the life we ​​live is not bad, and it's worth our efforts for her." Chen Guangming immediately retorted. Guo Xinzhi, who had been listening attentively, seemed to be thinking about something, smiled apologetically, and said: "Brother Wei Zu, you use the word 'deceit' too much. Of course, I absolutely admit that this world is not perfect, and there are many, many flaws. The problem is that no one has the ability to put her all at once Get better." His tone was peaceful, and he smiled apologetically from time to time during the conversation. "Ordinary people like us can do nothing more than fulfill our responsibilities, and do what we can do in line with our conscience and conscience. If everyone can do this, wouldn't the world gradually change for the better?" "Your thinking is too optimistic. I don't think it is of much use. There are no absolute standards for words like conscience, conscience, and responsibility. Look at those people who make noise all day long, telling people to be moral and have a conscience." , Does he have morality and conscience? Maybe he thinks he has it, maybe he doesn’t even know that he doesn’t, it’s just self-promotion to gain fame, using words like morality, conscience, benevolence to deceive people.” "Brother Liu has negated the entirety of human society?" Chen Guangming was greatly shocked. When Wang Hongjun saw Liu Weizu's shocking speech in public, he was already worried. He saw that his words became more and more unrestrained, and his words became sharper and more extreme. I didn't know what to do, so I just kept rubbing my hands together, as if I had to rub off a layer of skin before giving up. "Hehe, it's very lively today. A few great debaters meet together. It's a good show!" To ease the atmosphere, he deliberately laughed. Several people were arguing, but they ignored Wang Hongjun's words. Xu Conghui wanted to open his mouth to participate in the debate several times, but he hesitated to speak because he was too emotional and Liu Weizu's words were too fast.The little bird-like Mrs. Chen looked blank, apparently neither interested in nor understood the topic. Wang Hongjun was busy pouring wine and serving snacks. He tried to prevent the debate from continuing to develop several times but failed, and he didn't bother to stop it again.He poured himself a glass of sweet wine, leaned back on the chair comfortably, and said with a smile: "Tell you to quarrel! Shanren, I will sit quietly on one side and watch the fire from the other side." Liu Weizu looked at Wang Hongjun almost contemptuously, and continued: "For the Chinese who have always been unwilling to think deeply, are afraid of things, and are very dependent, such arguments are intended to scare people. Originally, everyone is obedient and filial, but you are not filial to your parents. That's okay? No? Are you disobedient? Look, is this hat too big? If you don’t listen to him, obey him, and give him good food and drink, he will give you a big hat of unfilial piety. Once you buckle this hat, you The people around you think you are bad." Liu Weizu was so excited that he couldn't stop, and took a big sip of whiskey. "Just because a parent gave us this life, he feels confident, has invested, and has done you favors, so you must pay back Benjali's. No matter whether he is worthy of respect or not, he is hard Forcing you to respect him, listen to him, and think of him as big and big. In fact, as long as we think about it, we will know that this is a 'foolish policy'..." "Mr. Liu Weizu, can you let me intervene a few words?" Xu Conghui, who had been trying to intervene but couldn't, finally managed to do so.She stroked the hair on her forehead first, excitement was evident on her round face. "Filial piety and the relationship between parents and children is by no means explained in the way you explain it. For example, myself, now a mother of two children, I dare say, even before my children were born, I began to love them I think they are heavier than myself, and I always think about how to make them live better, be happier, and have a better future in the future. But I don’t expect them to repay me in any way. If they repay me in the future, Filial piety to me is because they love me. You can’t deny the love between people, especially the love between parents. Brother Wei Zu, you are not married, you are not a parent, if you become a father, That’s not the tone anymore.” "Yes, Liu Weizu, hurry up and find someone to marry!" Wang Hongjun wanted to dilute the tense atmosphere, and deliberately laughed. "Really, Brother Weizu, you are such a handsome young man, how come you are still Wang Laowu now? You are also thirty-five, right? Find someone to marry! Once you get married, your outlook on life will change." Guo Xinzhi Say. "Hee hee," Liu Weizu grinned, baring his teeth. "You think that I can't get a wife, so I talk about my life like this! Friends, I will tell you the truth: I will never get married, and I am completely opposed to the marriage system. It is hard to tie two living people together. Isn’t it absurd to ask them to live a lifetime? Not only is it absurd, but it’s tantamount to lying to yourself.” Liu Weizu's words made several people look at each other in blank dismay.Everyone here except Liu Weizu himself was married. He denied marriage and made such harsh words, which made everyone feel humiliated and unbearably indignant.Even Wang Hongjun, the host, couldn't laugh anymore. "Brother Wei Zu, may I ask you, what kind of society do you think is ideal? What kind of relationship between people can be regarded as sincere and honest?" Guo Xinzhi asked patiently. A flash of pain flashed across Liu Weizu's eyebrows, and he muttered: "Very frankly: I have no hope for human society. Because people have no way to truly be themselves, they are always more or less fooled and restricted. Because people have no way to get real freedom, the world is also There is no way to get rid of hypocrisy. This is a vicious circle, there is no way, I am already desperate." "Brother Wei Zu, your view is too pessimistic." Guo Xinzhi said. "Don't forget that he is a miserable green boy!" Wang Hongjun laughed reluctantly. Chen Guangming hadn't spoken for a long time, his expression was angry and contemptuous, and the indifference of shame and companionship was clearly written on his face.His wife spoke instead: "What Mr. Liu said is really funny. Who would you be if you don't do it yourself? I don't think the people next to me are hypocritical, they are all so cute." After she finished speaking, she pursed her lipsticked mouth and smiled. Oil the hands and straighten the hair. "Oh——" Liu Weizu only snorted, meaning: "What do you know? You idiot!" "Oh! Mr. Liu, I can't agree with your idea." Xu Conghui raised his drooping eyelids, looked at Liu Weizu, and said solemnly. "Personally, I feel that I have enough freedom. I abide by the rules I should observe, take the responsibilities I should bear, live the life I like, read the books I miss, and learn the things I want to learn. I think that is enough, killing people and running red lights I don’t need the freedom, I believe that 90% of the people in this world will agree with me.” "I also believe that 90% of people will agree with your idea, so I say this world is hopeless." Liu Weizu's words are still sharp, and he does not make any concessions because Xu Conghui is a woman. "The most hopeless thing is people's conformity, evasion, and surrender-like easy-to-satisfy psychology." He ignored everyone's confused expressions and continued to talk about him. "Most people have this kind of mentality, and they will say: 'I abide by the law, be responsible, and don't do things I shouldn't do. I am a good person.' But don't think about it deeply. Whose rules does he obey? Whose responsibility is he responsible for?" Responsibility? People all over the world are clamoring for freedom, but in fact it is futile to fight for it, and freedom will never belong to human beings." After speaking, Liu Weizu's tone was full of desperation to the extreme . An air of great embarrassment swelled in the room. After a while, Guo Xinzhi came up with a new topic to change the atmosphere: "In the past few years, the literary scene in Taiwan has been very prosperous, and good articles have been published. Didn't Brother Wei Zu often write poems before? Do you still write poems now?" "Don't write! Don't write anything." Liu Weizu said with a snort. "What's the point of writing that? It's either staring and talking nonsense, or following a group of people to wave their flags and shouting, or forming a small circle to flatter each other, talking to myself and moaning without illness. I don't write poetry, prose, or novels. Write nothing." "If you don't write, do you want to read it?" Guo Xinzhi asked again. "It's a matter of watching, and I often get angry while watching." "Angry? Why?" Xu Conghui asked, and Mrs. Chen listened attentively. "Because they have the ability to make people angry, some force you to love, some specialize in picking out old antiques, and have endless memories. Some speak insincerely, and even they don't believe what they say. Some think they know more, and they are plausible. Yes, it’s actually sitting and watching the sky.” He poured the last bit of whiskey into his mouth, then turned the empty glass back and forth in his hand. "Anyway, those books didn't affect me at all." "Can't books affect you? What can affect you?" Wang Hongjun asked jokingly. "Nothing." "Don't speak so harshly, my Portuguese roast chicken will definitely influence you." Elizabeth stood tall at the door, smiling all over her face. "Don't you smell the smell of roast chicken? Go to the dining room!" Before entering the dining room, Xu Conghui walked beside Liu Weizu. "Do you remember Lin Bi?" She asked suddenly. "Lin Bi——" Liu Weizu's mind appeared in Liu Weizu's mind, that long-haired woman with shawls, fair skin, and a layer of indifference forever on her face, and an almost obsessive expression in her two long phoenix eyes, " I can't remember anyone, including Lin Bi. To me, she is like a basin of white water, too clean and too tasteless." Xu Conghui sighed in despair, and swallowed back all the words she wanted to say.