Chapter 17 Chapter 16 Family Crisis

Xiang Tiange's mood suddenly fell to the bottom. Although Zheng Shuguang's voice and smile flashed back so clearly in front of his eyes, it was already separated from Yin and Yang.He fell into deep self-blame, maybe it was his original point that set Zheng Shuguang on the road of no return. Thinking of this, Xiang Tiange's heart trembled, he didn't know what to say when he really faced Mama Zheng on the day of saying goodbye to the body.When people are in despair, even tears appear redundant and pale.But on the day of cremation, Xiang Tiange rushed over early, holding a solemn bouquet of flowers and a flower basket, even though he was very afraid of that scene.Zheng's mother was snuggling on the bed. The fatal accident had completely destroyed her spirit. In the center of the mourning hall arranged in the room was a large portrait of Zheng Shuguang. people.

When Xiang Tiange saw this scene, he was immediately dumbfounded. He couldn't remember a single word of comfort that he had thought up on the way. He ran to the bed with blurred eyes, took Mama Zheng's hands and shook them vigorously. There were only tears, no tears. language.When Zheng's mother saw Xiang Tiange coming, she burst into tears, her voice was very low, it was the kind of crying that was squeezed out from the bottom of her throat, it was the release of uncontrollable pain.Of course Xiang Tiange knew about Mama Zheng's sadness, and he was the incarnation of Shuguang at this time.Xiang Tiange recognized Zheng Shuguang's old uncle from the crowd - the backbone of the big family. Xiang Tiange pulled the old uncle aside, shook his head in pain, took out a thick envelope from his bag, and stuffed it into the In the hands of the old uncle, it was 20,000 yuan prepared by him on behalf of the operation team. The old uncle did not refuse, put the money in his trouser pocket, and then sighed deeply.

A lively drama ended so quickly with the end of a living life. It is hard to tell whether it is bitter or sweet, whether it is joy or sorrow. Anyway, after more than eight months of advertising career, the remaining Ticket stubs fly by like flying away. Perhaps, what stays is the real puree of life quenched.Xiang Tiange knows that even if your heart is full of dark clouds, the sun will rise as usual tomorrow, but because he is walking too fast, he needs to stop, calm down a little, and filter out as much as possible those things that he once disdained and then went against his will. For impurities.At this moment, he was standing alone in the middle of his messy office. There was a glass mirror frame on a small cabinet near the sofa. This low cabinet was Zheng Shuguang's favorite place to sit. Xiang Tiange looked at the glass frame with tears in his eyes. In the frame, there is a photo of five members of the operation team raising their arms and shouting on the top of Mount Tai, and the ground is covered with paper money the size of mooncakes.A cigarette that was about to burn out was sandwiched between the index finger and middle finger of Xiang Tiange's right hand, and the slender and curved smoke rose leisurely, gradually melting into the pouring moonlight.Xiang Tiange squatted down slowly, took out a few toy banknotes from his pocket, struck a match, the upward flames quickly licked the colorful paper, and the room suddenly lit up...

The city is like a monster, only after dark will it open its dazzling eyes.Those flickering neon lights seem to be contaminated with spirituality, seducing people coming and going with a strong temptation.Xiang Tiange was driving the car and was about to cross an intersection when the cell phone on the dashboard rang.He pushed to the second gear, slowly slipped past the police, then lowered his head and glanced at the screen of the mobile phone. There was a new message on it, which was sent by Xie Zhenzhen: "Call back quickly." After those fierce quarrels and the unexpected death of Zheng Shuguang, the relationship between Xiang Tiange and Xie Zhenzhen fell to the extreme cold.Recently, Xiang Tiange simply left and lived in the newspaper office every day, and the nights were full of entertainment. After a period of time, he had a good harvest and reached several considerable cooperations. He laughed at himself and said that this is a blessing , The loss outside the embankment is compensated within the embankment.

Xiang Tiange is now well-known in Haijiang City.Last week, the "Merry Man" section of "Haijiang Daily" sent him a half-page interview titled "A Man and His 10 Golden Ideas". , which only mentions 9 ideas, and the remaining one is only mentioned at the end, which is this topic.In the interview, he talked about the concept of advertising, and believed that advertising is the perfume of the times, which can make people live in happiness. He actually did a free advertisement for "Haijiang Metropolis Daily". On the day the interview appeared in the newspaper, Xiang Tiange received a call from Haijiang University Student Union, saying that the school is holding a series of lectures on "Outstanding Alumni Watching Haijiang University" recently, and plans to invite back several alumni who have graduated in recent years. Combining the characteristics of advertising and life, Tiange gave a lecture entitled "Advertising in Contemporary Society".

Xiang Tiange readily agreed.Sitting in the auditorium of my alma mater, looking at the crowds under the stage, singing to the sky like a spring breeze, I really felt the truth of being the number one in my career. Is it true that the advertisements that are thought to be palm-up and only ask people for money can also do it? Hall of Fame?Xiang Tiange said that people match clothes with horses and saddles, and the clothes of products are advertisements. The current advertising industry has already surpassed the previous level of low-mindedness and corporate soft-heartedness, but through creative packaging to help companies obtain greater benefits and the most Excellent reputation, this kind of acquisition can only be obtained through advertising channels.To some extent, the advertising industry is the most challenging profession in the society at present. It combines aesthetics, literature, ethics, psychology, even architecture, materials science and many other disciplines, and can exercise a person's planning ability in an all-round way. , Judgment ability, expression ability, and communication ability, only by finding the company with the feet, impressing the company with the mind, and persuading the company with the mouth, can ideas be turned into reality and ideas into tickets.

The students below handed in notes one after another, with various questions, some asked whether the female salesperson would use her body to advertise, some asked how much the monthly salary of an advertising salesperson was, some asked about the future direction of the advertising industry, and some asked if they had the opportunity to go to "" Haidu" advertising department internship.Xiang Tiange's inspiration was suddenly activated by the students' open minds, and they commented one by one with witty remarks.He said that not only female salespersons, but also male salespersons must use their bodies to promote advertisements. The key is to grasp the body parts; the monthly salary of advertising salespersons is actually an index of their ability; what is social progress? I think the old saying is gradually failing. The continuous emergence of new words is social progress. In the past, it was established at thirty, not confused at forty, and knowing the destiny at fifty, but now it is difficult to establish at thirty, more confused at forty, and not resigned to fate at fifty. Think about it, is this the truth: At the age of thirty, you have to lay the foundation for your whole life. No one guarantees that you will be able to stand up at this age; at the age of forty, life has just stabilized, and the second spring of love has arrived. Making difficult choices between them, who dares to say that they are not confused?At the age of fifty, how can you easily accept your fate when you see all kinds of sadness when you see people leaving the tea?

There was a commotion in the auditorium, and some people applauded. Xiang Tiange felt a thrill of communication and collision: "In the future, there may be many students in the audience who aspire to go into business. From newspaper people to advertisers, my experience is that businessmen There is no distinction between good and bad. There is only one criterion for judging a businessman, and that is profit. In the past, people condemned money worship, but now they wish they could become rich as soon as possible. This is social progress. What is so terrible about wealth? What is so dirty about it? As long as it comes cleanly, money is to a certain extent the embodiment of a person's value, the foundation of decency, the guarantee of life, the support of sentiment, and of course it can also be the capital to show off. Therefore, I advise everyone that people who are cunning everywhere should not do business , because in the end the agency will ruin itself, and benevolent people should not do business, because it is very likely that the credit will be exhausted and there will be nothing."

When I first graduated, the classmates who stayed in Haijiang met once every six months.Later, as one by one got married and had children or changed their positions, the contacts gradually decreased.Xiang Tiange is even more low-key. He feels that although he manages a department in Haijiang Daily, he is still a working class. The meal money alone will make him stretched. No wonder some people say that the party after graduation for ten years is the right attitude People who don't look good can't hide from the barbecue. But in the past half a year, Xiang Tiange has been involved in advertising, and the radius of communication has expanded, and people have gradually become active, willing to do some go-between errands. He saves the meals and buys the bills. The words on the lips are, if you want to talk about kisses, these buddies who have lived in the same house will be kisses, no matter which field they develop in, they will be taken care of in the future.Although it is insignificant, he really feels that big money is not as good as public money. As long as it is beneficial to the development of customers, he can still be reimbursed after spending thousands of dollars.

When Xiang Tiange was talking on the podium in the auditorium of Haijiang University, Ai Xiaomao was sitting in the office thinking about the things between them.Between people, after getting acquainted and getting close, the most clear thing to remember is hurt rather than love, especially between relatives.Xiang Tiange's accommodating to Xie Zhenzhen made Ai Xiaomao feel heartbroken, and couldn't let go for a long time.At this time, she would ask herself, is it reasonable to do so, is it in line with human relations, and is it in accordance with the rules?In fact, she didn't ask for too much, she didn't ask for much from the beginning, all she wanted was respect, she was afraid of being underestimated, ignored, and being the last one at the end of the line to remind people, but, the past few months A few things, every critical moment, Xiang Tiange let her down, he must be worthy of everyone, he must be extremely considerate to everyone, at this time, it seems that the only person who can offend is her.

Coming out of Haijiang University, the streets were full of traffic, and Xiang Tiange was in a very bright mood. The speech just now gave him a lot of confidence. He always felt that connotation would be the magic weapon to win the fight to the last sword.A real hero doesn't want his opponent to be weak, so that even if he wins, he won't get a hearty pleasure.Although Xiang Tiange has type O blood, he has some characteristics of type B blood. He is both aggressive and forbearing. Overwhelmed. Jin Kexiao's digging, suing, stealing and changing posts, used it over and over again, Xiang Tiange was calm at first, and gained a good reputation for kindness. Later, many people persuaded him. When the calculation reaches the top of the head and there is no reaction, the kindness becomes cowardly and dull.Benevolence and justice are interlinked and equal, and the best way to deal with meanness is to be meaner than him.Xiang Tiange felt that he had completely changed, and turned into another strange and somewhat scary Xiang Tiange.Many things he believed in and admired before were shattered by reality.For example, in the past, if he borrowed ten yuan from others, he would take it as a big deal in his heart, but now he owes tens of thousands or hundreds of thousands of yuan, but he can still eat and drink with the creditor with peace of mind; For another example, obeying laws and regulations is a principle that has been kept in mind since childhood, but now, it is commonplace to use clever names to avoid taxes reasonably.Xiang Tiange remembered that Sheng Ziren said that the reason why modern people are so snobbish is the fault of pets. He was confused at first, but Sheng Ziren went on to say that pets are either cats or dogs. Cats are greedy and lazy. The most disloyal and follow the crowd; dogs are dogs who look down on people and judge people by their appearance. Pets understand human nature and naturally affect human nature. Now it is said that lizards and the like have become new favorites, which is even more disgusting.At that time, Xiang Tiange said that you did not serve the people well, so you sat there thinking about these weird ideas every day.Sheng Ziren said, how can you serve the people well if you don’t study the character of the people thoroughly?Everything in the world is connected by analogy, and perceptions change from time to time. It is difficult to understand, but I really want a piece of pure land in my heart, but this piece of pure land is too easy to be taken away, so I am not afraid, as long as the property rights are still in my hands, It can be taken back at any time.Xiang Tiange laughed at him for deceiving his ears and stealing the bell, which was completely the spirit of Ah Q, but Sheng Ziren said that the spirit of Ah Q is also a kind of spirit. Xiang Tiange felt like Sisyphus in the myth. He finally walked out of the ravine, but was punished to do a kind of hard labor called making money. He earned a considerable amount of money, sometimes heavier than a stone. When I got it, I pushed it up and stored it, but was driven down by desire, and continued to repeat the last action.In the past, he didn't like credit cards. He thought that the "cracking" sound of banknotes between his fingers when counting money was the most beautiful music in the world. , I really don’t know what else in the world can last forever? Xie Guangren's operation was very successful. Because of the minimally invasive surgery, the incision was not sealed. He just put a band-aid on it and waited for natural healing.He spent only four days in the hospital before returning home to recuperate.In the week after Xie Guangren was discharged from the hospital, the relationship between Xiang Tiange and Xie Zhenzhen had a little buffer because they got along day and night.After Xiang Tiange settled down with his father-in-law, he turned to the newspaper office to take a look. When he got home, he planned to have an early rest. Unexpectedly, Xie Zhenzhen was in high spirits. He prepared some small dishes and opened a bottle of red wine.Seeing this situation, Xiang Tiange became nervous instinctively, because this was a signal that Xie Zhenzhen was eager to have sex. Looking at the table full of dishes, Xiang Tiange suddenly had a very tragic feeling, as if it was the time before the beheading. The executioner prepared the meal for the journey, thinking that Xie Zhenzhen would be pressed on the bed and tossed over and over again, Xiang Tiange couldn't get excited at all.Seeing Xiang Tiange's blank look, Xie Zhenzhen said seriously: "Let me tell you a very touching story. Once upon a time, there was a beautiful girl named Qiao Nina who fell in love with a boy named Shad. They watched the shooting star together, and when the shooting star streaked across the sky, they named the star Jonina Shad." Xiang Tiange was at a loss: "What kind of story is this? It has no beginning and no end." Hearing this, Xie Zhenzhen smiled and bent over: "Haha, this star is talking about you, star Joanna Shad, just look at your stupid character. Hey, I don't have any sense of humor, I really can't Communicate." Xiang Tiange pondered for a while, nodded and said, "This is you, Xie Zhenzhen, even telling a joke is mean, and there is a smell of decay everywhere." Xie Zhenzhen's face was immediately covered with a layer Aggrieved Yun: "No matter how you look at me, I don't like everything. Anyway, I want to punish you. There is no reason to worry about it. I coax you and accommodate you, but it is neither good nor bad. There is really no way for anyone to survive. " After Xie Zhenzhen had fun, Xiang Tiange was so exhausted that he didn't have any energy left.Lying on the bed, he thought that men are afraid of women in three ways: one is that they have shortcomings in the hands of women and cannot get rid of them for a while; It was so heavy that he couldn't move.Xiang Tiange compared it, and he seemed to have a little bit of these three points. Ai Xiaomao was a hidden handle he held in Xie Zhenzhen's hands. Once it was revealed, the volcano would erupt.Xiang Tiange has the ability to make money, but Xie Zhenzhen has a greater ability to spend money, and Xie Zhenzhen always thinks that Xiang Tiange should always remember the kindness of the Xie family in his heart, so Xiang Tiange always has an instinctive resistance . At this moment, the lights of thousands of houses in the community are peaceful.Ai Xiaomao lay reclined in the bathtub sprinkled with bath liquid and closed her eyes to rest.This is the most relaxing moment of her day, when she is cleansed of her pretense and has nothing else to do.Running around every day, Ai Xiaomao has no time to think about his future.This is probably the common sorrow of white-collar workers: they came out with a dream to work hard, but as time went by, the dream not only failed to get closer but became farther and farther away. In the end, apart from submerging themselves in endless simple repetitions, the dreams It has become vague and strange, and people are no longer passionate.Ai Xiaomao still has deep feelings for Xiang Tiange.But she knew that this relationship was destined to be fruitless.It was completely inadvertently that she and Xiang Tiange came to this day. It was an important episode in her life that she had been looking forward to but had no prior arrangements.Of course she was not willing to freeze her youth in a lifeless newspaper office.She felt more and more that living in "Haijiang Daily" was just a temporary way of making a living for her, to stop for a while to accumulate the strength to jump forward.Her dream is to go to the United States to study, and then develop into the TV industry, but all of this requires a financial foundation, so she set a plan for herself to retire after earning 500,000 yuan. If she does not achieve her goal, she will not easily choose. But at this moment, Ai Xiaomao was in a strange mood because she was pregnant.It was a new life created by her and Xiang Tiange together, it was an accident of their passion for several months, but it was also the most tangible and practical footnote, which she did not expect.Between a man and a woman, as long as there is no marriage letter, the love will appear to be unstable and somewhat playful; but once there is a child, the situation will be very different. The desire that once prevailed will immediately be sublimated into family affection and blood. The bond between the two parties suddenly drew the hearts of both parties closer.Ai Xiaomao didn't know which time this child was the crystallization of madness, because her period was always accurate, so she never used a condom when making love with Xiang Tiange, of course Xiang Tiange also liked the feeling of having no diaphragm, plus There have been no accidents, and the existence of danger has been ignored. Ai Xiaomao lay comfortably in the bathtub, feeling the itching of the ripples of the water gently hitting her abdomen.She knows that this child is neither a carrier of happiness nor an inheritance of life for her, but just a small accident, and it is impossible to come into this world, but she still strokes her belly over and over again, as if looking inside The unformed child conveyed the message of guilt, and at the same time imagined Xiang Tiange's expression, tone and his decision to deal with it when he heard the news.Ai Xiaomao feels that this decision is the best emotional touchstone for unmarried men and women. Ai Xiaomao dialed Xiang Tiange's mobile phone: "Tiange, I'm bothering you so late..." Before he could say anything later, Xiang Tiange stopped the conversation, "Really, turn down the TV, you wait Wait, the signal in the room is not very good, I came out and said, oh, it’s okay now.” Ai Xiaomao heard the deliberately exaggerated voice on the other end of the phone, knowing that it was inconvenient for him to speak, and felt uncomfortable for a while, extramarital affairs are more like a hot picture Sensitive fax paper, no matter how clear the words are, it will fade as soon as it sees the light of marriage.Usually, if there is nothing urgent, Ai Xiaomao usually does not call Xiang Tiange at this time.She knows that a woman's sixth sense is the least logical but often? ? ?The most accurate thing is to say a few words that don't hurt or itch, it's meaningless, if you say it with deep affection, Xiang Tiange can only falter and play charades, maybe Xie Zhenzhen can hear the subtext of any sentence.But it is this kind of careful dodging that greatly increases the suspense and excitement, so there are so many people rushing to extramarital affairs. Xiang Tiange may have arrived at the central hall or balcony at this moment, although his voice was still very low, he seemed much calmer: "I haven't slept so late, do you miss me?" Ai Xiaomao's throat choked, and the heat And sour, why does he always think of the joy in bed first, so why doesn't he know how to dust off the dust in her heart?Ai Xiaomao suddenly became sentimental, and she used a very slow speech to buffer her complicated emotions: "Tian Ge, I wanted to tell you in person, but I was afraid that I would not be able to say it for a while, so...Tian Ge, you know what?" , we have a child, a child." "What, is it true?" Ai Xiaomao changed his posture and said, "Why should I lie to you?" Xiang Tiange lowered his voice and said, "Xiao Mao, wait a minute, I'll be there right away." Ai Xiaomao never raised family issues with Xiang Tiange.This is where Xiang Tiange is both grateful and regretful.In his opinion, the most wonderful state between lovers is this kind of tacit understanding that there is nothing wrong with each other, and they care for each other without touching them, but Xiang Tiange feels that not caring about their status is tantamount to doomed distance and estrangement. The online investment also seems to have been discounted.Sometimes he would look at the photo of Ai Xiaomao stored in the computer and ask himself: Do you love this woman?Of course, is there even a question?This is another Xiang Tiange in my heart answering.So are you willing to throw away your family and career for her?The other Xiang Tiange hesitated for a moment, and asked back, do you have to give up your family and career for her to love someone?Maybe not necessarily, but what is the sign of love without a shared home?Making love is never a sign of love, it's just an expression of love.Xiang Tiange was silent. He felt that this question was too profound, and he had never seriously considered it. He even thought that even if he seriously considered it, the order would not be much clearer.He seems to have never thought of marrying Ai Xiaomao as his wife. What he often fantasizes and laments is that it would be great if Ai Xiaomao could replace Xie Zhenzhen or if Xie Zhenzhen was Ai Xiaomao, but marrying and replacing are two completely different concepts. , the former must take action or even give up a lot of things, while the latter can only regret it.Xiang Tiange couldn't figure it out, how come the older he gets, the more confused and entangled he is in matters of relationship? Ai Xiaomao's kindness often moved Xiang Tiange for a long time inexplicably.But he always stubbornly believes that being considerate does not belong to marriage, and only lovers can have such consideration.Ai Xiaomao is six years younger than Xiang Tiange, but he often takes care of Xiang Tiange like his sister or even his mother. At this moment, Ai Xiaomao is like a hibiscus blooming in water, emitting bursts of light heat and fragrance from her body. She leans lazily on the head of the bed, looking at Xiang Tiange as if looking at a painting.Neither of them spoke, Xiang Tiange sat on the edge of the bed, hugged Ai Xiaomao head and shoulders in his arms, after a while, Xiang Tiange lifted Ai Xiaomao's pajamas, and kissed her all the way down her snow-white chest He kissed until the slightly protruding lower abdomen before stopping, Xiang Tiange seemed to be playing with a work of art, he used his lips to draw circles on Ai Xiaomao's lower abdomen for a long time, raised his face to Tiange, as if talking to himself It was like asking Ai Xiaomao: "Our child is already inside?" Ai Xiaomao said "Yes" and said, "It's been more than three months. If we can celebrate the New Year together this year, there will be three people." Xiang Tian Ge emotionally grabbed Ai Xiaomao and kissed wildly: "Thank you, Xiaomao. For so many years, my mother and I have been looking forward to having a child. I didn't expect you to make our dream come true." Ai Xiaomao suddenly closed her eyes, turned her back, tears rolled out involuntarily, hanging on her eyelashes.Women are like this, things like this, even if she has the answer to the problem in her heart, she still hopes that the man will say something different from her.Xiang Tiange caressed her back, then turned his hand around, and wiped Ai Xiaomao's eyes with the pillow towel on the bed.Ai Xiaomao sighed and said: "Silly Tiange, I am content with your words, only at this time you are the cutest, but this is an unfulfilled dream, how can I put our child Born? He is not qualified to come to the world!" Xiang Tiange said: "In two months, I will send you to my hometown, which is beautiful, and my sister can take care of you. Anyway, Xie Zhenzhen has not gone back for so many years. Twice, the neighbors didn’t know her very well, so you gave birth there.” Ai Xiaomao smiled: “You, you really want the child crazy, is it possible? What do I say to the newspaper? You and the newspaper again How to say? I can't let this child ruin everything for you, and I can't let this child come to the world without knowing why, that would be unfair to you, me, and the child. You should accompany me to do the child next week. " Xiang Tiange said: "No, this is my blood and our crystallization, you don't have to think so much, I divorced the marriage as quickly as possible." Hearing this, Ai Xiaomao felt uncomfortable instead: "God Song, I believe you are telling the truth, but have you ever thought about my feelings? You made such a decisive decision not because you love me, but because of your child. Besides, don’t look at me being romantic on the page all day long. Very conservative, it's really unfair to Xie Zhenzhen that you talk about divorce so impulsively. After all, you are the one who made a principled mistake between you. What's more, divorce can't be settled in a day or two, but the child is in the belly Day by day, without waiting for you, you can't let me enter the bridal chamber with my front foot and the delivery room with my back foot, right?" After a sound of "ping pong pong pong", a little life disappeared in the belly.Xiang Tiange walked up and down the operating room irritably, stopping to kick the walls for a while, and approaching the door to listen to the movement inside.Suddenly, a pair of couplets popped up in his mind: the earth is high and the sky is high, it is a pity that there is endless love in the past and the present;Indeed, he is very depressed, and he is also a life. In the legal mode, he is the carrier of family happiness, but in the illegal mode, he becomes a superfluous debt.Just thinking about it, Ai Xiaomao was carried out by the nurse. I don't know if it was pain or nervousness. A few locks of Ai Xiaomao's hair were clinging to his forehead, and his steps were irregular. The nurse looked into Ai Xiaomao's ear and asked, "Is it all right?" Ai Xiaomao frowned and shook his head, Xiang Tiange held Ai Xiaomao's arm, walking on tiptoe guiltily, and moved out a little bit, for fear of bumping into him. acquaintance.At this time, the nurse called Xiang Tiange to stop, and said: "Patient's family members, remember to take anti-inflammatory drugs on time when you go back, and you can't have intercourse if the lochia is not over." Maybe it was a psychological effect, the smell of Lysol from the hospital made Xiang Tiange feel uncomfortable all over.He remembered that his liver has always been aching recently and accompanied by a very obvious feeling of falling.He knew that this was the result of drinking too much alcohol.The result of the physical examination was moderate fatty liver, and the liver was one finger enlarged. The doctor first said a lot of scaring words, and then wrote a prescription full of medicines for soothing the liver and strengthening the spleen.Xiang Tiange didn't take any of them, he felt that drinking was already very hard, and if he was thinking about taking medicine, wouldn't it be more tiring?In the advertising circle, drinking is as essential as exchanging business cards when meeting.Recently, the most popular guide to stop drinking is to use wanting children as an excuse to quit drinking. At first, Xiang Tiange wanted to follow suit, but after thinking about it carefully, he felt that it was not appropriate, because the people who often drink together are friends who are more confidant. You always say you want a child but you don't see any results. After a long time, your liver is saved, but you can't guarantee that outsiders will doubt your other abilities. The fiercest battle with Xie Zhenzhen broke out from a diagnosis certificate.Early that morning, Xie Zhenzhen was going to participate in the city's street system commendation meeting. In order to carry materials conveniently, he changed to a large backpack that was not commonly used in the past. The handbag he usually carried was hung on the hanger behind the door.When Xiang Tiange was going out, he suddenly remembered that there was no meter at the place he was going for a while, and he had to pay the fare. He saw that the wallet was full of whole money, so he took off Xie Zhenzhen's handbag to find change, and unexpectedly pulled out a The diagnosis certificate from the obstetrics and gynecology department said that it was a few days ago. The result of the diagnosis was five and a half weeks of pregnancy and induced abortion. The dream of holding a grandson was realized as soon as possible, but this vicious woman secretly had an abortion without even telling him the news of her pregnancy.Xiang Tiange couldn't find words that could represent his mood at this moment, so he just turned around in the living room bitterly.Suddenly, he began to cry "woo hoo", like a child, with his mouth wide open, "hoo hoo" sucking in air, and then he was cut off by violent choking, the changed voice swirled in his throat, tears It flowed down the nose and into his mouth, and the extreme grievance pulled his face outward. At this moment, he felt that he was the most failed man in the world.After so many years of marriage, he finally hoped to have a child, and it was indeed the flesh and blood of the Xiang family, but he didn't have any right to control it, but let others handle it without knowing it.He roared bitterly in his heart, the blood debt must be paid with blood, Xie Zhenzhen, Xie Zhenzhen, this time the relationship between us is really about to end.Xiang Tiange picked up the phone, dialed Xie Zhenzhen's mobile phone, and no matter where she was, she shouted loudly: "Xie Zhenzhen, are you still a woman? Aren't you unwilling to give birth to me? Well, from now on, I will Just make you angry every day!" Xiang Tiange's wish to have a child has once again come to nothing. In this world, to this day, two women have conceived his child, but one can't have it, and the other can but doesn't want it.Xiang Tiange suddenly felt a kind of coldness in his hands and feet, which was the unique coldness in the heart of a lonely family. This time, the cold war between Xiang Tiange and Xie Zhenzhen was escalated and made public.Xiang Tiange lived in the newspaper office again and didn't go home for half a month.During this period, Xie Zhenzhen didn't make a single call.Xiang Tiange knew that, according to Xie Zhenzhen's temperament, he would never take the initiative to give in, so he didn't expect the thaw to be thawed. One day at a time, fortunately, with Ai Xiaomao by his side, there was no lack of spiritual comfort. Xiang Tiange thought, when watching movies and TV dramas, I always feel that the plots are false and contrived. Money, women, entanglements, and intrigues, like condiments in dishes, have become indispensable elements on the screen. Compared with my own life, it is really true. That's it.No matter which circle you are in, these entanglements will accompany you, but the degree is different.To rate a person's life, how is this person's life, whether it is wonderful, ordinary or boring, what should be used as a guideline?In the final analysis, isn't it just position, property, relationship, children, other than these, what else? ? ?What reference?I used to look at "seats, houses, cars, wives, children, banknotes" and "six sons" with a critical eye. In fact, there is nothing wrong with the "six sons". If you want to do something, how can you do it without a seat?How can you guarantee peace of mind without a house?Paying attention to wives is devotion to affection; paying attention to children is to cultivate rookies. In short, the reason why people are disgusted with "a few sons enrolling in the imperial examination" is because the good scriptures have been misrepresented by bad monks.Just like money, there is no evil in itself, but it breeds evil in the way people get it by whatever means. Xiang Tiange rarely brings Ai Xiaomao back to his home.He doesn't like the feeling of being sneaky. Although it is very exciting, he doesn't relax. Even after making love, he doesn't fall into a deep sleep, but is always worried about when the sound of the key being inserted into the lock will sound. Pick out every long hair left by Ai Xiaomao on the bed, otherwise, just like last time, a single hair may be the fuse of a war.Going to Ai Xiaomao's place, he felt very quiet and safe.Ai Xiaomao is as careful as a needle, and arranges everything properly and warmly, often giving Xiang Tiange the illusion that this is his home.Isn't that what men do nowadays?I can't remember my mother's birthday, and my child's birthday is blurted out; my wife never cares about her period, but my lover's dangerous period is always secretly remembered very accurately. After the miscarriage, Ai Xiaomao had to rest for a week according to the doctor's advice, and she asked the newspaper office for cadre leave.Xiang Tiange found a restaurant near the community, packed meals for ten days, and the staff delivered them to the door of the unit.During those two days, Xiang Tiange was so busy that he could only make one phone call every day.Xiang Tiange heard the old man say that miscarriage is equivalent to confinement, if it is not properly raised, it will cause a whole body of problems, and it may even be lifelong infertility. Normally, Xiang Tiange is the kind of person who has to do things calmly no matter how impulsive they are. Even if he rushes in a hurry, he calms down as soon as he enters the door.He said, "Xiao Mao, let me cook a pot of soup for you and make up for it." Ai Xiaomao actually cried: "Look at your clumsy hands, how can you cook? However, your bowl of soup is better than a full banquet in my opinion." Fragile women are easy to be satisfied, so Xiang Tiange bought it at the bookstore. A cookbook, turn to the chapter on soups, and get busy like a cat.Ai Xiaomao doesn't usually cook very much. There is either a lack of salt or vinegar in the house, and several seasonings mentioned in the book are missing. Ai Xiaomao was in the room directing him to put this and that, Xiang Tiange went to school and went to work, he ate in the cafeteria, and almost never went to the kitchen. The posture of holding the kitchen knife was like holding a sword, neither horizontal nor vertical, The action of cutting ginger was more like pulling a big saw. It took a long time to hear a sound. Ai Xiaomao shouted from the room: "Be careful not to cut your hands, otherwise the wages will go up." After working for a long time, Xiang Tiange finally managed to make a bowl of finished product. He exaggeratedly sucked the heat: "Even if a gentleman stays away from the kitchen, cooking is really troublesome. You should try it and join us." Ai Xiaomao said: "When people are uncomfortable, they long for the feeling of home. The food cooked in restaurants is definitely different from the food cooked by relatives. You can know that it tastes different before you drink it." Xiang Tiange teased her: "It's good this time, the relatives won't be able to make out." Ai Xiaomao scratched his nose: "Hold on for a few more days, and then I will let you satisfy your craving." The two quarreled for a while, and Ai Xiaomao sat up cross-legged, drank the soup, and praised him: "You are really smart, this soup is delicious." Xiang Tiange looked at his watch, Ai Xiaomao turned his face away and pretended not to see it. Between lovers, the moment of reunion is the most afraid of the other party looking at the watch. Naturally, Xiang Tiange also captured the details of Ai Xiaomao's twisted face. He gently Holding Ai Xiaomao in his arms, he said, "I won't be leaving tonight, so I will stay with you well." “那怎么行，家里都安排好了？”艾小毛一张口，前后就是矛盾的，既想让他留下，又担心他对家里不好交代，向天歌也不揭穿她，说：“别管了，你就给我一次机会吧。” 两个人也不开灯，斜靠在床上，静静地看着，轻轻地抱着，竟然找不到合适的语言表达此刻的心情，结果不到10点就睡下了，那是半年来向天歌睡得最早的一夜。