Chapter 25 Chapter Twenty-Five

Could it be that this is also a lie? No one came to clarify this, but Dai Ximin felt that he was contradicting himself - if the curtains were always closed, how could he suspect the prying eyes from the opposite side?Did he actually recite it to her?Was it at the beginning of the infinite love, or after the reunion separated by reason?Ten years passed, when faced with his lover who was still alive and dead, perhaps in the severe pain of burning inside, he once again used fabricated sadness to cover up the real sadness. The truth is that the teacher enlightened the boy's sexual awareness, but it was he himself who gave sex the color of compulsion until death.

In real life he takes almost everything, but in the spiritual world he lies and escapes like a rascal.He deeply hid the most vulnerable part of himself, and replaced the unspeakable despair with superficial confiding. "Lock up." On the day Li Weilian left Shanghai, Qiu Wenyue rushed to the airport with Lucky in his arms.He was still unable to speak, but struggled to utter three words: "Lock up." After the plane took off, Qiu Wenyue realized that he wanted her to lock up "Yi Yuan".Therefore, as soon as the police investigation was over, Qiu Wenyue locked "Yiyuan" intact. the door.The media and spectators who heard the news wandered around for a long time, but they could only overlook the otherworldly white facade of "Yi Garden" from outside the fence.

Many people find it incredible, because there is no damage at all from the outside.No matter how devastated, empty and decayed the interior is, with just one sentence—lock it up, "Yi Garden" maintains its last self-esteem. How could Li Weilian be like this? Lock it up, confuse all living beings with external elegance, and deceive yourself with a detached posture; hold on, control while indulging, and exert all your physical, intellectual, and mental strength to the extreme, until the day when the lies are shattered and your body and mind die. This is how he struggled to climb to the top, and then fell straight down like a meteorite.Regarding his current situation, even though he had been prepared for a long time, he was unwilling and powerless to change it.

But Dai Xi still remembered that just before the catastrophe of blood and fire came, he said to her—as long as you become a real psychiatrist, I will be your first case and contribute my only value to you.I'm afraid this is his most earnest request for help, but he still has hope after all, and refuses to admit defeat. Well then, since you are so proud, you shouldn't want to break your promise?But if you lock yourself up, how can someone heal you? I don't know how many times it was, she and him were isolated from each other, but they talked for a whole night.After such a heart-to-heart night, she always felt deeply regretful for herself: Although she had his most precious trust, she couldn't bring him any real comfort.

Opening the research report that had been written for more than half a year, Dai Xi compiled the thoughts of tonight into a document, and wrote it at the end of the report.She then creates a new email addressed to david higgins. "Dear Professor." Dai Xi wrote: "The case study report of the consultant x is attached to the letter. I know that its content is not complete and lacks depth. There are many subjective inferences about the cause of the patient's mental illness. The reason for this is that The ambiguity of the patient's self-report is certainly a factor, but the main reason is my limited research ability, inexperience and lack of self-confidence. I have always been uncertain whether I have the ability to control the dark side of the mind, whether it is others or myself , it is this fear that binds me to the dark world of the mind and makes me inclined to give up.

"However, the case of consultant x gave me a vivid feeling, and made me deeply understand the pain of spiritual sinking. It made me think: If professionals like me do not have the courage to face the evil of human nature, deal with society and values The challenge of understanding and helping a person like counselor x, who is he to depend on? "The dark side of the soul is nothing to fear, because we can help each other. "Today, I still can't be sure that I can cure the consultant x, but I should at least make an effort to listen to him, understand him, accompany him, comfort him, help him regain his confidence, and let him understand that he is by no means alone.

"Professor, I still have too much to learn to do this, so I would like to ask you to accept me as your student and continue my studies to become a true psychology professional." There was a faint red reflection on the computer screen, and the window behind Dai Xi faced the east, and she knew that the sunrise would be there soon. When the dawn came, Dai Xi closed his eyes, leaned his forehead on his clenched fists, and imitated his appearance in memory—praying for him. With a soft "beep", the professor's reply came so quickly. Just two words: "welcome back".

The temperature rises rapidly at noon, and the sea breeze blowing from the Pacific Ocean is not as cool as in the morning and evening.The clouds stretch over the Pacific Ocean in winter, and the snow-white clouds stretch long and long, and the tails gradually turn gray, sinking into the sea level in the distance.The color of the sea water is also obviously much darker than in summer, and the turbulent blue-black seems to be gestating violent storms all the time. When driving past the dark brown rocky shores of Half Moon Bay jutting out to sea, Daisy opened the window to let the salty wind pour in all the way, and the car circled down the road to the beach, his face suddenly covered with cold water , Newcomers will mistakenly think that it is the drizzle falling from the dark cloud above their heads. In fact, the winter here is extremely dry, and it almost never rains.

The water droplets flying into the car window are caused by the wind to blow up the seawater and leave the vast matrix, and the elegant posture is full of unconcealed panic-there is no going back after this walk. Guarding the most vast ocean on earth, it doesn't feel wet at all.The sunshine is abundant in all seasons, and Californians often laugh and seldom cry.Dai Xi felt that when she wanted to cry, she only had to look at the endless blue water, and she would find that her tears were so insignificant that they were not worth the first class. Ocean's aura overwhelmed all wounds.

Dai Xi was in a good mood, but also nervous because of the anticipation. The palms of the hands holding the steering wheel were sweaty, and the speed of the car could not be controlled all the time. ... When I can't move anymore, let you take me for a ride. Dai Xi slammed on the brakes and stopped under a huge ancient pine tree.Fragments of sunlight danced on the wooden sign beside the road. Dai Xi raised his hand, and there was a delicate touch on his fingertips, filled with the fragrance of maple. The wooden sign indicates that along this forest trail, there is a private spine surgery medical center.Even if you have never heard of its name, you can guess the superb standard of this medical center just by looking at its location.

There is still fifteen minutes to drive, so Daixi decided to walk from now on.Today she was going here to look for someone. Not long ago, she saw him for the first time on this roadside one night, and later recognized him in her hometown of Shanghai.Many things happened in the following year, and she wanted to confirm this impression to him many times, but she never had the chance to speak. It wasn't until recently that Dai Xi heard about his plight that he dared to confirm his memory 100%.So she made up her mind to return to America, to California, to this coast, to find him. The medical center protects the privacy of patients, and nothing can be heard without a personal visit.Dai Xi could ask Professor Higgins to help her figure out a solution, but the mistakes she made taught her to be cautious—if he doesn't want to be known, then he doesn't want to be known, and any good intentions can't be against his will. reason. As we got closer, the large lawn in front spread out along the slope, and the white roof was faintly revealed behind the continuous green. It was a pure white building very similar to "Yi Garden". Dai Xi sat down on a small ridge covered with green grass. Even though it was winter at the end of December, the sunshine in California was still swaying unsparingly, making the top of her head slightly hot.She opened her hands to form a viewing frame, and put the round roof of the pure white building into it, and what she saw was the "Yi Garden" that looked like a fake.From now on, go straight ahead, it only takes twenty minutes to get there. Dai Xi lay down on her back, wait a moment, she will wait a little longer. The wait is always long and time needs to pass.Only in the process can we understand our minds. In order not to leave regrets, we will have enough patience and take our time when we are infinitely approaching the goal. When you close your eyes, the light disappears, replaced by ever-changing darkness.The grass exudes a fresh fragrance, which penetrates into the body from every crevice of the skin.The muffled sound of waves hitting the beach came through the cliff behind him, monotonous and heavy, making the surroundings seem surprisingly peaceful.Regulate the breathing, the heartbeat is slowly in harmony with the waves, rushing, falling, without beginning and end, this rhythm has never changed, and it is in line with the heart of all creatures in the world.It must also match him. The so-called closely related. Surely he will be in the White House?She doesn't think about it.Even if he is not here, he will be somewhere else. Goodbye, if not today, it will be tomorrow. She just wants to prepare for their reunion. There are many things to tell him: the new president of West Bund Chemical Greater China will officially take office after New Year's Day; In Zhang Naichi's business, he suffered huge losses, and was desperate to be pursued by the Italian mafia; Song Yindi's suspicion was ruled out and she went home, and the lawsuit against Zhou Jianxin was proceeding according to the procedure. Lawyer Sun found more Zhou Jianxin who was bewitched and instigated The evidence of the murder and the psychologist's analysis report will also become part of his defense materials... It is very likely that he already knows all of these, but there is one thing Dai Xi has to say that he must have never heard of. When Yuan Jia refused the gift of "Yi Yuan", she told Dai Xi this past event: In the early summer of 1981, a woman who lived in the small building opposite Shikumen came to "Yi Yuan", she shed tears to the teacher Yuan Bohan told that he implicated an innocent young man because of his weakness and indulgence in desire——Uncle Yuan, you are an old classmate and good friend of the principal, go speak well to the principal, and don’t ruin him , He is such a smart and kind child, and he is still so young... Uncle Yuan, please, as long as you are willing to intercede, let me do anything. Yuan Jia, who had known the inside story for a long time, was also crying secretly. She saw Grandpa's face flushed with anger - you, how could you do such a thing!He scolded the woman, but she just wept silently without making an excuse.In the end, Grandpa let out a long sigh—well, I'll put on my old face and try, but you have to promise me that you will never see him again. That was what Daisy was going to tell him, and that was the first psychotherapy she planned to give him, a small, small first step.There is only one goal to be achieved - Dai Xi wants him to understand: they all love him so much, love him unconditionally and without reservation, it's just that he doesn't know it... "Wow! Wow! Wow..." Dai Xi opened her eyes suddenly, but she still couldn't escape her hot tongue.The eyelids and forehead were wet all of a sudden, Dai Xi jumped up, the puppy had already jumped away nimbly, tilted his head to glance at Dai Xi, the yellow fur all over his body was trimmed with a gold border by the sun. What a familiar golden color, what a familiar mischievous expression!But is it?It's only been two months, but it has grown so much?Dai Xi's heart was about to jump out: "lucky?" "Aww!" The puppy responded to her cheerfully, rolled on the ground, and threw its feet up towards Dai Xi. "It's really lucky?!" Dai Xi rushed over, and just touched lucky's belly with his fingers, it jumped up and ran away again, and the excited cheers echoed on the open grassy slope.Dai Xi stood up slowly, her eyes were really dry, the world is so quiet and beautiful, there is really no reason to be sad. Lucky ran a few steps and stopped, looked back at Dai Xi, as if saying, "What are you waiting for? Come on!" "Yes, I'm here." Dai Xi followed lucky with a smile, and walked towards the bright sunshine of California. Please allow me to come to your side and accompany you.Let's try to swim against the current.