Chapter 49 47. The color of loneliness

It is said that once upon a time, there was a very boring person named Zijin Chen, who wrote a Tibetan acrostic poem about Gu Yuxiao, which seemed to go like this: Although the past is like a twilight, Yu Zi walked slowly on the road of mortals. Looking at the language of flowers in the cluster of laughing places, idiot laughter is comparable to the pain of infatuation. Everyone only saw Gu Yuxiao's smile, but how many people understood the pain in Gu Yuxiao's foolish smile? Xia Yuan understands, but is he still Gu Yuxiao's friend? Don't know, and no one knows.Gu Yuxiao was not an easy person to understand.

Will Gu Yuxiao still be the old Gu Yuxiao? Don't know, and no one knows. Originally, it is already very difficult to guess the present from a person's past; it is even more impossible to guess the future from a person's present. The sun rises in the east, the sun sets in the west, and the wind blows south and then north.Nature repeats the cycle day by day, but people change every minute and every second.You can never judge what a person's tomorrow will be like. What kind of mood would it be to see the woman I love the most hugging my best friend? No one can pretend that nothing happened.

Could Gu Yuxiao still be the original Gu Yuxiao? In the secluded garden, there are only occasional chirping of insects and birds, and the grapes on the vines are almost ripe, attracting unknown insects and birds. Under the grape trellis, sandalwood is lightly burning, and a pot of tea is brewed on the pear wood table. grace.Puqi slowly poured out a cup of tea and took a sip. Opposite him was a wicker chair, and Gu Yuxiao was lying on it with his eyes closed, as if he had fallen asleep. Grace took another sip of tea, raised her head, looked at Gu Yu with a smile, and said, "Do you like this kind of life?"

Gu Yu smiled and closed his eyes, and said, "Not at all." Grace laughed and said, "Then what kind of life do you want most?" Gu Yuxiao still closed his eyes, with a smile on his face, and said: "Flowers bloom on the hillside, and rice grows in the fields. The men finished their farm work and lay down under the trees to chat. The women made dinner at home and waited for me The man came back. The children ran and chased merrily in the fields. The old people sat together, telling how young and brave they were.” Grace said: "In today's world, I am afraid that such a life can no longer be found. Time is too fast, and people's hearts are too fast."

Gu Yu sighed with a smile: "I really can't find it." Grace said: "You don't like your current life, but you enjoy your current life." Gu Yu said with a smile: "The most primitive meaning of life is to be alive. Whether I live for ten months or these two months, I am already very lucky compared to those who still need to live to live. So I want to know how to cherish and enjoy this kind of life.” Grace said: "In today's world, people's hearts are not stable. Don't you want to come out and live a brilliant life so that everyone will remember you?"

Gu Yu smiled and said: "I'm not a hermit, I've always lived in the stock market." Grace said: "But your life in the stock market is too ordinary, too ordinary, too low-key, and almost no one knows you. With your talent, you should do bigger things." Gu Yuxiao smiled lightly, and asked, "Did you, Quantum Fund, secretly participate in the Stock God Contest this time?" Grace laughed and said: "For such a big event as the God of Stock Competition, every group wants to get a share of it. People in the stock market take profit as the most important strategic goal, and our Quantum Fund is no exception. .”

Gu Yu smiled and said, "Is the Lu Thai Fund a bargaining chip in your hands?" Grace said: "To be precise, it is our partner. How did you guess this?" Gu Yu said with a smile: "Not many people know about me, and even fewer people know that I have lived here for the past two months, but the three people from the Lutai Fund can find me, and they also know about what happened between me and Xia Yuan. Unpleasant things, I think you should tell them all this." Grace nodded. Gu Yu smiled and said again: "Then you know that I live here, and you know about me and Xia Yuan, who told you this?"

Grace smiled and didn't answer. Gu Yu said with a smile: "You not only invested in the Lu Thai Fund and the family, you Quantum Fund is used to putting eggs into several baskets." Grace nodded. Gu Yu smiled and said, "Your other egg should be put in the Hangzhou Fund." Grace said, "Who told you?" Gu Yu smiled and said, "You." Grace laughed, "Oh?" Gu Yu smiled and said: "You told Xia Yuan last time that your Quantum Fund changed its strategy and planned to invest 5 billion US dollars in the Hong Kong stock market. This is a big secret, and you should not tell Xia Yuan."

Grace said, "It really shouldn't be." Gu Yu smiled and said: "But you still told him. Because you want Xia Yuan to win besides Xie Lin. No matter which of the two of them wins, it will be good for Quantum Fund. And you want to let Xia Yuan win." Little Brother Xu and Young Master Leng both lost. But you would never have imagined that Xia Yuan would also tell Brother Xu and Young Master Leng this secret." Grace laughed and said, "Xia Yuan is really a friend without trust. He promised me that he would not tell others." Gu Yu smiled and said, "Cunning people don't need to be trustworthy."

Grace nodded. Gu Yu smiled and said again: "Then you know that the story between Xia Yuan and me was also told by Shen Jin?" Grace nodded again. Gu Yu smiled and said: "There are only four people who know about this. Xia Yuan himself will not tell Shen Jin, nor will I, nor will my girlfriend. It seems that Xia Yuan, a smart person, did not expect Du Xiao This woman is Shen Jin's pawn." Grace said: "This is not my concern. I just need the last news. The source of the news is not my concern." Gu Yu smiled and said again: "No matter how fierce the fight between Lu Thai Fund and Hangzhou Fund is, it seems that it is none of your business. As long as any one of them successfully takes over the First Fund, your goal will be It has been achieved. Now, from your point of view, which of your two eggs will bring you benefits in the end?"

Grace said: "I originally had great hopes for Xie Lin. Xie Lin's level is definitely higher than Xia Yuan, Mr. Leng, and Brother Xu. That's why I told the Lu Thai Foundation about your existence. I hope they can invite you to help them win the stock god competition smoothly. But judging from the current situation, Xie Lin's mentality when trading, probably can't win any of them. Xia Yuan is your friend, that is, my friend. Now I I hope he wins, and I believe he can." Gu Yu smiled and sighed, with infinite emotion in his expression, and said: "He is no longer my friend." Grace smiled faintly, a smile of understanding. He understood that no matter which man, when encountering such a thing as Gu Yuxiao, he would never consider Xia Yuan as a friend anymore. He knew what happened between Gu Yuxiao and Xia Yuan, but he didn't know why it happened. He didn't ask either. When you live to Grace's age, you will understand that there are many things in the world that others don't want to talk about, so it's best never to ask. Everyone has a secret, and the reason why a secret is a secret is that you don't want others to know it. Young people understand that respecting people is important, but what many don't know is that respecting other people's secrets is just as important. Gu Yu smiled and said, "Then why did you come to see me today?" Grace said: "I invite you to join the Quantum Fund." Gu Yu smiled and said, "You should know me." Grace said: "I just guess that after having a girlfriend, Gu Yuxiao will be different from the past. After all, men are always unwilling to be lonely for the sake of women. They are willing to fight, work hard, and create for women what they want. What they want. Most of the men who struggle in this world are fighting for their women." Gu Yu stood up with a smile, and said, "I have already lost one friend because of women; I have lost another friend because of stocks." He looks at Grace. Grace asked slowly: "You mean, we are no longer friends?" Gu Yu smiled and said, "From the moment you sold me to Lu Thai Fund, it's not anymore." Grace sighed slightly with vicissitudes of life: "In a place like the stock market, you can never make real friends. From the moment you step into the stock market, some people are just lonely." Gu Yu looked at him with a smile, smiled faintly, and said, "Do you know the color of loneliness?" Grace said: "Withered yellow?" Gu Yu smiled and shook his head slightly. He bent down slightly, picked up a green fallen leaf from the ground, and said slowly: "This is green. But from the moment this leaf fell from the tree, he lost all the leaf friends on the tree. It becomes the color of loneliness. Loneliness has no color. It can be red, white, black, yellow, or any other color. It is not lonely because of what color it is. Just because loneliness itself is loneliness." There are many people in the world, some are always lonely, some are occasionally lonely, but who can completely escape loneliness? Loneliness is like the wind, how can one avoid the wind? What kind of color is loneliness?No one knows, this is an unsolvable problem. The snow-capped mountain stretches straight into the sky, and the solid ice rock on the top of the mountain has never melted. Is this kind of solidity the color of loneliness? The morning light is slightly dew, and the drop of dew on the lotus leaf in the corner of the pool gently rolls into the pool. Is this kind of sound the color of loneliness? After a busy day's work, when you return home, you are faced with an empty room. Isn't this kind of emptiness the color of loneliness? You and your girlfriend are separated in two places, you are working hard here, working hard for your tomorrow, but suddenly one day, your girlfriend tells you that she has found someone who can replace you there, is your feeling lonely at that moment? s color? You have worked so hard and spent several months to write a novel, but no one appreciates it, and no one even wants to take a look at it. You can only smile bitterly. Isn’t this kind of smile the color of loneliness? ? Late at night in the cold winter, you receive a call from the dormitory of the person you like, telling you that she hasn't come back yet, fearing that something will happen to her.You rushed out recklessly, when you were wearing thin pants and riding a bicycle around the campus twice, you suddenly saw that she was walking hand in hand with another boy, you could only turn around, light a cigarette, leave quietly.Is this strand of tobacco the color of loneliness? Life is full of loneliness, but most of the time it is powerless. Powerless, these are the four words of how pale life is! But no matter how lonely you are, as long as you have friends, you are still lucky.Even if you don't want to tell your loneliness to your friends, your friends can always bring you comfort and joy in your life. The greatest loneliness in life is the loneliness without friends. How pale and lonely it must be when you are the only one left in the world! Gu Yuxiao looked up at the night sky, with a helpless wry smile on the corner of his mouth. ——Because he is Gu Yuxiao, he can only laugh. Fang Xuan came out of the room and said softly, "You have been standing for several hours." Gu Yuxiao turned around, hugged her in his arms, smiled lightly, and said, "It's really lonely here." Fang Xuan said: "Then shall we go back?" Gu Yu nodded with a smile, looked into the distance, and said, "It's time to go back and do something."