Chapter 9 8

Shinsuke didn't intend to be a bartender long ago, but he has a prejudice against people who work in bars.He believes that people who choose to work in bars aim at other outlets at the beginning, but encounter setbacks and have nowhere to go, and finally step in helplessly.This was Shinsuke's thought when he first arrived in Tokyo, but he no longer has this kind of thought now. Shinsuke was born in Kanazawa, Ishikawa Prefecture.My father worked at a local credit bank; my mother worked as a middle school temporary teacher.But Shinsuke never saw his mother as a temporary teacher in his memory.

His hometown is located in a place called Teramachi on the banks of the Saikawa River.It can be inferred from the place name that there are many temples in that town.The wooden house where Shinsuke's family lives is quietly located opposite a small shop selling local specialties. Shinsuke has an older brother who is five years older and works in a textile factory.Married five years ago, the children are four and one year old.Brothers-in-law and their children, plus Shinsuke's parents, there are a total of six people, and they should still be living in their old home. Shinsuke came to Tokyo at the age of eighteen because he was admitted to a private university in Tokyo.To be precise, he wanted to come to Tokyo, so he went to that university specifically.There was no particular reason why he chose the Sociology College.He also took the exams at other universities in Tokyo, including the Faculty of Letters, the Faculty of Business, and the Faculty of Information Technology.To put it simply, as long as it is a university in Tokyo, it doesn't matter which one he goes to.

So after he arrived in Tokyo, he didn't have any specific goals.Because he believes that as long as he arrives in a big city, he can find his goal.For teenagers living in rural areas, Tokyo is a place where countless opportunities are budding.He firmly believes that as long as he can grasp one of these opportunities, he will be able to embark on the road to success.But he didn't notice it at all at the time. In fact, he must have the ability to surpass ordinary people in order to be able to grasp the opportunity to stand out. Shinsuke's parents did not object to his going to Tokyo.For them, the eldest son of the family has graduated from a local national university and is working in a local company. Maybe they think that their old age is temporarily nothing to worry about.Besides, it is also very troublesome to always take care of the second son who has lower grades than the eldest son. They know that Shinsuke's grades are not good, and he cannot go to a good university like his brother.

At least, let him go to Tokyo, and there will be no difficulties in life in the future - this is Shinsuke's idea that his parents are willing to let him live in Tokyo. The place where Shinsuke first lived was an lk room less than six tatami mats in size.He believed that from here the roc would spread its wings and soar in the sky.He is full of expectations in his heart, thinking that he can do anything, and is willing to accept all kinds of challenges. However, the period of embracing this dream is extremely short.A year later, he no longer had any ambitions.Since coming to Tokyo, Shinsuke has been looking for a specific goal, but he has been thinking about this question less and less often.He even wanted to forget about it, because as soon as he thought about it, he would see how incompetent he was.

If you really want to explore the reason, maybe you are too busy with work.The rent and tuition fees alone cost almost all of his living expenses, forcing him to start working part-time.After working part-time, many new interpersonal relationships are created, and more money is needed to make friends, that is, money for going out to eat, drink and have fun.In order to earn this money, I had to find more part-time jobs, and the vicious circle continued like this. Of course, these are just excuses.Around Shinsuke, there are many students who are more unfortunate than him but work harder than him.S, who lived in the same apartment, met him at a nearby restaurant and gradually became acquainted with each other.This male student worked on a road construction site in the middle of the night, and did not ride his bicycle home until dawn, and then fell asleep like a drunk person, unconscious for a full four hours. After getting up, he rushed to school for the afternoon class .This life S lasted for more than two years.In addition, during the period from get out of class to work, he stayed in his room to study.The beard on his face is always messy S, and his catchphrase is "the most valuable thing in the world is time".

"Think about it, money can do anything, but it can't buy back the lost time. No matter how much money you have, you can't go back to the time when you were young, right? On the contrary, as long as you have unlimited Time, no matter what can be done. The reason why human beings can create civilization is not the power of money, but the power of time. But the sad thing is that everyone has limited time. And a young man An hour, and an hour after getting old, the value of the two is completely different. For me, time is absolutely not to be wasted, not even a second." S majored in architecture, and the topic of his graduation thesis was "Development of Urban Three-tiered Road Network", which Shinsuke only heard about three years after parting with him.It turned out that he was working in the middle of the night, not just to earn living expenses.

Shinsuke felt that he couldn't take S as a role model, although this sentence was just an excuse.But he is different from S, he is not interested in what the university teaches at all.What's more, the major subject he chose was not his interest in the first place, and of course he didn't even have the slightest desire for knowledge. Once his sophomore year was over, he hardly ever went to college.At that time, the place where he stayed the longest in a day was the Roppongi bar where he worked.The theme of the bar is the music of the 1960s, and there are records from the Beatles and Elvis Presley.On days when there are few guests, Shinsuke puts those records on the turntable one by one, and spends the day leisurely.

It's not that Shinsuke doesn't know that he is wasting time. He also often feels anxious and hopes that he can find his goal quickly.But he didn't know how to find it.Even before looking, even less how to look for it.It's like the postman delivered something one day, but mistakenly thought it was something that suddenly appeared in front of him. He never thought of dropping out of school.Among the people he knows, several have dropped out of college, but they can be considered to have thought about it for a long time, and they dropped out in order to implement their goals.Shinsuke didn't think much of it.He always felt that he had to have a goal first before he could become aware or make up his mind.

However, in the end he still failed to finish college.Even if he has no intention of taking a break from school, if he does not attend classes and take exams, he will not be able to advance to a higher grade.Unable to advance to a higher grade.Of course, it is impossible to graduate smoothly.If this state continues, the student status will naturally be expelled, which is why he was expelled from school. Shinsuke temporarily hides this from his parents who live in Kanazawa.When all the other students became office workers, he didn't even go back to his hometown, and only told his parents, "I'm going to work for a while."

The truth was revealed when he was twenty-three years old.The reason is that the university called his home several times.Shinsuke's parents came to Tokyo angrily. His father blushed and said that it was still too late to go back to university, while his mother kept sobbing. Shinsuke ran out and didn't come home for two days.When he got home on the third day, he saw a note on the table, scrawled on the note: "Remember to call home if you have anything to do, and take care of yourself!" It was not long after this incident that Shinsuke met Ejima Koichi.The Roppongi bar where Shinsuke works is about to close down. When he was anxiously searching for job information, he saw the recruitment advertisement of "Sirius".He was deeply attracted by the word "Ginza".Because he believes that since he chooses to work in a bar, he must of course work in the most prosperous place in Japan.

During the interview with Shinsuke, the boss, Jiang Dao, came out in person.Shinsuke is impressed by Enoshima's temperament.His every action, every word, is full of deep meaning.Shinsuke thinks that this kind of person can be called a mature man. Ejima asked Shinsuke to try on the "Sirius" uniform, and he decided to recruit Shinsuke on the grounds that it "looks stylish".Enoshima also said the same thing at the time. "No matter how casual a person is, he will be particularly insistent on three things. One is the way to take a shower, the other is the way to wipe his butt after going to the toilet, and the third is the drinking posture." Shinsuke nodded in admiration, and said cautiously: "I will remember." For the next six years, he stayed at "Sirius" to work.If the car accident hadn't happened, he should still be working there now. He learned a lot in those six years.Specifically, he found working at a bar interesting.And it arouses ambitions that haven't appeared since school days.Looking forward to opening a store by myself in the future. However, he knew that his ambitions were not specific enough, that he hadn't thought deeply about it on a realistic level, and that he still had a lot to learn, most importantly, he didn't have the money at hand. These should be Shinsuke's thoughts before the car accident. But things are quite different. Shinsuke began to think about how he spent this year.He remembered what actions he had taken, but whenever he tried to recall his motives at that time, there would be a picture like a gray curtain covering his memory.And the curtain was much thicker than he had imagined.