Chapter 54 Part III, Section 55: Cicadas on the Eighth Day (55)

In the first few months, I didn't get used to it, and it was very painful.I inadvertently blurted out that I was worried about leaving Kaoru in the care of others, but someone seemed to overhear me, and I was surrounded and suppressed at the meeting that night.Several people surrounded me in the study room and forced me to ask "why I can't let Lika go with peace of mind".As in the study, their questions were not answered correctly.No matter what they say, they always come back to the same question, and it lasts until one or two o'clock in the night.Sometimes I have to get up at 5 o'clock the next morning in accordance with the work content, so I have been sleepy for several days in a row.

Life here is not as difficult as imagined.Depending on the job, the monthly salary ranges from 3,000 to 5,000 yuan.Magazines, newspapers, televisions and radios are strictly forbidden, but in terms of snacks, cigarettes and even clothes, if you want something, you can apply and buy it with the money you have.In addition, if you have any doubts about the internal regulations, you can also file an appeal to suggest amendments.Repeat the meeting with different members every day, and the application will be accepted as long as more than half of the approval is obtained within five days.When I first arrived, children were not allowed to share a room with their mothers.Children must take turns sleeping with different members in units of two weeks.I suggested that this would definitely have a negative impact on the child's mood, and after a dizzyingly long meeting, the application was finally accepted.Now, children under the age of twelve living here can live in the same room as their mothers.As time goes by, sometimes I almost forget what catastrophe I got into.

The mailing operation was handled by four people, who were respectively responsible for affixing labels on the envelopes, folding the leaflets, putting the leaflets into the envelopes and applying paste. We took out the envelopes and leaflets from the cartons stacked in the corner of the room and started to do it. "I brought snacks today," Karna said at the beginning, taking chocolate treats from her apron pocket. "Eat at work, and you'll get scolded if you get caught," Barney warned her, but Karna opened the bag and placed it in the middle of the table. "Oh——in case you get a warning, it's all Karna's fault." Asuna said while reaching for a snack.

"It's terribly hot. At least the office room should be air-conditioned. Come on, Lu, you can eat too." Under the urging, I also reached for the snacks, "Kana is for everyone to share the responsibility." When I said this, everyone laughed. The forty or fifty women who live here have one thing in common.I think it's not so much their innate traits, it should be said that they are acquired after living here.That is, no deep thinking, no doubts, no personal opinions.Because there is no self, so naturally there is not much negative emotion such as malice and hatred.

According to the guidelines, all members must follow the instructions from above.The higher-ups asked us to do this work today, and we did this, and the higher-ups said that we should eat according to the order.As for who is "above" you don't have to think about it.Gradually, it became easier to do so.If you are too personal and always raise questions openly, you will lose your membership.They'll say "you're better suited for a secular job" and throw people out without losing face.Therefore, although it is a purely female group, it does not feel gloomy.If you live together in a dormitory called accommo, or meet the same members several times at work, it is reasonable to say that it is easy to form small groups or cliques, but in fact this has never happened.It's a good thing that no one asked about my past, but there is still a weird feeling that everyone lives in a mask.