Chapter 52 Part III, Section 53: Cicadas on the Eighth Day (53)

Kumi and I held hands and cheered. "Kumi, is this kid going to stand up? Will she call me mom?" "It will be soon, very soon. Kaoru, you will stand up soon, talk to your mother, and do many things." Kumi grabbed Kaoru's hand and made her stand up.Kaoru wrinkled her face and burst into tears.Kumi and I looked at each other and laughed happily. I want to live here with Kaoru.That man, and his wife who trampled on me so hard, I put it all down here.Names, past and resumes, memories of being happy in the bottom of my heart, and memories of strongly hating someone, as long as they are here, sooner or later, they will be able to let go as easily as giving up property.When I let go of all that, maybe I'll be free from the sins I've made too.Knowing that there is no such cheap good thing in the world, but I really think so.

Kaoru was drooling and desperately crawled on the ground and chased me.I opened my arms and embraced this little life I had bought with the one I had. July 30, 1987 Get up at six in the morning.Wake Kaoru up, brush her teeth for her, and go to manna room ⑨ with Kaoru at 6:30.Go to the counter to get a tray and find a seat.Natto, seaweed, pickles, miso soup, rice.Kaoru handed me the seaweed pine that the aunt who cooked the rice gave me: "Open it for me." Then she stared at my hand that sprinkled the pine on the rice with a serious face. "Sprinkle the raw eggs with pine, that's great." I asked her to hold the chopsticks by herself. "Raw eggs are so good." Kaoru imitated me and smiled.

After the meal, go to the Angels who scrub the yard.Several women were already scrubbing with brown brushes.When I first saw it, I thought the rows of dolls were weird, but after washing them every day, the eyeless, noseless, smooth pottery angels gradually looked like dolls with expressions.Sometimes the expression looks sad, and sometimes it seems to be smiling.I desperately watered the white angel and scrubbed it with a brown brush.Please bless me to have a safe day today too.Please bless me to live with Kaoru tomorrow.In the past two and a half years, there has not been a day when I have not prayed for the same wish.I don't know what kind of magic angels have, at least so far, my wish has come true.I will also pray today.I don't expect what will happen in one year or five years, I only want today and tomorrow, that's all, so please make my wish come true.Kaoru was squatting a little far away from me, pulling weeds and drinking with Maron.

"Lika, good morning." "Did you drink milk today?" "Maron is playing mother." The women talked to Xun and Maron while washing the angel. Ma Rong, who is about to turn eleven, has lived here since she was five years old and has been our roommate since a year ago.There are five people living in the dormitory: Maron and her mother Dan, Kaoru and I, and Shaku who met during the interview. Kaoru turns three years old today. Home wouldn't celebrate her birthday.We were approved to join the membership and were officially named on March 20th. According to the regulations, it was Kaoru and I's birthday.In fact, I shouldn't call Kaoru by her original name at all, and Kaoru can't call my mother either.Even the mother-daughter relationship must be given up, that is the philosophy here.But I still call her Kaoru when we are alone in private, and let Kaoru call me mom as usual.Of course, Kaoru doesn't understand these things yet, no matter if people call her Kaoru or Rika, she will answer, and sometimes she still calls me "Mom" even if other people are present.