Chapter 49 Part III, Section 50: Cicadas on the Eighth Day (50)

From the first day I noticed that there seemed to be only women here.The person who greeted us that night, the instructor, and the five people who received the training were all women.Sometimes women of different ages pass by in the building.When I first came here, Wen Dai asked about the gender of the baby. If I had answered that it was a boy, she might not have agreed to let me get in the car at all. Moreover, it seems that most women have their own ups and downs.Wendai once mentioned that her husband was having an affair, and Jiumei also said that she was deprived of custody. I think here, there must be teachings like "people are bound by worldly concepts" or "soul is more important than body".Presumably there are also various regulations, and there are reasons that sound reasonable behind each of those regulations.But in fact, maybe it's just a group of women who can no longer continue their original life. They didn't think about any soul or paradise at all. They came to this place just to escape, so there is the so-called AngelHome.The weird names like Eremia and Sarai may be just a sign of their extremely simple desire to have a new life without pain.

I picked up the ballpoint pen on the file.The women who were arguing in low voices suddenly fell silent and stared at my hand.Under their gaze, I filled in the name of the bank and the deposit amount. I also pray from the bottom of my heart.No matter how ridiculous the name is, as long as it’s not Nonomiya Kikazuko, it doesn’t matter, please give me a new name that is not polluted, so that I can lead a life without suffering from now on.A safe place where I can be assured that I will not be hunted down by anyone, nor will I have to face trial for my crimes. Kaoru stretched out her small hand to the ballpoint pen, causing my handwriting to be crooked, so I had to rewrite it.I felt an indescribable sense of relief when I finished writing the last zero of the number.No, is that peace of mind?Or the sense of liberation from self-abandonment?I have no way of judging, but there is a kind of pleasure in unloading the heavy boulder on my back.

Then, I gave them both the passbook and the bank seal.The 37.5 million I got in exchange for my father's life and my remaining savings of 800,000 and several hundred yuan were handed over on this day. March 20 I am officially recognized as a member.Among the trainees, only me, Kumi, and Sae were allowed to stay.Saneda and Mrs. Tokuda were unable to stay and live, so they could only commute from their own house every day to engage in work called work.Sha Hui heard it from nowhere, saying that Mrs. Tokuda had a big fight with Eremia because of her self-assertion, and that [Fuwa@小&说^下载] Sanzhi refused to hand over her property.But in fact what the screening benchmark is, we have no way of knowing.

It has been a month since I left Nagoya.I am frantically eager to know how far the police have gone and how much they have uncovered of my whereabouts.Sometimes even almost screaming with unease.But I can't ask anyone, and I don't have a chance here.I can only tell myself that there is no way the police will find me.