Chapter 4 Part 1, Section 4: Cicadas of the Eighth Day (4)

"Young people are really young these days." The aunt came out of the back room with a bottle filled with milk, "he puts his own fun above the children's. Didn't the newspaper write about it last time? The biological parents beat the child to death, That would never have happened in our time." She said in a voice that would have been too loud for a soliloquy, snatching the baby from my arms. "Oh, baby, baby, you're hungry, aren't you?" She comforted softly, and put the bottle on Kaoru's mouth.Kaoru, who was crying, shook his head and resisted for a while, finally sucked the pacifier in his mouth, opened his eyes wide, and began to drink milk with a serious face.

"You took care of me all day today? About the amount of milk powder, it says on it, every three or four hours, let me think about it, about four feedings a day, remember to let the baby burp after feeding... Please, Why even you have the same expression." After being teased by my aunt, I realized that I was staring at Kaoru, and laughed in a hurry.I paid, thanked me and walked out of the pharmacy.Hang the stuffed plastic bag on your hand, hold the baby, change hands along the road to take the luggage, and then return to the park.I head to the public toilet, but there are no cribs in there.In desperation, he had no choice but to find an empty bench and let Kaoru lie down and gently take off the diaper.The diaper was soaked, so I wiped my smooth genitals carefully with a wet tissue and put on a new diaper.

The actions of feeding and changing diapers have been repeated in my mind countless times.In my head, I breastfeed, change, bathe, put her to sleep, and make her happy in my imaginary Kaoru. I also have experience taking care of babies.When my student friend Incheon Yasugi gave birth to a daughter, I went to her house to help take care of the baby.Changing diapers, feeding, putting baby to sleep, cuddling and comforting.I always take care of Kaoru in my fantasy while recalling the touch at that time.So logically speaking, it should be easy to do, but the diapers that were put on carefully were squeezed together at the base of the thighs, so I had to tear off the tape and paste them again.

Kang Zhi. I look up.The clear blue winter sky stretches as far as the eye can see.By the way, Kang Zhi.There is also Kang Zhi. Knowing that it was impossible, but I felt that all problems seemed to be solved in an instant. I picked up Kaoru and held it high, and Kaoru let out a small giggle again.I tried to put those little feet rubbing against each other against my face.Refreshing skin. Kaoru.My Kaoru.I'm fine, don't worry, I said to Kaoru.Maybe because she understood what I said, Kaoru looked down at me with a smile, and sucked her fingers. Take the bus bound for Chuo Line Station in front of the park and go to Shinjuku.I bought baby slings and towels, onesies, and baby underwear at a department store in Shinjuku, bought a travel bag on another floor, and went to the toilet.Changed clothes for Kaoru, and converted the luggage into a travel bag.

I called Kangzhi from the public phone booth in front of the department store.haven't seen you for a long time!Kang Zhi screamed so excitedly after answering the phone, I asked her if I could go to her house to play now.