Chapter 3 northern doubts

When they came to the big river, Sadako and Yoshio Honda walked on the avenue along the river bank, and the wind blowing from the river was very cold.Yoshio Honda slowed down, took out his notepad and opened it up to read. "Mr. Uhara rented a house in the past. I inquired about it from the people in the office. It is probably in this area." Honda glanced around and turned into an alley.Most of the doors on both sides are very low lattice doors. "This is the one." Honda stopped, and turned to look at Zhenzi.There is an old "Kato" nameplate on the door. The soil space is narrow and deep.From the dark place in the back, a short old lady came out with small steps.

"What do you want?" The white-haired old lady sat on the tatami, looking at the two people standing in front of the door frame with sunken eyes. Ben Duo was afraid that his sister would be deaf, so he said loudly: "I'm from advertising company A. Did Uhara from our company live here before?" "Well, Mr. Uhara moved out a year and a half ago." Unlike Honda's worries, the elder sister understood immediately. "Yes! I will cause you trouble at that time." Ben Duo thanked her, and found the old woman's eyes turned to Zhenzi, so he introduced her to Zhenzi, and Zhenzi saluted her.

"Oh, it's Mrs. Uhara. Mr. Uhara was single when he lived in our house. It's good to marry such a good wife." The elder sister's gaze shifted to Honda again.Honda asked: "I would like to ask you, when Mr. Uhara moved away, did you hear where he moved?" "I didn't hear that, Mr. Uhara said that he moved out because of work needs, and he didn't even send a postcard after moving out." The old lady said dissatisfiedly, moving her lower lip. "Yeah, that's too much." "Don't you know where Mr. Uhara lives?" The elder sister turned her eyes and asked with great interest.

Honda panicked a little. "No, just ask. When Mr. Uhara moved, his luggage, such as bedding, was moved by the moving company." Zhenzi was listening, and she understood why Honda asked this question.He wanted to find out where Uhara moved from the moving company. "I don't remember if it was a moving company. The luggage was packed by Uhara himself. It seems that he called a taxi to take it away together." "Is it a taxi?" Honda murmured. Before leaving, the old lady said kindly: "Mr. Uhara is a law-abiding person. He often travels on business and only stays at home for half a month in a month.

I have never seen him play with women, nor drink, he is really a good man.When he was about to move away, he traveled more and more. " The two returned to the river bank road. This river is called Xichuan. The river has little water, and thick snow has accumulated on the dry places on both sides. "When Uhara moved, he didn't need a moving company, but used a taxi. It seems that his new place is in Kanazawa City, right?" Zhenzi asked Honda. "This..." Honda tilted his head while walking and said: "That's not necessarily the case. Take the taxi to the train station, and then check the luggage. It seems that it is not in the city. If it is in the city, the people in the office will definitely know."

After hearing what Honda said, Sadako felt that Uhara seemed to have some secrets.Yes, the husband must have concealed something consciously, but the newly married wife may not know it.It is hidden at a deeper level. There is a bridge in the distance.Above it, the snowfields of the Baishan Mountains stretched forward, and gray clouds covered the sky.In Zhenzi's eyes, it was the Beishan seen at Quwahu.At that time, her husband would not let her go to the other side of the mountain, but now she came here by herself. "If it's a taxi, there will be no clues. The luggage will be sent to the station, so we have to go to the station to check.

But a year and a half ago, whether it was checked in a small bag or carried with the bus, a small piece of luggage could not be found. " However, he still decided to go to the station to have a look, and Zhenzi agreed, but this matter was as uncertain as flying through the clouds. In the tram, three monks were chatting, and Zhenyu suddenly realized that there are many monks in this city.The tram stopped in front of the big temple, and they got off. "This is Honganji Temple. This area is the true sect of Buddhism." Honda said from the side.The roof of the large temple I saw when the train arrived this morning is this Honganji Temple.

Entering the station, the two walked towards the luggage check-in area.Two station attendants were busy with their work, waiting for their hands to be free. "What's the matter?" A chunky station attendant asked while packing his luggage. "Can I find the luggage I checked in a year and a half ago?" Honda asked. "A year and a half ago?" The station attendant was taken aback, "Has the luggage not arrived yet?" "No, no, I want to check where it is shipped to." "Who sent it and where?" "I don't know any of this. The shipper is Kenichi Uhara."

"Is it hand luggage, or a small bag?" "It's not clear either." "It seems that you didn't have a receipt either. A year and a half ago, that's a long time ago. Do you know the date it was sent?" "The exact date is unknown, only the sender's name is known." The station attendant is on fire. "It's just nonsense. I don't know where it was sent, I don't know the type of luggage, I don't know the date, and it happened a year and a half ago. There's no way to check it." His words made sense, Honda had no choice but to step back, lit a cigarette, started pacing, and said:

"I can't blame the station attendant for getting angry. How can I check if I have no clue? It's impossible to check the new address from the station. What should I do?" Ben Duo looked at his watch and said: "It's already four o'clock, go to the police station and have a look, maybe you can hear something." This refers to the notification to the police stations of this county and neighboring counties whether any unidentified corpses have been found.Zhenzi felt a tightness in her chest. "Will you know so soon?" "Maybe. The police are on the phone."

Honda wanted to know the result as soon as possible, so he walked towards the bus stop. The superintendent who met in the morning learned that Honda and Sadako had come, so he came to the reception room by himself.The Superintendent was a tall man in his forties. "The results of the investigation are generally known," said the superintendent. "Thank you very much." Honda and Sadako bowed their heads in salute. "Since December 11th, the day the person you are looking for cut off the news, until now, no unidentified corpses have been found in this county and neighboring Toyama and Fukui counties. Of course it is up to now." I haven't noticed it until now, and Zhenzi's pain has eased a little. "Really?" Ben Duo thought for a while, "Then the results of other counties will have to wait a while, won't they?" "The issued search request is issued to the whole country and it takes more than two weeks." "That is to say, in the above three counties, since then, no corpses have been found, right?" "No unidentified corpses were found. The rest were claimed by family members, or clear legal procedures were adopted. Three suicides were found in this county, and one death was caused by injury; one was burned to death in Fukui County, and one was suicide; in Toyama County, Two suicides. It seems that in just a few days, many people died unfortunately." The superintendent saw the notepad and sighed: "Four men, four women, half each, it's amazing." What the police officer meant was that the person to be searched for is not yet dead.Honda said: "Well, if you have any clues or find a dead body in the future, please contact us." "Then contact the person who made the request." The superintendent looked at the request, which contained Tokyo's address and Zhenzi's name.Zhenzi glanced at Honda's face, and Honda immediately understood. "That's it. If you find it nearby, please contact me in Kanazawa. Madam will be returning to Tokyo soon. My business card was given to me last time. " "Yes, let's do it that way." The superintendent nodded. After leaving the gate of the police station, Honda stopped. "It seems that we haven't discovered the fact we are worried about, so we can rest assured. Such a thing will never happen...Mr. Uhara must be alive somewhere. Isn't it?" Honda asserted in order to comfort Zhenzi road. "Because there is no cause of death, maybe we are too panicked, maybe Mr. Uhara will suddenly appear in front of us in a day or two." That being said, the reason why her husband disappeared is still unknown.Honda didn't mention it either.Zhenzi hesitated and didn't want to say it.Typically, people procrastinate when it comes to fundamental issues. "We only think about the dark side, don't we? For example, Mr. Uhara took the company's money and ran away. You can consider various situations. But without the facts, everything is dismissed. Besides, Madam doesn't know the circumstances of his disappearance. . Certainly not suicide or homicide.All in all, no reason to worry. " Honda said these words to reassure Zhenzi, and at the same time to convince himself.However, Sadako would not draw such logic.Her heart can't accept it, but she won't sum it up and express her opinion. Sunlight peeks through the clouds.Seeing the setting sun, Honda said: "You're tired today. How about going back to the hotel? I'll find you a quiet hotel if I can. I don't know if it suits you. I'll take you there." Zhenzi thanked him and walked with him.He said that the luggage in the office will be sent back. The hotel is not far from the tramway.Behind you can see the city wall and hills. "The area beyond the city wall is Kenrokuen Garden." In order to be responsible, Honda went to Zhenzi's room on the second floor together, pointed to the scenery outside the window and said.Within five minutes he said: "I still have some work to do, so I'm leaving." "Thank you, I have troubled you in your busy schedule." Zhenzi said with her hands on the tatami. "You're welcome. When I was in Tokyo, Mr. Uhara and I had different positions and were not particularly close, but he was my predecessor. Besides, it is the company's order to find Mr. Uhara's whereabouts. Please don't mind. I always take it as work in the company." Honda himself felt embarrassed, so he left after speaking. There was a stove burning in the room, but Zhenzi didn't want to get in right away.The window was still open, and she looked out. It was getting dark, and only the white walls of the city tower were shining in the twilight.The hills behind are covered with a pine forest, which is truly beautiful. That's Kenrokuen, right?Zhenzi learned it in elementary school and has seen photos many times.But Zhenzi doesn't like to travel, and it doesn't interest him at the moment. The waitress came in with the food. "You're from Tokyo. It's really a country here." The waitress said pleasantly as she put the tea on the stove. "No, it's quite lively here." Zhenzi closed the window and sat down. "How should I put it? It's a small city after all, and the locals are just as domineering and put on airs like people in big cities. But singing and dancing here is very fashionable." "Are you from Tokyo too?" "By the way, I originally lived in Shibuya, and I was evacuated here during the war, so I settled down here." The waitress asked if dinner was coming soon.Zhenzi replied to stay a little longer, she has no appetite at all. After the waitress left, she was left alone, and under the electric light, she saw her own shadow falling on the tatami.Zhenzi felt lonely. Until now, she has always been accompanied by someone, Aoki on the train, and Honda in the future.At this moment, only she is left.She suddenly felt that she was being left alone.She was half timid in this strange land. Strange lands,—that is, indeed.Her husband's footprints have been left here, but it is empty and lonely, without the slightest sense of intimacy.When the newlyweds traveled, they saw the northern sky on the road, and their longings turned into illusions.She even feels that marrying Uhara Kenichi has no sense of reality, it seems to be an illusion. Zhenzi suddenly thought: Is the disappearance of her husband because of having a newly married wife like herself? The waitress shouted from outside the partition: "Someone brought something." The waitress came in with Sadako's suitcase. "Ah—has it been delivered? Is the deliverer still there?" If he is here, Zhenzi wants to thank him.The waitress said: "The one who brought you here just now is still in the gatehouse." Honda brought the luggage by himself, which surprised Zhenzi, who hurried downstairs.Honda stood on the stone slab of the gatehouse. "Oh, I'm really sorry, I always thought you sent someone to deliver it, and I asked you to make a special trip! I'm so sorry." "No. I've finished the work, and I sent it along. If you have any inconvenience, please feel free to tell the hotel." Honda stood politely, Zhenzi understood what he meant, the hotel fee for tonight would be borne by the company. "Thank you. Why don't you come in and sit for a while?" Zhenzi raised his eyes and said. "No, I'm taking my leave now," Honda replied.He considered it inconvenient to visit at night. "Then how can it be?" He went back without even drinking a cup of tea, and Zhenzi couldn't go out with him.There is a reception room next to the gatehouse, no matter what, she wants to invite Honda to sit down. In the six-seat Western-style reception room, there is a row of soft chairs.Sadako asked the waitress to bring a cup of coffee. "Please don't talk too much." Honda sat down on the chair, lowered his head and took out a cigarette. "Are you tired? I'm leaving soon. Aoki-kun sends you my greetings." Zhenzi bowed his head and saluted, thinking of Aoki's cold face. "Aoki-kun will go back tomorrow morning. However, there will be two or three stops on the way.'" Zhenzi knew that this was also to find her husband's whereabouts.Two or three places may be where the company's customers are located. "Really, I have caused trouble for everyone this time. I'm really sorry." Zhenzi apologized again. "No, at this moment, each other. Madam is still the most worried, and she ran out in a few days." Honda refers to newlyweds.Zhenzi couldn't help blushing.Zhenzi said: "Mr. Honda, as you said, the time I spent with Uhara was very short. I don't know what to say or not. I didn't know anything about Uhara before I got married. I don't know much about Uhara after I got married. I understand. What happened this time, I have no idea at all. Mr. Honda, don’t you have any clues? If Uhara is really missing, can you find out the reason?” Zhenzi mentioned that it was inconvenient to say during the day the center of the problem.Honda lowered his eyelids and said: "I have thought about this matter, and I can't think of any clues. I asked my colleagues in the company, and no one could tell what's wrong with Mr. Uhara. He drinks alcohol and has no interest in horse racing or playing mahjong. It is impolite to say it in front of his wife. I have never heard of him having a relationship with a man and a woman. How should I put it? He is a person who works wholeheartedly and has no hobbies.I really don't understand. " Zhen Zizi listened to Honda's words, but couldn't listen.Sliding past me like the wind in my ear.Where does this dissatisfaction come from?I couldn't tell for a while. "Did Uhara hide it by himself? Or..." Or external violence?The sentence came to his lips, but he didn't say it. "It's too early to say that Mr. Uhara made himself disappear. The reason has not been found yet. When we parted on the 11th, he still said that he would come back to the office, and the things on the desk hadn't been sorted yet." yes!Zhenzi remembered that Uhara had sent a postcard from Kanazawa, saying that he would return to Tokyo on the 12th.Therefore, he should start from Kanazawa on the eleventh.However, he went to Takaoka on business that day, and said he would return to Kanazawa on the twelfth, and then back to Tokyo.Takaoka was on his way to Tokyo and had something to do, why didn't he get off the bus halfway?That's much more convenient than going back to Kanazawa and taking the train to Tokyo. When Sadako asked this question, Honda nodded. "You're right. Mr. Uhara went to Takaoka on the 11th and plans to return to Kanazawa the next day. This is a very important matter. Maybe that's the crux of the matter. " "Do you think that the place where Uhara lives now is in Takaoka?" Zhenzi said with a commotion in his heart. "I don't know either. But I don't think so. To tell you the truth, I went to Takaoka to investigate before my wife came. I haven't found any trace of Uhara-san living in Takaoka. And, as As Madam said just now, if you go to Takaoka, then you can go to Tokyo on the way, there is no need to turn back to Kanazawa, I always feel that you are in another place. Why do you have to turn back to Kanazawa and then go to Tokyo?" Hearing this, Sadako remembered that Honda had said that Uhara was lying about going to Takaoka this morning. So, why did Ubara lie?Why don't you tell the people in the office where you live?Only then did Zhenzi find out why he was dissatisfied with Honda's words. "Mr. Honda, I just found out that you went to look for Uhara's body long before I arrived." Zhenzi said.Honda had a look of embarrassment in his eyes. "Is it because Uhara's address is unknown, in other words, there is a secret around Uhara, and while his whereabouts are unknown, he is connected to the corpse?" Honda picked up the tea bowl and put it to his mouth, he was thinking about how to answer.He took a sip of coffee and replied: "I have already called the police, and there will always be clues. Madam, you are too worried. I have said many times, you don't have to worry. I believe that Mr. Uhara will be safe." Zhenzi turned away from looking at him.Honda's reassurance made her feel that her intuition was correct.What is the husband's secret? She moved her gaze to the cream-colored walls.Photos of Kanazawa at night hang on the wall.Zhenzi remembered that she had a picture of her husband in her suitcase. Zhenzi asked Honda to wait for a while, went upstairs and took out two photos from the suitcase, and put them in front of Honda. "These are two photos that are included in Uhara's book. I don't know if they are related. Mr. Honda, can you find any clues from the houses in these two photos?" Honda held the photo in his hand and looked at it for a while.One is a high-end house similar to a cultural residence, and the other is a simple one-story house that looks like a farmhouse, with mountains in the background.Honda tilted his head. "I don't know. I haven't seen it. Is this a photo taken by Uhara-san himself?" ''Probably yes, he has a camera. " "That beautiful house is common in Tokyo, but there is no background, I don't know where it is, maybe it's in other places." Honda thought the same as Sadako. "This farmhouse is obviously a local village, with a small door, a side room at the back, and lattice windows, which are its characteristics. But where? Honda turned the photo over and looked at it. "It was developed by the washing room. You see, 35 and 21 are marked by the washing room. Judging from the age of the paper, it is not a recent photo. I don't know which photo studio Mr. Uhara entrusted to develop it." "I haven't seen it since I got married, so I don't know." "Really? Maybe someone in the company knows, let me ask." "Mr. Honda, by the way, if anyone knows where these two houses are." "Understood." Honda put the photo in his pocket.Although Zhenzi didn't say anything, he could guess that the houses in these two photos were related to Uhara's residence. It was getting late, and Honda stood up to say goodbye. "Thank you." Zhenzi sent Honda out of the door, thinking that he would cause him a lot of trouble in the future. Back in the room, Yan Yu was at a loss and at a loss.It has been tense since this morning, and now it suddenly relaxes.Scene after scene, the past events turned melancholy like distant scenery. Why did my husband go back to Takaoka on November and leave the office, why did he come back to Kanazawa the next day?That, Honda says, may be the crux of the matter.She remembered what Honda said: "I always feel that in other places, why must I go back to Kanazawa and then go to Tokyo?" Zhenzi called the accountant. "Is there a map of Ishikawa? I want to see it." The waitress brought the map. "Do you want to visit? Traveling should be very interesting. However, the weather is bad now. If it is spring, you can go to the Noto Peninsula." Zhenzi just smiled. She spread out the map to look at it.There are very few branch lines from Kanazawa.There is the Nanao Line going to the northern tip of the Noto Peninsula.The line divides at Tsubata, not far from Kanazawa.Only express trains stop at Tsubata Station.Because it is the closest to Kanazawa, it should be taken into consideration. In addition, there is also a branch line from Nishi-Kanazawa Station, along the Saichuan River, and down to the Hakusan Valley.There is also a branch line from Kanazawa to Hebei Gao, and the terminal station is Suxia.There are also two private railways running along the coast towards Onominato. There are four branches in total. However, in addition to the branch line, there is also a main line that runs in the opposite direction from Tokyo and goes to Fukuoka.At that station, non-express trains do not stop, because it is very close to Kanazawa, and you can take ordinary trains to it. In addition to trains, there are also buses, extending in all directions.Today, when the traffic is developed, if we simply consider Kanazawa Station as the center, where is the husband's destination on the 11th?Zhenzi couldn't limit him. Zhenzi closed the map and closed his eyes. On the 11th, Uhara Kenichi planned to return to Kanazawa, but there was no news of where he went.That's all. Sadako thought of the strange disappearances she had often read about in the newspapers in the past.A young scholar suddenly disappeared on his way to work.A company employee went out for a walk and never came back.Another teenager was out playing and disappeared on his way home.The family has no clue as to the reason for the disappearance.There are many such cases across the country, and she has read about them in a weekly magazine. The disappearance of Kenichi Uhara is probably one of them.There is no reason.He didn't have the will to disappear or commit suicide. He also said that when he came back to the Kanazawa office the next day, the things in the drawers hadn't been sorted out. However, for no reason, Sadako couldn't believe it.At least there are huge undercurrents invisible to the naked eye.In terms of space, this incident originated from the unknown residence of Uhara, and in terms of time, it happened not long after he married himself. Zhenzi thought of this and asked for two long-distance calls to Tokyo. First connected to Uhara's older brother's house.It was my sister-in-law who answered the phone. "Sister-in-law? I'm part of it." "Well," replied the sister-in-law loudly, "how's it going?" "I haven't figured it out yet. People from these companies are helping to find it." "It's really troublesome, don't you have any clues at all?" the sister-in-law said worriedly. "The police have been called. Please help the police to find out. Have you heard anything from there?" "No, no. Your brother is worried. He is not at home now. He said that if necessary, he will also go to Kanazawa." "Well, if my brother's job allows, then please." "Okay, I see, I'll tell him. But, Zhenzi, you don't have to worry too much. Anyway, there will always be clues in the future. It's really troublesome." The sister-in-law talked incoherently and hung up the phone. It was her duty to call her eldest brother-in-law and his wife to report the situation.As for letting the eldest brother-in-law come to Kanazawa, it is also a psychological burden. Second, she called her natal family. The mother may also be worried, but Zhenzi thinks it is necessary for her mother to understand Uhara Kenichi, not as a relative, but as a third party.She wanted to ask: "Is marrying a bride the cause of disappearance?" This is exactly what Sadako had foreseen.This is difficult to understand, but it must be understood. The phone rang and the operator said Tokyo was connected.Zhenzi shouted: "Hello, hello, I'm Banne Sadako..." It was his mother's voice that answered.Hear it clearly, just like in Tokyo city. "Mom, I'm Zhenzi." "Hey," said my mother, "you're in Kanazawa? That's what the operator said." "Yes, I'm in Kanazawa, I didn't tell you before I left." Mother heard the phone call from an unexpected place, and asked intermittently: "That's good. Are you with Kenichi?" "No, just myself." "Oh, he's out." "It's not going out, he wasn't there in the first place." Mother didn't understand what it meant, so she was silent.The silence made Zhenzi feel the distance between Kanazawa and Tokyo, and she continued to shout: Hello!Hello! "Hey, what's going on?" "Xianyi left here on the 11th, and there has been no news since then. I came here because I was worried. I asked the company, but I still don't know where he went. I also called Uncle Qingshan's house." "Uh? - Mother fell silent on the phone. The mother's distressed expression appeared in Zhenzi's eyes. "But don't worry, mother, you don't mind either." "But, this is a big deal, what should I do?" Mother's voice was trembling. "I will tell you the details when I return to Tokyo. There is one more thing I would like to ask you." "What's up?" "Learn as much as possible about Xianyi." This..." "The present and the past. For example, we only know about Xianyi's school; we are now working in Company A. Other than that, we don't know anything about the past.'" "But, this..." Mother almost didn't say it, what's the use of it? yes!Generally, when proposing marriage, the main information is the place of origin, school, current working environment, relatives, and friends.Especially the relationship with women, as well as character and so on.As for what he did after leaving school, he will not strictly explore it.Focus on the present, not the past.Marriage is for a new life in the future. When proposing marriage, keep a respectful distance from the past. "Whether this matter has anything to do with Xianyi's disappearance, I don't know yet, but it's always good to know." "Understood? From whom?" "I think Aoyama's elder brother knows him best. I can't ask him directly. Maybe he's hiding something. So it's best to ask Mr. Saeki, the matchmaker." "Mr. Saeki is only related to Company A, and he won't know the details." Mother said. The mother's frowning face seemed to be right in front of her eyes.Yes, then know as much as you know.The company should keep Xianyi's resume, let him take a look, and now I'm at a loss. " Zhenzi said without hesitation. This should be done before marriage.But before marriage and after marriage, the words of the matchmaker are different.Some things, before the marriage is established, the matchmaker will not say it, maybe after the marriage.This is not to say that the Japanese are cunning in conspiring, but that they do something to facilitate the marriage. Mother seems to have made sense. "Okay then, I'll ask Mr. Saeki. But, it's really annoying, Kenichi has gotten to this point, and you can't come back to Tokyo right away." yes!In the current state, it is difficult to estimate the day when he will return to Tokyo. "No, I won't stay long. The company is doing everything possible to find it. Anyway, before I go back, I will ask Mr. Saeki and send an express letter." After finishing speaking, Zhenzi suddenly thought that it seemed that her husband would never hear from her again.This seems to be a premonition that cannot be explained with reason. "How is the situation in Qingshan?" asked the mother. "I went to the phone just now. My brother is not at home, and my sister-in-law said that my brother might come here." "That's a good thing, if my brother can go, it can also give you courage." Mother said a few words about Xianyi, asked for the phone number, and hung up.The sound of mother smoking and swallowing always echoed in Zhenzi's ears. Zhenzi was at a loss for a moment, at a loss.When her mother's voice disappeared, she thought that Tokyo was so far away, and she was alone in a foreign country hundreds of kilometers away, and everything around her was approaching her.She didn't move, as if she was feeling the mood at this moment. In the distance came the sound of ballads and drums.Zhenzi finally stood up.Open the window.The dark mountains are right in front of them, and the city walls on the top of the mountains are also dark. They are all the same black, but they are clearly distinguished.Sparse lights came up the slope.Ballads echoed in the night. "Excuse me! The waitress opened the partition and came in, knelt at the threshold and said: "I'll lay the bedding for you." Zhenzi closed the window, walked to the wall subconsciously, and watched the waitress' movements. The waitress knelt on the tatami and stretched out the quilt with skillful movements.The waitress was wearing a gorgeous kimono with a large floral obi, and the silver thread embroidered with flowers shone in the electric light when viewed from the back. Zhenzi looked at it, as if his eyes penetrated into the depths of his mind.She couldn't tell herself.In short, from the figure of the waitress who made the bed and folded the quilt, I smelled another woman's body odor. "Please rest." The waitress put the kettle, tea cups and ashtray by the pillow, and walked out of the partition.At this time, Zhenzi realized clearly. ——There is a woman next to her husband, a woman he doesn't know, and she was by his side a long time ago. Things that are vague in the depths of people's consciousness will not be clear for a while. Only when they are stimulated by the outside world will they become concrete thoughts, and then think and analyze.This is how the "analysis" in Sadako's consciousness begins. On the night of the wedding trip, the husband caresses the new wife.It was a time of suffocating confusion, and husbands confided warm words to their wives.All this is still in Zhenzi's memory at this moment.A husband swears to his wife that he will be faithful to her and that he will make her happy.She also thought this marriage was a happy one, and she didn't think her words at that time were hypocritical. However, Sadako herself lacked a sense of intimacy.No matter how enthusiastic the other party's words were, I didn't accept his intimacy. In the hotel visited, in the bathroom, the husband looked at his wife's body with greedy eyes and said: "How beautiful is your young body!" The husband showed a satisfied expression, no, really, he really said so. At this time, Zhenzi felt who he was comparing with.There was indeed such a look in her husband's eyes.This made Sadako uneasy.Later, he said more than once, I like you, I like you. "Your lips are so soft, like marsh mallow!" At that time, Zhenzi was taken aback, and her husband compared himself with another woman.Her husband's hot breath was on her cheek, but she felt no intimacy. With whom?Zhenzi feels that her husband is comparing with the women in the past.They are all thirty-six years old, even if they have such a "past", it is not surprising.However, it is intolerable to compare yourself with people from the past, but all this is vague.Therefore, Zhenzi is in a state of unknown to the whole situation of her husband. However, this is not the case now.The women he was comparing were not women of the past.This woman is alive somewhere now, and she has something to do with her husband's life.This relationship existed long before Sadako and Kenichi Uhara got married.These impressions are intermittent and sometimes manifested in the eyes of the husband.On the train on the wedding trip, Zhenzi saw the scenery of Fujimi Plateau from the window, and whispered: "It's so beautiful!" Uhara opened the weekly magazine, but didn't read it, as if he was thinking of other things.The eyes are absent-minded. Since then, Zhenzi has encountered such a state more than once.When Zhenzi leaves her husband's side and returns to him, she often looks like this.His face was very unhappy, as if he was indulging in some kind of unspeakable thoughts, and his expression was in a trance.Do men often have this expression?Zhenzi thought he was thinking about work, but now that he thinks about it, that's not the case. Her husband's eyes always seem to have something on his mind, which is very gloomy.He is not thinking about work.He is missing a certain woman.At this moment, Zhenzi thought of the long cigarette ash that her husband held in his finger. Where is this woman?It's hard to imagine.My husband has lived in Kanazawa as the Hokuriku Regional Director of Company A for the past two years.In one month, I spend 20 days in Kanazawa and 10 days in Tokyo.In two years, living in Kanazawa accounted for two-thirds.It is natural to think that a man is in a relationship with a woman at least two-thirds of the time. Zhenzi herself has also been confirmed. When she decided to get married, she proposed to visit Kanazawa, where Uhara lived. She wanted to go to Hokuriku, which she had never been to, where her husband lived.But Uhara refused.He proposes a wedding trip along the central line.On the train, the husband asked Sadako: "This trip, you want to go to the Hokuriku side, don't you? But it's not as beautiful there." He smoked a cigarette, making the windows cloudy. "You live in the city, dreaming of the gloomy vision of Hokuriku. But, poetically speaking, there are much more mountains in Shinano and Kiso. You can go to Hokuriku anytime, next time." Hara said to comfort Zhenzi's heart. Now I understand why Uhara didn't take his wife to Kanazawa.Because there was another woman of his, who was living a life without telling Zhenzi. Of course, a single trip will not expose it.However, psychologically Uhara was unwilling to take Sadako to that place.If the husband has another woman, where does the husband live with this woman? where is it?In a place my husband didn't want to mention, maybe a family on the bank of the Saichuan River.Where exactly?No one knows.The husband never told his colleagues.However, the husband must have a life that Zhenzi does not know. On the afternoon of December 11, after my husband and Honda broke up, I don't know where they went.He explained that he would return to Kanazawa and then go to Tokyo tomorrow.Where did it go?Honda had no idea.Did he go to the woman?Must go.This imagining is almost real.Covered by the quilt, Sadako's eyes traveled across the gloomy landscape of Hokuriku.She saw the figure of the woman.Under the wide sky, two small figures walked on the road lined with rows of low bungalows. The husband disappeared somewhere.Sadako can't imagine her husband disappearing into a secret life.