In autumn, through a matchmaker, Sadako Banne and Kenichi Uhara got engaged. Zhenzi was twenty-six years old, and Uhara was thirty-six years old.The ages are a good match, but from the society's point of view, marriage seems to be a bit late. "You are still a bachelor at the age of thirty-six, what happened in the past?" When proposing marriage, Zhenzi's mother was most concerned. Maybe something happened. It seems unreasonable to be thirty-six years old and have never touched a woman.But the matchmaker said absolutely not.It seems to be lying.As a man, too cowardly.I have been working for many years, and those who are in the world of men think so.In fact, men who have no relationship with women at all will be looked down upon.Women find men by feeling.There is little sense of cleanliness towards such a man, but a feeling of weakness and incompetence. , Zhenzi doesn't care whether a man has had a relationship with a woman in the past.It is said that he once lived with a woman.As long as you break up now, you don't have to pursue it anymore.In short, don't leave any future troubles, anything will do.

If Zhenzi was younger, she would definitely not have such thoughts.Secondly, if you have not been in love two or three times so far, you may be more strict in choosing a partner.Age and experience have made her mature and tolerant. In the company, Zhenzi can be regarded as beautiful.Such evaluations are more or less malicious among girlfriends, but men specifically praise some of her characteristics. Unfathomably unsuccessful several times in love, some of them were voluntarily let go by Zhenzi.Because the other party is not an outstanding man.In addition, when someone proposed marriage to her, she happened to be in a relationship, so she had to decline.When she was not in love, no one proposed marriage to her.In this way, I am always in a state of being unable to achieve high and low.

At this moment, someone introduced Kenichi Uhara to her. Uhara is the director of the local office of A advertising company in Hokuriku.The matchmaker is Saeki-san, who is a friend of Sadako's late father and has business dealings with Company A. The matchmaker said that Company A is well-known in Tokyo as an advertising agency.But Sadako and her mother knew next to nothing about the ad agency business. Mr. Saeki spread out the newspaper, pointed it to Changzi and her mother, and said: "You see, this newspaper is densely packed with advertisements. The newspaper office cannot continue to operate on the basis of reporting fees alone. Its funds are almost entirely dependent on advertising revenue. But the newspaper office has many things to do, and it is impossible to deal with customers directly, so it is There are middlemen, and this is the advertising agency industry. The leading advertising agency in Japan is Company D. In addition to newspapers, it also represents advertisements in magazines, radio, and television. Company A only acts as an agent for advertisements in newspapers, and its turnover ranks second and third.

The staff of the company, including the local government, is about 300 people.In short, it is first-class in the advertising industry.Uhara-kun is the director of the company's local office in Hokuriku. He is an honest, reliable and promising young man. " I have a general understanding of Uhara Kanichi's career.For a layman, it's not as easy to understand as home appliance sales, pharmaceutical manufacturing, etc., but they do know a thing or two. Mr. Saeki said that Uhara’s education was a dropout from university, but the reason for dropping out was that the war broke out, and he returned from China two years after the war ended.After that, he worked in two or three occupations, and joined Company A in six years.

"Being the head of the local office for six years is considered excellent. The office is in Kanazawa. "Then after getting married, you have to live in Kanazawa?" Mother asked. "No, there's no need for that. Uhara-kun now comes back to Tokyo ten days a month. Because the head office is located in Tokyo, as long as there is business, it must be negotiated in Tokyo.Therefore, he is willing to start a family in Tokyo. "Mr. Saeki said. "So, the doctor is not at home for twenty days in a month, it seems too much." The mother was a little worried. "No, I heard that Uhara-kun will be transferred back from Kanazawa recently. Since he went to Kanazawa, the head office has tried to transfer him back to work two or three times, but he said to wait, so it has been delayed until now."

"Then why?" "It's probably a business matter. To be clear, the Hokuriku area is a rural area, and there are no big advertisers, so there is no benefit. Uhara-kun hopes to work harder, since he has been working in the area for a while , always want to make some achievements. This is human nature. c In fact, as long as he works hard, his grades will improve steadily." Mr. Saeki said again. "Therefore, if the head office transfers him back this time, he will take this opportunity to return to Tokyo to get married. You said that your husband travels a lot, but that is only temporary. "Mr. Saeki said with a smile to Sadako who was sitting next to his mother.

Blind dates are routinely held at Kabuki Theater.Mr. Saeki, who was short in stature, brought Kenichi Uhara to him that day.He was tall and well-proportioned, and although he was thirty-six, he looked younger.Maybe because of the high cheekbones, but older than expected.At first glance, his brunette features gave the impression that he was neither over thirty-six nor under thirty-six.When we met for the first time, Kenichi Uhara was not very energetic, rather than calm, it was better to say that he had a calm and stable feeling.But sometimes his expression is the opposite, appearing cheerful and bright.Zhenzi's expression towards Kenichi Uhara was complicated, and he couldn't help feeling a kind of intuition.

During the meal, Zhenzi's mother asked: "Is Kanazawa a good place? I haven't been there once." "No, that place doesn't mean much, it has a dark, heavy feel to it all year round." Uhara's answer seems to be saying that because of work, there is no other way, so he has to endure it.He fiddled with the fork, his eyes fell on the plate, and the melancholy brought by the air of the Hokuriku region appeared between his brows. After agreeing to the marriage, Zhenzi resigned from the company she had worked for for many years. The wedding ceremony took place in mid-November.

During this period, Kenichi Uhara asked the company for a week off.At the wedding banquet, the company's director and sales manager delivered a speech: "... Uhara-kun is a capable and promising young man, and he is one of the most expected employees in our company. Some people may think that this is an old cliché. Please listen patiently. I am Haruhara-kun's boss. As a boss Gossiping in front of everyone, as if I would guarantee that Uhara-kun will continue to raise his salary. Then Mrs. Qing, don’t worry. Because I’m not saying the old formulaic congratulations.” Speaking of this, the guests all laughed. "Tonight, I saw the bride for the first time. I thought I was a failure. I was amazed at the bride's rationality, beauty and dignity. Today, Uhara-kun is thirty-six years old. For all temptations... Is there, I don't know." It is very detailed, and I have been patient and waiting until today, and I understand the reason. As you all know, the business of our company is to do everything possible to persuade advertisers to submit articles to us. This is a job that requires patience. Uhara In order to have the opportunity to obtain such a beautiful wife, you have endured the pain of celibacy until today, this is due to the influence of our company's work, and I am proud of it."

The guests smiled and listened to him.His words also reached the ears of Zhenzi who kept her head down.At first hearing, it was just the usual congratulatory speech at wedding banquets, she still listened with a sense of loss, but it was not until later that she felt that his words meant something else. Both of Uhara Kenichi's parents died, and his brother and sister-in-law live in Qingshan.My elder brother looks completely different from him, with a fat round face and a childish look.He works as a section chief in a commercial company, and likes to drink; his wife, Zhenzi's sister-in-law, is as thin as a stick, with only a pair of symmetrical eyes and high cheekbones, who would be mistaken for her and Kenichi Uhara as siblings .

Uhara, who has been living with his brother-in-law until now, has rented a new apartment in Shibuya in order to marry Sadako.The new house is located on a high slope, and when you open the window, you can see Tokyo as if it is sinking in the sea. At night, it is brightly lit, which is even more beautiful. From proposing marriage to holding the wedding, Zhenzi has not had the opportunity to take a walk alone with Uhara.Even if there is such an idea, it cannot be realized.Uhara spends most of his time in Kanazawa, not Tokyo.Zhenzi is not as yearning for the relationship before marriage as before.Sadako is very satisfied with Kenichi Uhara who has only met once. There is still a distance between this and actively liking him.First of all, Zhenzi knows too little about Uhara Kenichi, only knows where he works; what kind of work he does; and lives with his brother and sister-in-law.Other than that, nothing is known. However, with these concepts alone, she seems to have understood Kenichi Uhara.Not only to Uhara, she thought that the so-called marriage partners were all combined under the understanding of Wu Mo.For women, it is the ignorance of the object that is attractive. After getting married, slowly get to know the unknown part, relieve the fear, and then the charm will become normal. ——Shenko thought so. Sadako wants to go on a wedding trip to Hokuriku.In this way, you can immediately understand the unknown part of Kenichi Uhara.Kenichi Hara works in Hokuriku.She had an urge to see the land.Lurking in her consciousness was a vision of a gloomy sky and a rough North Sea. The matchmaker Mr. Saeki conveyed Kenichi Uhara's wish to go to Atami or Hakone as much as possible, and as far as Kansai. "I'm really not interested in Hokuriku. Maybe it's because I stay there all the time. It's rare to have such an opportunity. I still want to go to a place that is a little more lively." As Sadako listened, she couldn't help remembering how Uhara Ken frowned when he mentioned the melancholy clouds of the northern country. However, Sadako pushed back, saying that he had no interest in going to Hakone, Kansai, and hoped to go to Shinshu, go around Mt. Kiso, go to Nagoya, and then return to Tokyo.It is autumn and the red leaves are in full bloom. Although there was such a small dispute, after the wedding banquet, they immediately boarded the second-class train from Shinjuku as planned. It was late at night when the train arrived in Kofu.The hotel had been booked in advance, and the foreman had already greeted them at the station with a lantern. The foreman called the car.After the two got into the car, the foreman closed the door and bowed to them.When Zhenzi saw the foreman, he felt as if he was standing on a crossroad in his life. The hotel is in Tangcun.If it is daytime, you can see Mt. Futu from the front.The hotel where they stayed had a large garden.It was already dark now, and only the nearby lawn and gravel road could be seen. As soon as the waitress walked away, Kenichi Uhara approached Sadako, put his arms around her neck and kissed her for the first time.Uhara, who had been calm and composed just now on the train, suddenly became younger and full of enthusiasm. "Come on, the waitress will be here soon." Sadako pushed Uhara's tightly kissed lips away and said.In order to calm his shortness of breath, Uhara walked towards the sofa. When the waitress came to tell them that they could take a bath, Zhenzi suggested that they should wash their own. "Why?" Tsuruhara asked in surprise. Zhenzi was afraid that the waitress would eavesdrop behind the partition, so she replied in a low voice, "Just this time." People said that she had beautiful eyes, and she always looked up from the bottom. Over time, she developed a habit and became a major feature of her. There was music playing in the lobby of the hotel, and Uhara invited her to dance, but Zhenzi went anyway despite not being very interested.There are already several couples of young men and women in their twenties and thirties dancing at a fast pace in the hall, as if they were a tour group organized by the company. Sadako stood against the wall for a while, then smiled and said to Uhara: "Let's jump!" Uhara danced better than expected.They danced one song after another.While dancing, Zhenzi felt that she was unconsciously dragging out for a long time. Zhenzi was moved to tears for the first time. After breakfast, drive to Shengxian Gorge.Crowds of people admiring the red leaves.On narrow roads, the car cannot move. Kenichi Uhara and yesterday did not change at all.His expression was serene, his manner calm and graceful.It is very consistent with the age of thirty-six.And now Sadako understands the part that doesn't belong to Kenichi Uhara.In just one night, a corner of the unknown collapsed, and maybe Zhenzi himself did the same.But the man's expression seems to be more peaceful than the woman's. Uhara Ken is more at ease with Zhenzi.Why rest assured?Because there is no "past" left in Zhenzi's body Mark of.Judging from his expression, his foothold as a husband is much wider than before.On the surface, Uhara Kenichi has not changed from yesterday, but his calmness shows the arrogance of a husband. "Is this the first time you've come to Shosenkyo?" Uhara asked kindly, looking at the red leaves growing on the stream. "Yeah." Zhenzi nodded in response. "Really? That's great." The husband nodded with a satisfied smile. If it was in the past, Zhenzi would have been bored with this way of coaxing children.Although I still feel disgusted now, I have no choice but to restrain my feelings towards my husband's childlike arrogance.She has become his wife without knowing it.When she realized that she was acting like a baby, the relationship between the newlyweds had already begun to harmonize. Depart from Kofu in the afternoon.The scenery of Yatsugatake mountain range slowly moves in the window.Uhara leaned on the window frame while holding his hand, looking out at the scenery outside.Coming here, it is even more desolate, and the fallen leaves in the forest pave the ground.From the side, Uhara's cheekbones are protruding, and there are fine wrinkles at the corners of his eyes.Zhenzi thought to himself: No, this person is already thirty-six years old. No matter how long the relationship is, the eyes of lovers are different from the eyes of husband and wife after all. Zhenzi doesn't know what kind of eyes she uses to look at Uhara.When I thought of this, I felt my body start to deteriorate unknowingly, and I was very scared. Uhara turned his face and asked, "What's the matter?" He found Zhenzi watching him. "nothing." Zhenzi blushed. "What's the matter?" The tone of this sentence seemed to contain everything that happened last night. The train surpassed Qingnong, and its horsepower was fully increased in the Fujimi area.On the slope of the plateau, rows of red star items and blue roofs move back. "It's beautiful!" Zhenzi said softly. Uhara glanced over there, and immediately spread out the weekly magazine on his lap.He didn't read it, as if thinking of something else. He finally put down the weekly magazine, as if he had made up his mind, and said to Zhenzi: "I heard that you want to go to Hokuriku on this trip, don't you?" He lit a cigarette, and the smoke made him squint his eyes. "Yeah." Cheng Zi nodded. "Blame me for being capricious, I really want to have a look there." "It's not as pretty over there." Sadako felt that he was comparing the beauty of the Fujimi Plateau in front of him with Hokuriku.After Uhara finished speaking, he took a puff of smoke. He sounded like he was refusing.As if to say, that place is enough to see, so don't go there.The smoke from his exhalation hit the glass, obscuring the view from the car window. Zhenzi wondered why Uhara hated Hokuriku so much.But this is not incomprehensible.Because who wants to go to the place where they usually work for a wedding trip.Uhara has been stuck there for two years.Twenty days in a month are in Kanazawa, and the remaining ten days are back in Tokyo.It's almost settled in Kanazawa.It is not difficult to understand why Kenichi Uhara chose another place for his wedding trip.Even if Hakone, Atami or Kansai are too ordinary and uninteresting, they are still much better than the desolate and deserted Hokuriku. However, Kenichi Uhara considered his wife's wishes and wanted to see the place where her husband worked, which is beyond reproach.But why do I have to persist? I feel that I have distanced myself from Zhenzi in thought. "You grew up in the city, dreaming of the gloomy vision of Hokuriku, didn't you?" Perhaps he had realized that Zhenzi was unhappy, and asked with a smile on her face. "When it comes to poetry, there are more letters from Nong and Kiso Summit. As for Hokuriku, you can go anytime, how about going back next time? " Uhara comforted his wife.Zhenzi recalled the scene when she acted like a baby to her mother when she was a child and wanted to buy this or that. When a wide lake appeared on the left side of the car window, Tsuruhara stood up and unloaded the luggage of two people from the rack. Zhenzi reached out to pick it up. Uhara held a luggage in one hand and said: "No." "I'm sorry." Zhenzi said.She apologized for her capriciousness just now, but it is unknown whether Uhara understood.In fact, feeling self-willed shows that there is still a gap between the two parties.But I can't help but think so. Arrive at the visiting station, the foreman of the hotel will come to greet you. "By car? It's only seven or eight minutes away on foot, how about it?" the foreman asked after taking the luggage. "Yeah, it's not too far to walk there, but if you have luggage, you'd better take a car." Uhara replied.Judging by his tone, he seemed to have been here before. The hotel is a little far from the shore of the lake, and you can't see the lake when you open the windows.The small garden is right under the nose.The grounds are walled off and next door is another hotel.Zhenzi thought he could see the lake, but he was a little disappointed. "All the guests say that, it would be great if we could see the lake here." The waitress said while pouring tea.The room was quite nice. "Okay! Let's go to the lake for a walk later." Uhara said. The waitress walked out of the room.Uhara walked up to Zhenzi who was sitting, knelt down and kissed.Uhara's lips were thick and hard, and he sucked them very hard.It's the same as what happened last night.Zhenzi's body was about to fall down, with one hand resting on the tatami.But Uhara still insisted on living with her. So far, it's not that Zhenzi has never been in love, but it's the first time that she has been suppressed by a man like this. Uhara behaved relatively quietly in public, but in the closed world, his behavior caused Zhenzi to be embarrassed. She couldn't help thinking that her husband was a thirty-six-year-old man after all.Even so, shouldn't physical love be so intense.She couldn't figure it out, but she wasn't unhappy either. As dusk came, the water on the lake was gloomy.The wind is blowing, the lake has waves, and the willows on the shore are swaying. The cruise ship was still swimming, and there was a sound broadcast from a loudspeaker, and the clouds stretched to one side like a fault.In the gaps in the low clouds, the sunlight was torn into strips, shining brightly, but gradually losing its whiteness. Under the clouds, the branches of the mountains are blue and black, and they are connected together. Kenichi Uhara pointed to the seam of the ridgelines on the front and said to Zhenzi: "The estuary of Tenryu River is over there, and the high mountain on this side is Yansu Peak. In the middle are Spike Peak and Gun Peak. Today there are clouds. Can't see." Low clouds hang over the top of Yansu Peak.Zi stared at the overlapping clouds slowly expanding to the four bureaus. The area of ​​the cloud cover is much larger than that of the lake, and it is gray and presses on the lake. The end of the stretch of clouds is Hokuriku, and the tarnished cloud color symbolizes the gloomy Northland.Ten miles, maybe twenty miles away, there are small towns with low houses, plains, and rough seas.Heko thought of all kinds of scenery, and imagined the image of her husband who lived there twenty days a month. "What are you looking at?" the husband asked.His eyes seemed to be peeping into Zhenzi's heart. "Standing in such a place will catch a cold. Go back to the hotel and take a shower." Uhara himself turned around first and took a step.At this time, Zhenzi didn't say anything. The cramped bathroom is brightly lit.The tiles at the bottom can be seen through the clear water in the bath.Zhenzi was soaking in the bathtub, and the overly bright light seemed to be teasing her, causing her to braid herself. Uhara punched his head with water, and his wet hair hung down on his forehead.In the crevices of the hair, the pair of lively eyes stared at his wife's body. "Your body is so young and beautiful." The husband said contentedly. "No, don't look at me like that." Zhenzi said, retreating into the corner. "Really, you are so beautiful." The husband added. Zhenzi covered her face, wondering if her husband was comparing his body with hers?There is naturally a difference between thirty-six and twenty-six.But there was no envy in her husband's eyes and tone.Only then did Zhenzi realize, did her husband compare the women in the past with the land?It was indeed that tone.The husband's past is ignorant to Zhenzi, and the unknown things about her husband will gradually become known in her future life, and only this part will remain until the end. After eating and drinking tea, Zhenzi said: "When I was watching the lake just now, I thought of Hokuriku." She thought of her husband watching her at that time. "Yeah! You're always looking in that direction," the husband said softly. "If you really want to see that place, I'll take you there when I'm not working.'" Then, he changed the position of the crossed knee, and said again: To tell you the truth, I have been transferred to the Tokyo head office, and I will not go to Kanazawa in the future. " "I heard from Mr. Saeki about this matter, did it happen so quickly?" Zhenzi raised his eyes. "Yes, after returning to Tokyo after this trip, maybe the transfer order will come down. If you go to Kanazawa again, it will be the transfer of work." "You've been there a long time, haven't you?" "It's been two full years, how time flies." The husband smoked a cigarette with his mouth in his mouth, and the smoke made him squint his eyes.His expression was the same as on the train, he seemed to be thinking about other things, and his expression was in a trance. Sanxian and minor tunes came from the wing room. The husband stood up and said: "Tired." As he spoke, he looked down at Zhenzi, then suddenly walked up to her and hugged her. "I like you." He said several times in a row. "Your lips are so soft, like a marshmallow". The husband said appreciatively.Zhenzi thought, he was comparing himself with another woman from the past. A week after returning to Tokyo, Sadako went to Ueno Station to see her husband off to Kanazawa. The station at night is crowded. As he said, after the transfer order, he was transferred back to the head office.He went to Kanazawa with his successor.The successor was younger than him. "My name is Yoshio Honda. Congratulations." He greets Zhenzi.Zhenzi thought he was referring to marriage, but later realized that he was congratulating her husband on his promotion. Honda is a young man with thick eyebrows and big eyes. My husband said last night that he would be back in a week after handing over the work. It was almost time to check the ticket. My husband bought some souvenirs at the canteen at the station, such as seaweed and cakes. He bought a total of five packs and held them in his hands. "This is the last time, I have to say goodbye to my friends." The husband said to Zhenzi. Zhenzi nodded with a smile.I thought why buy it at the station kiosk, let me tell you earlier, I can go to the department store to buy it yesterday. Before the departure, the three of them were talking on the platform. Honda was very clever, and got on the train first with a small bottle of whiskey.The interior of the carriage is brightly lit, gorgeous and peaceful, just like a woman who has put on makeup before going out. "It's getting late, so be careful. Get off the tram and take a taxi back." Her husband cared for her carefully. "Well, wait for you to come back earlier." After Zhenzi finished speaking, he added another sentence. "I'll take this train next time too?" "Yeah." The husband smiled, but frowned. "During my vacation next summer." The start bell rang, and the husband turned around and got into the car. Her husband and Yoshio Honda poked their heads out of the car window.Both of them smiled and waved to Zhenzi.After a while, the train went away with these two smiling faces. Zhenzi stood there, looking at the train going away until all the people around had left.The red, green and green signal lights flickered on and off in the dark.Sadako felt a sudden emptiness.Only then did she realize, could this be the relationship between husband and wife? This was the last time she saw her husband.